Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
Louco isso né? A gente se propõe a fazer algo e vai deixando, deixando. O tempo passa e você percebe que mais uma vez deixou de cumprir um objetivo. É frustrante para caralho. Lembrei com dor no coração que não terminei o curso dificílimo de robótica que comecei a fazer com o meu irmão menor. Sei que dei um péssimo…
here i am, lying in bed, staring at my phone, because i can’t get back to sleep. usually, at this hour, 12:37 am, i’m awake. i stay up late because i have to give my daughter meds in her feeding tube while she sleeps in the hopes that they help her continue to sleep until the morning. but this night, my wife was kind…
I saw Homebound today. It was heartfelt. It showed me a side of India that I know nothing about. How their lives go. What their routines are. What they aspire to be. What problems they deal with. Part caste and religion plays in small ways in their daily experience. I hold Varun Grover in a very high regard. I'd see…
Had such an amazing and cathartic session with Omar. 1. We looked back at and appreciated the journey I've been on this year. 2. He gave me the external validation I needed - what I felt was real. My pain was real. What I went through was indeed emotional abuse. Omar said that abusive people need to do a lot of work…
Why are we so unhappy with our work? And if we are unhappy? Why are we doing it? Who is making us do it? Is it the govt? The society? Your family? The ‘top 150’ people who run the world? Why are they called ‘top 150’ anyway? Is happiness even a correct measure of us working? Or should we just be satisfied? Is it…
We allow phones at our dinner table. I know that’s counterintuitive coming from someone who 14 years ago, declared, ”When we are empty-nesters, we'll still have dinner table conversation.” At the time, I wasn’t worried about phones. It was magazines. Now a phone comes out almost every evening at our dinner table, for…
During intense work phases, I often find myself deprioritizing social interactions to maintain focus and minimize distractions. While solitude often boosts my productivity and I enjoy my own company, I also realize how much I like to engage with open and inspiring people - they energize me. The last two days, I hosted…
i'm trying to understand what it is that i so admire in a person i will name people i admire and see if i can spot a pattern: (1) M - truly conceited - has a dream, has a plan (and carries it out, somewhat) - content - telepathic understanding (2) H - truly conceited - has many dreams, many plans (AND CARRIES THEM…
I've been living in Singapore for a few years now. It's amazing to how advanced this city is. Coming back to the city, after a trip to smaller towns in Asia, feels like time travel. If you want a glimpse into what the future could look like, visit Singapore. Once the sense of awe subsides - it does keep coming back…
Timoteo Rhousdy adalah sebuah karakter fiksi yang lahir dari imajinasi penulis dengan panggilan BAST. Seluruh kisahnya dibangun dari khayalan dan kreativitas semata, oleh sebab itu, nama, lokasi, dan peristiwa yang berkisar di sekelilingnya sepenuhnya merupakan ciptaan penulis untuk tujuan bermain peran (role-play).…
I was supposed to be at the top. I spend most of my free time reading about politics, history, philosophy and economics. I live in the world of ideas. I think in terms of strategy. I want to lead. I want to tell other people who don't share my talent for strategic depth what my vision is and for them to implement it.…
I woke up today and found out that Azuki, a project that I've been bullish on since I discovered them has airdropped me 4 NFTs worth (currently on the market) 3ETH each. For believing in this project since the beginning, I got rewarded 40K... just like that. Feels like something that only happens in the NFT space. But…
pulled the thread of despair i took to bed last night, the "why bother?" that hovered, unbidden, writing roadblock 97, the one that combines worthiness with approval, the one that questions whether anyone reads anymore, if the world needs another cooking story, the one that tells me i can't for so many reasons. pulled…
A good quote seen today: “You can’t go back and change the past But you can start today and change the ending” You’re kind, But just not daring and brave enough You could be more achievable If you’re more daring to think through Not stuck into some thoughts by thinking: I don’t think you can
When we think of the word "slavery," defined as a system of relations in which individuals are compelled to perform labor, it is reasonable to define the inverse as the absence of compulsion. The word most associated with such a situation is "freedom." Closely related but with a more political connotation is the word…
The second post on this journal should have come sooner. When I started, I had envisioned myself writing weekly, if not daily. I had grossly underestimated the toll that a change of surroundings can take on a person. When I was back in India, I would get enamoured by how eminent writers like Hemingway used to spend…
perhaps we blog for the same reason we do work/read in coffeeshops we want to feel amongst others even in our solitude i wonder if anyone has ever met anyone in a coffee shop and become best friends
Encontrei com a minha irmã no último domingo. Ela me encarou assustada gritando: "O que aconteceu?" logo que notou o roxo se alastrando por onde outrora repousava meu bigode chinês. Contei que durante um procedimento estético, o médico provavelmente pegou um nervinho. Encarei-a de volta e percebi que, aos 55 anos, a…
What wellness practice(s) do you do for your business? Not too different from how I take care of my own health/wellness (e.g., annual check-ups, nourishment, movement, recovery/sleep time) - since about 2003 (more than 20 years), I do 3 types of SOLO / SELF activities, with minimal to zero discussions with…
Vi o termo na newsletter da Bárbara e parece ir ao encontro do que me propus ontem. Só escrever. Cheguei em Loppiano na terça-feira e desde então tenho evitado socializar. Voltar pra cá e reencontrar a não completa liberdade e o empenho da vida em comunidade pede alguns dias de costume. Foram dias mais retraída mas…
Last month, my partner broke up with me in a park, holding a party bag I was foolish enough to think was a gift. It had all the clothes, books and other things I had lent them, and I was astounded that I, suddenly, didn't care for any of them. I didn't want them back. Soft and stupid reminders. The time passed…
i love books that are "aggressively pointless" like they make a point to be pointless (i learned this term from a goodreads user who condemned a book for having this quality that i so dearly cherish. btw; that guy with mainstream taste from youtube named "jack" actually disliked jordan castro's /the novelist/ which…
Starting a new business, or a tool, or a startup is considered an enormously good thing. And when you start something and shut it down after some time, you feel equal amount of sad. Why is shutting down considered bad when its the opposite when you stop for the right reasons.
The old time view for businesses was that they existed simply to make money and that social impact needn't be a consideration. This 1962 definition makes it absolutely clear- “one and only one social responsibility of business – to use its resources and engage in activities designed to increase its profits, so long as…
All things and beings that exist are born from the vastness of the universe, shaped from its matter, yet we wander through life believing ourselves to be independent, everlasting souls, existing within but separate from the very cosmos from which we were created. This illusion of separatedness is the mind’s deception,…
The most recent film I watched was her. It was beautiful, not just the story but the cinematography. I'll be writing these little blogs about the movies I've watched and love. I don't intend for it to be a review or an analysis. I only intend to write down how it made me feel. her. I was doubtful about the emotional…
The early 1990s, summer holidays meant staying at a beautiful Boston suburb with my Maasi and her family. She used to brew a pot of an aromatic fresh coffee everyday. Occasionally we would drive to a local Dunkin Donuts for a quick takeaway. A trip to Montreal and Quebec with my cousins was an eye opener, so many…
we hung out with a new sailor today; well, new to us, not new to sailing. and we did NOT hit it off. at some point i could feel that he was trying to leave. it was like he was waiting for us to say something that we never ended up saying. what was it that he wanted us to say? i wonder what it is that made me hit it…
Lembre-se que todo minuto dentro da ficção custa tempo da sua vida real. Durma direito. Tome sol pela manhã. Hidrate-se. Faça uma atividade física. Caminhe. Alimente-se melhor. Escolha bem suas companhias. Semeie e cultive bons relacionamentos. Aprecie a lua. Passe mais tempo com quem te aprecia. Saiba lutar pelos…
Who decides what the truth is? In liberal mythology, various factions and individuals are constantly making arguments and propositional claims about what is true. This dynamic "marketplace of ideas" is presented as the powerful engine that has propelled liberal democratic societies to global dominance. This myth turns…
...she, anyway, doesn't know me anymore. we ended things. i couldn't stand being around her. it doesn't mean that i loved her any less. i loved her more than she loved herself. she loved me less than she loved the version of me she wanted. you see...there was our problem. i had brought this to her attention as well.…
I took off my bracelet i recently made, in the night, whilst asleep and must have set it in another dimension because it's not reappeared yet today. This is reason to clean my room. Which I'm not happy about. Executive function is not a strong force in me.
- a way to receive money - a portfolio (Zapper) - your identity (ENS) - an access key (to discords and events) - a treasury account (for DAOs) - an investment club (by Syndicate) - your reputation (6529) - your verifiable track record (trading history) - an art collection (with NFTs) - an email/chat account (via…
The dusty bookshop tote, colours faded by the sun, filled with a day's worth of activity. In the safety of tranquility, we hide behind all kinds of screens. Screen to guard us from the sun's rays and screens to guard us from reality. We clutter the mind in a place built for peace. The senses heightened in every…
Something of vanilla, bourbon, and lingering notes of all the versions of you that lived in this cloth. Yesterday, I thought it was over. I'm not quite sure what happened, I must have been too consumed with all of you that I felt within the coat that I didn't even notice the button, second from the top, loosen between…
Schumpeter's theory about how capitalist economies tend to continually renew themselves through creative destruction is kind of like how forest biomes are supposed to work when they are not being mucked up by humans. Emergent systems like forests and markets have a lot of commonalities in this regard. They are not…
The self-help genre is the second most addicting substance that is fully legal in the world. In case you’re wondering, coffee is first by a long mile. The self-help industry is worth over 10 billion dollars, and I imagine will continue to grow as we search for more answers on how to improve. We read books and listen…
Moms article came in the paper today. We had such a nice and sweet time with all of us in Ammamma’s room as atta read out the article to us. The dogs were there, everyone was so happy, it was just really sweet. We were actually woken up by a phone call from moms friend congratulating her. I realised it’s a big deal…
It all depends on you Never have the slavery mindset You might be smart and be good at your job But what you believed in And your guts to stay true Stay logical and see things through Do not use emotional Don’t count on motivation Use logical Count on discipline As long as you put your effort into ANYTHING Including…
The dark elf is a political type. He (and it's almost always a he) is a member of the privileged class, either by birth or by wits. All the opportunities for success were made available to him. The social graces, mannerisms, and noble lies of the elite were inculcated in him from a young age. All of the social…
It's getting easier and easier to produce mediocre information. Anyone can remix anyone's ideas and churn out garbage at a disturbing rate. The only question on peoples minds anymore is 'why should I care'? The price of entry is genuine human experience. You need a story about an actual, real-world experience that…
Evolution ist nicht zielgerichtet, nicht linear, nicht auf den Menschen hin ausgerichtet. Evolution - was auch immer wir damit meinen - ist chaotisch, ein Prozess, geprägt von Anpassung, Umwelten, Zufall (!) / Mutation, und Selektion. Evolution ist Kultur! Und Zufall, Evolution ist ein Machtspiel und kein Machtspiel.…
My heart asks my brain this question every 23 mins of each day. Why would you not want to do the task right away? Do you not know where to start? Is whatever you want to do, something you are not ready for? Are you scared you're not good enough? Let's work for it right now then? It gets tiring, fighting the wrong…
Hj eu queimei a largada na hora de dormir e agora são 00:32 e estou acordada. Fui trabalhar, cheguei em casa, li um pouco e levei as doguinhas para passear. Depois a amg operada pediu pra eu buscar umas coisas pra ela na farmácia. Acabou que não tinha o curativo que ela precisava, só em loja de materiais cirúrgicos.…
Since COVID,Instagram accounts and Twitter threads providing insight on self-care have shot up. It may have started before the pandemic, but its effect magnified in the lockdown. Other than precautionary care, we realised that having more time at home allowed us to eat well, exercise, and care for our bodies. We…
If someone were to actually see how I'm doing this right now, they'll realise that the question isn't rhetorical. I'm dictating this to be transcribed directly on screen. I like this kind of dictation-transcription because I'm very used to doing this in my daily professional work. I know some purists among journalers…
The little firm that I was was part of setting up in March 2000 now has over 600 lawyers and is heading towards having one hundred partners. Its place in the top echelon of the Indian law firm world is well established. It is an admired employer, trusted by clients and seasoned lawyers see it as the platform to…
This PPT from Jim Keller is suggesting roughly 30% of Performance increase with a slightly increase in clock speed. We are talking about 23% of IPC increase. If we were to fit this number into Geekbench 6.1, assuming linear scaling of performance with clock speed, you get about 2250 Single Core Performance at 3.5Ghz.…
