Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
I love non fiction. The Master & His Emissary by Ian McGilchrist is ideal, a fascinating study of the brain and how it works. If you are interested in creativity it’s a gold mine. Sadly I can’t say the same for fiction. Of course I SHOULD appreciate the works of great authors but impatience kicks in, pages gets…
it's so easy to take our greatest strengths for granted simply because they come naturally to us. and conversely, to normalize behavior that simply conforms to our surroundings. without stopping to ask the hard questions - to quiet the constant noise begging us to react to it, to be fiercely autonomous, it's easy to…
ahh "an artwork is a pure idea attached to an existing rationale. an artwork for the art world is any idea attached to an invoice." quote by Virgil Abloh. the above quote resonates with me recently because the conversation around NFT art can easily fit into the category of any idea attached to an invoice. yet there…
Boa noite. Hoje eu acordei de madrugada pra me despedir do meu companheiro que foi curtir o carnaval de Salvador. Voltei a dormir e acordei algumas horas depois pra levar minhas doguinhas no passeio. Estava com muita saudades de levar elas pra sair, de torcer por xixis e cocos saudáveis, por forçar interação delas,…
My hands traversed her thighs, she had tattoos. A lot of them. I had none and didn’t plan on getting one either. “You’re pretty, you know.“ She doesn’t believe it. I wish I had told her more often how beautiful she was. I wish I held her face and showered her with kisses. We met during turbulent times. There to talk…
Have been wanting to cultivate a daily journaling habit but haven’t succeeded yet. Let’s see how this goes. A lazy Sunday as it gets, just back from the gym and realised the right elbow injury from yesterday’s badminton was a real thing. Resting out from gym for a day and from badminton/tennis for the rest of…
It is difficult to really 'enjoy' coffee at home. Compare having coffee at home v/s having coffee in a cafe. The latter is always a more enriching experience. Why? Expectations and context-setting. You go to a cafe and see people enjoying coffee. You keep your phone on the side, take a sip and actually 'feel' what…
Do you ever have one of those moments when the storm clouds part, clarity strikes and for a split second, you are able to join the dots? It happened to me yesterday reading an excellent long form piece by John Kolko on Abductive Reasoning. (http://www.jonkolko.com/writingAbductiveThinking.php) No, I hadn't heard of it…
What if what I thought was wrong My perspective aren’t the right one The thought process is not the strongest one How do I forge it within myself To have intelligence I need to be hardworking and keep thinking on it Work on the details Been too lazy to think And that becomes a habit Even the type of bikes, the roads,…
somewhere between platonic and romantic there is you & me. i don't see your eyes when the lights are off. take my hand-- we dance. romance?
“we have survived so many fires, i can no longer tell if we are alive or simply burning.” — Pavana Reddy Letting go is difficult. Of people, dreams or your old self. People who need help often look a lot like people who don’t need help. They seem in control, always with a positive word. Everyone we come across has…
I'm unconvinced astrological signs mean anything, but I think the time of year that you're born does have an impact on your life. Children born around holidays get different levels of attention than kids born nowhere near holidays. They could get less because everyone is paying attention to the holiday, maybe more if…
Nowadays, I find myself overthinking what I write because so many eyes are observing. Judgment and fear arise, and I end up not posting at all. Writing for myself has become a liberating experience—I can pour all my thoughts into a post and then continue with my day, feeling relieved and lighter. This hesitation…
Trusting your capabilities when you don't have systems is what imposter syndrome might feel like. Because When you don't have systems, you end up being lazy, lethargic and looking for perfection and constantly thinking about how to make things better but you don't have the infra or you're not trying hard enough to…
Hoje precisei ir aos correios. Toda vez que vou lá, caio com a mesma atendente que cavuca qualquer gancho para falar mal de Lula e pessoas correlatas. Estava com uma blusa escrita COP e ela se fez de desentendida: cop é um evento esportivo? Eu, já esperta, disse que não. Ao que ela completou fingindo surpresa: aaaaah,…
Historically, overly-extractive business models eventually face pressure from the public, shareholders, and regulators. Once-unstoppable cigarette companies have been forced to pay the public health costs of their products and fund billion-dollar anti-smoking marketing campaigns. The market conditions for renewable…
There is a word in Hindi called 'theherav.' It comes from the Hindi word theherna(to stop), but theherav doesn't mean to stop. It means something related to a person's character that allows them to feel collected most of the time. You know how many people make being clumsy their personality? A person with theherav…
my writing process is... weird. this week, i knew i had to write a pretty important proposal for station, so i told myself that i would start early. but monday passed... tuesday passed... wednesday passed and there i was on thursday night taking my shower getting ready to go to bed telling myself that i'd wake up…
With a simple sunshine in the morning can make you feel the warmth and brightens up your entire day. We often take the heat of the sun for granted however this simple useful resource is the reason for our existence, survival and life in general. Watching the rise of the sun and setting of the sun is a beautiful…
There's few things I like more than a late night. There's few things I enjoy more than time with friends. There's few things I want more than to be someone. There's few things I need more than to stay healthy. There's few things I feel more than a need for money. There's few things I miss more than an adventure.…
Hoje "tropecei" na internet com um poema que eu adoro, "Do not go gentle into that good night", do Dylan Thomas. Quem assistiu Interestelar deve lembrar que o poema é mencionado várias vezes durante o filme. Na tradução de Augusto de Campos (um trechinho): "Não vás tão docilmente nessa noite linda; Que a velhice arda…
I read every day. It has become automatic so that even in the busiest of days, I will take out the Kindle on my phone and read for 10-20 mins. It is one of those seminal activities that has given me meaning to my life, improved the quality of living. I picked up reading seeing a erudite colleague of mine, which made…
Ah running out of time, "i will do it later" i say to myself. no! do it now, that same idea will not exist in the future, it will be lost. it may be found but why try. it can exist now...
i may look i have it all smile on my face happy, joyful got many friends all that i want but deep inside in my mind it is like fragile glass and it might break if i can't keep going anymore "fake it til you make it" thats what they say until you fake it and lose yourself fake confidence.
Everyone, and I mean EVERYONE, falls victim to the shiny new object syndrome. In the world of tools for thought (aka TfT) or personal knowledge management (aka PKM), this is doubly true. Every other week there is a new tool that promises to deliver EXACTLY what you are looking for. How could you not try it out, right?…
This year marks the 10th anniversary of the premiere for ‘Ola: Health is Everything,’ my first feature documentary. I remember that night at the Hawai‘i International Film Festival vividly; the sold out theater, the crush of the crowd after the credits rolled, the inescapable feeling that lightning had struck. It’s…
I’ve been working on building some reverb tanks the last few weeks. I got the first one wired tonight and I messed up something. The two circuit boards, that are not connected, are somehow interacting with each other. I’m going to try and wire up the second one tomorrow and see if I can find what I did wrong the first…
I get on a writing jags. I am in one now. It exercises an important muscle that has a profound effect on every facet of my life. Communication: documentation, emails, texts, Slack! Clearly stating and articulating what it is that I know, seek to know, or need to move forward is a super power. At work I write RFCs for…
Are you new to journaling? You need to be journaling at night. Before you're off to bed, you need an opportunity to put thought into your day. Your experiences Words you said Actions you took What made you happy, or what made you mad. You will want to solve the problems that you face tomorrow. Or maybe you need to…
One of my guiding principles for inner work is “let everything be”. If you feel angry, let yourself feel angry. If you feel sad, let yourself feel sad. If you feel bored, let yourself feel bored. It’s the resistance to these feelings that causes problems. Or in buddhist terminology, this resistance is tanha: a wish…
the issue with my having fallen in love with alt lit is that there is no way to procure these motherfuckers publish them on amazon, you alt lit authors i want to read them publish them for like $0.99 so i can buy like 10 of them for the price of one kidney publish more of "selected unpublished blog posts by a mexican…
Alguien regresó diciendo: "He visto al lobo estepario, lo ví, existe"... Había un lobo jovén y fuerte, el futuro líder de la manada. Pero un día, el lobo decidió dejar la manada y se marchó, caminó durante días. Al final, llegó a un lugar hermoso, con montañas, ríos y bosques. El lobo se quedó allí. Un día, una manada…
Comecei uma nova série. Landscapers não foi tão legal, viu? Odeio qualquer coisa em preto e branco, me dá preguiça, e frequentemente esse recurso foi usado na série. Me arrastei até o final porque não gosto de coisas inacabadas. Mas!!!! Comecei tokyo vice que tá tirando toda nhaca de Landscapers. Cara, a trilha sonora…
So long I worked and toiled and begged. To make a small dream come true. Everything came undone, with a nod, a slip and slow announcement. I don't want to dream anymore. It hurts so much to feel so worthless. So incompetent and dumb and silent. So foolish and stuck and silent. I dont want to dream anymore. And have no…
For two hours, I have been sitting on the second landing of the staircase in my home, staring at a space between two steps that lead upstairs. Everything is in its right place. I feel sad. But my mind feels warm, supported, and unburdened. I am safe. This place is as true as any other. Everything is here. Everyone is…
i try so hard every day i tell me i’m right in every way my heart doesn’t dare to hope so it pulls strings and hangs them in ways that paint a picture of you as ‘nothing, buts’ and for weeks there’s emptiness and abyss and space and void until, there you are, emerging and yet this time you are stronger tanner eyes…
I just miss you so much but I don't matter to you anymore I will to tell my heart that It is not cooperating at the moment
As much as it hurt a bit when I wrote the title for this piece a month and half ago, I also realise it sometimes takes time to form a thesis or coherent set of thoughts to say I think this is what I was after. I wrote a Substack articles on social apps 2 Septembers ago. I'd thought of these apps for about 1.5 years at…
There's too much content in the world. And AI is making it easier than ever for people to create content. Everyone and their mother has a faceless YouTube channel or a programmatic SEO blog for their company. I'm not sure how I feel about contributing to this tsunami of content. On the one hand, in the short term…
ahhh! today creation is hard. it frustrates me. reoccurring in my mind as an emotion, fades from top to bottom. somewhere in the gradient is the perfect colour that represents the output of my frustration
(literally 100 whole metric tons consisting only of $100 bills) i would: - buy forests/jungles/islands (as well as politicians) and declare these areas "protected national parks" - buy land that's currently being used for cultivating palm oil and mining lithium/etc. and reforest them, reintroduce native plants and…
my sleep was really poor i blame it on (1) lack of exercise (2) having to sleep next to a person (3) said person "forcing" me to watch movies with him, but delaying the start of the movie until late because he has to "work on something", causing unfavorable screen lights to enter my field of consciousness and…
When my brother and I were growing up, our dad would respond to my brother's "alternative" preferences for how he chose to express himself by rolling his eyes and saying, "whatever floats your boat." This phrase was etched into his mind and, later, into his skin, when he commissioned a tattoo artist to ink a wooden…
i got a myspace y'all i'm still waiting for that email verification (and am completely LOCKED OUT OF HEAVEN until i get that done) but let me tell you it is a different experience. it's completely VIP, completely next-level. it asks you to identify yourself. and so i'm clicking through the options and each click is…
Humans are weird, they kill each other for a thing that brings people together .Now unlike Stranger Things , this thing isn't so strange . In Fact it is quite common all around the world. That thing is religion. Religion was supposed to bring peace , hope and harmony among people . Now unlike our mouth, there are many…
So many times, we think what we are doing is because it is something we want to do. Something in us tells us, here do this. But is it really? Who tells you, that this is what you should do? You? Who is then this "You"? Is it just a version made by us to survive in this reality? If yes then this "You" can change.…
i not-so-proudly announce that i am not okay. it is also not okay. but okay.
There's a sickening feeling of being surrounded by darkness. What feels like an everlasting doom consuming your peripherals. You're trapped, maybe not physically, but mentally, or both. If, one stands in place, that place becomes your home. A home that echoes into the voids of your mind driving you insane. The purpose…
