Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
I’m not a big fan of competition. For many people, the race to the finish line is irresistible. No matter the game, something drives them to seek nothing less than first place. The idea of first place doesn’t motivate me. Whether I place first or 31st, it feels about the same. I don’t have any particular elation when…
i feel energetically a little STUCK do i: - do more yoga - get the package - read - write - eat - watch youtube (this seems almost certainly like a bad idea bc i am so annoyed with booktube people but i am curious about just one little video...) ? i'm hungry. fuck. my body has decided. i guess i'll eat leftover…
Eu tava pensando que na correria do tempo passando, é muito fácil e confortável entrar numa rotina e nunca estar aberto para o novo. Lembrei também de quando a minha família migrou para outro país e a comunidade brasileira foi muito muito importante para eu manter os meus pés fincados na minha nacionalidade, mas…
There are chaos in my head. An ocean's worth of storms inside a skull. Contradicting ideas and thoughts fighting each other like storms in the seas. However, there is no victor. Intrusive thoughts making me question my own thoughts and self. This goes to anyone who can relate with me. You, I see you. I hope we will…
I don't need another platform for writing. I have a Medium page and a Substack newsletter and very little incentive to build an audience in yet another corner of the internet. I like the idea of a 300 word limit. But not enough for that to be why I use Nicheless. ... and yet here I am. I am toying with the idea of…
Acho que já falei que comecei essa série com meu amor. Adoro a questão dos sonhos, o mistério e as músicas. É violento e triste. Ainda estou na primeira temporada. Hoje em dia, muita coisa séria impossível. Imagina ter que falar por orelhão pra não ser rastreadom Poder queimar um restaurante sem mil câmeras…
Spoilers ahead! Joy/Jobu, a character I resonated with after a long time. The anguish, lost mind, unheard sobs, hopeless eyes and whatever she was made of. I was feeling nothing like her. I felt it when she said "If Nothing Matters, Then All The Pain And Guilt You Feel For Making Nothing Of Your Life Goes Away." The…
a digital world may enable us to have a continuous performance that has no defined start or finish. it exists like a dream. each person would experience a different beginning as they enter. this threshold is your start yet we can extrude this threshold to how you enter the performance space. a loading screen? a social…
I don't even know Why am I here HE didn't tell me Just left me in fear To figure it out For myself Without making sure That it is all clear This is not fair In any which way What else is to be done Someone who knows Please come And quickly tell me The direction to be taken Whether to go This way or that one This is…
did you close your eyes? i miss the old you i know people change but you didn't have to why did you leave? cant you see? it's tearing all apart come back, please i will always wait i will always pray i will try to not lose hope i will love you through our storm
After being in the world of business communication for a while, it seems that whenever someone takes a long time to respond, they apologize for it. They say that their personal life is busy, or had other priorities to take care of. The problem is that after seeing this over and over, it loses its effect. I would do…
Estou lendo "A cidade solitária", de Olivia Laing, em que a autora se muda para Nova York e passa a habitar a solidão. Ela escreve "Comecei a perceber que a solidão era um lugar povoado: uma cidade em si mesma." Para discorrer sobre o tema, Laing se cerca de artistas que viveram na mesma cidade tendo a solidão como…
Lately, I have been reflecting on the often sinful manifestations of our discontent. In particular, when we idealize and glorify "the good old days". Ecclesiastes 7:10 instructs us: Do not say, "Why is it that the former days were better than these?" For it is not from wisdom that you ask about this. In the face of…
I'm a big fan of Yes Theory and their open, serendipitous approach to life. And I try to take them as an example, to seek more discomfort myself, to say yes, to approach strangers, and to face new situations openly and curiously. That's easier said than done, and it's still not easy for me. Too often, my comfort zone…
Hoje eu recebi meu salário. Adoro ser CLT. Antes disso, há alguns dias, recebi o valor referente às minhas férias. Paguei contas minhas, da minha mãe. Adiantei o valor do caixa do casal de março e vou adiantar a parcela da pós também do mês que vem para este. Paguei o outro caixinha, paguei aluguel, condomínio, gás,…
I've always had a predilicition for writing. While others had debating & mooting in law school, i had writing. Be it formal boorish academic writing or bouncy ridiculous writing. Nicheless perhaps seems ideal owing to its limited word limit which places less onus on me to produce a grand blog piece with characters, an…
ahh i have been revisiting a series of photographs called 'metaphors' by Ettore Sottsass Jr. each photograph would prompt the viewer to challenge how they view architecture. my favorite is titled 'Virtual Architecture'; a physical space made to represent a digital space. the concept hints to our physical limitation…
I realized I’m not a social creature with moments of solitude, I’m a solitary being with social contact. But I miss people I’ve lost contact with. Perhaps because goodbye is the de facto way now, I experience it too much.
Outside of work and family time, I have about five free hours each day to build my side projects, learn new skills, practise old ones, and enjoy my hobbies. I wish I had more, but as someone who doesn't have kids yet, I'll take it. 5 hours is plenty. But I've been trying to figure out how to spend those 5 hours. I'm…
Hoje eu tirei os dois sisos que faltavam. Nasceram os quatro. Normais. Sem tortisse. Essa palavra existe? Mesmo assim, a gengiva não cedeu. E cobria os debaixo. A dificuldade para limpar foi pesando. Anos depois do nascimento daqueles que não eram esperados, careou. Sim. Cáries. Então, precisei tirar. Os dois…
First post. Of many I hope. I'm here to support Louis. Because he came up with a great idea. Built it. Marketed it. See a problem, solve a problem. That is how mankind makes progress.
“This is what I’m thinking about where to stay on our vacation.” I’m talking to my husband. The decision about where we stay will affect both of us. It’s important that he be in on this conversation. Even when my decisions don’t affect others directly, I talk to myself. Saying what I’m thinking clarifies my options…
Of a 5 year long relationship, I have continued to focus on a few key incidents that occurred much earlier on, and these incidents have coloured every single thing in our relationship. While I never remembered any of the positives ever again in the future, any of the slightest negatives later had an exponential…
Stop telling people to play tennis with a bat If we’re playing tennis, and I say I’d rather play baseball, you’d think I was insane if I brought out a bat and starting trying to whack the ball out of the court. Same argument applies here: - “He thinks taxes on the rich should be higher, but he paid zero tax last year.…
On days like these I normally switch from "work mode" to "chill mode" and just relax, take it easy, and don't worry if I'm being productive or wasting time. But today, it was a little different because I had to wake up early and go out to run some errands. That made it more likely to go back, get breakfast, and be…
Today has been another day of just constant “Shivani-nelson” static. On top of that, I saw a slack ping from Varun (top boss) on a thread, where he directly addressed me. Here’s me noting down how my body reacted to it; 1. Immediate heart rate increase 2. Sinking feeling in my stomach 3. Thoughts in my mind about -…
one day we will no longer understand proust, just as we don't understand beowulf but we will always understand liszt and his liebestraum.
my sleep was really poor i blame it on (1) lack of exercise (2) having to sleep next to a person (3) said person "forcing" me to watch movies with him, but delaying the start of the movie until late because he has to "work on something", causing unfavorable screen lights to enter my field of consciousness and…
For a long time now, I was eager to write content on a niche topic but was not able to do it due to lack of ideas. Now I have one idea on which I'm focused on, creating guides and publish them for public. The choices that I have to publish these guides on are: LinkedIn, Medium, Substack, Landing pages and website. I…
Time feels right to get my will paperwork in order. Did up my list of "who gets how much". Still have to mull end of life issues, and won't put it off forever, but nothing pressing right yet. Felt good last night being part of a family of choice. Wondering why I'm still hesitant about taking the big trip in September.…
⋆ I don’t really like Radiohead except 15 step ◯ And you like that creepy song too, like, “the creeps” ⋆ Yeah ◯ So you like 2 songs ⋆ Yeah ◯ So you like more songs from Radiohead than from most bands ⋆ Yes that’s right ◯ That makes you a fan
Os dias de atestado finalmente estão começando a render. Hoje consegui me manter acordada por mais tempo, tempo suficiente para ver dois documentários e começar uma série. Vi o documentário da Lizzo e o documentário sobre crianças trans, ambos na hbo. Também na plataforma, comecei landscapers, uma mini série que conta…
There is something aching in my throat. It clings like a desperate spore, spewing and propagating upon itself, reiterating, wanting to be more but only manifesting as pain. I call it pain but really it is longing. I used to look at the world as a child did. Now I have developed floaters in my retinal fluid. Reticent…
Just be interested in what you truly wants to know If you think that the materialistic stuff & the factories and the stories are interesting - genuinely try to understand first Hey you got this new knowledge - you should be grateful not being sour about it right? Previously I’ve been quite conservative to understand…
I love just how quiet this interface is.
I'm not saying I've discovered the secret to happiness, but daily fiber supplements and a bidet is working out great for me.
A few days into this exercise of writing daily, I've had a few learnings - I feel most of my decisions that switched things around have been spontaneous. It was the case with taking up this daily writing challenge too. I didn't have topics in mind. I refrain from writing about the things I come across online…
write what? well, just write b/c writing is oft right thoughts can be fleeting but, wherever you left off, writing can pick you right up, right where you left off
Recently read this short story collection by Murakami and some quotes from this collection have won by heart and here they are: 1. And that span of time had created a translucent barrier between us that was hard to traverse. Even when I had to say something, the right words just wouldn’t come out. And every time I…
“Acho que vocês deveriam sonhar a terra, pois ela tem coração e respira.” —- Davi Kopenawa, entrevista a F. Watson. Breu, mas o escuro não impedia a visão, a floresta trazia conforto e não medo, haviam muitas flores tropicais com os mais sedutores tons, as ciano eram leves e moviam lentamente com o vento, as de…
All great people have gone through hell. All great individuals have endured their share of challenges. In our world, where we constantly compare ourselves through the touch of our phones, we've forgotten the effort it takes to achieve what we see on our screens. History repeatedly demonstrates that life consists of a…
It is never a good morning to mourn.
Well, it finally started. Winter is upon us. After a long day of 30-degree weather, we finally received our first dusting of snow and I couldn't be happier. I was born in Hawai'i. And up until we moved to Simsbury, I fancied myself a beach boy, a beach bum, a beach something. Whatever the case, my paradise was the sun…
One of my summer experiments as a child included learning to bake and assemble an ice cream cake. Bombay's summer heat, even in the 1980s was oppressive enough, that I was always experimenting with ''cooling'' recipes! My maternal Uncle, Bunny Mama, as we fondly called him, would indulge me with my kitchen…
A serious daily journaler may have an extensive journaling routine. Three morning pages? They take 30 minutes or more, depending on writing/typing speed. A multiple-component journaling routine? My routine takes 20 to 45 minutes consisting of the following: gratitude, intent for the day, sometimes I need an…
It’s Saturday. I should be grading homework and unit assignments. I have a master’s portfolio proposal to write (separate, apparently, from the actual master's thesis I wrote last semester). I have grad school homework to do. Instead, I’m on the couch. My youngest child has his legs draped over mine; he’ll follow me…
i read a book about how there are people who defy all expectations. like they just HATE fulfilling expectations, doesn't matter if it's internal or external. i may be such a person. i told myself that i should go running at 5 and cook at 6 and have dinner ready by 7.30 but it is now 5.55 and i have been working on…
ahh as i continue to think about ways to create in the realm of digital worlds it becomes more evident that old utopian concepts are relevant to todays context. in Constant's New Babylon there was a notion that we crave adventure. to adapt in a digital world would be; when we dont find our current world stimulating,…
