Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
Teachers always wrote - "Can do better with more effort" on my report card. I was smart but not smart enough to match the truly brilliant ones. I was hard working but could not match the real work horses. The truly elite I observed were the ones who were both work horses and naturally gifted. I worked when I felt it…
Lately I've realised I've been quite prescriptive. A friend of a friend pointed this out and I plan to work on it. Going back to social. I wanted to start a SubStack, wrote one and dipped. This is another issue. There are rabbitholes I should jump into but haven't. On the social front, I plan to just experiment more…
My PKM includes not only fingertips to keyboard and screen to type but also fingers around a pen or pencil to write on paper. (Yes, I use Rocketbook. No, I don't have a tablet - yet.) Listening. When a prompt in LYT Workshop 9 was posted to share memorable podcasts, I immediately thought of and shared - this podcast…
Bom, hoje eu tive um encontro com uma pessoa do bumble. Foi num restaurante baiano gostosinho. Comi moqueca de camarão, arroz, pirao, farofa e uma pimentinha da casa maravilhosa. Tudo acompanhado de suco de laranja porque eu não posso beber por conta dos remédios. Entrei no dry january obrigada. Falando em remédio, os…
We all have sense of self, an identity that we are known for but in reality the sense of self doesn’t actually exist. Your perception and thoughts of the world are born from the environment you are now in and the environment you grow up as a child in. Your character is what you are to others, what you show others is…
Its 16/Apr/2023 I have entered a weird patch in life where I dont know what I feel. I am turning 25 and that's not making anything better. Its been more than half a year I escaped an extremely abusive family and the trauma still lingers on. Too broke to have a therapist. It feels horrible, I feel like I am fighting…
4 days before I was gonna move into my dorm I got the news that I'll be having to move 8 days later from what I expected, my first reaction was frustration. Everything was already planned, already in order and now I had to deal with it. I guess I'm very lucky that I don't have economical problems and I can just book a…
Young people tend to be more reformist, and older individuals more revivalist. There is something about aging which makes people revivalist. Revivalism is induced by a cocktail, which is one part nostalgia and three parts lived experiences. A very hard liquor, it causes permanent and irreversible damage to the brain…
I don't hate my job, but I don't love it. I've been running away all these years, jumping from one job to another and then hating myself. All because I don't have the courage nor the discipline to chase my dreams. Chasing your dreams isn't a luxury, it's hard work and requires a lot of determination. I am ready to…
Had such an amazing and cathartic session with Omar. 1. We looked back at and appreciated the journey I've been on this year. 2. He gave me the external validation I needed - what I felt was real. My pain was real. What I went through was indeed emotional abuse. Omar said that abusive people need to do a lot of work…
I was sifting through my social media accounts this morning. Several of my tweets or posts felt like they had been posted a few hours ago. I was recalling my thought process behind each post. How much time I took. How 'important' they felt. How they reflected my mindset and experiences at that particular moment.…
Today, I went to the mall with my nephews and cousins. In the toy section, the kids' eyes widened with a spark of excitement. As I looked at the toys, I started to see things that were so cute but useless, and I found myself wanting them too. My mom bought my nephew a huge box of Pokémon cards. I thought, "You already…
- playfulness of thought / intellectual playfulness - freedom of thought - privilege of pointlessness
I wake up at 6:47 AM and the first thought is: I'm not going to smoke today. The second thought, three minutes later while I'm already on the balcony with a cigarette between my fingers, is: Well, fuck. It's not like I forgot. I remember saying it yesterday—actually saying it out loud to myself while brushing my…
After a day full of tasks, meeting friends, and spending time with my family, today I finally had time to sit down and study. But the focus just wasn't there. My attention kept drifting away, and I couldn't to bring it back. I've realized that I have more motivation to study at night because there’s nothing else to…
Quite often, I hesitate to acknowledge my pettiness. For instance, I took up this writing challenge for the month but have had days when I didn't publish. I missed writing the piece for a total of six days. Of the six, on two days, I hit publish without adding any content because I wanted it to seem regular. How…
I'm guilty of doom surfing. I spend most of my time on StreamRing... you know the drill: press the 'Random' button and watch people from all over the globe trying to get famous. This is what I do while having dinner. The other day I got a weird one: An anon account streaming an old computer showing just text. Well,…
I received a text saying, "Hey, Keshav! I had spoken to you about an internship at Goodread", a couple of days back. On the out-front, it seems correct, but there's one massive problem here. To set the context: I work at a company called Goodera. I had initially reached out to the person and progressed through the…
no yeah i definitely think of myself as an artist. &i like how matty healy talks about his music as "art" and not as "music" like most musicians do matty healy is attractive to me in a special way, like i like his...personality
An abundance of information is good but unnecessary. Learning, knowing, and consuming information under the garb of curiosity is a neatly packed product sold to all internet users. Most marketing courses prescribe creating informative, valuable content to subtly signal the need for a product. This method of selling…
“I think you should dream the earth, As it has a heart and breathes.” — Davi Kopenawa, interview with F. Watson. Pitch, but the dark did not impede the vision, the forest brought comfort and not fear, there were many tropical flowers with the most seductive tones, the cyan ones were light and moved slowly with the…
This is one of the key practices that people don’t talk about: Holding an unsolved problem in your mind without trying to solve it. There’s two big reasons it’s a valuable skill: 1. You have a lot of stuck habits, some of which are useful, some of which are harmful, but breaking out of them is tricky. A habit is just…
Mais um dia em BH. Hoje vou sair de novo, claro, mas assim que vai ser: vou levar meu livro, vou ir no mercado novo, comer um pão de queijo, almoçar por lá mesmo e depois partiu cinema. Vou ficar lá até o final da tarde e depois voltar pra casa. Aí si, si! Tô cansada de andar. Gostoso porém chega. Falando em andar, as…
Hello, self! You're receiving this email because uhm, you subscribed to yourself. I think Louis is onto something here, and I hope it catches on. I just find that welcome message a tad funny. "Subscribe to yourself to receive your messages!" At least I know someone will read it later. Writing anonymously does give…
People commonly fantasize about starting their own location-independent, million dollar businesses. I know several people who now work out of their boats. While there is a whole industry on entrepreneurship (e.g. books, social media figures, boot camps, communities) - the overall landscape is covered in survivorship…
I think all of us growing up in India have never learned how to say 'No.' Since childhood, we got trained to respect elders and comply with their requests. A harmless practice in childhood that later leads to many ill-formed mechanisms as we grow older. A major downside of it often is our inability to know if we want…
Notifications control our lives. Every minute of my day, as my phone buzzes, I can't stop this unending desire to see what the notification was. I'm consumed by the apps on my phone. In a day, it doesn't seem so noticeable. But as the days add up, I live my life by the notification, more than by the moments. We all…
Ainda sobre ernaux, caras. Louco como nos anos 60 as pessoas olhavam para o futuro com positividade, comoa gente olha tbm (??). Robôs pra fazer o trabalho pesado, erradicação da morte e coisas desse tipo. Estamos em 2023 e as pessoas ainda morrem de coisas simples e outras mais complicadas, mas que já deveriam ter…
Hoje eu tava mt ocupada de manhã. O que me traz para o texto do dia quase 22hrs. Meu processo tem sido assim: abro aqui e escrevo o que tem na minha cabeça. Por isso que alguns textos ficam parecendo um bolo que deu errado, mas tô curtindo. Bom, comecei a morar sozinha em dezembro de 2021. Eu já tinha morado fora da…
I love exploring - it may be a new experience, a food place, a new tool, or a new hangout place. This time I am exploring a new tool - Nicheless. Let's see how this exploration goes. Until next time!
Some days are better than others. A couple of days ago, I ran the fastest I probably ever have for that distance. I was so happy and proud. But today, I just couldn't keep up; my pace was as slow as it was a couple of months ago. I kept having pain and couldn't breathe because my nose was dripping. There are so many…
Writing is hard. It’s even harder when you don’t have anyone to tell you whether the writing sounds good, or whether it’s something that would appeal to them. When you’re in this situation, how do you write well? How do you write something that others will enjoy reading, or find useful? Here’s a rule I’ve been using…
To be not listening to breakup songs Put yourself into position that will not let you feel deep into your own sorrow That’s pretty stupid Think of everyone else - why do Elon Musk and some successful people can achieve so much Because they do not fell into the bug feeling melancholic emotions There’s so much other…
I miss reading. It's been a while. It's hard to find time to start, and hard to stop recalling other things now in the middle of it, once I do. I miss learning things, the traditional, institutional way, ha. As in, at school, with books and teachers and papers. The constant input and feedback, the focus on you, when…
It’s time to lock in. Lock in on your dreams. Lock in on your work. Lock in on your standards. Do the boring work and it will work. Leave nothing to chance. Create your own luck. Lock in.
ahh today an image created sparked a memory of an architectural concept about modernity (Weak and Diffuse modernity by Andrea Branzi). it theorized an idea for urban planning by taking 'weak' forms such as incomplete design and elasticity, then applied them to how a city can be formed. an ambitious though would be to…
I noticed a tendency in some of my friends. I judged them. Then, I noticed it within myself. --- We're all convinced that the choices we've made in life are superior to those made by others, especially when it comes to our careers. Doctors believe that the medical profession is the most honorable way to spend a human…
When is the last time you argued with someone? No matter the answer, remember to be kind to yourself. We are human. We all get into arguments over topics that in hindsight are trivial. From Sports to Salvation and Finances to Family Members Arguing is a big part of entertainment in today’s world. It's the foundation…
The world announces itself loudly. It never asks for permission. It arrives as friction, metal against rail, voices colliding, engines coughing smoke into the afternoon. People move with purpose or pretend to. Everyone is going somewhere. Everyone is late. Noise becomes the proof of existence. I stand inside it and…
I completed a 2-day "ultra-marathon-type" race this weekend where you run 48 miles over the course of 48 hours. It was grueling and I enjoyed the challenge. I have run a regular marathon and done other various physical challenges, always trying to maintain some novelty and keep myself interested. In the final hours of…
It's rarely as bad as you build it up to be. If you have to do more, you'll take it one step at a time. Your dad may NOT have been wanting to tell you about your mother's heart attack. All you can control is how you feel and what you do. 0856
Hmm. This morning, I was thinking to myself that we use too many apps anyways, and now, I'm thinking of building another one. But then, I find myself excited to see what lies ahead. Also, it depends on the time of day. In the mornings, I am more open to screen-time, but by the evening, it gets too much.
Walking through the English Garden, eating falafel at Königsplatz, and riding my bike through Munich at sunset, the beauty of the city in summer struck me once again. The warm glow on the streets and the vibrant life around every corner reaffirm why I love this city so much. Feels good to be back.
Ahh i don't think we will ever see a way permanently remove 'bad' actors from our worlds. one one side of the venn diagram we have the 'good' actor, on the other 'bad' actor, the position intersecting both is our utopia. i question what will it look like...
Nov 20, 2023 marks a few approaching ends—the conclusion of the year, the nearing end of my mid-20s, and the closing of this chapter of my life. I have found a myriad of tools to distract me from my anxiety, with nostalgia being a key one. I dress in '90s fashion to emulate the teenagers I saw when I was a kid in LA,…
I’m a big advocate of making the most out of the cards you’re dealt. Take what you have in the current moment and start fixing things. Slowly but surely, and within a reasonable timeframe, you’ll get what you want — or at least you’ll be 2X or 10X better than when you first started. Even if don't get what you want, or…
I don't even know Why am I here HE didn't tell me Just left me in fear To figure it out For myself Without making sure That it is all clear This is not fair In any which way What else is to be done Someone who knows Please come And quickly tell me The direction to be taken Whether to go This way or that one This is…
All things and beings that exist are born from the vastness of the universe, shaped from its matter, yet we wander through life believing ourselves to be independent, everlasting souls, existing within but separate from the very cosmos from which we were created. This illusion of separatedness is the mind’s deception,…
