Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
These last 600 days have been the most toughest period of my entire life. I have cried my eyes out, felt miserable, sat like furniture for days on end & contemplated committing suicide. This all happened around my folks at home, never did they ever came up to me ask : what is brewing ? how am I feeling ? how can they…
It's one of those experiences that tell people how 'further' and 'farther' they are from the ones around them every day. You see laborers, officegoers, businessmen, students, people from different parts of the country, from different countries, and more. Today, I sat beside a laborer, and my financial woes suddenly…
Starting a new business, or a tool, or a startup is considered an enormously good thing. And when you start something and shut it down after some time, you feel equal amount of sad. Why is shutting down considered bad when its the opposite when you stop for the right reasons.
Used to feeling all sorts of weak emotions Feeling anxious when going out Feeling uncomfortable when meeting new people Feeling not wanting to go out Not able to wake up fully and stay on bed Not able to get over my ex or feeling sorry for myself for not doing the best It’s because I was weak And now I’m stronger…
Today was an intense day full of business strategy work - thinking big, maximizing impact, market analysis, etc. Networking, research, meetings, and repeat. However, my personal highlight of the day occurred in the night, on my way back from the gym. The streets were empty, the air was fresh and there was a slight fog…
Ah running out of time, "i will do it later" i say to myself. no! do it now, that same idea will not exist in the future, it will be lost. it may be found but why try. it can exist now...
Llegué. Fui recebida por um motorista sorridente. Vi primeiro o céu, que de um amanhecido recente, servia de palco para passarinhos dançantes. Até os prédios, de tão grandes, refletiam o que parece ser normal por essas terras: o calor de gente. Calor de salsa, de sol, de tesão, de pimenta. Calor que nem sei como é que…
Sometimes I fantasise about living a slower life. At the moment, my default mode is to be doing something all the time. I don't force it. It's just how I've been for the past couple of years. Always building, reading, writing, working. I haven't had a proper weekend off in months. Maybe in over a year. I don't dislike…
After being in the world of business communication for a while, it seems that whenever someone takes a long time to respond, they apologize for it. They say that their personal life is busy, or had other priorities to take care of. The problem is that after seeing this over and over, it loses its effect. I would do…
Of all the things people tweet about online regarding startups, I've not seen a single one about cofounder dynamics. Yet, in my experience, cofounder dynamics are one of, if the not the, most important aspect of a young startup. Cofounders can argue and disagree. Individuals have egos sand insecurities. People have…
There's this scene from the Netflix series Sense8 (which I recommend) where the protagonists of the show mull the question: who am I? It's a beautiful moment where they rhetorically pose the constituent questions required to answer the big one. Your love, your fears, your losses all together make you, you. For the…
In the wild landscapes of our past, our ancestors' very survival depended on coordination, without which they couldn't hunt anything of significance. Somewhere down the line, an important thing started to happen. Men started hunting while the women began foraging, this clear cut division of roles & responsibilities…
At a young age, it is difficult to say with certainty if you wish to become a lawyer or if you 'like' the job - because at that stage you haven't had the opportunity to do the job yet. Then the question to ask is 1. Do you wish to become a lawyer because you take pride in being a lawyer? OR 2. Do you wish to become a…
She was in my dreams last night, this is not the first time that it has happened. Her thoughts resurface every now and then. I look at her pictures sometimes, think about our times together. Were we just kids who did not understand love completely? Did we weigh ourselves down with the word 'love', when instead we…
plane tickets and a dusty suitcase stacked away in lofts, in your search you only found the one thing that was never lost and yet you yearn for parts of you you cannot reclaim because your broadened horizon means you’re not the same and yourself is the only one to blame.
There are no holy ideas in Academia. We should always strive to get better, always. I believe in the ideas of improving the human condition with the help of rationalism and science. Understanding the world and finding approximations of the truth that serve as practical solutions to the problems of our time, is the age…
Feeling hurt. Feeling broken. Knowing dreams won't happen. Needing to live with pain. How can I say I can't hang out more? I keep getting hurt. It's like a cycle I know I shouldn't repeat, but hope lingers. Things won't progress unless I align thoughts and actions. I'm stuck in a pit, not wanting to leave, yet…
Regardless of what you're doing or wanting to do. Everything that you can do that's relevant and has chance to be impactful has one thing in common. That commonality is something you can see behind every successful author, musician, artist, entrepreneur, etc. And I'm not referring to putting in the work and getting…
One gets a sense of a particular culture's deepest anxieties by examining its curses. Curses are an expression of a culture's most undesirable or objectionable state of being. It's like saying, "here's the thing I would dislike the most, and it's exactly what I wish upon you." The inverse of empathy. The most powerful…
I completed a 2-day "ultra-marathon-type" race this weekend where you run 48 miles over the course of 48 hours. It was grueling and I enjoyed the challenge. I have run a regular marathon and done other various physical challenges, always trying to maintain some novelty and keep myself interested. In the final hours of…
when i say "addiction" i mean that it is becoming an actual problem i've been indulging in books, thinking, "this is never going to be a problem -- i have never heard of anyone with a book-addiction before scoff" but i've arrived at it and it is terrifying i'm becoming a habitual book reader and i'm not even asking…
Culture is not something that is written in documents/slides or on walls. Culture is created during everyday moments during company building. Culture is the unspoken actions and behaviors of the team during daily operations. Culture starts with founders. Culture is the extension of founder's behavior and personality.…
The moments of feeling anxious or a negative thought entering the mind are few and far in between now. They exist, I just need the time to summon them and they'll be prompt in their arrival. There's something that stops me from summoning them or engaging for too long with these thoughts. I don't think there is…
In life, shouldn't this be my goal? What can I do to make sure I wake up excited each day? How can I structure my future days to improve the probability of this happening for me and the people I care about? I won't share an answer (because I don't have one yet) but I'm confident this is a question worth asking.
Hannah Arendt defined totalitarianism as the elimination of the individual. A totalitarian regime seeks uncontested authority over one's inner thoughts, feelings, and beliefs, in addition to one's actions and utterances. All action is either forbidden or mandatory; individual will is subsumed as an instrument of the…
When a person shares their struggles publicly, a very common type of seemingly empathetic reaction is to tell them they are not alone. There are a lot of people going through similar issues. Your problems are not unique. I could never understand this. Never have I suddenly started feeling better after realizing that…
One of the first questions a therapist asks when you start therapy is "Tell me about your childhood." There is a stigma attached to mental health and while the world at large has started to make peace with that now, there's still shame attached to bad parenting. My childhood was spent in survival mode. My parents had…
Some days will be lit. Other days you’ll have to find your fire.
I asked fate for courage and fate gave me situations to become brave. I asked fate for success and fate made me earn it. I asked fate for strength and fate gave me the opportunity to become stronger.
Queria que o título fosse positivo. E foi por algumas horas. Hoje eu acordei depois das 9h da manhã, o que é uma grande raridade, visto que tenho duas cachorras que agem como agiotas se eu não levo elas pro passeio às 7h da manhã. Meu namorado levou elas então eu pude dormir um pouco mais. Acordei de ótimo humor,…
i find listening to content while working prescribes higher quality to the output. when designing for a creative output; poetry that influenced many great artists is highly productive listening. their creation influences my thinking, it forces my mind into a state of deliberation...
I'm 2 weeks away from finishing my final placement of medical school. 6 years of studying are nearly complete and it feels strange. I already have a substack but I love the idea of being nicheless. Although I've called this 'thejuniordoctor', I'm not sure it will solely be writing about the profession I'm going into.…
Death is a known factor that disrupts all projections. The only problem is we don't know where it fits in the timelines of our lives. Today a friend left the office early. I joked to call out his half day. He smiled, winked and said he's just tired. He promised he'll pick the rest up tomorrow. He will never come back…
I will miss her. She listened to me. She made me feel intelligent. Slowly she grew on me. I loved her drive and intelligence. She was colorful. She shone in the crowd. I fell in love slowly, then all at once. But she broke my heart, she ghosted and she left. I thought we could build a lot of things today. I wanted her…
Why do I live like this? Do I have to? Can I do better? If so, how? I owe it to myself to ask myself The Real Questions. What brings me joy? What brings me fulfillment? What are my values? How much money is enough? How much success is enough? What does success mean to me? What do I like about myself and my life? What…
Hoje falei pras minhas amigas sobre o cara elegante do meu trabalho e como, quase de forma obsessiva eu olho para ele procurando alguma parte amassada em sua roupa, algum desvio de postura ou um fio de cabelo fora do lugar. Não encontro. Da ultima vez que o vi, notei que ele vestia uma camiseta branca de algodão e uma…
no yeah i definitely think of myself as an artist. &i like how matty healy talks about his music as "art" and not as "music" like most musicians do matty healy is attractive to me in a special way, like i like his...personality
I don't hate my job, but I don't love it. I've been running away all these years, jumping from one job to another and then hating myself. All because I don't have the courage nor the discipline to chase my dreams. Chasing your dreams isn't a luxury, it's hard work and requires a lot of determination. I am ready to…
People bother me all of the time with a great idea. "You'll love it, and I really think you can something with it," they say. I can tell they are excited. They're ready to tell anyone who will listen. They tell me about their great idea, as though I don't have a stack of ideas at home that I've been ignoring. Stuff I…
The word relationship does not always mean that a love Or a marriage relationship, it is also a healthy friendship and a sibling also a work colleague relationship. Gone are the days when we used to sit for hours together and yap about all things in the world and still enjoy it a lot. These days hardly any one does…
If you're here on Nicheless and also are trying to figure out how to navigate Mastodon, and are finding it not at all a friction-free process, like me... Help. How does a new user find the smart people in journalism, tech, entertainment, humor -- and, oh yeah, steer clear of the anime pornbot trolls, which I thought…
It’s been an illuminating and fun journey. Now at 613, I’m taking a 2-week break. That’s 613 atomic essays written and published since June 2021. I wrote and published daily until essay 500. Then I started taking the weekends off. In addition to essays, I’ve developed a journaling habit. Daily gratitude followed by 20…
think of me like a torch in your hand, a helping light. someone who helps you see through the dark tunnel. but not as someone who latches onto your wrist and pulls you through—without you seeing, without noticing the world as it rushes by. the tunnel is yours, not mine. we are in our own dark tunnels, carrying tools.…
When you’re young it’s okay to make mistake Just be brave to get it back up And learn from it Be brave to dream And do what it is that you wanted to do What’s most matter (especially shown in Asian male context) Is your ability and the knowledge you leveraged against others It’s a game of either you know or don’t…
- Continued from part I America is a dream in a different way. It’s been over 7 years since I moved here. Looking at my life now, I’ve done pretty well for myself. I have a stable job, a solid group of friends, a long term home for the first time in this country. I’m lucky enough to not grapple with visas and have…
Obviously not this one. There's a lot of rambling in my head too, like now. But because these are ramblings, do they matter? Are they worth thinking at all? Should they be shared? Where do our limits lie in thoughts?
AKA the perils of ambition and the loss of your home by emigration induced demographic change You wake up today and you are not 7 years old anymore. You cannot run outside and put your feet on soil or climb a tree with your brother Outside is the concrete and the great unwashed, more people in this building than in…
Most people want to be free. But being free is hard. The moment you have FREEDOM, there will be: - Nobody to blame, but YOU. - Nobody responsible for anything, but YOU. It's hard. That's why the majority of us trade freedom for safety and certainty.
