Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
I have always regarded opportunities as rare. Having that mentality does not help in university and, honestly, even in life. I was good at what I did. I am an excellent developer (I study Computer Science). Once people started noticing the quality of my work and the value I charged, the demand for my work increased.…
turned on the water heater to shower and then was like "nah" smelled my armpit, and confirmed my "nah" i smell like nothing.
I’m pushing you away because I don’t know how to go back. And I miss you so much. How we used to be. I’m already not recognising myself. I want that care again. I want you in my life. The way it was. Mixed signals and all. But I can’t just walk back into it without an explanation. But how would I even begin tell you…
Scene 1 Driver rang the door bell for car keys. Father goes to the main door and is off in the car with the driver. He is back in 5 minutes. I ask mother where did he go that he is back so quickly. He never goes for morning walks. Mother says he went with the driver to refuel the car so that the driver can now go run…
I don't know where to start. For some reason I find this medium intriguing. I only found it a few days ago, but can't remember where now. I feel like I am going to need a few accounts. I would love to have one that is totally anonymous. I'll fess up to this one at least. I don't even know how long 300 words is. I…
more than words, silence speaks harder. more than being full, emptiness makes things clear. more than always being occupied, space makes things happen. being present everywhere can make you empty from inside, people need space to fill themselves up and come back with an better understanding of who they are. Charles…
There is a negotiation which I have with myself every time I am presented with an opportunity to get drunk. The decision to get drunk is despite all good sense - it is not a problem of knowledge or understanding. What tilts the balance in favor of the bottle is an innate desire to experience a high like never before -…
These throughlines are my five paired strengths - CliftonStrengths and VIA character - serving my five areas of focus, interest, roles - https://nicheless.blog/post/now-%7C-areas-of-focus-interest-roles joy & service . ACTIVATOR + KINDNESS for others and for self health & physical . ARRANGER + GRATITUDE for…
Ever found your self doing something out of habit without you ever noticing? The (not so) humble android OS was designed to run on any device - from simple toasters to sophisticated devices having more computational capacity than the rocket that landed us on the moon. Part of this robustness is due to the multi…
Situation: There is a couple at the coffee shop. She is 37, he seems older. They are not talking at all. He is onto his cellphone. Story: I wonder is she still remembers the first time that he kiss her. Now, there is only distance between them. It feels like today she didn't take any time to choose whatever she was…
The song by BJ Thomas ''Raindrops keep fallin on my head'' https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ss8X2VvHZs was released in 1969, many years before I was born. In 2013, the National Academy of Recording Arts and Sciences announced that the single would be inducted into the 2014 Grammy Hall of Fame. So, lo and behold I found…
It's the decisions that you made right? No matter consciously or subconsciouly - you put the water in the kettle for it to boil. You get back to your workstation and continue to work while waiting for the water to boil. Once the water is boiled: - You travel to the kettle and took the kettle and get back to your…
The other night I gave my wife a formal amends for some wrongs that I had done. And now that I word it this way I forgot the most difficult and important three words: I. Was. Wrong. I admitted to and asked forgiveness for being judgmental, being a score-keeper, being unappreciative around the house. Lastly, I asked…
For the longest time, whenever I would be asked, "where do you see yourself in 5 years?", my mind would stray away. The beauty of human imagination is that it is unrestricted. A thought is swift enough to traverse wide enough. I would wonder if it is a luxury car, a big house, frequent travelling, ability to lay my…
What if what I thought was wrong My perspective aren’t the right one The thought process is not the strongest one How do I forge it within myself To have intelligence I need to be hardworking and keep thinking on it Work on the details Been too lazy to think And that becomes a habit Even the type of bikes, the roads,…
I will need to pull out a history book to understand the how and why of how women's nails became a social symbol. My virgo nature, as I write this, makes me want to understand the cosmetic industry, the inventions of why only women got an opportunity to be creative when it come to coloring their nails. I will reserve…
Yesterday I started working on ramen based on local ingredients from Goa. So far I've swapped the traditional pork topping for a Goan Choriz and I blended cashew nuts into the broth. As I gently pushed the boundaries here I constantly found myself asking what makes ramen ramen? The black and white answer is that Ramen…
slow sunday . routines shape-shift. a day of self-forgiveness. no need for speed. languish on couch and, fueled by words of other writers (some intentionally motivating, some effortless), a sticky note: the mini plan for today's writing. NB: dear self, why do i feel compelled to make everything sound just right in…
Have a different flavour One room has mismatched socks Another, discarded earrings And yet another a space on a pillow. The kitchen is silent too Empty vessels that make no sound Wine and water turned to stains On spoons and rims of glasses. And the flowers on the balcony Nod silently And bloom regardless. December…
(literally 100 whole metric tons consisting only of $100 bills) i would: - buy forests/jungles/islands (as well as politicians) and declare these areas "protected national parks" - buy land that's currently being used for cultivating palm oil and mining lithium/etc. and reforest them, reintroduce native plants and…
My PKM includes not only fingertips to keyboard and screen to type but also fingers around a pen or pencil to write on paper. (Yes, I use Rocketbook. No, I don't have a tablet - yet.) Listening. When a prompt in LYT Workshop 9 was posted to share memorable podcasts, I immediately thought of and shared - this podcast…
Sometimes I behave in ways I don’t understand and it’s like my soul has a goal and has decided how to get there.
You know when you see sketchbooks that belonged to people who sketched? They're wonderful to look bakc through. I am a person who draws, but much of my “sketch” work is done on the computer. I have a good chunk of files of things I’ve started or experimented with or copied to get a feel of, or something. I want to…
DAY 1/90 - 16:00 My loved ones seem to have reduced hope in me? just feels that way, I cried a lot till I was tired of crying. The atmosphere feels so strange. I am really really broke and will be having only 2 meals this week till my salary gets credited. I am back to feeling pathetic and numb. Gonna to a 3 month…
I wake up at 6:47 AM and the first thought is: I'm not going to smoke today. The second thought, three minutes later while I'm already on the balcony with a cigarette between my fingers, is: Well, fuck. It's not like I forgot. I remember saying it yesterday—actually saying it out loud to myself while brushing my…
And having that “purpose” Like I don’t go to badminton just for another purpose Actually make friends Or be good in badminton Whatever your purpose is You don’t just “go there” Like you WANTED something If nobody is there you also wanted right? That should be the spirit Remember You don’t have to be friends with…
Yesterday was another day with no electricity, no internet, or cellular service. We couldn't check messages, browse Instagram, or watch TV. I read a book and went to bed at 9 pm. It made me think about how much more time we would have if we didn't have all these forms of digital entertainment. I didn’t feel like I…
I've been on the lookout for platforms on which I can jot down more sporadic thoughts. Perhaps I have found it?
The real essence of understanding lies in the ability to listen without the hunger to judge or correct.....for judgment interrupts what listening can reveal.
The first question, without fail, in our capitalist society: what do you do? I meet you for the first time. You always lead with ‘what do you do’? Went to a blogging meetup full of strangers recently. I could tell immediately from the energy and the question re: my work that several people were not from the Pacific…
Back to writing again, as I process emotions I've been avoiding for a while. I'm determined to be consistent this time. Last week marked one year since I escaped my abusive family. When I went back home to meet my dad, I was heartbroken to see how much he has aged since the last time I saw him. Despite still loving…
Alfred Hitchcock said, "Happiness is a clear horizon." -- Feelings of joy or excitement are not happiness; happiness is a place of contentment. The problem arises when we place happiness so high on our list of priorities that we forget it comes from taking action. Yes, I'm not against happiness; it is desirable.…
Oi. Hoje eu fiz uma fala preconceituosa com uma colega de trabalho amarela e quero um buraco pra me enfiar. Foi relacionado ao estereótipo batido de japoneses fotógrafos, porque tem esse senso de que fotografar é quase natural pra eles... Que estupidez. Tô me sentindo mal e vou remoer isso um pouquinho, pera lá.…
The Joker rises above all other villains because he does not want anything. Every villain wants something: -Power. -Respect. -Revenge. -Love. -Wealth. The Joker wants nothing. Can you imagine encountering someone like him at your college? or your office? or your neighbourhood? Someone hellbent on destroying the…
faz tempo que eu não venho aqui. isso não é uma cobrança, tampouco um pedido de desculpas. a vida acontece e os pratinhos vão caindo, normal. desde a minha ultima visita, consegui terminar mais coisas da reforma e trazer mais uma doguinha pra casa. desta vez, a minha dog há 9 anos. incrível como sua jovialidade e…
After already having several goodbye parties in Chile from friends and family that think I'm not coming back, today I say goodbye to the end of my gap semester to return to Chile. It's also a goodbye to my long distance relationship partner once again (for like the 7th time) by now I should be a pro at this. But,…
How do you convince a community to move to a new platform? Don't disregard ease of use and UI polish. Sites like Mastodon and Counter.Social may have all the functionality that Twitter does, but if they do it's buried under interfaces that seem almost proud of their functional obscurity. You can't get in your users'…
You close your eyes it's silent Your mind is filled by a scenario you saw in a documentary. 30 seconds later you're trying to solve a problem. And BOOM! It clicks. You found a solution. You're in love with the new idea. You feel like a genius. I know. It feels good! Is this really the best way to get new ideas? Or…
“Acho que vocês deveriam sonhar a terra, pois ela tem coração e respira.” —- Davi Kopenawa, entrevista a F. Watson. Breu, mas o escuro não impedia a visão, a floresta trazia conforto e não medo, haviam muitas flores tropicais com os mais sedutores tons, as ciano eram leves e moviam lentamente com o vento, as de…
the bird left its nest the feather of it's right wings were ready to soar but the muscles gave up within a minute her childhood injury had a left it's scar - invisible but all the more threatening to its dreams during her first fall - she cushioned her face with her wings the embarrassment hurt more than the…
I do not want to be dependent on the arbitrariness of others. I do not want to do something just because another person has decided for me that I should do it. I want autonomy and freedom. I notice that I have developed a real allergy to authority in recent years.
I will miss her. She listened to me. She made me feel intelligent. Slowly she grew on me. I loved her drive and intelligence. She was colorful. She shone in the crowd. I fell in love slowly, then all at once. But she broke my heart, she ghosted and she left. I thought we could build a lot of things today. I wanted her…
Thanks to the generous human beings like Tarra sharing their own knowledge-making and knowledge management journeys in LYT. I continue to extract my thoughts about Legacy PKM. Because of sharing in the LYT community, thoughts that have been evolving for more than two years are being further sparked. Ryuichi Sakamoto I…
Às vezes a gente bate tanto a cara na parede, que a dor se transforma em algo confortável. Sim, a dor, aquela experiência sensitiva e emocional desagradável associada ou relacionada à lesões reais ou potenciais dos tecidos, que serve muitas vezes para criar traumas, deixar claro que tal coisa é física ou…
It's very popular out there the notion of building a habit by taking the activity in question on practice it every day for a certain number of days. It's embedded in many popular apps like Duolingo or Strava. I think it got popularized by the habit building experts out there and also due to the Seinfeld strategy. You…
I have a lot of complicated feelings about speculative design as a practice. Its heralded to be this radical tool for guiding us in dreaming about the futures that we want to live in, therefore making us believe that what we can dream, we can create. While there is truth to this, much of the design fiction and…
Woke up at 4 AM to go through PDF of Consumer Behaviour, and later got to know that it was only 1.5 units out of 4. After messaging Bhola to send me the important topics from rest of 2.5 units, I went back to sleep and when her first message came, I woke up and went through the concepts she told me to read once. Then…
A sense of assurance that eventually things will fall into place and you will be more than fine. Its a state of mind which makes you calm, happy and at complete ease. The last I felt this is when I was in Kannur, Kerala for New Years. The clean and calm beach with the shades of sky changes from orange to hot pink, the…
