Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
I’m pushing you away because I don’t know how to go back. And I miss you so much. How we used to be. I’m already not recognising myself. I want that care again. I want you in my life. The way it was. Mixed signals and all. But I can’t just walk back into it without an explanation. But how would I even begin tell you…
The dusty bookshop tote, colours faded by the sun, filled with a day's worth of activity. In the safety of tranquility, we hide behind all kinds of screens. Screen to guard us from the sun's rays and screens to guard us from reality. We clutter the mind in a place built for peace. The senses heightened in every…
Sabe aqueles momentos um pouco antes de acordar que a gente fica pensando no dia, nas coisas que tem pra fazer, no que vamos comer, se está sol, com quem temos que falar? Pois então, hoje o principal pensamento foi "o que eu vou escrever no nicheless?". E tive várias ideias, o que não é comum. Geralmente eu escrevo…
Day 3.5, 5:30 pm: does the new publication automatically subscribe everyone? what art for the first "intro" teaser--mom in the kitchen photo or a sketch? Day 4: writers' hour, 5 am, stuck on the monthly blog post which is about mom's newsletter. does this count toward my 15 minute goal of anything C&T related? yes. an…
It only takes a second for your routine to be thrown off. Lightning hit our TV. It was our only TV. We don’t watch TV that much. It’s a nice way to wind down at the end of the day. We enjoy sports (it’s baseball season!). We love old movies. With no TV what will we do? Lucky for me, I have other pastimes. I am not…
While still in the early pages of reading the book- Four Thousand Weeks by Oliver Burkeman, something deeply poignant came through. Time as a unit of measure, is a relatively new phenomena. Watches and clocks arrived to help us become more productive and achieve more in a 24 hour time frame. Several authors have…
My life has been rough lately. I am stressed, sleep-deprived, and unable to function well. This year is my second attempt at applying to grad school programs, and the journey has been anything but easy. I have to keep retaking the GRE, write multiple essays (even just for one school!), and conduct original…
Such a stupid word, really. Disappointment. According to Oxford, "sadness or displeasure caused by the nonfulfillment of one's hopes or expectations." While I've never enjoyed the spotlight during recognition of accomplishments, even birthdays, I learned pretty recently how greatly disappointed I feel when my…
In the immediate aftermath of the 2020 US elections, Ed Pilkington of The Guardian suggested that US democracy was failing in five key areas: voter suppression, the structure of the Senate, redistricting, the appointment of judges and of course, the electoral college. There's another structural element that…
Happy holloween, a day to entertain our hearts with exciting fright and terror. Humans are weird. I think I mispelled a word or two, probably more as I go write along, but hey, who says I can't be dumb on a spooky day. I habitually nervously scratch my nose as I gather and piece together my scattered thoughts. Do I…
Sim, ainda estou em Belo Horizonte. Hoje fui comer a famosa rosca com queijo canastra, açúcar e canela lá no mercado central acompanhada de um cafezinho preto maroto. Que delícia ein! Minas gerais não decepciona em nada na comida. Em nada. Do café da manhã ao jantar, tudo impecável! Do incrível Café Palhares, onde…
Mindset makes or breaks your success in life’s endeavors. Journaling is a tool that changes your mindset. I didn’t journal very long before this became evident to me. I didn’t even know I needed a mindset change. I changed because of my journaling. Let's look at two examples of how journaling changes your mindset.…
I am four days into the new regimen and I am feeling pretty good about the whole thing. I got up at 6:30am this morning to ride Peloton and that is the earliest I have gotten up in 3years by my own volition and not because of travel. I was exited to get to bed last night without a cigar, and to wake up and knock out…
Be so harsh on yourself Just keep doing the same things you did Don’t overthink thinking that they are talking about Rolex, fashion, or any materialistic topics & you have to join them. If you don’t know then just try to know rather than acting like you know Rather than focusing on the non have - why don’t try to…
Are you new to journaling? You need to be journaling at night. Before you're off to bed, you need an opportunity to put thought into your day. Your experiences Words you said Actions you took What made you happy, or what made you mad. You will want to solve the problems that you face tomorrow. Or maybe you need to…
a few days back,an old friend of mine had lost his wife, watching him made me feel the deep pain that greif holds. Yet, i believe it is a beautiful thing and it shows the purity of ones love, so i wrote this short story. Back in the day, in the town of Jasilam, there was a man named Kabir. He was known for his…
The Greeks believed art was created where the gods Apollo and Dionysus come together. Where rationality and irrationality merge. I believe they can teach us a lot about self discipline. How? listen up. Since the beginning of modern philosophy our culture has put rationality on a pedestal. Thinking we could conquer any…
When you were a child, this was a recurrent scene: It's Sunday, all your family gathers around the table to have breakfast. Your mother is pouring the coffee and your father is reading the paper. You see him scanning the pages, looking for something that grabs his attention. He reads and nods a few times, doing some…
When I was a sophomore in high school, I got pulled aside by my physics teacher after turning in a paper on the internal combustion engine. He asked me who wrote it. "Huh?", I responded, genuinely unsure of what to expect from this interaction. "This paper is far beyond the level of technical detail expected for your…
she stood there broken because she heard someone she held dear telling another a sacred confession of public adoration and she stood and sobbed unaware of it all oblivious the same sadness consumes me when i recall that i don’t serve him dinners or he doesn’t hold me through oaths and i think to myself; you & me both
I noticed a tendency in some of my friends. I judged them. Then, I noticed it within myself. --- We're all convinced that the choices we've made in life are superior to those made by others, especially when it comes to our careers. Doctors believe that the medical profession is the most honorable way to spend a human…
Really hoping this is the last restaurant I ever work at and end my cooking career with a bang and make something cool happen while working at this place. Been 3 months since I've started and it's been a pleasure so far.
Used to think about the future. The past. The things I’ve not done. I should be doing this not that. But you used to forgotten that - if you keep worrying about You’re missing out on something that might add up to the pile - the PRESENT! The moment. Never be anxious by controlling yourself, your mindset If you still…
nada é tão distante quando o querer prevalece. djavan acertou - sempre acerta - quando disse que "tudo é viável pra quem faz com prazer". aliás tudo nessa musica é um acerto absoluto.
it's haunting the extent to which i have gone quiet. last night i opened my instagram after a long time. it's purely an exhibitionist platform, but that aside i've some threads in there. most of them begin to grow quiet around 2018, gradually deafening in 2019 and coming to complete silence in 2020 - when i quit. i've…
Today, I met with a friend who was upset about a recent experience at a car dealership. He felt disrespected by the salesman and was still angry and frustrated about it even a week later. We discussed how holding onto these emotions wasn't helpful for him and that with more information, his feelings could change. I…
Death is a known factor that disrupts all projections. The only problem is we don't know where it fits in the timelines of our lives. Today a friend left the office early. I joked to call out his half day. He smiled, winked and said he's just tired. He promised he'll pick the rest up tomorrow. He will never come back…
1) Humans have a tendency to be drawn to binary distinctions. Whether you draw the divide between parties (R/D), or political inclinations (liberal / conservative), or population density (urban / rural), or social class (elite / deplorable), every distinction can ultimately be reduced to us vs. them. This primordial…
Growing up, you've probably had your parents tell you to care about what others think. They want you to be respected by society. But when you shrug it off, thinking, "Who cares?" you're not alone. This "respect and status" stuff may seem old-fashioned to Gen Z, but if you look closer, they're still after something…
olha, sei nem como começar, então, vou seguir o conselho da minha professora rose e começar do começo. tive um domingo agitado. acordei cedo, fui pra campinas levar minha sogra pra conhecer a minha casa, a casa que eu cresci e rever minha mãe e meus irmãos. já na ida eu estava com a sensação de pointless... não a…
Ontem eu falei aqui que tava na bad pq um ficante terminou comigo. Fui almoçar com uma amiga e chorei no metrô, chorei no almoço, chorei voltando pra casa, passei mal na rua, enfim o drama. Eu já aceitei que eu sou dramática. Falei com essa minha amiga que eu almocei, uma amiga que tá vivendo um amor de verão dos…
Hoje eu recebi meu salário. Adoro ser CLT. Antes disso, há alguns dias, recebi o valor referente às minhas férias. Paguei contas minhas, da minha mãe. Adiantei o valor do caixa do casal de março e vou adiantar a parcela da pós também do mês que vem para este. Paguei o outro caixinha, paguei aluguel, condomínio, gás,…
I've been living in Singapore for a few years now. It's amazing to how advanced this city is. Coming back to the city, after a trip to smaller towns in Asia, feels like time travel. If you want a glimpse into what the future could look like, visit Singapore. Once the sense of awe subsides - it does keep coming back…
This is a reminder to myself that a new beginning is coming—the one you’ve been waiting for so long. So, just finish this chapter, make your last effort. As hard and tedious as it is, it’s going to be over soon.
The ultimate sin on Wikipedia is original research. You know, cranks adding lengthy conspiracy diatribes to what was a perfectly reasonable article. Banning original research is a convenient way to shut these people down. Now all you have to do is say 'where's your source?' Unluckily for us, you can fall foul of this…
Walking the streets of CBD by those towering buildings, cycling along ECP, trekking to Bukit Timah and sipping on beer at the hawker centres, I thought about you for the first time in ages. I lost you when I was 9. Ever since, subconsciously and actively, I hived away whatever few memories I had of you and pushed you…
Minha Doguinha, que eu chamo eventualmente de gordita, mas também de carinho, amorzão, butijaozinho, marronzinha, bananinha, galinho de briga, saco sem fundo, gulosinha, entre vários outros nomes carinhosos (ela atende todos), está dormindo pesadamente do meu lado. São duas da manhã e tô acordada pq despertei com ela…
Today I spent almost the entire day just doing excel analysis. It is tiring and tedious, but I love it. It makes me feel so satisfied when I finally put data into a form that makes sense to me, no matter how menial the task might be. I spent 1.5 hours by myself today post dinner just listening to music and doing excel…
I have a lot of complicated feelings about speculative design as a practice. Its heralded to be this radical tool for guiding us in dreaming about the futures that we want to live in, therefore making us believe that what we can dream, we can create. While there is truth to this, much of the design fiction and…
you had a lot of big adventures new sights and people. i had little of that. i don't mind that it's not the same for you for me, your friendship is the best thing to have happened to my year. i bask in the glow that you you're still here of course i'm still here sometimes i find myself waiting but i don't mind that…
After half a year obsessing over the university that I actually got into, I finally saw it in person. Its so weird, it's so different, felt so different. The campus matched the multiple videos that I saw, it felt a bit smaller, but its so much better than I ever imagine, cause I'm actually here, experiencing and being…
My parents video call me everyday. It could sound like I am complaining but that's not it. I like that they do. Most days I do pick up the call regardless of if I am out, at a party or at a friend's place. Usually, the conversation goes as follows- where are you (when I'm out) did you eat? what's happening? what else…
Gives me perspectives on How you always work so hard for someone And you gotta be fearless & understand you don’t have any thing that drags you down E: if you don’t love the girl or the guy, it’s okay to let it go - and if you’re on the other side Understand that it’s okay & let it go Kinda in your situation now Just…
For many years, the river apologized for its banks. Whenever it flooded, it apologized. Whenever it changed course, it apologized. Whenever it carried away a bridge built carelessly across its body, it apologized. The villages grew accustomed to this. They spoke of the river as though it were a servant. They drew maps…
my sleep was really poor i blame it on (1) lack of exercise (2) having to sleep next to a person (3) said person "forcing" me to watch movies with him, but delaying the start of the movie until late because he has to "work on something", causing unfavorable screen lights to enter my field of consciousness and…
A sense of assurance that eventually things will fall into place and you will be more than fine. Its a state of mind which makes you calm, happy and at complete ease. The last I felt this is when I was in Kannur, Kerala for New Years. The clean and calm beach with the shades of sky changes from orange to hot pink, the…
To my 3 year old ex to those memories to those happy moments tears shed for me i apologize - forgive me. to those dear good mornings that cheery routine a part of me those GNs, stickers and little jokes cutting you off i apologize - forgive me. to cope, to move - not necessarily forward. Id bounce from hinge to bumble…
This is what I'd like to say: "Hey, how are things going with Project X? Do you require more time?" What I have to say is this: "Hey, how are you doing? I just wanted to check in on Project X and make sure everything is running smoothly. The deadline is approaching, so please let me know if you require extra time. :D"…
