Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
It's the first week back at my job after a two week vacation. I had a nice Monday: no meetings, just checking email, code reviews. Then, on Tuesday, the onslaught begins. Meetings, meetings, Slack, distractions, multiple threads, dropping balls all over the place. Feeling dumb. Here we go again. I got some feedback…
India or Netherlands? Business or job? Self-made or ovarian lottery? There is no right or wrong. There are nuances to this question. M tells me to have an honest chat with my parents. She may be right. Sometimes, we make things up in our minds. Those thoughts reflect in our behaviour. That behaviour then attracts…
I can't begin to count the number of new beginnings I have declared. Maybe it's my perfectionist streak in me that demands this. Maybe I should fix this, maybe not. But I do hope to make this one count. There are a few things, I aim to implement in my life. Firstly, thinking about mine and others' failures. I'm going…
At the end, we all die. This is not some distant, obscure fact to be filed away in the background. The fact that you will die is here, right now. This is truth. All your sought after money, status, fame, friendship, lovers, kids. It’s all meaningless in the long run. Dust in the wind. It’s okay to be sad about it. But…
Depois de um dia de trabalho intenso, no dia seguinte a gente acorda com uma ressaca estranha. Uma mistura de cansaço físico, confusão mental, espanto por ter conseguido entregar o trabalho a tempo e a sensação de ter tirado um saco de cimento de cima das costas. Um verdadeiro zumbi. E aí, acabou? Que nada. Mesmo sem…
Did I mention this anon stream has been going on for 4 months? When I found it through the 'Random' feature, I pinned it right before it swapped to the next random streamer. And I've been returning to it every night to check for updates. Some posts in the stream have words in Spanish and others in Japanese. I do not…
Greetings, Today was a fun day, although I didn't get much work done. I had some enjoyable moments and really liked the way I spent my time. I feel that today is a day I will remember, as it marks the beginning of my journey to follow in the footsteps of Dante. I want to enter the "Hell". I was never disciplined or…
I've been reading "A More Beautiful Question" by Warren Berger in which Berger, while exploring how to frame questions in an effort to innovate and implement new ideas, shares an exercise about starting the exploration of an idea by simply asking questions and turning those questions on their heads. I've been thinking…
Had to just get this one out of the way ASAP to see how it feels. Publishing my thoughts online has been a goal of mine this year (never too late to start on your resolutions, right?), and I’m glad I found this medium to do so. Going to leave all personally identifiable info out for now, until I find a reason to do…
I read a quote today that went something like this: "Writing is thinking. If you're thinking without writing, you only think you're thinking." I know this to be true. I've always felt sharpest after a writing session. But I am lazy. Over the coming weeks, I'm going to try and publish my thoughts about whatever it is I…
https://winnielim.org/journal/where-i-can-take-off-my-mask/ This one feels so like my life except I didn't have that social medium to share things up until now. Really thinking of making this place my own. Hope I can stay consistent with it.
Muito possivelmente eu não vou manter esse diacho de blog atualizado, mas hoje deu vontade de escrever, de falar com as pessoas e nadar numa piscina de academia. Olha que são 3 hábitos que só me fariam bem. Ao longo dos meus quase 48 anos esperando o ônibus que não vem no meio de uma zona que não conheço muito bem.…
You want a journaling habit, but journaling requires thinking. Thinking is hard work. You are wrong if you think creating a journaling habit requires deep thinking. Don't overthink what you write when you journal. You journal for yourself. No one else will read what you write. Journaling is getting your thoughts on…
Dia de Reis, de desmontar a árvore e os enfeites de Natal. Há dois anos não enfeito a casa, em 2021 ainda pus uma guirlanda na porta, este ano nem isso. Não me deu vontade. Mesmo não tendo feito as resoluções de ano novo, minha meta é simplificar minha vida. Não pegar petecas que não me cabem, delegar mais, reduzir…
Eu lembro exatamente o momento que tive meu primeiro contato com a meditação. Por algum motivo (que eu imagino que fosse grana), estava ansiosa e minha namorada na época falou pra eu deitar relaxada e seguir a voz dela. Foi meu primeiro escaneamento corporal, também conhecido body scan. Lembro que dormi, de tão…
This day was one of those days that looks like the beginning of the end for remote work. The day started off with our retro. And while there were 10 people in the "room", no one added anything to the virtual retro board. Now frankly, I could give a shit about which rituals we employ to book-end our sprints, whether we…
Hmm. This morning, I was thinking to myself that we use too many apps anyways, and now, I'm thinking of building another one. But then, I find myself excited to see what lies ahead. Also, it depends on the time of day. In the mornings, I am more open to screen-time, but by the evening, it gets too much.
Is to apply HARDWORKING THOUGHTS! And to be prepared! You’re good at last minute changes cos you had to. But planning on the goal to success is what’s important right? Having that vision - and combine knowing what and how to adapt based on different circumstances. If you study just one day earlier - you could’ve…
this is the thing i wanted to talk about: i used to feel deprived in social interactions because i wanted something that i could not get. i didn't really know what it was exactly but i think it is: uninhibited intellectual-artistic playfulness and uninhibited intellectual-artistic curiosity i wanted someone to play…
Flashes of creativity appear in the blank spaces on my calendar. In the shower. On a walk. While driving. They seem to bubble up from my subconscious without any prodding. And the more I look for them, the less they appear. They usually aren't original thoughts. Instead, they're mixtures of ideas from elsewhere.…
Every successful entrepreneur Find their own set of problems Not waiting for someone to tell the problem And move No they know how to get there Knowledge is a form of power. You can see that in meetings, in conversations Who’s the most outspoken and displayed confident Has known how to direct their words And ensure…
Design has become an "ism." A philosophy. A doctrine built on a foundation of frustrations, endless debates, and subjective truths. It’s a never-ending story - one where we never quite agree, because, frankly, there are too many perspectives on what Design actually is. We dissect it, redefine it, gatekeep it, stretch…
Scrolling down Strolling down the web Trying to find something that speaks more This website of blogs seems to have the last post in 2022. I'm wondering if there are more people on here. Where did you all go? Did no one stay?
Short one today. Got stuff somewhat ready for tomorrow. Invited some coworkers over for a hangout after work. First time inviting people over to my place. Was trying to print and post some photos that I took as wall decorations. Almost end of the week. One more thing: I think I may want to try and make this a photo…
''We come for the jobs and stay for the weather.'' Famous words by a friend when I could not stop raving about the cool Bangalore evenings in May. Unlike coastal Mumbai, Bangalore which is set in a valley is a basin with pockets of land that collect water, eventually giving rise to lakes. I have almost no working or…
as i transcribe her old columns, newspaper clippings yellowed with years, flanked by ads for local shops that no longer exist, her persona begins to take form. as if i were sitting at a potter's wheel, coaxing out a shape. as if i were writing a novel, the setting and characters slowly coming to life. i did not…
condition1 ? (condition2 ? option1 : option2) : option3 I like the conciseness of them. They are easy for me to read and reason about in the moment. They are not easy to reason about in 2 months time when I encounter it again. Its why I prefer some verboseness to ease and help future me if condition1 return condition2…
Does anyone else sees the irony with influencers? They are supposed to drive a positive change among their followers and yet we see most of them end up getting influenced by their followers. I don't think most of influencers can truly express themselves on social media. There is always that possibility of backlash…
I recently broke up with my girlfriend of 3 years. And within 2 weeks i was back on hinge. At first I loved being on the app. The validation of women liking you for your looks with no idea how your personality would grate against theirs. Swiping, swiping, chatting, chatting. Plenty is waxed on how great the validation…
22nd I have realised my intense need for validation for the past hurt that I have gone through. That has been further magnified because Nelson does not agree with what I say and that makes me doubt my self confidence so much. So I have been actively seeking validation. I’ve been looking for evidence backing what I…
O último gole de álcool que tomei foi na virada do ano. Prometi começar 2023 aderindo a um detox alcoólico, aqui chamado de "Dry January", campanha que muita gente abraça no começo do ano ao lado do "Veganuary", mas eu achei muita coisa para dar conta e só abracei a primeira. "Beber menos álcool" está sempre nas…
In the morning the weather was rainy-pouring, actually. For a moment ı wouldnt be able to go to the library but luckily it cleared up later. Now,I gonna use my english. I am learning english, there for I am going to the library. sometimes, I am reading book there and there is a free tea and yummy cake (thank you…
Wednesday 29th January. 18 games on one evening. An accumulator-builder's dream. This is a gluttony of football. One show promising to serve up this grotesque buffet of deep-fried dopamine hits. "We go live to the San Siro" "There's been an equaliser for City" "Big chance for Benfica" This is football reduced to its…
Imagine yourself inside one of many sections - zoom the screen - you see small circles of “players” Life is literally a series of choices in a game You feeling anxiety (thinking yourself not doing the right things); And not thinking because you have no one to compare to ie comfort zone But once you know about “there’s…
We must know that there's a difference between being free and doing nothing. I'm a type of person who keeps track of things, set reminders, and make to-do lists. These are few of the ways to sort out my fucked-up prioritisation. But there are days, where I've got work to do, targets to complete, goals to fulfil, and I…
After watching the live feed for hours, I managed to find this post which seems to be a direct response to the previous one: === anon0330 I’m not a guy who writes long posts. But I have to respond to the holier-than-you post circulating the other day. People who condemn los Raznos seem to conveniently ignore how the…
Yesterday night, I left home to take a walk. I spent time looking up at clouds. I arrived on the school field, late at night, and laid down on the cold grass, right in the exact center of the field. It was around 7:30 p.m. - the sky was a mix of blue, pink, and orange. The most perfect time of the day to take some…
I might come off sounding like a sociopath in this post, but oh well. Here goes. I realized today at work that I don't like when people agree with me. I'm on a new team and I've noticed a lot of problems with our processes. There seems to be a lack of automation. Other software engineers may know what I'm talking…
Take a moment to think about where you are right now in the world, the room or the building or town you're in. You can probably visualize your surroundings in your head, how you got here, where you are in relation to surrounding places. Now think of where you are right now on the internet. Think about how the place…
I think all of us growing up in India have never learned how to say 'No.' Since childhood, we got trained to respect elders and comply with their requests. A harmless practice in childhood that later leads to many ill-formed mechanisms as we grow older. A major downside of it often is our inability to know if we want…
Por um bom tempo na minha vida, tive dificuldade de colocar o pé para fora da zona de conforto. Mudanças eram assustadoras e eu gostava de permanecer aonde estivesse. Afinal, ali já estava, por quê sair? Ainda bem que o tempo passa, e que a vida sempre me forçou a sair dessa zona confortável. Ela sempre pôs pessoas no…
The author, Dr. Benjamin Hardy, has written extensively about your Future Self. It's the single clearest way to create motivation, excitement and purposeful in your life. When you can imagine what you want to be in the future, you can feel it. You can plan for it. You can build processes into your life that helps you…
I scored 11 out of 11 here. This has been, I suppose, the greatest source of psychic pain. It’s hard to cope, when you’re constantly reminded that the way your mind works is a mess. There are benefits to this psychic disorganization, it just takes some time and understanding to accept the benefits. I’ve accused myself…
Disclaimer : this might feel like a let down if you were expecting profound insights. Assumption : increased screen time reduces the evolutionary fitness of a person (yes yes that is debatable) Children who have had seizures are advised to restrict their screen time, because flickering lights can induce a seizure…
Went to watch the movie PS1 with mom, asish and venky. Had a lot of fun, and I’m glad I could take mom out that way. Had a nice time today. Asish and venky were so cute and were indulging mom and her stories She took us around some nice heritage places in Vizag
Writing is something I enjoy doing. Not because it's easy. It's hard, so hard I always avoid it. But It gives me a sense of improvement or fulfillment. ever since I've read "How to take smart notes", I've been writing more and more, for myself. At one point, I wonder "why do I write?" To learn, to think better. So…
This is my first post of nicheless, I think the idea for the website is great, and I am happy to be a relatively early adopter. What gets me excited about the platform is the late of likes, reposts etc, and just the ability to get one's thoughts on paper. I'm not sure I would consider myself a writer, but I surely…
as for the history of black amerikka, they are & have been in plain sight. over the last 500 years, we just did not have on the correct lenses to see the whips & chains evolving. the programming that took place over 500 years ago during the creating of amerikka worked so well that we don't even know what went on with…
