lost somewhere in the wilds of old new england
Just learning the lay of the land for now. Gotta learn the rhetorical exigencies, ya know.
Gathering thoughts…
Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
Just learning the lay of the land for now. Gotta learn the rhetorical exigencies, ya know.
Autonomy and decision-making as an adult really does seem like a simple concept that I should have in my pocket by now. Somehow still, this practice has continued to elude me. Until now… It’s so strange and exciting to finally accept that I can move forward in such a decision as lifelong marriage commitment. And…
I’ve been working on building some reverb tanks the last few weeks. I got the first one wired tonight and I messed up something. The two circuit boards, that are not connected, are somehow interacting with each other. I’m going to try and wire up the second one tomorrow and see if I can find what I did wrong the first…
Childhood is a magical time. As a parent, I feel pressure to preserve this sanctity for my own children. Of course I could be wrong but I’ve noticed a trend: if there are at least two children in a family, there are two archetypes: a favorite and a performer. The favorite in the family was the one that was, knowingly…
Good sleep - middle of the night, I'd wake up, see the time, relax and continue pleasant deep breathing for what seemed like an hour, then checked to see it was only 10 minutes later. Actually felt good. Work? OK. Lots of filing, meetings & meeting notes, then word of a major "dig up old stuff" project coming up. If…
one thing i’ve been thinking about a lot is what i’ve thought of as “what-the-fuck art” that is, those artworks that are so weird and so confusing that you can’t help but go “what the fuck, why is this… like this? what series of decisions and beliefs led the artist to think these make sense together?” — i suppose any…
Ainda não sei qual será o caminho que esse blog irá tomar. Quem viver, verá.
Although struggle and suffering is part of life, some of it is avoidable. What I too easily confuse is that ALL suffering should be avoided and the presence of ANY suffering is a result of poor choices. Whether conscious of it or not, each day I wake up with an idea of what life should look like. And then I engage…
.. or public writings for myself? Who knows what this will evolve into, but it seems at first glance to be a natural step forward from using The Most Dangerous Writing App to get my thoughts out on paper, back when I was a teenager. Personally I have always felt the struggle of wanting to be in a community, to share…
All models are wrong; some models are useful. Models are fantasies every single one of us holds in our consciousness about how the external world, in whole or in part, works. We are constantly exercising and updating these models to decide how bring reality into accordance with our desire. When things work as…
News update: I get a call from Shoo that she is now dating someone new. That person happens to be Nelson. My reaction 1: I am not surprised, kinda saw this coming, don't worry, I'm not mad. My reaction 2: My best friend is dating someone I have had bad experiences with. What do I do? I had a call with Nelson. That…
And having that “purpose” Like I don’t go to badminton just for another purpose Actually make friends Or be good in badminton Whatever your purpose is You don’t just “go there” Like you WANTED something If nobody is there you also wanted right? That should be the spirit Remember You don’t have to be friends with…
Sim, eu tirei a carta de motorista aos 18 anos. Passei de primeira na prova prática, mas... Nunca tinha dirigido de fato pra longe até 2025. Dirigir no interior era uma zona de conforto. Conhecia bem as estradas e nem precisava de um GPS. Mas a necessidade me fez pegar no volante e dirigir da cidade onde moro…
A serious daily journaler may have an extensive journaling routine. Three morning pages? They take 30 minutes or more, depending on writing/typing speed. A multiple-component journaling routine? My routine takes 20 to 45 minutes consisting of the following: gratitude, intent for the day, sometimes I need an…
Is a mix of competency and warmth. Find the balance - you can’t be too friendly but don’t know anything at the same time. To have charisma you need competent And you need to radiate out with the right amount of body & language works (way of converse, thoughts, vocabs - language is the best way to exhibit & market…
Just saw though - from a dying 23 yo patient His last ideal was to bring his kindness and love to everyone around him And he hoped to be remembered from that Because when I was poor I was not in the right state of mind My mind was abit evil and selfish I didn’t want to spend time with my ex because I wanted to focus…
Remember when paper towel dispensers were exclusively mechanical? They did not require a source of electricity. Fewer moving parts. No motion sensors, no motors, lower cost of manufacturing. Sturdy, reliable, efficient. K.I.S.S. Sometimes, ascending the technological hierarchy results in superior products. Fuel…
A thought on editing and proofreading, especially of your own writing. Most people, other than diehard digital evangelists, agree that reviewing a print out helps correct errors and make improvements that you might not have spotted on the screen. This sits alongside the idea, supported by research (see the article…
My girlfriends laughed when they wondered out loud if I wrote about them in my journal. Journals conjure up images of teenage girls' diaries under lock and key. Of course, they were curious. They saw me writing each morning of our getaway trip. What juicy details were included in my daily writings? Until then, I…
All human organizations are hierarchical. Decision-making is concentrated near the top of the hierarchy. One can conceptualize the organization as a complex function whose input is information, which flows upward into the decision-making strata of the hierarchy, and whose output is power, which subsequently flows…
Few years ago I've started posting on Linkedin. On various subjects. Mostly business, psychology, igaming, gambling, betting and online casinos. It's nice to have a tool with 300 words limit again. LinkedIn have changed, sadly. Good for them and not good for me. I've used it as a microblogging space. Maybe I'll use…
Gives me perspectives on How you always work so hard for someone And you gotta be fearless & understand you don’t have any thing that drags you down E: if you don’t love the girl or the guy, it’s okay to let it go - and if you’re on the other side Understand that it’s okay & let it go Kinda in your situation now Just…
“But the wise ones took flasks of olive oil with their lamps.” Matthew 25.4 NET. Preparation is key. The Day will come unexpectedly. The New Testament tells us how to be ready. MORE: Jesus said preparation is the deciding factor between those who will enter the Kingdom of heaven and those who won’t. That is why the…
Growing up, you've probably had your parents tell you to care about what others think. They want you to be respected by society. But when you shrug it off, thinking, "Who cares?" you're not alone. This "respect and status" stuff may seem old-fashioned to Gen Z, but if you look closer, they're still after something…
I’m not a big fan of competition. For many people, the race to the finish line is irresistible. No matter the game, something drives them to seek nothing less than first place. The idea of first place doesn’t motivate me. Whether I place first or 31st, it feels about the same. I don’t have any particular elation when…
Your life and mine eyes that intertwine. Like rings around a finger and golden sheets of amber. Like a bicycle wheels belonging to childhood. Innocence and romance, Chocolate and laughter. Your life and mine, like the surface of a swimming pool in a fresh morning. Or the side of a river, calm. And pebbles. Your lips…
Suddenly 10 days had passed and it feels like I arrived yesterday. It feels weird that tomorrow my mom goes and for the first time I won't really know when is the next time I see her, for what I know it's probably gonna be minimum a year which it would be the longest without seeing each other. I'm kind of used to be…
Send a message. Call them. Talk to them. The fury of youth will subside but loneliness will remain. Don’t let ego get in the way. Life gets in the way and they probably don’t have time. Reach out. If they don’t reciprocate, you at least know you gave your best.
I went to dinner with a group of strangers. After each course, I was paired with someone new. I met three interesting people. There was a stack of conversational cues on the table if we didn't know what to talk about. We were allowed talk about anything we want, except what we do. This wasn't about dating. That's not…
Mais uma noite mal dormida por causa do cachorrinho idoso, renal e senil. Amo muito o bichinho, mas estou cansada. Não julgo quem, depois de perder um ente querido do qual cuidava, vai viajar, passear. Cuidar de outrem dá trabalho, cansa. No corpo e na alma. Mas fazemos com amor.
I find myself mindlessly following small details around stuff I have no interest in, hour after hour, achieving nothing. It's not just me. We are all flooding our systems with more irrelevant information than ever before, and the more there is the less we can focus on any one piece. This increase in the volume of…
“We are splinters and mosaics; not, as they used to hold, immaculate, monolithic, consistent wholes.” schreef Virginia Woolf in een van haar dagboeken. Wanneer ik schrijf raak ik soms gefrustreerd met de manier waarop ik mijn gedachtenstromen volg, laat dwalen en met vele omwegen weer terug probeer te leiden. Ik denk…
In the debate over freedom of expression with regard to blasphemy, I find it absurd when the argument is made, usually in response to some Muslim fanatic going on a murder rampage, that "well Christians try to censor expression too." I just don't think there exists a reasonable argument to be made that there is any…
Something of vanilla, bourbon, and lingering notes of all the versions of you that lived in this cloth. Yesterday, I thought it was over. I'm not quite sure what happened, I must have been too consumed with all of you that I felt within the coat that I didn't even notice the button, second from the top, loosen between…
It's the Friday afternoon, the feeling of welcoming the weekend starts setting in, a few have made plans for Friday night, while a few are making plans for a mini vacation, a few are just thinking to just sleep and forget away the week that has gone by... U start to hear the excitement around the floor and the noise…
I've been seeing a few founders lately that already have 3 or even 4 projects and working on them simultaneously. Even if they operate under the same brand, to me this is a red flag. It's already really hard to build one really good brand/project, imagine if you have to build multiple at the same time? The common…
If a person finds oneself free & feeling blues on a sunday eve. Do cleaning (within one's own house), till the dirtiest things left in the place is you yourself. Put some music on. You can listen to any avant garde music you like. My recommendation is a nice KK playlist. Then clean yourself physically (again, within…
and who teach me how to love things i met a girl who loves to cook and garden and by hanging out with her, or maybe by cooking with her, i grew to LOVE cooking and just hearing her talk about gardening made me love gardening more i had a friend in hs who was an Arts & Culture Self-Guided Exploration Master and she…
Sean Strickland has shocked the world. Last night he became the new UFC Middleweight Champion of the World by beating Israel Adesanya in Sydney, Australia. Both fighters are quite the characters with totally different fighting styles. Strickland stuck to his guns and damn near ended the fight in the first round with a…
I'm someone who feels FOMO not about the parties I'm not going to but about the things I'm not doing, the hobbies I haven't tried out, the books on my TBR/ I'm someone who feels sick in the stomach just thinking about conflict, and would do anything to not feel that way/ I'm someone who's on cloud 9 when I find an…
hot chocolate howling winds my italian neighbor was like "do you have an extra line? let's tie an extra line so that your boat is more stable" i was like yes please and our danish neighbor was like "wait wait don't put it there, because it could rip your stanchion. here, let's take this cleat instead" jumped on my…
Two ways to look at a weekend being spent alone - I have nobody around me who wants to spend time with me. I am all alone. OR I get to spend time by myself without having to worry about making plans with others. There needs to be a fine balance between both of these, I guess. Anyhow, definitely feeling sad about being…
I'm sitting on the train on my way to Cambridge after a road trip in Scotland. So many things happened on the trip—sleeping in a camper van for the first time, listening to the audiobook "Outliers," hiking, and more. Yet, here I am, one hour into the train ride, and I find I have nothing I really want to write about.…
hard to accept, but a lot of what we believe is placebo. dogmas, rules & ways of living that don't really prove themselves; but don’t hurt either. believing in them isn’t always bad – ease of mind based on false beliefs is ok. but I believe this derives from a societal disease of not practicing scientific skepticism –…
sometimes i think about trees and it makes me cry. then i think about why we cry. imagine if the universe gave us no tears. i don't want to throw the same old rule of symmetry in your face. but i think the universe gave us tears so that we could express our overwhelm. the true sign of love isn't belonging, it's…
You are a portrait of everyone you've ever loved. An incomplete puzzle, collecting pieces along the way. You are a window of stained glass carefully being put together piece by lonely piece. A whimsical collage collected from the pages of people's lives. You are tapestry woven with the threads of a million moments.…
the air seemed void and no one knew why, even the loudest ones got dazed, maybe shy. the girl on the clouds, yet on floor, seemed as if she would outpour any minute her tears, a galloon, those eyes bear. all the elation, all that frenzy, all the fury that made her crazy. why did she hide them, until today? but not…
There is only one God, luck. Every individual is more often than not a captive of forces beyond their capacity. Such is the power of luck that it can effectively put hard work, effort and persistence to shame. Helplessness is one of the many brutal emotions known to human kind. For that is when the mind decides to…