Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
I'm currently at a wellness hotel with my parents, enjoying fantastic 4-course menus for dinner. The contrast from university canteen food was high, yet by day 3, it's already starting to feel normal. This shows how quickly our reality shapes our perception, with new experiences rapidly becoming our new normal. We…
Today has been another day of just constant “Shivani-nelson” static. On top of that, I saw a slack ping from Varun (top boss) on a thread, where he directly addressed me. Here’s me noting down how my body reacted to it; 1. Immediate heart rate increase 2. Sinking feeling in my stomach 3. Thoughts in my mind about -…
I went without a phone for almost two weeks. the first day was absolutely terrifying. granted I was in an unfamiliar place, staying alone, and unable to give proper notice that I'd be unreachable. but as I rode home today with a new iphone box, typically one of my favorite activities, I felt a twinge of sadness. there…
the startling, borderline terrifying -- yet strangely comforting in its reassurance of purpose -- ephiphany: this is FOREVER, this writing gig, this cook & tell revival. like the jarring middle-of-the-night realization in early sobriety. and then, as it did almost a quarter century ago, the universe gave a little…
The real essence of understanding lies in the ability to listen without the hunger to judge or correct.....for judgment interrupts what listening can reveal.
Day-4 of my 30 day atomic essay streak. This one's about how I used mindful repetition to teach myself meditation. For my essays so far, the concept of 'Mindful Repetition' has been the only anchor. If you're unfamiliar with it, then please read 'Essay 2: Mindful Repetition, Compounds.' I have been wanting to practice…
....Haha got you! You're welcome to read this even if you're not a swimmer, with the disclaimer that the sentences will meander with almost no meaning and most certainly put you to sleep! However, if you've spent a better part of your childhood training in a 25 or 50 meter pool, some of this may be relatable, so read…
People has so many topics outside of work. You gotta have life outside work or feel energetic & interested to go outside to enjoy life. Now I’m feeling like it a bit - I like going outdoors and explore Or just listen to conversations That’s how you get to like know more perspectives and more things It’s pretty…
grab a bottle of omega-3 and, as you take out one serving size, say "do you want some?" without further explanation
Ontem eu fui assistir as quase três horas de agente secreto. Antes de partir pro conteúdo do filme, preciso exaltar o charme do Wagner Moura. Pelo amor de deus, o homem TEM O MOLHO. o jeito que ele fala, que ele olha e se mexe... Mexe comigo. Mas sobre o filme. Interessante a construção da narrativa e como no final…
why do some people give off the vibe like you can trust them? like they don't judge you? like you want to tell them everything? without even getting to know them, you get that vibe, and it turns out you're right! i think at my best i can have a pure childlike aura with curiosity and humor ; at my worst i'm childish…
The moments of feeling anxious or a negative thought entering the mind are few and far in between now. They exist, I just need the time to summon them and they'll be prompt in their arrival. There's something that stops me from summoning them or engaging for too long with these thoughts. I don't think there is…
The wolf had a brief weird moment. He saw his own shadow waving at him. Was it a sign of some higher calling? Did the Gods of the forest will him to take a reckoning of his existence thus far? After all, he was walking the walk of a wisened and senile canid for a while now. Perhaps the moment was not far away when he…
So, what should I write here? Could it become my digital diary, or maybe just a place to spill out my thoughts? It's such a strange time right now... Missile attacks, blackouts, air alerts, no electricity for 3 days in a row. Maybe that's a good time to start something big and something new?
(The following is a RP entry from the perspective of my Project Zomboid character, again) I'm a bit scared right now to be honest. Today I was doing the usual looting and found a police station; Jackpot! I thought... and indeed I won the lottery of guns, after clearing 2 floors of zombies I got to the lockers and…
This is my first post of nicheless, I think the idea for the website is great, and I am happy to be a relatively early adopter. What gets me excited about the platform is the late of likes, reposts etc, and just the ability to get one's thoughts on paper. I'm not sure I would consider myself a writer, but I surely…
There are animals that are also plants. Elysia Chlorotica is a slug that looks like a leaf. She's the one on the top left in the image above. Part of what makes a plant a plant is that it can make its own food out of inorganic materials like sunlight and water. Slugs like Elysia are mixotrophs. They eat food like…
Focus is overrated. There, I said it. We’re told to zero in, eliminate distractions, and optimize every second. “Deep work” or whatever the latest productivity cult is preaching. But constant focus? It’s not a superpower. It’s a CAGE. Your best ideas don’t show up when you’re grinding away, when you're trying to force…
So, I learned a few things over the weekend. Can anyone from a so-called third-world country like Indonesia guess the average cost of a one-bedroom apartment in New York City? It’s $4,778 per month or roughly IDR 79 million. Holy. Freaking. Airball. For that price, we could probably rent a room in Istana Bogor and…
I completed a 2-day "ultra-marathon-type" race this weekend where you run 48 miles over the course of 48 hours. It was grueling and I enjoyed the challenge. I have run a regular marathon and done other various physical challenges, always trying to maintain some novelty and keep myself interested. In the final hours of…
This morning I rose at 11AM, which is typical for me on weekends. I did the usual brush and shower. After my first meal of the day, which I suppose would not exactly have been breakfast, I sat at the dining table with a cup of coffee. I felt a need to figure out what I was going to do. Meanwhile, I had begun browsing…
Comi rápido demais e agora parece que eu estou tendo um infarto. Eu jantei foccacia que fiz com as minhas próprias mãos. Estava uma delícia completa. Uma das melhores que já fiz. Adoro fazer um pãozinho, adoro saber cozinhar. Coloquei o restante da caponata junto, uns tomatinhos cereja, sal grosso e alecrim, que eu…
is that bad? i want him to read marie calloway bc i think he could really relate and really love it and it'll convince him to live the life that i want for him [i see him as the robert to my patti smith, the edie sedgwick to my andy warhol, and the andy warhol to my edie sedgwick] whenever i'm around him or recall our…
You’ll find I’m inclined to decline your kind line to wine and dine, as I pine to recline and unwind my mind.
⋆ I don’t really like Radiohead except 15 step ◯ And you like that creepy song too, like, “the creeps” ⋆ Yeah ◯ So you like 2 songs ⋆ Yeah ◯ So you like more songs from Radiohead than from most bands ⋆ Yes that’s right ◯ That makes you a fan
Oh Hi! This seems so cool! 🤩 I love it, simple and clean. Oh it counts words not letters. Means,ifIdon’tUseSpace,itCountsJustOneWordLOL(thisIsStill1word!HaHa). Very interesting. I love this font, it makes me feel like I’m coding 😂
We often look to this quote with fondness and admiration. We often use this quote to inspire and motivate. For a new skill. For a promotion. For a healthier lifestyle. Yet we are often baffled and surprised when we see the other side of the same coin. The ugliness of how negative small changes can add up too. For…
For the longest time I've had a not so healthy relationship with consuming content. I would feel guilty about watching a show or a movie. One of the major reasons was that I had procrastinated so much on the things I should've done that when it was leisure time, it felt wrong. I felt like I hadn't earned it. Have you…
For the longest time, whenever I would be asked, "where do you see yourself in 5 years?", my mind would stray away. The beauty of human imagination is that it is unrestricted. A thought is swift enough to traverse wide enough. I would wonder if it is a luxury car, a big house, frequent travelling, ability to lay my…
With all the AI rage out there, there's been different perspectives about the subjects. Some are interested in what tools like ChatGPT can do, others in how it works, others terrified at what it does, and there's the other folks that feel their current role is being threatened. That's too big of a discussion to try to…
Imagine my third-grade surprise when I got to Kingston the first time since migrating and found out our driver was named "Drugs." My grandmother arranged the pickup and everyone was saying this name like it was a normal title. Like his name was John or Joe. Except, it was a word that'd been drilled into my head the…
To quote John Biggs: "Ok now what." Seriously though, I like this vast empty space with just a black text thing. Good stuff.
See that? That’s a sticker on that glass door you’re about to open. It says PULL. But here’s the thing, the sticker is on the other side of the door. It’s an instruction on opening the door, but it’s not for you. For your eyes it’s backwards, like a mirrored version of the word, but your brain still reads the word…
We reset ourselves by feeling like we've reclaimed control of our environment. Most of us have learned repeatable behaviours that help us feel normal. I wrote about how a bath resets me in a piece earlier. For some, it could be cleaning or cooking for another person. Some people maintain to-do lists. I've also heard…
thinking about the brits in relation to the opium crisis in china makes me feel the exact same way about the brits the way i do about my ex: well fucking played. what a worthy opponent you are-- you erotic beast. i'll get you back.
lately i've felt like time is compressed. or rather, it's malformed. it's not passing normally, is what i'm trying to say, i guess. i'm incredibly busy yet feel like i don't have much to show for it. most of it feels like a constant battle to keep up with gestures at everything it's too much sometimes. most of the…
I didn't see the loneliness coming, the solitude I craved turned on me. I'm trying to reach out, to feel some sort of connection. But I won't beg for it, I deserve to be wanted.
The only thing that bores me more than my opinion is yours. I haven't heard a new take or a hot take in more than 20 years. Most of my takes are bargain basement off the shelf opinions that I hold true -- I think? -- not because I believe them but because of some delusional image I have of myself. I am not the only…
Remember when paper towel dispensers were exclusively mechanical? They did not require a source of electricity. Fewer moving parts. No motion sensors, no motors, lower cost of manufacturing. Sturdy, reliable, efficient. K.I.S.S. Sometimes, ascending the technological hierarchy results in superior products. Fuel…
there are pleasures for which there SHOULD be some guilt involved for example: physical books used to be trees. reading books is technically a guilty pleasure if you really care about that kind of stuff, like, killing wildlife and stuff when you really think about it, almost every aspect of "modern" life becomes…
The term "mastery" or become a "master" of X skill is being thrown around too lightly in recent years. Seems like everyone who writes marketing copy about an online course or other resource like it enjoys using the term a lot. For most it's not their fault. I agree that it sounds appealing for the user that's reading…
Ich hasse die Moderne Kunst. ("I Hate Modern Art") Ullstein, Frankfurt 1960. John Anthony Thwaites. Die Suche nach einem Buch, das in einem der Mai und Juni Wasserschwälle durch die Deckenleuchten (die Lichtstärke verstellbar - wie war die Freude groß!) auf Bücher, Bett und Boden, und meine darauffolgende radikaler…
Encouragement is something everyone needs, but not everyone has, and it’s a crucial part of our development. For me, encouragement is like a gentle push or a small gust of wind that propels a boat. It provides direction and a bit of force, but ultimately, it’s up to the boat to decide how to use this wind to sail.…
I would have never discovered wonders of a co-working space, had I not started on my own. The hunt for my own office space made me look for options beyond traditional spaces. The real estate in Mumbai is so expensive that anyone with limited finance has no choice but to be imaginative. The pictures of spaces, within…
The first question, without fail, in our capitalist society: what do you do? I meet you for the first time. You always lead with ‘what do you do’? Went to a blogging meetup full of strangers recently. I could tell immediately from the energy and the question re: my work that several people were not from the Pacific…
There is a word in Hindi called 'theherav.' It comes from the Hindi word theherna(to stop), but theherav doesn't mean to stop. It means something related to a person's character that allows them to feel collected most of the time. You know how many people make being clumsy their personality? A person with theherav…
Today, as I strolled down the familiar streets of HSR Layout, the sound of a man riding his mopet caught my attention. He was shouting "Paper," "Bottles," and other familiar calls. Instantly, a wave of nostalgia washed over me, and a smile spread across my face. It took me back to the long, lazy summer holidays of my…
Ahhh 🔁 iteration; continuous testing of an idea until one finds perfection in design. ironically perfection does not truly exists, but iterating on an idea can get design to a point that is almost perfect. i find the most relatable design does not strive to be perfect, yet it it gets so close that allows others to…
