Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
Acabei de ler Quem Matou o Meu Pai, do Édouard Louis e não posso usar outra palavra que não "cortante" para descrever a experiência de ler tudo em uma sentada. A forma como ele costura sua história pessoal com a política... A rejeição dos pais por ele ser quem é, a repetição dos padrões, mesmo quando há tentativa de…
do you ever feel that scientists are paid to investigate some pretty obvious things and that society as a whole is interested in very uninteresting things? i want to know about how human language got invented. not any specific language, but the concept of language itself. and how, if the language families don't have a…
Na quarta ainda (dia mega movimentado), depois da minha terapia semanal, onde eu choro minhas pitangas e com frequência falo pra minha terapeuta que eu só falo certas coisas com ela porque em outros espaços eu não tenho a mínima coragem de verbalizar (e acho que é sobre isso), recebi uma amiga querida em casa. A gente…
I have a love and hate relationship with fud. In general, I think it's necessary, especially in a space where 95% of the projects are going to 0. It's good to have some skepticism, but sometimes it's just too much. I've been a cool cat supporter since September. Mainly discovered it through Andrew Wang and a few of my…
One gets a sense of a particular culture's deepest anxieties by examining its curses. Curses are an expression of a culture's most undesirable or objectionable state of being. It's like saying, "here's the thing I would dislike the most, and it's exactly what I wish upon you." The inverse of empathy. The most powerful…
Ontem eu tive terapia. E também descobri um bicho geográfico em mim, depois de mostrar meu pé para mais ou menos 10 pessoas do meu trabalho. Dois biólogos, uma jornalista, uma economista, uma historiadora, uma bibliotecária, um cara do TI, etc. Todos eles falaram: bicho geográfico! Tá vendo o rastro? E realmente, tá…
sabe uma coisa que me irrita profundamente? pessoas que olham uma mulher em uma relação e daí olham para o homem e não se constrangem em agir como se a mulher tivesse sido salva por aquele homem maravilhoso que teve coragem de abrir o caminho de espinhos para oferecer amor incondicional a ela..... preguiça em níveis…
Ahhh 🔁 iteration; continuous testing of an idea until one finds perfection in design. ironically perfection does not truly exists, but iterating on an idea can get design to a point that is almost perfect. i find the most relatable design does not strive to be perfect, yet it it gets so close that allows others to…
Hace unas horas leí una frase que me impactó mucho que decía masomenos así: "No te elevas al nivel de tus metas, caes al nivel de tus hábitos" y dándole vueltas me quede impresionado por la poca importancia que le damos a muchos de nuestros hábitos. Si bien llevar una vida con hábitos correctos no es tan complicado,…
fuck on nights like these i wish i had the scent of a woman's hair to carry away all the pain and anxieties of tomorrow im just a broken man in search of a woman's touch just to hear her voice and lose myself in those giggles where is my lover? i just need to be held bury my head in her bust and lose myself in her…
Every time something bad happens to me i always think about how i could have avoided it had i known all the intricacies of the problem. I think i wish i consulted people apriori. As it is often said hindsight is the best insight. Another perspective to this is had i known all the intricacies would i be putting myself…
Hi. My name is Artamon and I’m a hoarder. Hi Artamon. I thought I knew what I was doing. I thought I had a plan and a process. I was wrong. I need help. We got you. Overly dramatic? Perhaps. Accurate? 100% so. Every time I come across an article, a twitter post or a YouTube video that I think I want to read later, I…
Help me out. Tell me what I'm supposed to expect here. I have a lot of projects to share progress on right when every social platform is failing me. So, help me out. Is this it?
There have been times when I've been told "good job" and it has made me uncomfortable. You'd expect "good job" to be encouraging. I did too. Except, it felt condescending and I never understood why. Until I came across Adlerian psychology and the difference between horizontal and vertical relationships. For the sake…
So long I worked and toiled and begged. To make a small dream come true. Everything came undone, with a nod, a slip and slow announcement. I don't want to dream anymore. It hurts so much to feel so worthless. So incompetent and dumb and silent. So foolish and stuck and silent. I dont want to dream anymore. And have no…
What is the mind? I don't know. But I know something that seems seems pretty central to it. That is the focus of attention. I've seen people debate over whether or not we really have a will that we control. I can sympathize with arguments on either side. In my experience, if we have control over anything, it's how we…
I’m Nanaji of Akhil and Abhi. My grandson, Akhil, made me start writing this blog, to share my memories and events of my daily life.
At times not doing anything even though you have a lot on your plate and too much in your mind going on is actually relaxing. I have been in that phase for the last three days and i feel lighter a lot. Too many thoughts passed through the mind and they did not bother me much. Often we are told don't take life too…
The past three places I've lived have all been near a busy street. Not too busy, with cars honking and voices shouting. Not too loud like a highway. Instead, just the right amount of busy, at the right times. What do I mean by this? In the morning, when I wake up, I hear the cars and people start to move about,…
An observation I had while waiting at the international airport departure terminal in Bangalore. Picture a 40,000 square feet departure lounge. Interspersed with a mix of cafes, restaurants and plenty of lounge chairs, sleeping pods and tables. The departure gates on their part are on the outer periphery of this…
1. find a dark crevice to escape to. under your bed, behind a heavy curtain, in your closet, on a long walk in the middle of the night. usually its scary when you can’t see anything around you, but in these moments, let the emptiness of this blank palette make space for your racing mind. 2. notice the colors. the 8…
I hardly remember when did I attend a full day classes of my college. For the past 9 months, I was a part of a start-up in fin-tech domain. But due to rookie mistakes, they dried up and thus I had to get another internship to pay EMIs of my new I-phone (Aah! What a motivation to work). So, two days back I joined…
Este é o primeiro natal que passo em Berlim. Diferentemente do que eu esperava, o dia amanheceu com um solzinho ralé que tirou a cor cinzenta do dia. A temperatura agradável de 8ºC me permitiu usar um vestido midi verde de cetim com mangas 7/8 e fechado até o pescoço. Comportado, bonito e brilhante. Estávamos todos…
começo de janeiro, hora de fazer as famosas (ou infames) resoluções de ano novo. será? no fim das contas, o que realmente importa é a continuidade. de nada adianta decidir, se na página dois já se abandonar o projeto. é bom decidir mudar, é o primeiro passo, mas que tenhamos a persistência para concluir projetos,…
Back in a place that used to be home. The first time staying in a hotel. The city seems new, distant, and yet I know it so intimately…
There are no holy ideas in Academia. We should always strive to get better, always. I believe in the ideas of improving the human condition with the help of rationalism and science. Understanding the world and finding approximations of the truth that serve as practical solutions to the problems of our time, is the age…
For about a month now, I’ve been working on writing a novel from an idea I’ve been working out for a few years. While writing a novel is something I’ve always wanted to do it is somewhat daunting. I began writing this story a few years ago as a graphic novel, but found myself discouraged when I couldn’t afford to pay…
Its strange why my articlulation of ideas/feedback has not been upto the mark - despite spending time with clear thinkers. Second order thinking also tends to be a pain in the ass - a number of the decisions that I take spread ripple effects that I need to be vary of. Along with one & two, crisp writing especially in…
Focusing is like a mythological beast to me, something you heard of from many but never saw with your own eyes. Whenever I decide to start my study session, even if I feel my willpower strong as a rock, i quickly lose everything, finding myself staring at the void of a white wall. My productivity has vanished and I…
Moving is expensive, specially when its to a country where you can only reach by plane, the baggage allowance is limited, so there is so many things that you have to buy. Everything is so expensive and I just realized that there are so many teeny tiny things that as a whole they add up, from spoons, plates, pots,…
Really this is just a place where I am going to keep my notes about things I am currently learning/working on or have learned in the past. Maybe some code snippets (not that I know any language fully). I suspect this blog is going to be all over the place as I am going to try to write about what I know, what I am…
Because you don’t take everything personal Maturity tells you when it’s about the world not about you If someone is behaving like disrespecting you Find a way to make them know it’s their fault first Stand your own fucking ground Understand it’s not you it’s them You’ve matured First you already control your emotions…
I'm terrified of this one word. It's just one word but contains an unknown universe within. A universe that I am part of, that I live in, yet that which I want to get out of. I was born into this realm and I continue to live within this reality. Even death does not seem to be a meaningful escape from this multiverse…
Got to think that one of the main deterrents acting against a writer’s production is the idea of his readers knowing he thinks or feel certain things. Period.
We ended pt 3 by asking, in short, why can't we leap before we look in our quest for creative colutions? One answer is that we've tried shortcuts. Check the web. It's full of models, maps, diagrams, templates, tools and advice on, 'how to write a killer headline'. While a disciplined approach is clearly of some value,…
I came across an article on HN about making the interviewee read code instead of writing it. Many people really like this approach. As someone who is often on the other side of the hiring side, my thoughts about it would be: The sample should use the code stack I will be interacting with – languages, technologies,…
Historically, overly-extractive business models eventually face pressure from the public, shareholders, and regulators. Once-unstoppable cigarette companies have been forced to pay the public health costs of their products and fund billion-dollar anti-smoking marketing campaigns. The market conditions for renewable…
I feel that verbal (and even nonverbal) communication is the most important thing for all beings! But it seems, that such capability deteriorates, becomes empty, or (and) false. Not only in hackneyed phrases of politicians or some of journalists, but generally... What about to discuss about possible reasons?
For the past two weeks work has been quite stressful. We have this major change going through the system and I am running point. Now normally this wouldn't scare me but there is a lot of attention on this one. Ever step is being judged and reconsidered. Every day I get another earful of caution. Don't make a wrong…
Knowing. Thinking. Believing. In order to know something, we generally have personal experience with it. What I do most often is to think something is or is not. And to think is to trust in someone else’s personal experience or knowledge. So where does belief come in? Is belief even necessary? It often seems like…
We quote Steve Jobs a lot on how we can connect the dots looking backward. To pick and choose parts we remember well to craft a narrative that we call our story, in a way that makes sense. Retrospective parenting is what I call consoling the kid who got hurt years ago. To make sense of the hurt that hasn't healed.…
every day you must take time a short time to eat a cookie there will be a time that a cookie will be the last cookie you'll ever eat so if you eat a cookie every day you're fighting the chances that the cookie you last ate was the ultimate last cookie of your life don't waste time on bad cookies
I don't know how I discovered the band Canyon City. But Spotify has kept serving up songs by them to me since then and I have become a fan. There is something soothing and gentle about the style of their songs that is instantly recognizable to me. Some lyrics from the song Run by them Now all the lights they turn and…
Some people move through life like furniture, always there, but never holding weight. Their presence hums with borrowed purpose. They exist best in reflected light, speaking loud in rooms that forgive forgetfulness. You start to notice the soft betrayals: the delayed reply dressed as distraction, the listening that…
My life has been rough lately. I am stressed, sleep-deprived, and unable to function well. This year is my second attempt at applying to grad school programs, and the journey has been anything but easy. I have to keep retaking the GRE, write multiple essays (even just for one school!), and conduct original…
It should be the other way round - because it’s very very tricky that you fell into the trap. Time has the biggest value - so invest early, study early and gain the knowledge Rich kids coming from rich families already know that idea It’s the poor that refuses or emotionally attached to the system of old beliefs You…
Used to think about the future. The past. The things I’ve not done. I should be doing this not that. But you used to forgotten that - if you keep worrying about You’re missing out on something that might add up to the pile - the PRESENT! The moment. Never be anxious by controlling yourself, your mindset If you still…
Leaving a new place that I just knew and that I loved always makes me wonder if I will ever get back there. That thought comes as I depart, as I take the final looks onto the place. My mind seems to need to know if it's like a last and forever goodbye, or if it's more like "I will see you again sometime". Ubud was one…
