Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
i feel that i have a lot in common with him but whereas he had phase 1: combat loneliness with books (reading and writing) phase 2: self-healing through uncommon means and nonfiction (philosophy, science, miscellaneous) i had the phases in reverse... i had a long cycle of self-healing and then i'm just kinda like wow…
Alfred Hitchcock said, "Happiness is a clear horizon." -- Feelings of joy or excitement are not happiness; happiness is a place of contentment. The problem arises when we place happiness so high on our list of priorities that we forget it comes from taking action. Yes, I'm not against happiness; it is desirable.…
In February 2024, I opened an account on 750words.com — a private journal for free-writing, where the goal is simple: write at least 750 words, every day. As I typed, I noticed a short lag between pressing a keyboard key and the letter appearing on screen. The lag was subtle, but erratic enough to start grabbing my…
My earliest memory of paperwork was the annual trip to National Book Center to buy brown paper which I would use to cover our text and note books. Then the beautiful letters that my Grandparents would write from New Delhi or the ones that my Masi would write from Boston. Also, the special note pad that my Father had…
When smartphones are invented and we start using them a lot, people always say that the next generation growing up on smartphones will be less smart. Because they don't have time to ponder. But it's been 16 years since Steve invented the iPhone, are we seeing a dumber generation? That would be easy to identify.…
Writing a weekly newsletter is challenging and energizing. But two? That's a different animal. As i continue this 100-day project -- writing content, art, formatting, frequency, whether or not to offer paid subscriptions and etc -- it suddenly occurs to me i still have to write content for my weekly,…
“I’m through with this fuckin war, through with marchin in the dust, through with gettin shot at. I’m done, I’m goin’ home,” spouted Jenkins as he got up from the fire. “Quit bein’ a pussy, ain’t one of us here that don’t wanna be home” countered Carlton. “I ain't no pussy.” “Sure acting like one.” “Evenin’ boys”…
Mais uma rede social? Mais uma "plataforma"? Pois é, eu me defini como um "arroz de festa" em uma conversa, alguns dias atrás. Toda rede social ou plataforma de comunicação que aparece eu tenho curiosidade de conhecer e experimentar. No fim, acabo usando mesmo só umas poucas, e cada vez mais raramente. Mas quando tive…
Today I am thinking of Alex the parrot again. The first and only known non-human to ask an existential question. His last words to his caretaker: "You be good, I love you. See you tomorrow". I wonder how much animals can really know. Octopi come to mind when I think of consciousness. They are very smart -- smarter…
Our friends say they’ve experienced a lot of goodbyes and they used to not bother even saying hello until they learned that there’s a possibility you see each other again and that possibility makes the hello and intermittent goodbyes worthwhile. But there are many people I miss who I will never see again. The feeling…
Nov 20, 2023 marks a few approaching ends—the conclusion of the year, the nearing end of my mid-20s, and the closing of this chapter of my life. I have found a myriad of tools to distract me from my anxiety, with nostalgia being a key one. I dress in '90s fashion to emulate the teenagers I saw when I was a kid in LA,…
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i dont see failures as a negative. they frustrate me, knowing i can be better. i can see what can be improved and how to execute it. the hardest step is becoming better than the vision of my better self...
- at the group meeting we were going back to the same state for the holidays, bonding over public transport - at the holiday party chatting about vampires (i go on a 10 minute tangent about iwtv); we decide we should hang on 1:1 before declaring each other friends; bit about me being a 206 year old vampire - at the…
ahh "an artwork is a pure idea attached to an existing rationale. an artwork for the art world is any idea attached to an invoice." quote by Virgil Abloh. the above quote resonates with me recently because the conversation around NFT art can easily fit into the category of any idea attached to an invoice. yet there…
Coisas que eu adoro pudim quente pudim gelado pudim com bastante calda abrir leite condensado para fazer pudim fazer calda do pudim ligar o forno sabendo que ali vai um pudim esquentar água pro banho maria do pudim bater a massa do pudim no liquidificador tirar o pudim do forno e esperar esfriar colocar o pudim na…
Olhando para fotos antigas, fotos essas que nunca soube da existência, também me peguei olhando para sentimentos que outrora não sabia do gosto. É curioso como são tortuosas as linhas que transportam sangue do coração para o cérebro, um caminho tão curto, mas ainda sim de diferenças metafóricas enormes. ♫ so baby,…
Hi. My name is Artamon and I’m a hoarder. Hi Artamon. I thought I knew what I was doing. I thought I had a plan and a process. I was wrong. I need help. We got you. Overly dramatic? Perhaps. Accurate? 100% so. Every time I come across an article, a twitter post or a YouTube video that I think I want to read later, I…
Sim, mas chegando em casa, eu respirei um pouco, esperei o suor secar, pedi um uber. Demorou, cancelaram, até que um taxi mal humorado apareceu. Cheguei no Sesc Pompeia às 18h20. O show era 18h30. Peguei a comidinha mesmo assim. Um sanduíche de palmito com pesto maravilhoso, o suco de laranja que não pode faltar e um…
So I happened upon marketing by accident. I began my career as a psychological researcher. I was in charge of putting out flyers to attract people with major depressive disorder to a study where they could receive free treatment. One day, I was instructed to put fliers in doctor's office waiting rooms, cars in parking…
Então, voltei pra casa. Saí da internação graças a Deus, mas não posso mentir falando que não sinto saudades da comida. Muito boa a comida do hospital que eu fiquei e equipe fofa. Descansei bastante e espero que meu corpo me recompense com uma barriga sem líquido infeccioso e sem pontos sangrando. Um outro aspecto da…
Hola! Mi nombre es Ivana León, llevo 40 años experimentando la vida en la tierra. Nací en Mendoza, Argentina y vivo en Santiago de Chile. Así es, siempre de un lado y del otro de Los Andes 🏔. Cada miércoles leo el newsletter de Samu Parra. En el último, comentó sobre este espacio en internet sin ansiedad. Pero, ¿Qué…
If my manager read a page of my code contributions in the last month, it would either mean nothing to him or he would draw the wrong conclusions. Adding code doesn't make one a valuable contributor. It just means you're a contributor. The hubris of thinking that managers (or CEO's...😂) can discern anything of value…
Last week, I almost signed up for a new course. Then I remembered the three other courses I've abandoned halfway through. Classic me. I think I have commitment issues—not just in relationships, but in everything. I like having options, the safety net of knowing I can bail if something doesn't work out. There's this…
It is something that I don't purposely wanna hold to someone, holding a grudge is something really tiring, but at the same time very hard to let go. It makes me get annoyed at the smallest things and quirks from a person that I usually wouldn't mind, but because of something bigger it just bothers. I should get better…
It is totally awesome to be free of the external judgement. To create without the fear to be misunderstood, to express any opinion being equal in probability to be discussed free of prejudice. Such an approach gives an adequate perception of the surrounding phenomena, allows to connect cause and consequence without…
in philosophy, epoche is a method to completely isolate our perception from preconceived notions about it. it's bare thoughts, unpolluted by judgement, bias, prejudice. the truth takes birth here, and then it is distorted by our imposition of existing confirmational bias on it. if the core truth is absolute (there…
I can be very restless and impatient; and sometimes surprise myself with my patience while watching birds. Watching birds going about their chores assiduously pleases me like nothing else. It's fascinating to watch a swallow build its nest drop by drop of mud, a lammergeier soar high with a bone and drop it on a rock…
True. To be attractive & meaningful & charismatic Put other people first. Always. Not pleasuring them though
i kind of want my job back. i want to play and teach the piano again. SIGH fuck. get writing. get writing.
Mais um dia em BH. Hoje vou sair de novo, claro, mas assim que vai ser: vou levar meu livro, vou ir no mercado novo, comer um pão de queijo, almoçar por lá mesmo e depois partiu cinema. Vou ficar lá até o final da tarde e depois voltar pra casa. Aí si, si! Tô cansada de andar. Gostoso porém chega. Falando em andar, as…
recentemente comecei o curso "Criar em Ruínas: o Antropoceno, a Crise do Imaginário e a Produção Contemporânea" da Pinacoteca justamente pra ter um respiro. um cheiro de esperança. uma luz no fim do túnel. um cabelo para agarrar nesse rio de impotência. a primeira aula, ontem, foi justamente com sidarta ribeiro,…
comecei a ouvir leonard cohen. que voz visceral, profunda, né? profound. eu entendo poucas palavras soltas. leio enquanto ouço, então é mais sensorial do que inteligível para mim. the last time I saw you, you look someone older. poxa. hoje tive uma conversa com uma colega de trabalho sobre luto. tudo começou porque um…
OK. Here's my attempt at using nicheless. What I like: + The minimalistic UI + No-fluff usability; even lack of formatting! + Lack of media and all that comes with it Few questions though + Would it help increase my writing? Is there less pressure due to the smaller word limit? Can I aim for a post a week? + Would it…
It’s true - believe in the power of attraction Who you mix with take the average of 5 and it’ll become you E - said he’s becoming less ambitious Which is true I think it’s because he’s been working from home Read books and know people That will inflame your fire Like how you mix with G And know Y&and her dad. These…
Why are we so unhappy with our work? And if we are unhappy? Why are we doing it? Who is making us do it? Is it the govt? The society? Your family? The ‘top 150’ people who run the world? Why are they called ‘top 150’ anyway? Is happiness even a correct measure of us working? Or should we just be satisfied? Is it…
While visiting Copenhagen, she asked a local man how one finds parking. The man explained the process: write the time of arrival on a sheet of paper, place it against the window facing outwards, and that way the the attendant will know that you haven't overstayed your allotted time. "But what if I just write a time…
I'm sitting here in Rome, within spitting distance from the Arch of Titus, which commemorates the sacking of Jerusalem two thousand years ago. I'm sitting here, as a Jew, thinking to myself, well, they must've really thought something of the Jews then, to have built themselves an arch commemorating the destruction of…
Na newsletter Nevoeiro, que eu adoro, a autora destacou o seguinte trecho do livro A nausea, de Jean-Paul Sartre: "é preciso escolher: viver ou contar. Por exemplo, quando eu estava em Hamburgo, com uma certa Erna, de quem eu desconfiava e que tinha medo de mim, eu levava uma vida estranha. Mas eu estava vivendo…
In a culture that often emphasizes balance and self-compassion, advice to avoid being too hard on oneself is common. Phrases like “It’s not good to be so strict!” or “You shouldn’t force yourself!” may seem well-intentioned, but I believe they reflect a misunderstanding of self-discipline and personal growth. While…
Outside of work and family time, I have about five free hours each day to build my side projects, learn new skills, practise old ones, and enjoy my hobbies. I wish I had more, but as someone who doesn't have kids yet, I'll take it. 5 hours is plenty. But I've been trying to figure out how to spend those 5 hours. I'm…
We often romanticize the quiet. We take holidays away from noisy cities and plug in earphones to cut out the noise in our surroundings. It creates a sense of focus-the quiet. We seek quietude through meditation and exercise. Sleeping well is one of the other ways we get a sense of quiet. But I often feel we avoid the…
O título vem de uma frase que Gabi Pankekinha falou no BBB, às 3h28 do dia 7 de abril. Eu gosto do BBB por isso. Por algumas semanas, você tem acesso a formas mais cruas de pensar do que a gente vê nas redes sociais. Diálogos genuínos, dores e alegrias reais. Eu vejo super como aprendizado, mesmo. Eu comecei a…
Twitter is different from Instagram and YouTube because Twitter is where politics and journalism live. Journalists construct the world. The media world the rest of us live in. If you influence Twitter, you influence the ink that fills the pages of culture more broadly. TV producers and reporters are listening to what…
After I revisited Richard Siken's wonderful poem 'Birds hover the trampled field', I wrote a lot in my Google docs. I didn't 'get it' the first time I read it, which must be about three or four years ago by now, but I didn't have to get it. I let the meaning of it develop in my mind unconsciously without trying to…
Okay, it's 2022 and i'm 45 y/o and i still don't know what i want to do with my life. I wonder if surviving and not to be a burden is good enough goals.
It's a weird feeling. The feeling of having nothing to say, to anybody. You can't go on dates because you've nothing to speak, let alone impress them. You fear calls from friends, cause after five minutes of niceties, it's silence of the most awkward kind. Actually, that's when you kinda get the realisation that…
i hate how much i loved your laugh. i hate how lonely all of this growth feels. i hate that you never celebrated my hard work. i hate that i tried. i hate that i loved your car. i hate that i loved every bit of that part of you that made me hate myself. i hate that i stayed. i hate that i waited while your mouth…
Running around my neighborhood has made me bitter. I see piles of trash on the side of the road and I tell myself a story about people that don't care. I see more and trash and I feel more anger. What can I do? What control do I have? The same control I tell my kids that they have - I can only control myself. So I'm…
