Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
a big block to my introspection/writing has been my poor wifi i just prefer to put my thoughts out there i can feel the judgment already...from older folk like byung chul han who think that this lack of privacy is in a sense a lack of "ritual" and that i have made my "temple" of thoughts into a "museum" but i do have…
These last 600 days have been the most toughest period of my entire life. I have cried my eyes out, felt miserable, sat like furniture for days on end & contemplated committing suicide. This all happened around my folks at home, never did they ever came up to me ask : what is brewing ? how am I feeling ? how can they…
it's haunting the extent to which i have gone quiet. last night i opened my instagram after a long time. it's purely an exhibitionist platform, but that aside i've some threads in there. most of them begin to grow quiet around 2018, gradually deafening in 2019 and coming to complete silence in 2020 - when i quit. i've…
I love Neil Pasricha's approach on 'being happy first'. Be happy first, then your best work will come. It doesn't work the other way.
it's been a while. i'm again reminded of the power of seasons as I come up for air after another whirlwind summer. time to slow down, reflect, and reset. I love this phase, like I loved the last. but winter in particular always feels a bit like mourning. removing another layer of habits, insecurities, outdated beliefs…
My PKM includes not only fingertips to keyboard and screen to type but also fingers around a pen or pencil to write on paper. (Yes, I use Rocketbook. No, I don't have a tablet - yet.) Listening. When a prompt in LYT Workshop 9 was posted to share memorable podcasts, I immediately thought of and shared - this podcast…
Often, when we do things we overlook things and don't see the blind spots. In retrospect they look stupid and trivial to point that you get harsh on yourself. You often say things to yourself like "how can you be so dumb?" and "i should have been careful and not so naive". You start questioning your ability and it…
Sim, estou internada. Uma complicação de uma cirurgia que era pra ser simples. Mas bora resolver. Quero virar essa página logo pra sair e dançar com as minhas amigas, andar sem medo de cair e dormir de barriga pra baixo. Coisas que eu já fiz aqui no hospital: - assisti TV, principalmente o canal globonews - julguei…
My day feels more like wake up, exist, sleep and wake up again! During the day, looking at emails as I wake up, commuting to and back work, working and handling calls till I sleep off, limited socialization with family and friends, zero leisure activity other than TV. Even on weekends, I think the familiarity of the…
"The Earth’s population at the time of the Rio summit?” 5.5 billion. And now? 8+ billion. - Its 30 years since the first Earth Summit in Rio - “The best time to plant that tree was 30 years ago” - “The next best time is today” looks at the gain vs the gap. Are we further ahead than we might have been? - Can fashion…
I started a newsletter many years ago. It happened on a whim, tied a moment in my professional career when I didn't have a job. The newsletter focused on a product that changed how I looked restaurant and other hospitality-related recommendations. Here's a link to the product, called Text Rex:…
Otra vez me alcanzó la madrugada, 2:26 para ser exactos. Gracias por leerme. En este mini blog, como creo que eso es este formato de 300 palabras. Decidí que voy a estar escribiendo ideas e historias más personales. Hoy en internet uno debe vender o venderse, por lo que a veces las ideas e historias personales ya no…
there are pleasures for which there SHOULD be some guilt involved for example: physical books used to be trees. reading books is technically a guilty pleasure if you really care about that kind of stuff, like, killing wildlife and stuff when you really think about it, almost every aspect of "modern" life becomes…
Don’t fool yourself. I don’t anymore. Most mornings, I get this strong urge to just dive into work right away. Like, do something, anything, just to feel like I’m being productive. My hands need to be busy, right? But here’s the truth: that’s a trap. Somewhere in the back of my mind, I used to believe that starting…
recentemente, recebi a notícia de que estava com uma infecção em decorrencia de um corpo estranho no meu corpito tão territorialista e fechado. toma-lhe dez dias de antibiótico. nesse meio tempo, viajei pro mato grosso, ponto central do brasil, para um evento sobre sementes. uma loucura de calor na rua + frio nos…
The old time view for businesses was that they existed simply to make money and that social impact needn't be a consideration. This 1962 definition makes it absolutely clear- “one and only one social responsibility of business – to use its resources and engage in activities designed to increase its profits, so long as…
you had a lot of big adventures new sights and people. i had little of that. i don't mind that it's not the same for you for me, your friendship is the best thing to have happened to my year. i bask in the glow that you you're still here of course i'm still here sometimes i find myself waiting but i don't mind that…
i'm starting to like music that makes me feel the way that literature does ; i'm enjoying picturing things. i think my third eye is opening again (every psychic ever told me my third eye was closed and it's true; i couldn't even picture things when i was reading for a long time; but now i hella can and i prefer music…
Unstructured work is under appreciated. It's the kind of work you do when there are unknown unknowns. Or when you're searching for a solution that might exist, but you don't know where to look. Or the work you do in pursuit of perfection, which can never be recognised, except in its absence. The process can be…
I picture existence as a film reel with infinite frames. All big bangs, everything that was and everything that will be, are captured on those frames. One flawless complete existence, Nature. Nature is intelligent and curious. It wants to know itself and experience every frame of that film, which is it. How does…
Forever can be broken down to a bunch of nows but can there be multiple nows? No matter how much you conquer you will always be beaten by the last second, the last mile and eventually the last breath. Which begs the question of what you really own. 20 minutes into meditation and i cannot tell whether the arms i’d…
- tao lin - ocean vuong - sheila heti - jordan castro but ocean vuong is kind of the king of this because he talks with this level of clarity IRL
Mais uma noite mal dormida por causa do cachorrinho idoso, renal e senil. Amo muito o bichinho, mas estou cansada. Não julgo quem, depois de perder um ente querido do qual cuidava, vai viajar, passear. Cuidar de outrem dá trabalho, cansa. No corpo e na alma. Mas fazemos com amor.
I finally jumped onto the startup bandwagon towards the end of 2021 at the time when offices were sending emails to their employees about opening up. It occurred to me then that if I did not do this, then the only choice left to me would be to go back to the corporate world. I decided to start my own corporate world…
A macher, pronounced with that distinctively Yiddish velar fricative, is the sort of person who could convince you that you need to buy a new lawnmower together with an extended 10-year warranty despite your lack of lawn ownership. A macher knows what you want before you know what you want, and as it turns out, he…
when i say "addiction" i mean that it is becoming an actual problem i've been indulging in books, thinking, "this is never going to be a problem -- i have never heard of anyone with a book-addiction before scoff" but i've arrived at it and it is terrifying i'm becoming a habitual book reader and i'm not even asking…
I first learned the word blasphemy in sixth grade, when I carried a laptop of one brand in a case embroidered with the logo of another. "Isn't that blasphemy?" a teacher joked. I asked him what that meant. I don't remember the exact explanation, but I do remember his tone being flippant. Blasphemy is one of those…
Schumpeter's theory about how capitalist economies tend to continually renew themselves through creative destruction is kind of like how forest biomes are supposed to work when they are not being mucked up by humans. Emergent systems like forests and markets have a lot of commonalities in this regard. They are not…
A Matriarch born in 1908 in present day Pakistan has left a wonderful legacy, four generations ahead. The last few weeks have been a whirlwind of staying true to her legacy. From her Son (84 years), her grand daugters (in their 50s and 60s), her great grand daughters (40s and 50s) and great great grand children (from…
i’ve never met her and i hope i never will but i know you and i know me we fit so, may my plea never find you; just don’t say ‘i do’ please
We love conclusions. Conclusions lend certainty to identity, relationships, and thought experiments. For instance, soon after a conversation, we are quick to think,"Oh this person is cool." Even with thought experiments we shade the experiment with what we know to be true from our experience. Let's say if someone asks…
Shit day - but never forget where you came from & lose sight of where you wanna be. Be like Alvin Tan. Confident, if not anything he at least brings his best out. Don’t have to be shy and negative about yourself - thinking what you say is not going to be correct. Just say you whatever you want to say. At least you’re…
The early 1990s, summer holidays meant staying at a beautiful Boston suburb with my Maasi and her family. She used to brew a pot of an aromatic fresh coffee everyday. Occasionally we would drive to a local Dunkin Donuts for a quick takeaway. A trip to Montreal and Quebec with my cousins was an eye opener, so many…
I tossed out an essay ready to publish. It was no better or worse than my usual essays. It may have even drawn a few more likes and comments than usual. The topic was wrong for me. The essay was negative. I decided my writing I publish needs to focus on the positive. I don’t have time for negativity. Every day I write…
We were never taught how to be angry. Wrath was the province of God, and occasionally that of fathers offered insult. That, I think, is how I never noticed it seeping in at slights and kicks until it had long curdled in my marrow.
Este é o primeiro natal que passo em Berlim. Diferentemente do que eu esperava, o dia amanheceu com um solzinho ralé que tirou a cor cinzenta do dia. A temperatura agradável de 8ºC me permitiu usar um vestido midi verde de cetim com mangas 7/8 e fechado até o pescoço. Comportado, bonito e brilhante. Estávamos todos…
It's rarely as bad as you build it up to be. If you have to do more, you'll take it one step at a time. Your dad may NOT have been wanting to tell you about your mother's heart attack. All you can control is how you feel and what you do. 0856
I’ve been so supportive to Shivani. I’m so excited for her. That is true. But I’m also going through pain but don’t want her to have to see this because I don’t want it to affect her relationship. I can already imagine nelson saying “oh, you’re such a liar, you’re such a fake, yada yada” Fuck off okay? Take your own…
Well started writing here as I got infected with mumps 😩. Who gets mumps at middle age? Have been on leave for three days. It also happens to be my wife's neice's birthday. Her 20th one. She had a good day. Lots of gifts and 4 cakes. Happy to have started writing here. Lets see where it takes. While I have personal…
think of me like a torch in your hand, a helping light. someone who helps you see through the dark tunnel. but not as someone who latches onto your wrist and pulls you through—without you seeing, without noticing the world as it rushes by. the tunnel is yours, not mine. we are in our own dark tunnels, carrying tools.…
I am reading a book called as Range by David Epstein. The book is about how being a generalist will help someone to navigate this world where all things are mostly specialized. Tiger Woods started learning golf when he was 4. He knew he enjoyed it and he knew he wanted to be great at it. He engaged in "deliberate…
"Stephen Wolfram proposed to let people choose their own Algorithm: the social platforms could still host your data and provide the interface, but the way the data is aggregated, sorted, and displayed to you would be customized by pluggable algorithms. If any entity were allowed to create and share an algorithm, they…
Back in India, I read an article called "Travel is no cure for the mind" [https://moretothat.com/travel-is-no-cure-for-the-mind/]. It illustrated how changing your surroundings is not the answer to existential angst or the pursuit of joy and fulfillment in life. And while the article covered sufficient ground…
Every age asks a single question of its people. Will you surrender your voice before you surrender your freedom, or your freedom before you surrender your voice? Power has always understood something that free people often forget. A nation is not conquered when its borders fall. It is conquered when its citizens…
I'm honestly so relieved that application season is finally over (at least for now). I submitted my financial aid essays just a few days ago, and it feels like I can finally breathe. For months, I was constantly anxious, trying to juggle work and essays at the same time--which, as it turns out, is really hard. Now I…
i'm starting to look down on people who don't read but at the same time i'm starting to worry if i'm reading too much? i wonder if i'm missing out on living my REAL life whilst i read about people living theirs i have a whole fucking routine of reading. (1) reading a rotating lineup of books but also looking for new…
There are animals that are also plants. Elysia Chlorotica is a slug that looks like a leaf. She's the one on the top left in the image above. Part of what makes a plant a plant is that it can make its own food out of inorganic materials like sunlight and water. Slugs like Elysia are mixotrophs. They eat food like…
[since pretty much no one would be able to find this link unless they saw my goodreads account, i've decided to put a lot of my book-focused ideas here] some readers are also writers, but sometimes people are just purely readers. i'm watching tokyochemist on youtube compare virginia woolf and ottessa moshfegh and she…
