Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
proust said that the hope of being soothed gives one the courage to suffer. i just read dostoevsky's "white nights" and i gained courage for suffering. i felt as though i confronted suffering right on, hand in hand, with the narrator. i feel like an utterly different person now. // i've hit a stride -- i'm getting…
I'm sitting here in Rome, within spitting distance from the Arch of Titus, which commemorates the sacking of Jerusalem two thousand years ago. I'm sitting here, as a Jew, thinking to myself, well, they must've really thought something of the Jews then, to have built themselves an arch commemorating the destruction of…
I think the hardest thing I’ve had to do is to decide who to be as a creator. Helping others explore and develop their creativity felt much easier than developing my own. There is such joy in standing with another creative and helping them t o aim their creative arrows toward their desired target.…
Hello World. There's a few areas in my life that I'd like to grow and evolve. Recently, I've been on a personal development journey on and off for the past two years. I happened to find this site on Twitter a few days ago and I was intrigued. In this chapter of my life, I would like to document my journey along the…
I'm always surprised when I find out that I'm not who I thought I am. When I was younger, I thought of myself as a go-getter. Someone who pursued. A manic worker. But I find satisfaction now in not pursuing every possibility. In being selective and leaving a lot of room and time to digest and think rather than just…
Ahh powerful moments in history are not the creations of what we make now. it is the evolution of conversation around the creations that dictate what makes history...
I did NOT prepare to tell my supervisor I was no longer going to to continue being part of the team... and this is what happened: - I told them it was because of a team mate (which is ultimately not true, no matter how hard they are to understand and work with). - I told them so many things out of my ass,…
I enjoyed a tweet from Delian Asparouhov about the ongoing drama between FTX and Binance. The tweet talks about VC excitement surrounding FTX and founder Sam Bankman-Fried (SBF) when he met with Sequoia Capital. Here's the link: https://twitter.com/zebulgar/status/1590394857474109441?s=20&t=eFRg8VydDM9617or9zTQ There…
Wife, after sharing second thoughts about starting a new job: "Do you think they're the kind of people who would hire a woman just because she's a woman?" Me: "Wondering whether you're the benefactor of affirmative action feels kind of gross, doesn't it?" Wife: "Ugh" I should note that the Hebrew term for that…
Do you ever do that thing where you see someone out and about who’ve never seen before, but they look a little bit like someone you recognise. Anyway you’ve only seen their face for a second but not long enough to remember it and because it looks slightly like someone’s face you know, your brain fills in the…
I just miss you so much but I don't matter to you anymore I will to tell my heart that It is not cooperating at the moment
I've noticed that the first 10 minutes of my day can make or break it. If I hit snooze several times and start scrolling through news on my tablet, I usually end up feeling sluggish and scattered. But when I directly get out of bed, stay off my devices, write down thoughts in my journal, and take a quick cold shower,…
i dust the dirt off myself, as i walk up the course, under the light of the sky, glowing with the stars. i reach the ridge and set my eyes free, to roam from the moon above to the plain lands beneath. the breeze closes my eyes, my hands run through my hair. the book under my elbow gets pleasantly risen in the air i…
We ended pt 3 by asking, in short, why can't we leap before we look in our quest for creative colutions? One answer is that we've tried shortcuts. Check the web. It's full of models, maps, diagrams, templates, tools and advice on, 'how to write a killer headline'. While a disciplined approach is clearly of some value,…
Hello. I have missed the last 2 days of blogging. Sorry. I have been having immense anxiety for the past 2 days. And I think I am in a state where nobody and nothing seems to be helping. The biggest reason for this is because my sense of self worth is tied to my sense of productivity. And I feel like I am productive…
Well started writing here as I got infected with mumps 😩. Who gets mumps at middle age? Have been on leave for three days. It also happens to be my wife's neice's birthday. Her 20th one. She had a good day. Lots of gifts and 4 cakes. Happy to have started writing here. Lets see where it takes. While I have personal…
There is something strangely tender about being alive at the same time as everything else. About breathing while cities hum, seasons turn, people fall in and out of love, and the world continues without asking how you’re doing. We spend so much time believing we should have arrived somewhere by now. As though there is…
I love the phrase "I'm so lucky." No matter the circumstances, every time I say, "I'm so lucky," I find countless positive things in a day, no matter what happens. Our van door fell off, we had the worst food ever, or I had a headache. But on those same days, we drove through Scotland, stayed in front of beautiful…
Observe Frequently Notice Dispassionately Accept Realistically Evaluate Creatively Reflect Broadly Value Accurately Embrace Gratefully Adjust Accordingly https://jeffdoolittle.com/2022/02/28/mindfulness/
A friend shared with me today - "But I was not so productive during the last two days." Her past two days She led a hybrid (in-person, video) workshop, started transcribing guided meditations for a case study on how to engage people in using apps to take care of their mental health more, worked on a blogpost, and…
Writing like a lawyer for over twenty five years had clogged my system with literary cholesterol. I was never a fan of legal jargon - you won't get a "hereinafter" out of me - but years of legal writing made Jaitly a dull scribe. Giving legal advice, or drafting a contract, requires words to have unambiguous meanings:…
If only I could.. Left in the liminal spaces Adrift
I've been using the term "excuse" quite often lately, and much like many other areas of my life, I've spent some time unpacking what the word means, what connotations it has, and dissecting what it implies. Through this process, I've attempted to divorce my fairly negative value assignment and instead focus on a new…
A nice lunch, cooking from scratch, having different dishes and trying new recipes, a couple years ago it would had been ordinary, but now with all the convenient meals that are premade and delivery services it just becomes a more special experience and feels rewarding. I want to try to cook more often, its healthy,…
To be not listening to breakup songs Put yourself into position that will not let you feel deep into your own sorrow That’s pretty stupid Think of everyone else - why do Elon Musk and some successful people can achieve so much Because they do not fell into the bug feeling melancholic emotions There’s so much other…
então, eu posso ter demorado imensamente, mas voltei! e só finalizo esse blog quando atingir 365 posts. ontem eu assisti incompatível com a vida e chorei... chorei por ter me visto me despedindo, cantando, dançando, gritando, desguando sobretudo. pode sair, tá tudo bem. também pandemia. também ecos. também vômitos de…
This page serves as my personal digital diary. Due to my overly active mind and severe ADHD, I often forget thoughts that never even make it to my consciousness. It's as if I've thought of everything, but in reality, I'm not thinking at all. The topics covered will range from the silliest reasons to serious thoughts…
I had the privilege of a very long talk with my skip boss. What started off with niceties about skiing quickly moved to discussing a major problem at work. Earlier this week we discovered a necessary change to the database required to move forward with what had been a trivial value-add in our app. The change required…
O texto é pra lamentar que agora o Sesc 24 de maio não vende mais sorvete de iogurte but also to talk about something more deep, como minha rigidez cognitiva com algumas coisas. Eu não gosto de mudanças. Na real, não gostar é muito ameno. Eu ODEIO mudanças. E tudo está sempre mudando o tempo todo nesse mundo. Tudo…
to build a resilient & flexible system, you need iteration. it’s inevitable. a system can only prove its value when exposed to multiple different contexts. if it fails to adapt to a new context, it’s not a great system yet. as you iterate on multiple contexts, the system will progressively adapt to cover more edge…
“We are splinters and mosaics; not, as they used to hold, immaculate, monolithic, consistent wholes.” schreef Virginia Woolf in een van haar dagboeken. Wanneer ik schrijf raak ik soms gefrustreerd met de manier waarop ik mijn gedachtenstromen volg, laat dwalen en met vele omwegen weer terug probeer te leiden. Ik denk…
Things I did wrong in the relationship: 1. I did not walk away 2. I was not truthful about what I was feeling to myself (though I feel like my feelings were criminalised, I do think I need to take responsibility for this) 3. Self regulating my actions despite him begging me multiple times not to - I almost felt like…
Imagine you are making a cake and a milkshake. You put the cake in the oven and realise it's going to take 2 hours to bake. Until the cake is in the oven, you smartly make the milkshake, and then come back to the oven and finish making the cake. That's async processing. All the work is being done on one thread but…
ppl dream so small. every comment on every live performance of every artist says "i want to go to their concert". not i. i want them to sing this to me privately in the fucking shower. matt healy. "robbers" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qu2QXKDNoWs this. in the fucking shower. let's go.
I'm terrified of this one word. It's just one word but contains an unknown universe within. A universe that I am part of, that I live in, yet that which I want to get out of. I was born into this realm and I continue to live within this reality. Even death does not seem to be a meaningful escape from this multiverse…
One of the surprising facts I learns was that YouTube are now doing up to 2Mbps H.264 Video for 1080P content. And the quality is quite impressive for Internet Video. And the world doesn't seems to want to save bandwidth from Audio Codec, vast majority of it are using 256Kbps AAC / Opus rather than 128Kbps. As…
… and break it down. Will they make their bed Will they lay for 15 more minutes and be late What do they know The things they know and don’t - and how they act to get those information How they work around with people
Got a scan today. Baby's doing well. Growing fast with a good heart beat. I, on the other hand, have been told to take it easy. Little sub chorionic bleed but hopefully it should be fine in a few days and nothing to worry. Morning sickness is through the roof but settles down in the day. Mother's TLC, puzzles, books,…
OK. Here's my attempt at using nicheless. What I like: + The minimalistic UI + No-fluff usability; even lack of formatting! + Lack of media and all that comes with it Few questions though + Would it help increase my writing? Is there less pressure due to the smaller word limit? Can I aim for a post a week? + Would it…
I recently started playing Dungeons & Dragons again after about 25 years. I used to play it as a kid, but now that I’ve picked it up again as adult, I’m with the idea that you can sit around and talk, yet this structured, elaborate immersive experience unfolds. Now we have a regular tuesday game online, and a one or…
The doors open wide And you see the light Finally after a long long time And your heart rejoices In glee and delight It dances to songs that it never had the ability to hear before And now it has forgotten the pain Of the chains That bound it from becoming Who it was always anyways It danced and danced As if there was…
How to get attracted is to be interesting - study the material and know the content Not aiming to play with words or being superficial like looks etc… Be interesting means reading more about it, actually infuse and understand it, being in the moment to joke around You wanted to be original & you don’t want to copy…
They say that if you die at home, your cats won't even wait until your cold until they start eating you. I'm completely fine with that. It means my cats will survive until someone finds me/them and looks after them. Is this a weird first post on here? Oh well.
i feel energetically a little STUCK do i: - do more yoga - get the package - read - write - eat - watch youtube (this seems almost certainly like a bad idea bc i am so annoyed with booktube people but i am curious about just one little video...) ? i'm hungry. fuck. my body has decided. i guess i'll eat leftover…
olha, sei nem como começar, então, vou seguir o conselho da minha professora rose e começar do começo. tive um domingo agitado. acordei cedo, fui pra campinas levar minha sogra pra conhecer a minha casa, a casa que eu cresci e rever minha mãe e meus irmãos. já na ida eu estava com a sensação de pointless... não a…
me: i have a once in a lifetime opportunity for you seb: ok? me: do you want to hear it? seb: well they're usually scams me: so do do you still want to hear it? seb: sure me: ok, so how about when you're done making that box, you can go rinse off the deck while i dust off and vacuum down here? seb: weren't all of…
Skyggene gjør seg alltid større enn de er. Mørket tåler nesten ingenting. Det går i stykker av litt lys.
(literally 100 whole metric tons consisting only of $100 bills) i would: - buy forests/jungles/islands (as well as politicians) and declare these areas "protected national parks" - buy land that's currently being used for cultivating palm oil and mining lithium/etc. and reforest them, reintroduce native plants and…
