Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
thinking about the brits in relation to the opium crisis in china makes me feel the exact same way about the brits the way i do about my ex: well fucking played. what a worthy opponent you are-- you erotic beast. i'll get you back.
June 26, 2013. Jerry Seinfeld sits for an interview with Howard Stern. Stern asks about his routine - how Jerry constantly observes, constantly hunts for material, constantly thinks about comedy. Jerry gave an answer. Fuming with surprise, Howard Stern was like - "That's being at work 24 hours a day," Stern says.…
How can we know how many people are currently here with us? The artifacts we leave to the world will almost certainly pierce someone's heart at some point in time. Who can know when and how? And who can know how strongly? The other day, I remembered a location in my home town of Boulder, Colorado on the back side of…
When did holidays turn into parties? Or have they always been a time to party? Is there anything wrong with any of it? Have we lost anything culturally, spiritually? In the US Halloween is about dressing up and collecting candy. Is the true horror story diabetes then? And what part has the party played in this?
Its strange why my articlulation of ideas/feedback has not been upto the mark - despite spending time with clear thinkers. Second order thinking also tends to be a pain in the ass - a number of the decisions that I take spread ripple effects that I need to be vary of. Along with one & two, crisp writing especially in…
A well known meme claims that Eskimo-Aleut languages have a hundred words for snow. Scholars question this, saying that these languages are polysynthetic, in which bigger words are composed of smaller parts and employ suffixes, or postbases. This makes it appear that there are more unique words than actually exist.…
By age 27, all of us have become scarred by our experiences to some extent. I can see that most of us have done things that we regret, have reacted in ways that we shall not anymore, now that we are stronger, better wiser. Is part of growing up also just learning to make peace with past mistakes and past regrets? I…
I am a shelf builder who displays my creativity, in my areas of practice, on my shelves. Recently, friend, Marlon, shared about the three domains in creativity - corporeal, hermeneutic, analytical - where Christian Julmi unpacks Hermann Schmitz's phenomenological approach. In the same conversation, Marlon and I…
It is not easy to write anything. Everyone wants to write something. Preferably something good. Preferably something good and useful. Preferably something good, useful, and uplifting for the heart. But isn’t the very act of writing itself a kind of uplift for the heart? I will not settle that question now. Because my…
Do things you think are stupid but other people swear by. Maybe you’re the stupid one. - Nat Eliason I fought the recommendation to journaling. Now I know everyone should. If you want to start small with a journaling habit, start with gratitude. Here are the benefits you can expect. Identifying what you have, allows…
The only thing that bores me more than my opinion is yours. I haven't heard a new take or a hot take in more than 20 years. Most of my takes are bargain basement off the shelf opinions that I hold true -- I think? -- not because I believe them but because of some delusional image I have of myself. I am not the only…
Computing metaphors are often stretched a bit thin, but one of my favorites that I find myself returning to over an over is serialization. When machines need to exchange information that is being actively processed, they need to first structure and then write out that information in a format that can be transmitted…
Eventually, it's a world of one. I don't mean this in a nihilistic, pessimistic, or even a narcissistic way. I just mean that eventually, it's a world of one. This isn't necessarily a bad thing, but it does give me the occasional existential crisis. Now that I'm starting a venture of my own, I'm more empathetic…
Hoje eu passei o dia todo trabalhando em um artigo para o fechamento de uma matéria da pós. Da próxima vez, preciso pegar um tema mais fácil. O medo de lidar com grandes corporações e seu cinismo em relatórios oficiais e também na imprensa é grande. O que parece apenas desonestidade tem como pano de fundo estratégias…
I missed journalling yesterday. But i do want to capture my thoughts. So here goes. I had a conversation with mummy today. I was as usual badgering her about not having confidence, not putting herself out there, etc. But after a while, i realised something that I have always known, but did not register. Mom's problem…
I usually listen to music on YouTube (and think YouTube premium is rather underrated). I particularly like to watch musicians in their natural state and not 'performing'. Radio station interviews/ broadcasts are a standard fixture. A couple of days ago, I stumbled upon a Tiny Desk Concert by Alicia Keys on NPR. She…
Is a mix of competency and warmth. Find the balance - you can’t be too friendly but don’t know anything at the same time. To have charisma you need competent And you need to radiate out with the right amount of body & language works (way of converse, thoughts, vocabs - language is the best way to exhibit & market…
Today I changed the layout of my phone. Home screen has only three widgets: Google Search, Spotify, My Tasks. Next screen has Weather, Gmail, and eight spots for apps. Next screen has only a calendar. I doom scroll entirely too much and this is an attempt to stop that. So far, so good. I intend on contributing a daily…
I have remained fascinated with the sea, ocean and pretty much all sorts of water bodies since a child and my interest is piqued when I hear any story about the mythologies surrounding the sea. The foundation for this was laid as a child when I visited the aquarium on Marine Drive. Housed in an art deco building, the…
Twitter is terrible, as are all other algorithmic feed social networks. I want the fun of early twitter and livejournal back.
Does anyone else sees the irony with influencers? They are supposed to drive a positive change among their followers and yet we see most of them end up getting influenced by their followers. I don't think most of influencers can truly express themselves on social media. There is always that possibility of backlash…
Lately, I’ve been reading a lot of HackerNews and listening to what others are doing. To the extent that one would feel overwhelmed by information and developing a “what if my attempt is not as good as what I read about?” complex. I resolve to jump out of the mental flywheel and have fun learning one thing with focus…
I do not judge. I'm no saint and I've done my share of sins, hence I do not judge. I'm here to help in whatever way you need me to. I cannot tell you what is right or what is wrong or what you should do or what you should've done. I cannot tell you because I do not know myself. But I will do what you need me to do.…
I ain’t good writing stuff tbh. Hell, can’t even write anything good like shakespear but its the thought that counts :p Music has always been apart of me. From when i was in the womb until now, and maybe in the future. It was my only way of escaping from reality, extinguishing the fiery feeling in my chest after an…
I believe in the power of swiping. I believe it is a song continually singing left or flipping right, delighting in the minor and major of it all and the fall of the green and the birth of the ice and the magnificent way we all stop to think twice about our lives, our dreams, our reams of baroque reasoning our ways…
We are having an argument. On social media. Well, you know, not exactly an argument. That's what everyone always calls it. Maybe it's a conversation, a dialogue? It's hard to tell. Sometimes it feels tense, but I can't really know can I? Is there a goal in mind or are we just passing time. What is the endgame, I being…
Hoje eu tirei os dois sisos que faltavam. Nasceram os quatro. Normais. Sem tortisse. Essa palavra existe? Mesmo assim, a gengiva não cedeu. E cobria os debaixo. A dificuldade para limpar foi pesando. Anos depois do nascimento daqueles que não eram esperados, careou. Sim. Cáries. Então, precisei tirar. Os dois…
Heya! I have always wanted to come back and write and reflect here more. Rather than committing myself to lofty targets, I plan to be intentionally inconsistent here and writing here only when something strikes me so hard that I cannot stop writing about it. So what's something now that I cannot shut up about it? I…
When I first went online, it was with the honest intention of job searching and I did look for work. In fact, the Internet would become a source of income many years later but not before I fell down the rabbit hole of Facebook. Ensue pointless fights and frequent depression but as we move out of a seismic culture…
Life, it seems, will fade away Drifting further, every day Getting lost within myself Nothing matters, no one else. While the rest of the old Metallica banger Fade to Black doesn't really apply to this post, I wanted to borrow generously from the past kings to start it. In a remote hyperconnected world, it is easy to…
I think I've found some sort of silver bullet. Not a magic solution to a problem, but an assumption that nullifies most questions I had. What questions? Questions about human behaviour. Behaviour can be predicted when you're observing a situation and you either have all the information that contributes to a decision,…
(original: 2006 October 18) a quick acknowledgment of WHY i go to my h.s. reunion - louis = devil (as a term of endearment, of course) - i made a deal with louis at the 1st reunion (the 5 yr) - hence, i made a deal with the devil i do not back out on deals (most of the time) some of my memories from the 5 year reunion…
You imagine some futuristic tall pointy structures that go into the clouds, like the Sky Tower in the movie Oblivion [0] But I realised recently that many of us, including myself, are already living in the sky. Over the past few years, I lived in a house on the 33rd floor and worked in an office on the 5th. I spend…
Ahhh 🔁 iteration; continuous testing of an idea until one finds perfection in design. ironically perfection does not truly exists, but iterating on an idea can get design to a point that is almost perfect. i find the most relatable design does not strive to be perfect, yet it it gets so close that allows others to…
(The following is a RP entry from the perspective of my Project Zomboid character, again) I'm a bit scared right now to be honest. Today I was doing the usual looting and found a police station; Jackpot! I thought... and indeed I won the lottery of guns, after clearing 2 floors of zombies I got to the lockers and…
I like how Nicheless just has this whole, "I am a blank page and I dare you to write something on me," vibe to it.
Maybe this is a lesson in never taking anything for granted. I’m not even sure why and how we’ve landed at this place, but we have. Questioning the foundation of something I never thought I’d need to question. Because this was the axiom upon which everything was built. But I guess, here we are. Time to wait and see…
recentemente, recebi a notícia de que estava com uma infecção em decorrencia de um corpo estranho no meu corpito tão territorialista e fechado. toma-lhe dez dias de antibiótico. nesse meio tempo, viajei pro mato grosso, ponto central do brasil, para um evento sobre sementes. uma loucura de calor na rua + frio nos…
it's so easy to take our greatest strengths for granted simply because they come naturally to us. and conversely, to normalize behavior that simply conforms to our surroundings. without stopping to ask the hard questions - to quiet the constant noise begging us to react to it, to be fiercely autonomous, it's easy to…
Just had an appraisal. My Project Manager predicted I’m just going to be a senior planning engineer in 35 years. That’s crazy, I don’t think I have the time for that. What I realised is no matter how good you be at; your position will only dictate you to be at certain levels. Set clear on your goals; remember:…
How to get attracted is to be interesting - study the material and know the content Not aiming to play with words or being superficial like looks etc… Be interesting means reading more about it, actually infuse and understand it, being in the moment to joke around You wanted to be original & you don’t want to copy…
I stuck with the same hair colour throughout 2022. I started my new year continuing with petty thoughts. I basically saw an insta post of S, which said she was “serving looks”. And all I could think of was “can’t believe N is allowing you to dress up well and not feel bad about it” I have very very uncharitable angry…
So many excuses to not create. I need to take a leap of faith. Pounce onto the challenge with hunger. To act with conviction, not just ponder.
O último gole de álcool que tomei foi na virada do ano. Prometi começar 2023 aderindo a um detox alcoólico, aqui chamado de "Dry January", campanha que muita gente abraça no começo do ano ao lado do "Veganuary", mas eu achei muita coisa para dar conta e só abracei a primeira. "Beber menos álcool" está sempre nas…
“Women are so keenly aware of the male experience because our entire existence had to be kind of through that lens. Whereas men have never had to understand the female experience in order to exist in the world.” Here the comedian Sarah Silverman sums up a feeling at the root of so much of our hatred for outsiders.…
Sim, eu tirei a carta de motorista aos 18 anos. Passei de primeira na prova prática, mas... Nunca tinha dirigido de fato pra longe até 2025. Dirigir no interior era uma zona de conforto. Conhecia bem as estradas e nem precisava de um GPS. Mas a necessidade me fez pegar no volante e dirigir da cidade onde moro…
I write this at 8 AM on my birthday in one of my worst states of mind in a while. Ideally, it shouldn't have been this way. Courts have closed in Kolkata for summer holidays and I was to embark on a vacation abroad after more than two years. Only for my visa not to arrive in time. At this point, I am gutted. A while…
No matter how good their life becomes, some people will find things to complain about. It doesn't matter where you put them. What you change about their life. They will crib. They will find things going wrong in their lives and rant about it. The problem is not their situation. It is not the people around them. They…
