September 17th - Nelaylysis (3/3)
Things I did wrong in the relationship:
- I did not walk away
- I was not truthful about what I was feeling to myself (though I feel like my feelings were criminalised, I do think I need to take responsibility for this)
- Self regulating my actions despite him begging me multiple times not to - I almost felt like this was not in my power to stop or control but that does not make it okay.
- Assuming that Nelson is better off with me than without, and that I owed it to him to try
- Nelson is just one of the biggest triggers for me in life. I cannot not take anything he says to heart or in the wrong way. Nelson triggered some of the worst personality traits in me. I should have recognised this and moved on