emptiness
Sometimes we only miss something when it's gone, and then we feel an emptiness in its place. The art should be to be aware of this even before the void appears. To fully appreciate every moment while it's still present.
Gathering thoughts…
Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
Sometimes we only miss something when it's gone, and then we feel an emptiness in its place. The art should be to be aware of this even before the void appears. To fully appreciate every moment while it's still present.
This PPT from Jim Keller is suggesting roughly 30% of Performance increase with a slightly increase in clock speed. We are talking about 23% of IPC increase. If we were to fit this number into Geekbench 6.1, assuming linear scaling of performance with clock speed, you get about 2250 Single Core Performance at 3.5Ghz.…
Started playing Dungeons & Dragons again and Im easing back into being a dungeon master, something I enjoyed as a child. There are two big challenges: Preparation time and wielding narrative tension The reality of playing DnD as an adult is that time is scarce. And preping for a game as a Dungeon master takes up a lot…
Why are we so willing to change things like our cars or kitchens, yet so reluctant to change our deeply held beliefs or opinions?
The world is changing too fast. I'm not sure what the turning point was, but I went from thinking of people as old school, to realising that I'm finding it hard to keep up with the times. Social media is a constant reminder of this. A few years ago, I consoled myself that it was ok to stay off the gram as the negative…
i realize i've attributed the idea of nostalgia to a negative form of idyllic memory. like the only difference between memory and nostalgia is that wistful and picturesque filter we view our own memories through. i didn't think it was possible to look back on unhappy times through the lens of nostalgia without…
Todd Rose, director of Harvard's Mind, Body and Education program, and computational neuroscientist Ogi Ogas set out to understand why some people had fulfilling, successful careers. 45 of the first 50 people they interviewed had unusually winding career paths. They were embarrassed about how they jumped from one…
Comecei uma nova série. Landscapers não foi tão legal, viu? Odeio qualquer coisa em preto e branco, me dá preguiça, e frequentemente esse recurso foi usado na série. Me arrastei até o final porque não gosto de coisas inacabadas. Mas!!!! Comecei tokyo vice que tá tirando toda nhaca de Landscapers. Cara, a trilha sonora…
There are animals that are also plants. Elysia Chlorotica is a slug that looks like a leaf. She's the one on the top left in the image above. Part of what makes a plant a plant is that it can make its own food out of inorganic materials like sunlight and water. Slugs like Elysia are mixotrophs. They eat food like…
It's been 12 days since my last writing exercise and it hasn't been time misspent. I and the wife went down to Jamaica to the South Coast Sandals resort which was all inclusive and absolutely awesome. Lots of night time eating, sushi all day, and i even learned to sail. I was really sad to see the state of affairs in…
Stop telling people to play tennis with a bat If we’re playing tennis, and I say I’d rather play baseball, you’d think I was insane if I brought out a bat and starting trying to whack the ball out of the court. Same argument applies here: - “He thinks taxes on the rich should be higher, but he paid zero tax last year.…
I struggled with mental health issues for many, many years. They have been compounded by a stubborn insistence on "figuring it out myself." Over the last few years, I have finally started making progress, and I'm mostly healthy, happy, and more understanding. Over the last few months, I've been diving back into…
I took this picture last year as we were walking on our way to the Mukteshwar Temple in Uttrakhand. The pathway leading to the temple was full of vendors selling their farm produce. Many emphasized the fact that these products were grown organically without the use of pesticides, which was the main reason we stopped…
Today was an intense day full of business strategy work - thinking big, maximizing impact, market analysis, etc. Networking, research, meetings, and repeat. However, my personal highlight of the day occurred in the night, on my way back from the gym. The streets were empty, the air was fresh and there was a slight fog…
Blogs on what I learn or what appeals to me. Read on a topic over a single day and then write, unassisted (except for quotes), at the end of the day. The goal is to develop concise and coherent communication skills. Feel free to drop a text if you have something more to offer on a topic. Let's see where we get with…
Hated when the meeting is not done properly This morning meeting with the subcontractors is a demonstration of you shouldn’t compare yourself to the people around you You should think it all through and strive for the best What is each party going to talk about What is the technical details Think it through DURING or…
plane tickets and a dusty suitcase stacked away in lofts, in your search you only found the one thing that was never lost and yet you yearn for parts of you you cannot reclaim because your broadened horizon means you’re not the same and yourself is the only one to blame.
meu amigo mudou o número de telefone e foi aí que percebi que em algum momento eu havia perdido a minha grande habilidade de decorar números de telefone. fiquei imersa na reflexão do que poderia ter sido a causa da perda da minha habilidade por cerca de cinco minutos. eu me gabava por saber de cor os números dos meus…
Some people move through life like furniture, always there, but never holding weight. Their presence hums with borrowed purpose. They exist best in reflected light, speaking loud in rooms that forgive forgetfulness. You start to notice the soft betrayals: the delayed reply dressed as distraction, the listening that…
I have been feeling slightly uneasy about how to spend my time and days. I have a lot of work to finish and tasks to do, and I do not know where to start. The feeling of having too much to do, no idea where to begin but at the same time not having any hard deadlines to help me take decisions is happening. I am unable…
1) Humans have a tendency to be drawn to binary distinctions. Whether you draw the divide between parties (R/D), or political inclinations (liberal / conservative), or population density (urban / rural), or social class (elite / deplorable), every distinction can ultimately be reduced to us vs. them. This primordial…
i've been thinking endlessly about sex lately either my biological clock is ticking and i'm ovulating and the body is desperate or it's because of the things i've been writing, creatively or i'm writing those things because the clock is ticking i'm writing the story i can't get out of my head the more i write it the…
What happens when a world imaginary yet real chooses to collapse within itself, annihilation they call out loud but that dystopian is far stretched to be comprehended for physicality to experience. Yet, for a subjective individual withdrawing from an addiction would be a close reference to that “annihilation” wherein…
I had another heavy conversation with my mom today. I’ve noticed she often has these outpouring sessions ever so periodically where she shares her pain and hurtful past incidents with me. 1. I’ve noticed a lot of repetition in the stories she narrates and I believe these are unresolved issues and conflicts that she…
We're in a bear market and it seems like it's going to be around for a while. It's a little over 2 years since the pandemic started and we're back to seeing layoffs and continuous red candlesticks. Since 2008, slowdowns have been rare and even in 2020, when Covid just started, it was short lived. So this will probably…
I'm 27 years old and I haven't experienced a lot of things. You'd be surprised to know how many of them are small things. Last weekend, I went to bowling for the first time. 🎳 I had a proper hair spa for the first time. 💆♀️ I smoked for the first time. 🍀 I almost solved my first mystery in an escape room. In one…
Apple is about to have their own on-devices AI that will improve UX. I believe this will be another inflation point for Smartphone cycles. A lot of function no longer requires sending over to the server, things such as Voice Message from any Apps such as Whatsapp to Telegram being transcribed into Text on Devices.…
i just called myself "we" like i'm fucking King Henry the VIII
Ever heard this saying, “God helps those who help themselves”? I don’t know who came up with this but it is not in the bible. If everyone can help themselves, they won’t seek God.
Esses dias participei do meu primeiro clube do livro. Antes de falar mais sobre ele, quero explicar o "esses dias". Eu tava num dia péssimo. Péssimo mesmo. Depois de ficar internada, passar por um procedimento com anestesia, voltar pra casa com um monte de remédios que me custaram uma fortuna, tive minha primeira…
Eu tava pensando que na correria do tempo passando, é muito fácil e confortável entrar numa rotina e nunca estar aberto para o novo. Lembrei também de quando a minha família migrou para outro país e a comunidade brasileira foi muito muito importante para eu manter os meus pés fincados na minha nacionalidade, mas…
Where I'm from, asking your waiter about the ingredients in a dish usually prompts one of two responses: 1) "You can't have this, this, or this. But this and this are safe to eat." 2) "Uh, I'll ask the kitchen and get back to you." While visiting London, I was really surprised that the near universal response was…
In the morning the weather was rainy-pouring, actually. For a moment ı wouldnt be able to go to the library but luckily it cleared up later. Now,I gonna use my english. I am learning english, there for I am going to the library. sometimes, I am reading book there and there is a free tea and yummy cake (thank you…
It's a World Cup! In December! In Qatar! The number of column inches submitted to the internet about this binge of sport is legion. This post is about marketing, however. Comedian Joe Lycett has been so outraged by the coalescence of football money and questionable regimes (under 25 woman in Qatar? Get permission, as…
I used to get angry and edgy about small things, which did not happen as per my liking. Coming home and seeing someone moved the AC remote from its usual place or moved a bowl on the table. I started acknowledging. Thinking why I am like this. Why is this a big deal. The more I thought, the worse it became.…
Yesterday we started a road trip around Scotland. Our search for lunch was constrained by the lack of variety. Fish & chips, fish & chips ... oh, and another fish & chips shop. Hungry and without alternatives, we settled for a meal that was pricey, unappetizing, and unhealthy. Why is such food prevalent and who…
I've come to realize how so much of my life has been circumscribed by fear; of people, of loss, of consequences (intended or otherwise). How that fear has quietly and silently shaped what I've done or not done, and how it has hung over my life, forever clouding my ability to see hope on the horizon. What I would have…
Oi. Hoje eu fiz uma fala preconceituosa com uma colega de trabalho amarela e quero um buraco pra me enfiar. Foi relacionado ao estereótipo batido de japoneses fotógrafos, porque tem esse senso de que fotografar é quase natural pra eles... Que estupidez. Tô me sentindo mal e vou remoer isso um pouquinho, pera lá.…
I asked fate for courage and fate gave me situations to become brave. I asked fate for success and fate made me earn it. I asked fate for strength and fate gave me the opportunity to become stronger.
Tip-toeing that razor-etched line between minimalism and dysthymia.
I am going to tell her. I feel the emotions flowing all over without the conversation happening yet. But this is the time. And this is the time because yesterday reminded me of why I need to do this: I don't want to feel proud of much I can drink, or think it's awesome that over people drink a lot, or that normalizing…
nada é tão distante quando o querer prevalece. djavan acertou - sempre acerta - quando disse que "tudo é viável pra quem faz com prazer". aliás tudo nessa musica é um acerto absoluto.
1) when striking a conversation - don’t allow negativity 2) it’s a brain training: how to continue the conv Intelligence: is judged not based on the preparation But your current status: what can you come up with on the spot Can you hold the fears The ego and the inferiority You gotta feel very steady and calm To do…
Putting a lot of time into working; thats not the smart way to get money Should balance between both How much should you work And that makes me question - if I’m not working am I using the max of my capabilities because working just makes you stagnant! Am I reading, am I learning a course, gym, socialising, what am I…
ironic isn't it? the things we run from loom near like shadows, inescapable contorted and twisted into new forms sometimes even be mistaken for something new entirely no use in trying to run - instead delaying the inevitable power drawn from denial of its existence a brief respite, just enough to get by what's the…
it would have been cool. me & you, the chance at romance. i think you would like it. i wish -- just let me know.
(original: 15 January 2006) part of series while moving from san diego to the sf bay area ... GARAGE SALE FUN ... Yesterday (Saturday), our little compound had a garage sale - which was preceded by the garage clean out on Friday. Matt, Garry, Scud (an awesome bassador) and I sifted through "lots o' stuff". (picture -…
"...a gente quer ter voz ativa, no nosso destino mandar, mas eis que chega a roda viva e carrega o destino pra lá..." Ontem isso ficou bem claro. Mudanças de planos, surpresas nem sempre boas, algumas boas notícias, mudanças na rotina, doenças, notícias de morte. Como dizem, o homem põe e Deus dispõe. E só nos resta…