Day 1/90 - I'm tired. Very tired
DAY 1/90 - 16:00
My loved ones seem to have reduced hope in me? just feels that way, I cried a lot till I was tired of crying. The atmosphere feels so strange. I am really really broke and will be having only 2 meals this week till my salary gets credited. I am back to feeling pathetic and numb.
Gonna to a 3 month challenge from today of conscious living and will try to push myself to do things which are good for my body even though the depression within is slowly starting to eat me up, I am just ignoring it for now.
I am going to tell my current project manager that I want to leave my current project because it doesnt align with what I want to do and I am very nervous to have that conversation but I have to.
I met some people from one of the dsign communities I am a part of and I felt really good! Everyone are really supportive and I am working from/learning work from one of them sooo yeah, thats a good section.
Also, studying seriously for GRE from today onwards for 2 months to apply to grad school, so yeah! Lot of things to do, such little time.
Working on my procrastination, trying to eliminate it/reduce it as much as possible.
Well, its an afternoon write up today! this is going to be the most challenging week ever in my life in 25 years of my existence and I am very nervous as well as excited to see how much life is trying to test me!
Will be writing at night from tomorrow, so that I can give a better accout of my day
See you future Me!