nothing, nothing and then everything at once

my writing process is... weird.

this week, i knew i had to write a pretty important proposal for station, so i told myself that i would start early.

but monday passed... tuesday passed... wednesday passed and there i was on thursday night taking my shower getting ready to go to bed telling myself that i'd wake up early on friday morning to just write the heck out of this proposal.

and suddenly it clicked.

i was really tired so i didn't want to spend the whole night writing, but in less than 20 min, i wrote down everything that i wanted to write about in the proposal. the why, the what and the how, all of it was there and it "only took me 20 min."

i went to bed happy knowing that tomorrow i could maybe get an extra hour of sleep because the bulk of my writing was done.

when i woke up today, i realized that this isn't a one-time thing.

whenever i know i need to write about something, everything usually happens at the very last minute, but i always get to a point where i'm happy with what i write down.

but it's weird because it seems like for days i'm just not doing anything. i'm going about my day doing other things, while i feel that my subconscious is writing drafts in my head. constantly writing and then erasing until the very last minute where my subconscious passes off the draft to my conscious mind causing that "ah-ha!" moment i get in the shower.

at first, i really thought that i was procrastinating, but now seeing how it's a pattern that's been happening over and over... maybe that's just the way that my mind operates?