Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
3. writing -- i have so many things to say and no one to say them to, so i write. i say i have no one to talk to not because i literally have no friends or acquaintances but because when talking, one needs to consider the interests of one's conversation partner, and it is exhausting to limit oneself to topics which…
Walks might be considered inefficient, but for me, they are worth every minute. I enjoy walks—they slow me down and allows me to take things at my own pace. During these moments, I like to take time to reflect on my day, either planning ahead or recapping how things went. It’s also an opportunity to reflect on other…
We're taught to practice with only one colour. We're taught to choose only one niche to excel in life. Jack of all trades is master of none, right!? But, did you know the original version of this quote has another line? It says, "Jack of all trades is a master of none, but oftentimes better than a master of one." It…
faz tempo que eu não venho aqui. isso não é uma cobrança, tampouco um pedido de desculpas. a vida acontece e os pratinhos vão caindo, normal. desde a minha ultima visita, consegui terminar mais coisas da reforma e trazer mais uma doguinha pra casa. desta vez, a minha dog há 9 anos. incrível como sua jovialidade e…
I just miss you so much but I don't matter to you anymore I will to tell my heart that It is not cooperating at the moment
The moments of feeling anxious or a negative thought entering the mind are few and far in between now. They exist, I just need the time to summon them and they'll be prompt in their arrival. There's something that stops me from summoning them or engaging for too long with these thoughts. I don't think there is…
Is 1+1 = 3? Looking at my past relationship I see 1+1 is 10 in the beginning. But when the relationship goes to the end one of the 1 is not making less of his own number and he comes even less than what he’s supposed to be: a 1. He was less than a 1, and the other 1 does not care. The maths doesn’t make sense anymore…
O ano novo começou em companhia da minha amiga querida Jessica. Pisciana sincerona, vaidosa, generosa e cheia de sonhos, como eu. Falamos mt sobre esses desejos, escrevi alguns em um caderno de folhas brancas onde também tem os últimos quadrados de 2022. Tínhamos planos de cozinhar, mas topamos com todos os mercados…
Ahhh observe from behind. an alternate message is revealed. is this a message you want to share? if not iterate on the original until both messages are what you want to share because the alternate view from others is just as valid as your own...
Such a stupid word, really. Disappointment. According to Oxford, "sadness or displeasure caused by the nonfulfillment of one's hopes or expectations." While I've never enjoyed the spotlight during recognition of accomplishments, even birthdays, I learned pretty recently how greatly disappointed I feel when my…
Tons of people Tons of things to do Tons of places With all this, I just go into a very extrovert personality to protect myself
Before we get to answering this question, let's preface that by saying the media always blames social media companies for ruining our focus and attention span and giving us depression and anxiety. I think that's wrong. I believe we're doing it to ourselves because we followed our instincts of the need for dopamine.…
There are 2 kinds of jobs. The first is where one needs to do something. This usually requires one to be physically present and trade in time and energy for whatever needs to be done. If one doesn't do something, the job is not done. This kind of job is mostly synonymous to low skill and blue collared work like a…
Today, I heard something I haven't heard in a while—my mom said, "I wish I had a son." I knew this; I knew she always wanted a son. At the same time since I was a kid, I’ve been compared to other people, the kids of other families. As I grew up, those comments came up less and less. But today, my mom met one of my…
I know everyone's suddenly excited about crypto again now Bitcoin has posted new ATHs and Meme Coins are making people millionaires again. I did OK in the last bull cycle, but feel like I need to keep myself more disciplined this time around, to hold myself more to account and make smarter decisions. To do this, I…
6. talk to the trees. their plant matter is tens of thousands of years old and harbors a wisdom that often goes unnoticed. seek out the hidden messages in the sound of their rustling leaves and the intricate patterns of their bark. hold hands with their branches and allow their roots to help ground you. 7. in moments…
i feel like every person with a solid sense of self has "themes" for ex: - outdoor sports, traveling, nature, wanting to discover the world, wanting to have fun (japanese with shun) - environmentalism, human rights activism, politics (some swiss ppl i know) - money, how much money they have, how much more money they…
There are three conditions which often look alike Yet differ completely, flourish in the same hedgerow: Attachment to self and to things and to persons, detachment From self and from things and from persons; and, growing between them, indifference Which resembles the others as death resembles life, Being between two…
Despite my scientific background, education, and critical thinking skills — I am extremely superstitious. I am not religious. I love the contrarian viewpoint. I am able to think for myself. Yet I am incredibly superstitious. It is primarily because of witnessing too many improbable events. In healthcare, some of the…
Sim, eu tirei a carta de motorista aos 18 anos. Passei de primeira na prova prática, mas... Nunca tinha dirigido de fato pra longe até 2025. Dirigir no interior era uma zona de conforto. Conhecia bem as estradas e nem precisava de um GPS. Mas a necessidade me fez pegar no volante e dirigir da cidade onde moro…
I just read "Selbstdenken" and I've been reading Byung Chul Han's "Agonie des Eros" and... Schopenhauer's language is even clearer and simpler than Han's... And Han is already rather acknowledged for his easy style. I think to be popular it's better to be easy-to-understand. That's why Harry Potter was such a hit. And…
I'm writing this while waiting at the entrance of Tata Memorial Hospital, Bombay. I'm here to accompany my uncle for his cancer treatment. This Nicheless post has no purpose. It's just a stream of consciousness from the perspective of a person in an unfamiliar situation. Hospitals are a sobering place to spend time…
The last few months have been brutal for businesses. Layoff announcements, the world over, are seeing all labor go from being valuable to dispensable in no time. Isn't it a bit baffling that businesses don't pause celebrity-led campaigns while they make all the "tough calls?" A few of the big ed-tech companies in…
Also, given I am at a distance now, can I give him the credit he deserves for the effort that he put in to fix it? Can I slowly let this ghost of 2017 Nelson lose power over me so that I can gain inner peace? Can I forgive? I am a very vengeful person, and I know I have felt like "I want Nelson to suffer for what he…
无形的力量 There’s some power that you can’t be seen Discipline Trust Vision Knowledge All these are not superficial All powerful things are not visible. Not in clubs Not in monetary terms Used to feel so weak or anxious Because I didn’t practice discipline which would make me strong Some people consider music as power…
- at the group meeting we were going back to the same state for the holidays, bonding over public transport - at the holiday party chatting about vampires (i go on a 10 minute tangent about iwtv); we decide we should hang on 1:1 before declaring each other friends; bit about me being a 206 year old vampire - at the…
I enjoy taking photos but don't take enough. I was chuffed to capture this image while investigating an old ship wreck with my niece and her father at our favourite beach. The photo is of my niece and her father as they approached the wreck. I had decided to stay back in the shallow as I considered going any further…
Barrenness isn't supposed to be beautiful. But in Paracas, it somehow is. Windy, dusty salt flats, gently curved dunes, cloud capped mountains, jagged cliffs, dark sand, and a seaweed filled ocean. They combine to create a landscape that would look strange even on a postcard. There's no fresh water for miles, so most…
(original: 2010 November 8, excerpt) f|back: when my friend oracle speaks ... ... or [when my friend "oracle"] types ... when i chat with my friend, i enjoy the intellectual banter that ensues. my friend earned the nickname from "the oracle of delphi" - he shared a series of different answers to his daughter's…
As is customary for me, I didn't contribute last night. I had a long day and barely even got my daily skateboarding in, which I am skipping tonight due to the weather. Today was crazy at work with so much going on and only so much time to do it in. We got it done though and everyone really busted ass. So part of my…
Hoje, num evento super cansativo do trabalho, uma das colegas veio me falar do nada: vamos fazer um encontro regional no sul da Bahia, quer ir? Perguntei onde era. E a resposta me assustou. Exatamente o assentamento que minha avó mora! Apontei isso pra ela, chamei meu chefe e perguntei se poderia ir. Ele disse que sim…
It's strange that people think low of people who are vulnerable yet hold vulnerability as a virtue in high regard. Double standards.
ahh ahh ahh... creating daily has disadvantages. i enjoy creating daily, however my mind deems some creations a failure because they lack intent. i have been thinking of a way to mitigate this disadvantage. creating a streamline process of design to extract the fundamentals of an idea. everything beyond the…
Childhood is a magical time. As a parent, I feel pressure to preserve this sanctity for my own children. Of course I could be wrong but I’ve noticed a trend: if there are at least two children in a family, there are two archetypes: a favorite and a performer. The favorite in the family was the one that was, knowingly…
I certainly don’t expect everyone to like /Lolita/ So what’s the matter with me not liking others that many like? I suppose I just want to know what there is to like! So what do I like about Nabokov? He has big dick energy, that’s the first thing. And he’s funny about it. And he creeps me out in the right ways. It’s a…
What are you doing with your time, that makes you feel like it's not being wasted?
(original: 12 February 2006) and back east? ... there's a nor'easter & it's nutty. why people love SD's weather! ... it's the middle of february, FCOL! this is what the SD bay looked like across the street from solar turbines. my worries for today? sunscreen, hydration, air conditioning, and focus. yup! focus is hard…
I was sifting through my social media accounts this morning. Several of my tweets or posts felt like they had been posted a few hours ago. I was recalling my thought process behind each post. How much time I took. How 'important' they felt. How they reflected my mindset and experiences at that particular moment.…
I have done okay as dad this month. While my son did tell me that "I sucked", it was only after he lost control of his temper trying to fit a couple of Lego pieces together, and needed to be separated from them. I take that as a win. When he runs home from the bus, he will give me a great big hug, I will tell him that…
My 20-year journaling odyssey included many variations. I’ve started and stopped journaling, like trying new find the right fad diet to fit in a bikini. My journaling adventure has included food and water logs, family stories, travel experiences, and even free journaling. The result? Several half-used journals. My…
i once had a piano student who had glenn gould energy a little baby of 7 or 10 years old and he told me he only plays the piano to impress girls i thought so young...and he already knows what life is about.
a big block to my introspection/writing has been my poor wifi i just prefer to put my thoughts out there i can feel the judgment already...from older folk like byung chul han who think that this lack of privacy is in a sense a lack of "ritual" and that i have made my "temple" of thoughts into a "museum" but i do have…
i woke up this morning not knowing where i was but my eyes were heavy so i played a game of "where am i"? before revealing the answer i had some guesses a sailboat in sicily was not one of them (my soul plays this game with me regularly to see if i like where i am. this morning i was rather pleased. it's a splendid…
It's the fourth quarter of 2023, and I chose to replenish my 6-month undated Roterunner planner - https://roterunner.com/products/purpose-planner - partly out of convenience, partly out of utility. Meanwhile, here's a list of planners which folks have shared -…
India or Netherlands? Business or job? Self-made or ovarian lottery? There is no right or wrong. There are nuances to this question. M tells me to have an honest chat with my parents. She may be right. Sometimes, we make things up in our minds. Those thoughts reflect in our behaviour. That behaviour then attracts…
Do you have a friend who is in a toxic relationship, and as an outsider, you think, "Why the heck are you still there? Isn't it obvious?" Well, I’ve been on both sides of that situation, and it's easier said than done. As an observer, you don't have any feelings attached, so you look at it more rationally. But…
There have been times when I've been told "good job" and it has made me uncomfortable. You'd expect "good job" to be encouraging. I did too. Except, it felt condescending and I never understood why. Until I came across Adlerian psychology and the difference between horizontal and vertical relationships. For the sake…
Urmi came to Vizag to meet Venky and I. We have talked so much that we have completely exhausted ourselves. It’s fun and nice though. I really like the conversations we can have. I know this may not be a group that meets often, but I hope we’ll meet at least some times. Few important takeaways: The 2 components of a…
