Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
Sometimes when I look at something that I have written, I can't believe I thought of these words. These words, they just come to me. I have to put pen on paper and give it form. I feel like a messenger at times. The universe or some cosmic force whispering to me. Sometimes these words don't feel like mine. I never…
A quote on an Oprah Winfrey show got me thinking about how it is important to have the good wines when we are having a bad day. The premise is that if one is having a good day, one does not need the good wine, but an excellent cabernet on a dull day will cheer one up. A glass of champagne will add a sparkle to a day…
I usually listen to music on YouTube (and think YouTube premium is rather underrated). I particularly like to watch musicians in their natural state and not 'performing'. Radio station interviews/ broadcasts are a standard fixture. A couple of days ago, I stumbled upon a Tiny Desk Concert by Alicia Keys on NPR. She…
Ainda sobre ernaux, caras. Louco como nos anos 60 as pessoas olhavam para o futuro com positividade, comoa gente olha tbm (??). Robôs pra fazer o trabalho pesado, erradicação da morte e coisas desse tipo. Estamos em 2023 e as pessoas ainda morrem de coisas simples e outras mais complicadas, mas que já deveriam ter…
i'm editing some stuff that i wrote a long time ago while getting "hydrated" before my run (i heard it's important) and it is so whiny and depressing and i feel so bad for myself but i also think i had zero self-awareness i said things like "i'm attracted to brutes" and it's like, name ONE fucking brute you've ever…
I've come to realize how so much of my life has been circumscribed by fear; of people, of loss, of consequences (intended or otherwise). How that fear has quietly and silently shaped what I've done or not done, and how it has hung over my life, forever clouding my ability to see hope on the horizon. What I would have…
They say that if you die at home, your cats won't even wait until your cold until they start eating you. I'm completely fine with that. It means my cats will survive until someone finds me/them and looks after them. Is this a weird first post on here? Oh well.
There is a word in Hindi called 'theherav.' It comes from the Hindi word theherna(to stop), but theherav doesn't mean to stop. It means something related to a person's character that allows them to feel collected most of the time. You know how many people make being clumsy their personality? A person with theherav…
Do you ever have one of those moments when the storm clouds part, clarity strikes and for a split second, you are able to join the dots? It happened to me yesterday reading an excellent long form piece by John Kolko on Abductive Reasoning. (http://www.jonkolko.com/writingAbductiveThinking.php) No, I hadn't heard of it…
When you choose your Halloween costume, which self do you show? Is it the fun, happy self who dresses like a pumpkin, pirate, or candy bar? Or do you face your fears of letting your inner goblin, demon, or Grimm Reaper show? The costume you choose is a lot like journaling. You should write about your fun, happy…
Step 4 - There are some things you keep ready in advance, like 2 finely chopped tomatoes, a bunch of coriander leaves, and half lemon. Now add them all to the the cooker. And stir them well. In the figure of eight..? Yes, try. The tomatoes will release a lot of water. Keep stirring well to mash the tomatoes…
People find their own ways on how they want to give back to society and people in their lives. Giving back to society is about making a positive impact, and there is always something out there for everyone. My mother was not from a very wealthy background, so she would say there will never be a perfect time to give…
Are people who used to do the shit all the time all and all and all again Instead of being a NPC think what you’ve done in your younger days or been working up till now that you liked I feel like those people who you think are NPC (didn’t dare to comment on you and still hate on you internally) Are the ones who were…
I love travelling by the Metro. I know Bangalore's Metro isn't as tentacled as Delhi's or as old as the tube (of London) - but by god, I adore the Metro. And this isn't even due to its ridiculous affordability. Stepping inside, you can almost taste the bustle of people hopping from home to work. When i see men and…
I'm talking about structures - more specifically incentive structures. Politics, economies, sports teams, companies are all driven by incentives Those that set up well calibrated incentive structures are the most successful That's why capitalism (with regulation to account for self-centeredness of humankind) works so…
Yesterday I‘ve finished a first draft of my thesis. Today I spent the day fine-tuning it. Once again I noticed how much more I like the process of bringing something from 50 to 100 percent, vs. starting from scratch and creating a first version. I am definitely better at perfecting, fine-tuning and finishing. If I…
Walking the streets of CBD by those towering buildings, cycling along ECP, trekking to Bukit Timah and sipping on beer at the hawker centres, I thought about you for the first time in ages. I lost you when I was 9. Ever since, subconsciously and actively, I hived away whatever few memories I had of you and pushed you…
Meeting people with same experiences as me makes me so excited, in a certain way we just connect in another level, cause they just understand you, they lived through the same thing. Im really lucky to meet so many people that are similar and different at the same time.
Fitness fads come and go. Depending on who one talks to or what one reads, the recommended exercise routine for adults keeps changing. The latest one doing the rounds is the importance of sprint and interval training and the photograph is from a recent session. 30 minutes on the treadmill with eight sprints timed…
Sim, ontem tomei alguns muitos shots de tequila. Vim pro litoral para comemorar a formatura de um amigo querido e passei o dia todo muito tranquila. Fiz saladas com a mãe e tias dele na cozinha, almocei, fui a praia com eles, conversamos, rimos e me senti confortável para beber. Só bebo assim: se 1. Sentir vontade e…
Day-4 of my 30 day atomic essay streak. This one's about how I used mindful repetition to teach myself meditation. For my essays so far, the concept of 'Mindful Repetition' has been the only anchor. If you're unfamiliar with it, then please read 'Essay 2: Mindful Repetition, Compounds.' I have been wanting to practice…
Omfg, seems like something big is happening in La Paz City. === anon8858 I’m still recovering from the shock of the assassination attempt on General Rodriguez. I was there covering the General’s speech for El Subsuelo. This is the most disturbing scene I’ve ever witnessed. The General was arriving at the stage when a…
What is the mind? I don't know. But I know something that seems seems pretty central to it. That is the focus of attention. I've seen people debate over whether or not we really have a will that we control. I can sympathize with arguments on either side. In my experience, if we have control over anything, it's how we…
Eu leio as newsletters da Suleika Jaoud. Conheci ela por meio do Jon Batiste que eu adoro. Ele é esposo dela e uma pessoa muito criativa e, aparentemente, muito alegre. Foi uma surpresa saber tudo o que eles passam no quesito desafio. E como eles contornam o que não podem controlar com excelência, arte e conforto.…
I recently bought an electric fly swatter to handle the flies in our house. It felt satisfying to quickly zap them away. However, today I encountered a fly that exhibited surprisingly clever behavior during its escape attempts. It almost seemed as if it knew what was coming and was afraid. Killing this particular fly…
On our first official full day in Finland I realized how lucky I am to have experienced so many cultures and seen so many different countries/continents. My mom couldn't stop stopping at every single corner to take pictures about the silliest things (in my opinion), for example, being surprised at how blue the sky…
Como é bom descobrir alguém novo e gostar. Hoje fui no show da Salma Jo com meu boy com ingressos que ganhei de uma amiga. Ela comprou, mas não conseguiu mais ir. Disse que era porque estaria em outra cidade, mas eu acho que é porque a namorada dela falou que ela tem ido a muitos shows. Isso aconteceu em uma discussão…
i try so hard every day i tell me i’m right in every way my heart doesn’t dare to hope so it pulls strings and hangs them in ways that paint a picture of you as ‘nothing, buts’ and for weeks there’s emptiness and abyss and space and void until, there you are, emerging and yet this time you are stronger tanner eyes…
It all depends on you Never have the slavery mindset You might be smart and be good at your job But what you believed in And your guts to stay true Stay logical and see things through Do not use emotional Don’t count on motivation Use logical Count on discipline As long as you put your effort into ANYTHING Including…
Hi. My name is Artamon and I’m a hoarder. Hi Artamon. I thought I knew what I was doing. I thought I had a plan and a process. I was wrong. I need help. We got you. Overly dramatic? Perhaps. Accurate? 100% so. Every time I come across an article, a twitter post or a YouTube video that I think I want to read later, I…
I'm a big fan of Yes Theory and their open, serendipitous approach to life. And I try to take them as an example, to seek more discomfort myself, to say yes, to approach strangers, and to face new situations openly and curiously. That's easier said than done, and it's still not easy for me. Too often, my comfort zone…
Some of the best ideas are from someone else. In my two years of journaling daily, I’ve been open to trying new prompts. Some prompts are keepers. Others don’t last. My format came from many sources. I journal in the morning and evening. My morning routine, in the order I adopted them into the format. Gratitude - Two…
“Keep it simple stupid” - Skunk 🦨 Works Lockheed Martin My favourite quote, and something I try to live by
Dear Habibti, Nobody knows tomorrow. We might get back together, or we might not. We might get married, or we might not. But I just want you to know that I have never felt the kind of oneness I felt with you with anyone before. You are special to me. I love you and I always will.
Both my folks are the least loved, miserly happy kids in their respective families. Both have been at complete agreement to all decisions their parents have made for them. Yet both have terrible personal lives but have made peace with the perils of this life.
Had such an amazing and cathartic session with Omar. 1. We looked back at and appreciated the journey I've been on this year. 2. He gave me the external validation I needed - what I felt was real. My pain was real. What I went through was indeed emotional abuse. Omar said that abusive people need to do a lot of work…
I used to get angry and edgy about small things, which did not happen as per my liking. Coming home and seeing someone moved the AC remote from its usual place or moved a bowl on the table. I started acknowledging. Thinking why I am like this. Why is this a big deal. The more I thought, the worse it became.…
Knowing is table stakes. “Do you know the patient?” A common question asked in the clinical world. When I was in training, I literally thought the question meant whether the patient is part of the list I am responsible for that day. A simple yes or no. Now when I get asked, I know that the knowing is much deeper. Do…
É meu primeiro dia de volta ao trabalho depois da cirurgia que abriu minha barriga em três lugares. O céu chora compulsivamente em SP ilustrando bem meu estado de espírito. Eu quero muito ganhar na loteria para não ter que trabalhar. Passaria o dia inteiro pintando, fazendo cursos, cantando e dançando nua e aprendendo…
"Don't tell me the moon is shining. Show me the glint of moonlight on broken glass" Chekhov. And there it is. The secret of creativity in 16 words. Sounds deceptively easy... until you look for the glass. In this four part series on creativity, moving from mayhem to magic in your writing (photography, painting or…
Back to writing again, as I process emotions I've been avoiding for a while. I'm determined to be consistent this time. Last week marked one year since I escaped my abusive family. When I went back home to meet my dad, I was heartbroken to see how much he has aged since the last time I saw him. Despite still loving…
For the longest time I've had a not so healthy relationship with consuming content. I would feel guilty about watching a show or a movie. One of the major reasons was that I had procrastinated so much on the things I should've done that when it was leisure time, it felt wrong. I felt like I hadn't earned it. Have you…
Extractive systems exhaust resources by removing them faster than they replenish. These systems are parasitic, while regenerative systems are symbiotic. Regenerative systems protect and enrich what they depend on. Consider a few regenerative examples: - A regenerative economy would protect the natural energy systems…
I’ve been on a bit of a journey with JavaScript recently, and stumbled upon a simple, yet game-changing tweak—using Boolean(). I used to do the standard stepCompleted != null checks. They worked well enough but left room for surprise with values like 0 or ''. Switching to Boolean(candidate.stepCompleted) was a small…
I get up every day to strive to be a better me and to grow daily. I get up to work hard and gain financial freedom and to be able to build a family and support them with no questions asked. I get up everyday because the love and support I get from being in such a lovely and healthy relationship. I get up everyday…
Sometimes I feel like I see my grandmother in your eyes. The way the soft lines across your speckled face crinkle when you laugh. How your hair reaches up to the sky like the winding branches of a tree. I think sometimes I see my grandmother in you where she is not. When your eyebrows crease and I can't tell if I had…
Have been wanting to cultivate a daily journaling habit but haven’t succeeded yet. Let’s see how this goes. A lazy Sunday as it gets, just back from the gym and realised the right elbow injury from yesterday’s badminton was a real thing. Resting out from gym for a day and from badminton/tennis for the rest of…
This PPT from Jim Keller is suggesting roughly 30% of Performance increase with a slightly increase in clock speed. We are talking about 23% of IPC increase. If we were to fit this number into Geekbench 6.1, assuming linear scaling of performance with clock speed, you get about 2250 Single Core Performance at 3.5Ghz.…
