Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
We all have sense of self, an identity that we are known for but in reality the sense of self doesn’t actually exist. Your perception and thoughts of the world are born from the environment you are now in and the environment you grow up as a child in. Your character is what you are to others, what you show others is…
Most of the work I am most excited to accomplish feels nebulous in nature. Maybe it's partially my level of current understanding (true expertise is abstraction/compression of complex ideas into mental models, frameworks, puns, analogies and stories), but living in the unknown is one of my most favorite feelings. In…
Ontem eu li "O Jovem", da Annie Ernaux, em que ela narra sua história de amor vivida aos 54 anos com um homem 30 anos mais jovem. Achei o livrinho de uma beleza extraordinária, onde ela não fala apenas da história sobre os dois, mas dos desejos femininos e dos preconceitos que sofremos como mulher. Para ela, não era a…
i've been talking to a newish friend a lot lately and i am getting oversaturated with him! SATT. gnuag g'ha he is great in some ways; tenacity of spirit, willingness to try, writes great music but my god i know other people with spirit, willingness and talent and who ALSO have verbal intelligence and philosophical…
Had such an amazing and cathartic session with Omar. 1. We looked back at and appreciated the journey I've been on this year. 2. He gave me the external validation I needed - what I felt was real. My pain was real. What I went through was indeed emotional abuse. Omar said that abusive people need to do a lot of work…
Journaling is the ultimate in self-care. Self-care is taking action to do what you need for your physical and mental health. Keep in mind your physical and mental health are intertwined. It’s challenging to have one without the other. Journaling is the most valuable tool for self-care. Writing a conversation with…
After 8 years living with me, my rabbit died this morning. He was not eating properly for days. I gave him his medicines right after I wake up, worried about his health, but he couldn't even keep himself standing. So I tried to force feed him with a seringue. After the first shot of the Critical Care, the mix of herbs…
We are finding a piece of puzzle to fit in our life and make a picture complete. Each piece you meet here and there does not fit but we try and try and keep trying This vacant position is filled on our own timeline During this entire phase we fall in love with the process of finding because we don't know once the…
This PPT from Jim Keller is suggesting roughly 30% of Performance increase with a slightly increase in clock speed. We are talking about 23% of IPC increase. If we were to fit this number into Geekbench 6.1, assuming linear scaling of performance with clock speed, you get about 2250 Single Core Performance at 3.5Ghz.…
Saya menyatakan bahwa saya ateis sejak 6 tahun silam, banyak pertentangan dari orang yang mengetahui bahwa saya tidak mempercayai tuhan dianggap kenistaan bagi mereka dan teguran untuk kembali mempercayai tuhan menjadi makanan penutup ketika mereka berbincang mendalam dengan saya. Landasan moral sudah mendarah daging…
i'm starting to look down on people who don't read but at the same time i'm starting to worry if i'm reading too much? i wonder if i'm missing out on living my REAL life whilst i read about people living theirs i have a whole fucking routine of reading. (1) reading a rotating lineup of books but also looking for new…
The uncertainty of life gives birth to its need for purpose.
i have been thinking of my design ethos. i find the best way to develop is by listening to mentors. they way the speak. the way the create. the language they present. all have underlying fundamentals which can be adapted to my own thinking. i believe this is how to truly think outside-of-the-box...
It is totally awesome to be free of the external judgement. To create without the fear to be misunderstood, to express any opinion being equal in probability to be discussed free of prejudice. Such an approach gives an adequate perception of the surrounding phenomena, allows to connect cause and consequence without…
Got a scan today. Baby's doing well. Growing fast with a good heart beat. I, on the other hand, have been told to take it easy. Little sub chorionic bleed but hopefully it should be fine in a few days and nothing to worry. Morning sickness is through the roof but settles down in the day. Mother's TLC, puzzles, books,…
I subjected myself to another thought experiment yesterday (12th September) to try and figure out if i could break down and understand how and why I feel a certain way. I purposefully sat down to think through and break down my issues with his past and try to figure out why it hurt me or why I did not like the fact…
We survive in groups. To not belong to one is a fearsome state for a social animal to find itself in. However, a collective alone does not make for fulfillment. We are rarely content to linger on the lower rungs. Likable but useless. Our primary drive is towards survival. When we are safe we start seeking groups to…
There are almost no obese people in Copenhagen. Most people are obese in Lexington, Kentucky. It is not that people in Lexington are lazier or dumber or more morally flawed than people in Copenhagen. In Lexington, you can't walk anywhere and it's really hard to buy decent food. In Copenhagen, it's hard to buy shitty…
Disclaimer : this might feel like a let down if you were expecting profound insights. Assumption : increased screen time reduces the evolutionary fitness of a person (yes yes that is debatable) Children who have had seizures are advised to restrict their screen time, because flickering lights can induce a seizure…
Hoje é domingo. Ontem não escrevi, aproveitei a gordurinha que deixei aqui para descansar. Dormi muito, ouvi podcast, quase terminei uma série, vi BBB, terminei um livro. Cabeça de santo foi legal, apesar de apressado. A fala que mais me impressionou foi do coveiro dizendo que lidar com a morte o ensinou a viver. Já…
Must I have a title here? What if a paragraph suffices? Does this site allow for microblogging? So many questions!
Gotta be living the best at every moment. Ang mo vs Asian mentality Do you like yourself at this second? Would you be liking yourself if you were someone else? You don’t need to decrease your energy level to match the same as PS You need to stay focus and be focus Not thinking of something else dirty with her You need…
i try so hard every day i tell me i’m right in every way my heart doesn’t dare to hope so it pulls strings and hangs them in ways that paint a picture of you as ‘nothing, buts’ and for weeks there’s emptiness and abyss and space and void until, there you are, emerging and yet this time you are stronger tanner eyes…
Os dias de atestado finalmente estão começando a render. Hoje consegui me manter acordada por mais tempo, tempo suficiente para ver dois documentários e começar uma série. Vi o documentário da Lizzo e o documentário sobre crianças trans, ambos na hbo. Também na plataforma, comecei landscapers, uma mini série que conta…
Just saw though - from a dying 23 yo patient His last ideal was to bring his kindness and love to everyone around him And he hoped to be remembered from that Because when I was poor I was not in the right state of mind My mind was abit evil and selfish I didn’t want to spend time with my ex because I wanted to focus…
Now to the final steps- Step 11 - Now the cover this vessel with a lid tighly and heat it on high flame for a few minutes. Gently open the lid after 2 minutes. If you see the steam coming out, reduce the flame to light. If you don’t, continue the same step with lid covered for another 2 minutes until you get the…
Living an independent has been the goal. Although I earn, I haven't that goal yet. Let's plan for it. Let's do it.
Why is it that you see most of the philosophers talking about high performance rarely act upon them and are high performers? Philosophers tend to romanticize life in their heads and yet dont see the beauty of the world they live in. Here, is something to note that I have read some of the works of Alan watts, Jiddu…
During my meditation practice today, I had a realization that has left me feeling both elated and bewildered. For the first time, I understood that the boundary between myself and the external world may not actually exist. In our everyday lives, we tend to view the world as something separate from ourselves. We see…
Heya! I have always wanted to come back and write and reflect here more. Rather than committing myself to lofty targets, I plan to be intentionally inconsistent here and writing here only when something strikes me so hard that I cannot stop writing about it. So what's something now that I cannot shut up about it? I…
I saw the movie, the score stole the show, and Zuck was in my memory, not cool. life carried on and being snide about Facebook and Mark became easy and status quo. Then I read a a blog and the author remarked about how smart Mark was and how he was the fastest learning she ever met. And I thought to myself “have I…
I prefer packing last minute. It has helped me pack better and not forget the essential items. But this preference is in stark contrast with that of my parents. My mum packs about 2-3 days in advance, and my dad at least the day prior. My preference started changing when I began traveling without my parents. At first,…
Sim, ainda estou em Belo Horizonte. Hoje fui comer a famosa rosca com queijo canastra, açúcar e canela lá no mercado central acompanhada de um cafezinho preto maroto. Que delícia ein! Minas gerais não decepciona em nada na comida. Em nada. Do café da manhã ao jantar, tudo impecável! Do incrível Café Palhares, onde…
Intelligent people will put themselves in positive situations When they answer questions They will put them to a better position Not lesser than before (like giving people doubting you) So face is a problem too - sometimes by the agave you can see Intelligent people put themselves in a good position too - even w their…
if i had infinite money i would be so happy. and i wouldn't even buy anything extravagant i have literally no need for it. i would just live the way i do forever but not worry about money. there are people who would wanna work even if they didn't have to. not. me. i dont wanna work. i just wanna read, write, relax,…
Hello! Lets talk about inhibitions and hurdles in taming the day. As someone who has tried almost every trick to stay on track and create a routine and series of habits that help me in navigating life as I see fit. Here are my observations: 1. Diligence is key, identifying action items and getting started is simple…
If only I could.. Left in the liminal spaces Adrift
I started out with a writing goal of everyday and I literally forgot the very next day to write a post :( Nevertheless, I'm convincing myself that writing is a skill to be learnt and it happens slowly. So I'm trying not to be hard on myself. Today I want to write about something which I have struggling with this in…
"Sometimes, the heaviest things we carry are the things we never got to say" Grief is not a storm. It's the cupboard that won't open anymore. He found it on a Tuesday. That quiet, off-colored moment where nothing hurts and everything does. A sock without a pair. A phone with the number still saved. The absurdity of a…
Something was definitely lost when we started calling it content. The catchall quality of the term seems to define a certain type of mindless consumption which makes it difficult to differentiate between the single different bites and ultimately remember any of it. Everything is entertaining, nothing is memorable.
An abundance of information is good but unnecessary. Learning, knowing, and consuming information under the garb of curiosity is a neatly packed product sold to all internet users. Most marketing courses prescribe creating informative, valuable content to subtly signal the need for a product. This method of selling…
Coming to terms with failing in big or small things is a difficult and ongoing challenge baked into life. It’s the struggle for perfection in whatever way we define it and the realization that it is not attainable. There is no perfect. There is just the pursuit and recovery. Getting tied to the idea of perfection only…
When it comes to marketing, I'm confused about the 'who'. Conventional internet wisdom says you should pick a tight niche. But the reality for most successful products is that they cater to more than one type of person. Think Canva, or Uber, or Freshdesk, or Basecamp...do any of these market to a specific niche? The…
Como é bom descobrir alguém novo e gostar. Hoje fui no show da Salma Jo com meu boy com ingressos que ganhei de uma amiga. Ela comprou, mas não conseguiu mais ir. Disse que era porque estaria em outra cidade, mas eu acho que é porque a namorada dela falou que ela tem ido a muitos shows. Isso aconteceu em uma discussão…
Muito fácil nossa cabeça nos dar o baile quando estamos tentando criar hábito. Tô nessa missão de escrever todos os dias aqui e hoje esqueci (até agora!). Acordei mais de 9h da manhã, coisa raríssima, visto que tenho duas cachorras exigentes e pontuais. Sete horas da manhã, às vezes antes, elas já levantam e, como…
We're in a bear market and it seems like it's going to be around for a while. It's a little over 2 years since the pandemic started and we're back to seeing layoffs and continuous red candlesticks. Since 2008, slowdowns have been rare and even in 2020, when Covid just started, it was short lived. So this will probably…
Today I spent almost the entire day just doing excel analysis. It is tiring and tedious, but I love it. It makes me feel so satisfied when I finally put data into a form that makes sense to me, no matter how menial the task might be. I spent 1.5 hours by myself today post dinner just listening to music and doing excel…
Focusing is like a mythological beast to me, something you heard of from many but never saw with your own eyes. Whenever I decide to start my study session, even if I feel my willpower strong as a rock, i quickly lose everything, finding myself staring at the void of a white wall. My productivity has vanished and I…
