Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
It’s so difficult to persuade yourself to work on weekends. Long time ago it was easy, maybe I was younger and more involved in the tasks. I didn’t scare to be fired, I just work. It was interesting but there were a lot of work.
a digital world may enable us to have a continuous performance that has no defined start or finish. it exists like a dream. each person would experience a different beginning as they enter. this threshold is your start yet we can extrude this threshold to how you enter the performance space. a loading screen? a social…
Putting a lot of time into working; thats not the smart way to get money Should balance between both How much should you work And that makes me question - if I’m not working am I using the max of my capabilities because working just makes you stagnant! Am I reading, am I learning a course, gym, socialising, what am I…
Another favorite Hebrewism, which translates literally to "living in a movie". It is used to indicate to one's interlocutor that he is so bound up in his own narrative that he has lost contact with external reality. It's a refreshing refrain from the inanity of the counter-claim, that reality is in fact socially…
We're in a bear market and it seems like it's going to be around for a while. It's a little over 2 years since the pandemic started and we're back to seeing layoffs and continuous red candlesticks. Since 2008, slowdowns have been rare and even in 2020, when Covid just started, it was short lived. So this will probably…
Lately, I've been reminiscing about my past experience in the school system, and one of the common themes that I keep coming back to is the sheer tolerance of prideful incompetence, e.g., being wrong in a loud way. Arguing loudly when you're wrong is, in a way non-threatening to the teacher, they're right at the end…
I went to dinner with a group of strangers. After each course, I was paired with someone new. I met three interesting people. There was a stack of conversational cues on the table if we didn't know what to talk about. We were allowed talk about anything we want, except what we do. This wasn't about dating. That's not…
Starting a new business, or a tool, or a startup is considered an enormously good thing. And when you start something and shut it down after some time, you feel equal amount of sad. Why is shutting down considered bad when its the opposite when you stop for the right reasons.
I have ENOUGH money. What I don't have enough of is - happiness fun meaning
i love megan boyle in ways i can never love a person i meet in "real life" because she exists in words in books and articles that i can choose to pick up and put down -- she doesn't require "live" response and it is an honest relationship in which i do not have to pretend to enjoy anything so if she's really into…
Outside of work and family time, I have about five free hours each day to build my side projects, learn new skills, practise old ones, and enjoy my hobbies. I wish I had more, but as someone who doesn't have kids yet, I'll take it. 5 hours is plenty. But I've been trying to figure out how to spend those 5 hours. I'm…
Keeping a gratitude journal changed me from a non-believer to a believer. Gratitude became a habit - an essential part of my morning routine. I was always optimistic, but I started feeling happier. I developed a mindset of gratitude. Gratitude made me look for the good in my life. Looking for good led me to…
Everything you do… have a want in your head. Always want something. rather than resting - or else you feel tired all the time. Be it impressing your colleagues. Or sounding smart. Or getting reputation. Or getting that money. Or getting something Or even as general as wanting to feel productive. And smart. (So that…
I started out with a writing goal of everyday and I literally forgot the very next day to write a post :( Nevertheless, I'm convincing myself that writing is a skill to be learnt and it happens slowly. So I'm trying not to be hard on myself. Today I want to write about something which I have struggling with this in…
When I was a sophomore in high school, I got pulled aside by my physics teacher after turning in a paper on the internal combustion engine. He asked me who wrote it. "Huh?", I responded, genuinely unsure of what to expect from this interaction. "This paper is far beyond the level of technical detail expected for your…
Earlier, I wrote about guilt related to consuming content on the internet. I got rid of that feeling by watching shows which I need not binge. Food shows seemed just right. Food is so central to all our lives and intertwined with the history, culture, and sociology of a people that it can't be dull. While growing up,…
I will miss these views. the sunrises. how the trees shake and sway in the wind during storms. But i also miss the warmth of the sun and the green of the trees above me when I laid down on the blanket in the park. The way the sun would cut back and forth behind leaves. I miss sitting outside sipping from a glass with…
"Startup" evokes different things to different people. Is Stripe still a startup, even after a Series H round valuing it at $95B? Working at a startup can mean working for companies of significantly different employee counts, revenue, years in business, etc. (I always liked The Information's use of "private tech" to…
Don’t feel anxious. What’s going to come is going to come It’s life Make the best out of every living moment
Today we had a lawyer friend of my dad and his 19 year old son who is about to study law visiting. In our conversation we started discussing AI and the future. This not only highlighted my deep immersion in the tech world but also surprised and somewhat triggered me by seeing once again just how naive some educated…
I am wondering what it takes to be all right today or on other days. Yesterday — or maybe two yesterdays ago — I was unsteady. I woke up and the breaths didn't want to escape my lungs through my mouth or their proper airways. I realize what was calling to me wasn't the mortal drag of my eventual drop to the ground.…
I love synthesizers. I own a couple of vintage ones, and other bits of vintage audio gear. There's something very interesting about how they look and how they are designed, they're like a little time capsule of a bygone era, fascinating for a wide number of reasons. But it's also true that electronic bits of kit tend…
Approach life fast as possible - applies the same how you approach SUDOKU... So here's the thing I want to tell to my 27 self There's nothing much better than being a player and acting in the game of life rather than being a side character! You want to be a main as much as possible. So act like one! One trait that…
Creating is hard - so much harder than consuming. Sometimes I find myself trapped in a consumption hole, paralized by the amount of blood, sweat, and tears it takes to create. Consuming might be way easier and more stimulating in the short term. However, it is not fulfilling; it's a trap. Creating is hard, but it is…
"Sometimes, the heaviest things we carry are the things we never got to say" Grief is not a storm. It's the cupboard that won't open anymore. He found it on a Tuesday. That quiet, off-colored moment where nothing hurts and everything does. A sock without a pair. A phone with the number still saved. The absurdity of a…
I read a quote today that went something like this: "Writing is thinking. If you're thinking without writing, you only think you're thinking." I know this to be true. I've always felt sharpest after a writing session. But I am lazy. Over the coming weeks, I'm going to try and publish my thoughts about whatever it is I…
so this is basically my first time writing here I have written some small things here an there thought of giving a try here too so i want to start a process or it will be my theme where i will be writing something once in a weekend in a way where ill be asking questions or your opinions about some of my thoughts or my…
An old colleague messaged me today about a memory he had of me. We haven't been in touch for a long time, so I was surprised at the message. I enjoy dancing. The times when all of us went out after work, I'd let my hair down. It was my first job after graduation. Our team was small, and most employee-manger rules…
I had no plans of watching this KDrama, but I like the lead actors and was curious about the plot. I am SO GLAD I started watching it. The premise is novel - centred around traveling to and fro work and how it wears one out. I am always awed by how Korean writers can think up such scenarios and plots and give us…
Two young fish are swimming along, when they come across an older fish swimming the other way. He nods at them, saying, “Morning, boys. How’s the water?” The two young fish swim on; eventually one of them looks over at the other and goes, “What the hell is water?” David Foster Wallace narrated this parable to…
I think all of us growing up in India have never learned how to say 'No.' Since childhood, we got trained to respect elders and comply with their requests. A harmless practice in childhood that later leads to many ill-formed mechanisms as we grow older. A major downside of it often is our inability to know if we want…
I struggle to understand my emotions.My calibration ranges from sad,happy,hurt and angry.Beyond this I go "Idk it felt weird/not nice". An incident is making me ponder over this incapability and its real meaning. Context:I'm not close with my relatives.I don't share,ask about their lives,don't call,dont spend time…
Good night's sleep, even without the whirlpool and crappy eating. Odd dream: only a snippet of making out with a woman I know to be a lesbian. Got to listen to birdsong over coffee this morning. The birdsong doesn't make me feel as happy as it used to. Time for a break, time for a change. 280720 May 2022
See that? That’s a sticker on that glass door you’re about to open. It says PULL. But here’s the thing, the sticker is on the other side of the door. It’s an instruction on opening the door, but it’s not for you. For your eyes it’s backwards, like a mirrored version of the word, but your brain still reads the word…
This wall is from Dhobi Talao and is close to Marine Lines and Marine Street. It was home to a pond used to wash sailors' white uniforms and a community of Goans who had as deep a connection to sea and sailing as the sailors from far-off places who called Bombay their temporary home. If we dig maps, will we find the…
How can we know how many people are currently here with us? The artifacts we leave to the world will almost certainly pierce someone's heart at some point in time. Who can know when and how? And who can know how strongly? The other day, I remembered a location in my home town of Boulder, Colorado on the back side of…
This day was one of those days that looks like the beginning of the end for remote work. The day started off with our retro. And while there were 10 people in the "room", no one added anything to the virtual retro board. Now frankly, I could give a shit about which rituals we employ to book-end our sprints, whether we…
Unusual Experiences: hallucinations, magical thinking, perceptual aberrations, intuitions, etc. Related to psychosis. I was an uptight child, and I grew into an uptight adult. There is a famous baby picture of me that never ceases to get a response: how can a child be this serious? It turns out it was and remained an…
burada yazılan konular belkide çok özel çok kişisel, kimin neyi ne zaman okduğu vb belli değil. sosyal bir deney gibi, yani yayınlaya bastığım anda her şey yayında olacak. böyle yani. bu mu?
Please know that it is genuinely okay that people don't want to be in your life or they do not want to get part in one of the event that you're partaking it's totally perfect what you need to do though is be cool about it so when E is saying that i'm a good friend because you still go to a session that you know that…
Doesn't it feel good to check off a task, meet a goal, or get to your destination? That feeling is equal for small or large steps. For your new journaling habit, you need to start small. A small start means it's doable, less intimidating. It takes less time and fits into your schedule. You still see results. When…
The distinct feeling I'M SULLYING THE SPACE WITH MY AWFUL WORDNESS. But it's also nicely distraction-free, conducive to taking more care with my words in general. And I have to say 300 words is a pretty good limit. Hope people keep giving it a try, might turn into something.
A nice lunch, cooking from scratch, having different dishes and trying new recipes, a couple years ago it would had been ordinary, but now with all the convenient meals that are premade and delivery services it just becomes a more special experience and feels rewarding. I want to try to cook more often, its healthy,…
One gets a sense of a particular culture's deepest anxieties by examining its curses. Curses are an expression of a culture's most undesirable or objectionable state of being. It's like saying, "here's the thing I would dislike the most, and it's exactly what I wish upon you." The inverse of empathy. The most powerful…
Eloise was always a fan of the outlet malls. She'd often come home from a day out with bags of clothes and a giant grin on her face. She'd lay them out on her bed, pointing to each price tag while her husband, Ed, would nod along. "This was 60% off, Ed," she'd say. "Look at this one, Ed, it retails for $400! I got it…
In the past, I struggled so much to fall asleep. Every night was a real-life nightmare, with my brain refusing to shut down and winding up in all these hypothetical scenarios that brought me anxiety. But strangely, that doesn’t happen when I read before going to bed. Reading before sleeping, apart from making my eyes…
I am quite sure that it's not an uncommon thing for any desi/middle eastern child to declare the following statement - My mom's biryani is the best in the whole wide world! And I'm no such exception to this. I do believe my mom's biryani is the best and every other person who has tried it so far has claimed the same.…
Recently, I have been applying my method for learning Chinese characters to my university studies (well to my final degree exam). It's funny that I'm only starting to use it now that I've finished all my courses, but it's never too late to implement this technique in other subjects. I always thought that with my…
