I don't want to dream anymore

So long I worked and toiled and begged.
To make a small dream come true.
Everything came undone,
with a nod, a slip and slow announcement.

I don't want to dream anymore.
It hurts so much to feel so worthless.
So incompetent and dumb and silent.
So foolish and stuck and silent.

I dont want to dream anymore.
And have no one to blame but myself for my idiocy.
To hurt and cry alone in the dark.
And feel wretched pity around me.

I don't want to dream anymore,
Help I can't forget the ashes.
Of unfulfilled dreams.
Ashes that burn so hot.

I dont want to want anymore,
I dont ever get what I want anyway.
What am I doing anyway?
Fulfilling dreams of other better men.