Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
I am in the fortunate position that opportunities have consistently come my way over the years without deliberate planning on my part. Rather than meticulously strategizing every move, I've gone with the flow, relying on my instincts to guide my decisions when opportunities arise. Key to this approach has been my open…
To my 3 year old ex to those memories to those happy moments tears shed for me i apologize - forgive me. to those dear good mornings that cheery routine a part of me those GNs, stickers and little jokes cutting you off i apologize - forgive me. to cope, to move - not necessarily forward. Id bounce from hinge to bumble…
O texto é pra lamentar que agora o Sesc 24 de maio não vende mais sorvete de iogurte but also to talk about something more deep, como minha rigidez cognitiva com algumas coisas. Eu não gosto de mudanças. Na real, não gostar é muito ameno. Eu ODEIO mudanças. E tudo está sempre mudando o tempo todo nesse mundo. Tudo…
I think about meaning a lot. Maybe it’s because meaning wasn’t up for debate when I was younger. There was a book that laid it all out. No questions to ask. Just faith. But I question if there ever was real faith in me. I think there was fear and shame. There was desire to belong. And there was longing for meaning.…
I'm grateful for people in my past. They are influences in my life who helped me shape the person who I am today - good and bad. Off late, I have been consciously choosing to focus on and spend MORE time on people who I have a common future with rather than those who I have a common past with. It's easy to get stuck…
Coming from a small village, it was pretty uncommon to hear people discuss things like wealth, assets, capital etc growing up. It was very strange and unsettling when I met teens from Mumbai. Many of them seemed miles ahead in their business vocabulary and had a strong sense of business more than most of the "biz men"…
What is it about being drunk that fills you with a sudden zest for life? What is it about being drunk that helps you remember that you love people?
Worry globally, neglect locally.
Message to myself 2 years ago: There are different ways of looking at the world than the way that you look at the world. This fact feels obvious to you, but the part that doesn’t is: it’s really easy to dismiss those other ways as less real, relevant, meaningful, realistic. The aversion you have to looking at the…
Lately I've been struggling to stay focused. Without missing a beat, the first piece of unsolicited advice I got was to try meditating. Then again. Meditation. Whether you're depressed, distracted, grieving, stressed out, anxious or, well, pretty much anything these days, you can rely on someone nearby who won't shut…
I tried to nap twice today but my mind was racing too much.
Sometimes I behave in ways I don’t understand and it’s like my soul has a goal and has decided how to get there.
1. my morning walk on the street curved along the beach 2. books. im currently reading "muhammad" (a historical biography; i'm trying to read a historical biography of the "founders" or figureheads of every major religion...so far i've read about jesus and there was not much information to satisfy but this specific…
It hit me today. The realization didn't hit me like a ton of bricks. (Like some people would say.) But it did arrive to my conscious awareness. What am I talking about? Well, the fact that people don't do that of taking time and space out of their mundane routine. Like what I can write in the following paragraphs can…
The anti-hustle people will tell you that if you're procrastinating on something, it doesn't mean you're a lazy good-for-nothing loser. It means your subconscious is sending you an important message. At the time of writing, I've just spent 5 hours pointedly not doing the real-life paid work that has been stressing me…
this post is an example of what i am trying to explain before you talk to someone about an idea, think about it on your own that could be writing, that could be thinking why? because there is nothing worse than a deep thought that hasn't been at least a little thought through it's good to discuss these things with…
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sass voice "cuz listen, you wanna suck it up now, so you don't have to suck it in later" head bobble wink tongue click i acquired a false perception of myself. i thought of myself as a meek spiritual introvert who therefore enjoys yoga but every time i did yoga i was so fucking bored...UNLESS i was in a group and i've…
I noticed a thing about myself a couple of times - I go into the "I'll prove I am worthy of this" mode too soon. It is a pretty natural reaction to feeling rejected or challenged. I guess some of it also comes from a childhood where quite a bit of validation came from achievement. On most counts that need to prove is…
Covid came and Covid went (well, not really). There was isolation for a long time. Then there was not, as long as you wore masks in private spaces. Shortly after I started going out, I began having these recurrent dreams. I would dream that I entered someplace (the bus, the shopping, whatever) and suddenly notice that…
I try to live my life without regret. I try to live in the present, neither the past nor the future. It isn't easy though. I have bad days all the time, horrible, miserable days. At times I just want to give up and many times I do. In these moments, I find it hard to live in the present and yearn for a better tomorrow…
Hi all, this space caught my attention. Let's see how long do I continue writing here.
I'm sitting in my garden enjoying the last moments in my house, fresh air, tranquil and great weather. Time goes by so fast, feels like last week when I would come back to school to this feeling.
Don’t be too available and vulnerable when meeting new people Be calm Having a lot of your mind and thinking a lot - that’s what a more logical people would do. Blurting it out is too emotional and sometimes easy to lose people’s interest [Meeting with Lisa] Grasping the emotional components of conversation Getting…
It had been over 4 years since I last took some proper time off work, but the last 6 weeks have been great. I saw some amazing places, met some interesting people, spent time with some of my closest friends, ate some great food, and discovered some lovely alcohol (mezcal & pisco for the win!). Now that I'm back, I…
I lay on the mat staring up at the kaleidoscopic reflections on the ceiling. I pictured the next thing I could do at that moment. I pictured an event that could follow that, and another to follow that, and I whizzed around and around until I caught myself, and I realized I was Telescoping. In the next few moments, I…
It's very popular out there the notion of building a habit by taking the activity in question on practice it every day for a certain number of days. It's embedded in many popular apps like Duolingo or Strava. I think it got popularized by the habit building experts out there and also due to the Seinfeld strategy. You…
Our friends say they’ve experienced a lot of goodbyes and they used to not bother even saying hello until they learned that there’s a possibility you see each other again and that possibility makes the hello and intermittent goodbyes worthwhile. But there are many people I miss who I will never see again. The feeling…
As a baby your nervous system isn't fully developed yet. When you feel stress, you need touch. Real touch, soft, slow, friendly, safe touch. You're held by a caring being much larger and stronger than you. The gentle motion and smiling face is comforting to you. You feel the stress ebbing away. As you grow older and…
1331 Just took a walk - no call yet. Bad news would have led to an immediate call, I suspect. Then again, may need time to absorb bad news first. All the worrying you do now won't affect what happens next. 1332
Estou de férias e ontem, como não poderia deixar de ser pela lei de murphy, era 18h e eu ainda estava trabalhando. Depois, sai sozinha pra comer lamen, na companhia do meu Kindle. Terminei o livro do clube do livro tomando um bom caldo de porco com macarrão e alga. Tomei uma coca cola sem gelo e com limão e pedi…
Encontrei com a minha irmã no último domingo. Ela me encarou assustada gritando: "O que aconteceu?" logo que notou o roxo se alastrando por onde outrora repousava meu bigode chinês. Contei que durante um procedimento estético, o médico provavelmente pegou um nervinho. Encarei-a de volta e percebi que, aos 55 anos, a…
Today, it’s easier than ever to live the life you want. It doesn’t take long scrolling social media to see words like intention, mindfulness, and goals. The question is, do you know what you want? “Nothing will bring you peace except yourself.” -Ralph Waldo Emerson You must know yourself to know what you want. With…
You should say something that’s secretive That has a chapter 2 To hold conversations Is not to speak whatever’s on your mind But to pull others head towards your “mysterious and many other missing details” stories. To hold converse is to leading the words on Not spilling everything out cos some people might not be…
One of the most startling aspects of becoming a father is how that experience somehow heightens every emotion in life. The highs are much higher than pre-fatherhood, while lows are more difficult to accept. In some ways, there is plenty to learn when you become a new father. First, that 'newness' never leaves.…
Approach life fast as possible - applies the same how you approach SUDOKU... So here's the thing I want to tell to my 27 self There's nothing much better than being a player and acting in the game of life rather than being a side character! You want to be a main as much as possible. So act like one! One trait that…
Now to the final steps- Step 11 - Now the cover this vessel with a lid tighly and heat it on high flame for a few minutes. Gently open the lid after 2 minutes. If you see the steam coming out, reduce the flame to light. If you don’t, continue the same step with lid covered for another 2 minutes until you get the…
Estou lendo "A Cidade Solitária: Aventuras na arte de estar sozinho", de Olivia Lang. A leitura tem me absorvido também pelas referências artísticas da autora, que morou uma temporada em Nova York, uma das cidades mais cheias do mundo, mas onde se sentiu terrivelmente sozinha como muita gente se sente nas grandes…
Sorry. I admit it's tough to 'accept' you into the spaces I frequent. Some of you I've muted, some I've just outright not talked to... and it's not really anything you did, I just personally don't want to be involved in your life anymore. Wherever you're going is not where I'll be. I'm happy for you, but we're just…
When we prepared for our move from plush to mush, we planned to live mostly without electricity. Solar power was - and still is - part of our plan. Since that part requires more funds than currently in our tiny bank account, we rely on whatever electricity is available. I have mixed feelings about just how easy it has…
Last month, I started learning how to make homemade ramen. The goal was simple, make something edible. Now I'm getting pretty good at making ramen. And my interest is starting to peter out. I'm not waking up thinking about where to source local chickens anymore. I'm no longer rifling through amazon for better fridge…
Por um bom tempo na minha vida, tive dificuldade de colocar o pé para fora da zona de conforto. Mudanças eram assustadoras e eu gostava de permanecer aonde estivesse. Afinal, ali já estava, por quê sair? Ainda bem que o tempo passa, e que a vida sempre me forçou a sair dessa zona confortável. Ela sempre pôs pessoas no…
Sometimes it's easy to forget, with how big the internet seems, how small the world is. I clicked on a link to read an article by Raina Raskin, a new mother, about how the first time her baby smiled at her shattered her illusions about what mattered in life. All that status-seeking, career-promoting bullshit didn't…
I recently read an article by my fav blogger/idol/human Lawrence on finality of everything (look it up, it's a gem). Here's an excerpt from that- 'Understanding the finality of everything brings a clarity that only a wiser version of myself can see. If I know that one day I’ll long for the very things I routinely…
It was like running downhill. The plan was to be slow and steady. I found myself picking up momentum the further I ran. Or, in my case, the more I journaled. I thought journaling gratitude would be enough to carry me for the rest of my days. But I talked to other journalists. I read about journaling. What benefits…
Então... Eu tenho notado, como a maioria das pessoas cronicamente online, que a magreza voltou com tudo. Fica difícil sustentar que você quer continuar sendo uma pessoa gorda quando o cenário geral, tipo, 90% das pessoas já não tem noção e não faz mais sentido a máxima de "não comentar sobre o corpo do coleguinha."…
I was born in the late 80s, which means I grew up playing Starcraft. For those of you not born in the 80s Starcraft is a computer game where you'd build little armies and conquer the map. There were the future humans called Terrans. There were fancy hi-tech aliens with their spaceships and laser beams called the…
There’s a quick way to find your talent short cut. Do the actual hard work not the societal pressure (means thinking hard and giving high standards to yourself) Once you got there you’ll have so many things you can do - and you have that “do it now mentality” same as “enjoy it now not later” Do more and reap the…
