Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
Today was a day when i was having starting trouble The only thing that really got me kicked up and ready to go was when i got a call from an external entity. What do i learn from this? 1. I do not like moving when I do not know have any plan in place about how to achieve what I want to achieve 2. I am almost always…
ahhhhhhhhhhhh this week instead of my daily renders i took the time to develop more of a framework around how to use an AI text to image generator. with unlimited possibility for iteration, the power is to add layers of complexity slowly to the process as progression continues to further hit the design ethos. emphasis…
I recently started playing Dungeons & Dragons again after about 25 years. I used to play it as a kid, but now that I’ve picked it up again as adult, I’m with the idea that you can sit around and talk, yet this structured, elaborate immersive experience unfolds. Now we have a regular tuesday game online, and a one or…
Going out with friends that have the same hobbies as you is just another level, today we went to the museum because we had a sketching assignment. It felt so cute that we were all walking with our sketch pads and pencils and sitting on the floors of the museum to appreciate artworks. I'm actually studying what I love…
I'm here to kickstart my digital writing habit. Here's my grand idea: write 30 atomic essays in 30 days. (Of course, the idea is stolen from @dickiebush) But it is not about the idea. It is about building a system. A system is a collection of parts that work together to produce an output when fed with an input. This…
Alright this is the second time in a row that I forgot to write I did not create the time block I talked about.But, no more excuses. I'm doing it right away to remind me everyday to write at 9.30pm. Right now when I'm thinking about what to write here, there are a thousand ideas swimming in my mind. Rather than…
People love to talk about themselves. They may be busy and difficult to get on the phone. But once you get them started, they are delighted to tell their life story. Use that to your advantage. -- If you haven't worked at a startup before, you probably have some idea in your head of what the experience will be like.…
Imagine if the earliest explorers were asked to create an itinerary before they set out to travel. Absurd, right? But that has completely changed for the rest of us. We travel after meticulous planning. In fact, our planning is so meticulous there is a whole industry around curating trips. Travel influencers are a…
I thought I was further along than I actually am. Turns out, it's 1 of 10 finished. And finished isn't even the right word. That 1 of 10 is far from being done, but it's at a point where at least I won't combust from embarrassment showing someone. But we always end up on the fact that none of it matters. I've always…
What happens when your environment does not match your needs? As our need for food and safety is fulfilled, a new void opens up. The need for love and connection. This is where we start noticing other aspects of our environment. A friend, a beautiful lady in the street, a like on a post.. Our environment is the same,…
You know the second question we ask anyone we meet, after of course asking for their name. It is inherently understood, we are asking if they have a job and how they make a living. It's a weird way to put it no? "What do you do?". Is work the only thing that we do? Don't we all play many many roles in our lives? But…
I wake up at 6:47 AM and the first thought is: I'm not going to smoke today. The second thought, three minutes later while I'm already on the balcony with a cigarette between my fingers, is: Well, fuck. It's not like I forgot. I remember saying it yesterday—actually saying it out loud to myself while brushing my…
Im eating a Ferrero rocher chocolate bar (YES THAT EXISTS; at least in italy) and drinking coconut milk (to prevent Alzheimers) The sugar is diminishing the effects, unfortunately, maybe. And I’m watching a short film on YouTube https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KORZf5JL1hU And it is raining Hit me, inspiration. Just…
Trungpa has always really spoken to me. All the themes he touches on are salient to my life — fear and bravery, sadness, loving-kindness, self-hatred. He takes things I believe myself to be good at (being soft, sad, sensitive, honest, open) and says these are what you need to cultivate in order to be free of fear and…
On a recent trip with my friends, I asked them if they were ok telling me how much they were worth i.e. how much money they had in the bank. During the trip, I had skirted around the question by asking what their "number" was. But that evening, I just asked if they'd be ok telling me. I've been thinking a lot about…
I miss reading. It's been a while. It's hard to find time to start, and hard to stop recalling other things now in the middle of it, once I do. I miss learning things, the traditional, institutional way, ha. As in, at school, with books and teachers and papers. The constant input and feedback, the focus on you, when…
Dear Habibti, Nobody knows tomorrow. We might get back together, or we might not. We might get married, or we might not. But I just want you to know that I have never felt the kind of oneness I felt with you with anyone before. You are special to me. I love you and I always will.
What is existence but a search for answers that never quite come. Existence reflects patterns. Patterns that one must recognize in order to survive. What if... the internal discomfort of specific patterns exists for a reason? What if... the shaming of pattern-recognition is coordinated for the sake of mental…
Remember those boxy robots from a couple of decades ago? The ones that spoke to humans and passed witty quips? I remember being so hooked to it that I'd have given an arm for that experience as a kid. Safe to say, we fell rather short in our attempt to make that a reality. We used the language of computers aka logic,…
An abundance of information is good but unnecessary. Learning, knowing, and consuming information under the garb of curiosity is a neatly packed product sold to all internet users. Most marketing courses prescribe creating informative, valuable content to subtly signal the need for a product. This method of selling…
Don’t forget your party favor! Thanks for coming to my birthday party yesterday. I'm glad you could make it. I've learned a lot in 65 years. I started writing so I could share it with you. You might have to spend some money on my gift to you yesterday. Today's party favor is also a list of life lessons, but these only…
i hate how much i loved your laugh. i hate how lonely all of this growth feels. i hate that you never celebrated my hard work. i hate that i tried. i hate that i loved your car. i hate that i loved every bit of that part of you that made me hate myself. i hate that i stayed. i hate that i waited while your mouth…
The Joker rises above all other villains because he does not want anything. Every villain wants something: -Power. -Respect. -Revenge. -Love. -Wealth. The Joker wants nothing. Can you imagine encountering someone like him at your college? or your office? or your neighbourhood? Someone hellbent on destroying the…
I have ENOUGH money. What I don't have enough of is - happiness fun meaning
Ahh revealing a piece of my personality. it was scary at first, but once released, i was surprisingly calm. i now exists...
I understand they happen to be there because it's cheaper and simpler, but what a tasteless and generic place to put them. Lighting can be beautiful if you set the sources gracefully. Indirect lighting can make a magic atmosphere and functional lightning can be a great tool depending on your goals. But "one light bulb…
there is something about the nature of the things i seek which makes them hard to find namely that i look for things that are largely unspoken i look for the anti-memes and i am so attuned to this quality that the books i want to read are often difficult to acquire or out of print
We went to school together. We have known each other for twenty plus years. Given your unsocial behaviour, your family is surprised that you have maintained a friendship so old. The only other relationship older than ours is that with your family members. We have literally taken work from home opportunity to our…
Sim, ainda estou em Belo Horizonte. Hoje fui comer a famosa rosca com queijo canastra, açúcar e canela lá no mercado central acompanhada de um cafezinho preto maroto. Que delícia ein! Minas gerais não decepciona em nada na comida. Em nada. Do café da manhã ao jantar, tudo impecável! Do incrível Café Palhares, onde…
Estou há tanto tempo viajando que perdi um pouco da noção do tempo. Mas hoje é domingo, tá um sol lindo aqui e eu vou aproveitar pra ir na Lagoa da Pampulha. Quero dar uma voltinha de bicicleta e depois ir pra uma caminhada que eu até me inscrevi pra fazer. Depois, mais um filminho, já que eu estou na maratona do…
Recently built my first kit guitar! Really happy with how this one turned out. After years of fixing up cheap guitars I was ready to build one of my own. Picked the kit up as a local guitar show and finished it in about a week. I also picked up a Harley Benton Tele Style guitar a few days before the show. It had a…
An old colleague messaged me today about a memory he had of me. We haven't been in touch for a long time, so I was surprised at the message. I enjoy dancing. The times when all of us went out after work, I'd let my hair down. It was my first job after graduation. Our team was small, and most employee-manger rules…
Something as simple as a hot shower can be so many things at the same time: a moment to reflect, a moment where ideas pop, a moment to rewind, a moment to be peaceful with yourself, a moment to share with your loved one (?), a moment to feel the hot water rinsing your skin, a moment to feel refreshed, a moment where…
It’s funny how many arguments are essentially semantics and can be made into total nonsense if you play taboo. Another big category seems to be essentially arguing about various axes of morality. “You hate the rich and yet you drive an SUV which is bad for the environment? sus!” But these are two different axes. You…
7.46 AM Tiene varios días que me despierto antes de que salga el sol. Estoy decidiendo si leer o escribir. Crear o consumir. Ayer fue un día interesante, practicando programación en Go, visitando a mi familia. Más un día de descanso que otra cosa. Ah, y viendo por fin el documental de Fyre, que me dejó un sabor…
My clinic has been objectively doing well. Two of my fellow chiefs reached out to me to ask the secret to our success. I attributed our success to: a)Size b)stability c)Culture d)tools For size, we are small and when you look at the performance of the small vs. the large clinics, small wins. For stability, no other…
posts in the discover tab only shows posts from 2022, wonder if this platform is still active.
There's a lot to learn from watching an ice skating class. Let me paint a picture so you can imagine what I see. A big round ice rink with about 50 people with varying levels of skill. There some who skate as if this were the Olympics and there others who resemble penguins trying to maintain their balance. You have…
I've often pondered the concept of states and governments. When you zoom out, it's actually quite strange and alienating: some institution draws a line, declares that the land within it belongs to them, and all people living there must follow the rules set from above and give up a part of their belongings. On one…
(original: 2010 August 03) i connect dots. random? NO. shuffling around of dots? ALWAYS. including people? YES. mindmapping in motion ... i often find myself connecting events, information, people, and activities that seem unrelated to some but are (or should be) related. back in 1995, i called it POE's Corner -…
Lately, I’ve been thinking: home is not a place, a country, or any physical location. Home is a feeling you get around people, people who always welcome you with a warm hug every time you see them and give you a tight hug every time you leave. While some people identify with their country or hometown, I identify with…
My room is not so tidy. I don’t have a place for the shoes, there are some sheets of paper on the floor, but it’s okay. I look at it and I’m scared. It looks temporary. Now it’s tidy, tomorrow will be a mess. And the more I try to keep it tidy, the more my fear grows. Just like for my mind, I’m afraid of the following…
I kind of want to read Holzfällen twice, in German then in English because I feel that the voice is completely different. perhaps I should read Murakami again, in Japanese. or try to... Philip Gabriel's translations of Murakami is such a special voice and I really really enjoy it but what does Murakami actually sound…
All models are wrong; some models are useful. Models are fantasies every single one of us holds in our consciousness about how the external world, in whole or in part, works. We are constantly exercising and updating these models to decide how bring reality into accordance with our desire. When things work as…
I took down my website. It was bullshit. Just like the many bullshit ideas that cross my mind, and all the other bullshit projects that I embark on. I started that site as another "creative outlet". A place where I could improve my writing. The latter, AKA "the goal", remains genuine. The former, AKA "the idea", AKA…
Sometimes we only miss something when it's gone, and then we feel an emptiness in its place. The art should be to be aware of this even before the void appears. To fully appreciate every moment while it's still present.
a little bummed that the sun goes down at 5:30 and at 6:00 it feels like midnight i like the night but still it is far too early to feel like i have to start cooking... i'm starting to like poetry (thanks, sylvia plath) also i am no longer afraid that i won't have time to read all the books i want to read i am now…
turned on the water heater to shower and then was like "nah" smelled my armpit, and confirmed my "nah" i smell like nothing.
