love reflected back pt 2
you once told me that i looked beautiful. what choice did i have but to manifest your vision? you were my beholder i saw you seeing me
Gathering thoughts…
Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
you once told me that i looked beautiful. what choice did i have but to manifest your vision? you were my beholder i saw you seeing me
and we are standing there match in each hand in a room full of petrol pretending not to notice the air shimmering in a quiet resonance something we’ve seen before fairy-tale tangled in ‘what ifs’ scared of bruising whilst knowing exactly one wrong move and the place is ashes and dust
Heya! I have always wanted to come back and write and reflect here more. Rather than committing myself to lofty targets, I plan to be intentionally inconsistent here and writing here only when something strikes me so hard that I cannot stop writing about it. So what's something now that I cannot shut up about it? I…
Do you rest by moving to territory that isn’t challenging you? Sit on the couch so you’re not physically challenged, eat familiar foods so you’re not sensory challenging, binge netflix so that you’re not mentally challenged. Or do you rest by expanding the comfortable territory until it contains where your current…
These throughlines are my five paired strengths - CliftonStrengths and VIA character - serving my five areas of focus, interest, roles - https://nicheless.blog/post/now-%7C-areas-of-focus-interest-roles joy & service . ACTIVATOR + KINDNESS for others and for self health & physical . ARRANGER + GRATITUDE for…
• DO WHAT YOU CAN. As long as you start momentum habits. • Principles are the same. You just had to apply. • Listen to your parents but don’t take advice from poor people. Instead, join and attract yourself to the rich. • Be clear in your mind - means doing hard work for the easiest tasks so that you don’t have…
Of course it's been pointed out with increasing frequency of late, but I believe it bears repeating. This addiction to seeking out the comfort of the likeminded to the exclusivity of all others and recoiling from the sheer audacity of differently-minded people to exist cannot possibly lead to anything good in the long…
I have nothing against people who like planning and following plans. But all planning is ultimately your need to feel in control. It's a you-problem. I say problem because being good at planning nurtures a bit of entitlement within you. You move ahead in life thinking - because plans work out 70% time, the other 30%…
Also, given I am at a distance now, can I give him the credit he deserves for the effort that he put in to fix it? Can I slowly let this ghost of 2017 Nelson lose power over me so that I can gain inner peace? Can I forgive? I am a very vengeful person, and I know I have felt like "I want Nelson to suffer for what he…
You know the second question we ask anyone we meet, after of course asking for their name. It is inherently understood, we are asking if they have a job and how they make a living. It's a weird way to put it no? "What do you do?". Is work the only thing that we do? Don't we all play many many roles in our lives? But…
i wish we had better trains, better role-models, better air, better coping mechs, and higher risk-appetite what if i continue using this as twitter and not create anything of value what th hell
i had to name you. one year later, i finally call you what you were: an abuser. does it ever hurt, knowing that you drove a knife through me without ever stabbing me? does it ever haunt you, how i kept begging for you to stop but you were drunk on ego? do you ever get scared of the way it will all come back to you? it…
The most recent film I watched was her. It was beautiful, not just the story but the cinematography. I'll be writing these little blogs about the movies I've watched and love. I don't intend for it to be a review or an analysis. I only intend to write down how it made me feel. her. I was doubtful about the emotional…
This wall is from Dhobi Talao and is close to Marine Lines and Marine Street. It was home to a pond used to wash sailors' white uniforms and a community of Goans who had as deep a connection to sea and sailing as the sailors from far-off places who called Bombay their temporary home. If we dig maps, will we find the…
My boat stands still Soaking in the calm sea; A moment to ponder. -khyati I remember the late morning when I clicked this picture at a jetty near my home. It was about 11 am on a weekday. But the thick cloud cover made it seem like a late evening. Very few people have the privilege to loiter around on a weekday…
Islândia, Indonesia, India... O trio dos "I's", os lugares que eu mais amei conhecer. Já voltei para a Islândia, e voltaria de novo. Na India eu já quis até morar. Indonesia. Cada viagem, uma história. A primeira vez foi com Shima (que já partiu e deixou saudades...) quando escrevíamos nosso livro Volta ao Mundo em 13…
On the whole, I'm pretty big on Science. But it's important to distinguish between the cult of science and the core scientific method. Whenever someone says "scientifically proven" I wince. It demonstrates a fundamental misunderstanding of what science is. Science can only disprove stuff. It's just a method of…
It's 11:45pm on a Monday. The 1st of May,2023. I am creating this page so that I can write down my script ideas which I hopefully will execute when I have more time. These stories mainly deal with the emotions and stories of the people I meet, stories which may never me discovered, because the people living the…
I feel sadness I feel blocked I feel stupid What are the thoughts producing these feelings? - There's so much to do. - There are so many unknowns. - My words don't always make sense. - Am I actually bringing value to this world?
There are no holy ideas in Academia. We should always strive to get better, always. I believe in the ideas of improving the human condition with the help of rationalism and science. Understanding the world and finding approximations of the truth that serve as practical solutions to the problems of our time, is the age…
There is an attraction in Disneyworld´s Magic Kingdom very few people take any time to visit. It´s called the Swiss Family Treehouse, a steel and concrete-tree based on a 1960´s film, The Swiss Family Robinson. In the film, a Swiss family ends up stranded on a desert island after their ship is attacked by pirates and…
Week two of the new routine and its going pretty well, but there are a number of hangups that I am having trouble with. The first thing is that I had a cigar last night and ended up staying up until 1AM which pushed my wake up to 8:30AM, which in turn, pushed everything else out. I have yet to do my piano and Spanish…
Moms article came in the paper today. We had such a nice and sweet time with all of us in Ammamma’s room as atta read out the article to us. The dogs were there, everyone was so happy, it was just really sweet. We were actually woken up by a phone call from moms friend congratulating her. I realised it’s a big deal…
I don't think anyone except Germans uses this English saying. It basically means “If it ain’t broken, don’t fix it“. And I think that is complete bullshit in todays dynamic world. Sticking to established methods without seeking improvements is not neutral, it is destructive. But too many people think like that,…
It is important to intervene when you get into a negative self-talk rabbit hole. It happened to me today: "It's 5 pm! No haven't been 'productive'" "What are you doing? The client is billing you!" In these times, you need to ask the sergeant to relax. I call this alter-ego, the Sergeant. Intervene in the following…
We often look to this quote with fondness and admiration. We often use this quote to inspire and motivate. For a new skill. For a promotion. For a healthier lifestyle. Yet we are often baffled and surprised when we see the other side of the same coin. The ugliness of how negative small changes can add up too. For…
i was reading her lyrics and thought words like that are very bookish and it turns out she's an avid reader!! apparently she likes to go to big sur to read in peace relatable i escaped to monterey once when i felt that i couldn't make sense of my life, and it gave me all the magic i needed anyway now i wanna read…
- An observation from today's preparation for a hackathon. - In a complex world, we tend to think complex solutions are needed. Yet, simplicity often leads to better results. Overcomplicating things can obscure the real issues, making solutions hard to implement and maintain. We don't always need to match complexity…
My friend Shashish died on the 9th of January. We joined History honours in 1985. Sometime during the first few months of college, we became friends. With Shahid Imam, Amitabh Tripathi and Rohit Jha, we studied for exams together, smoking 25 paise Now cigarettes during our many breaks. He was smart, very smart. In our…
I tell myself as I count down the minutes to 10:49am. In the middle of work, in the middle of a life I should be focusing on. "15 minutes of thought," I say - and I attempt to figure them out right here. I'm overwhelmed by own lies (of secretly working on a task I don't like doing, of pretending to work on things I…
As we grow older, we experience the pressure to enjoy ourselves. Unlike family, peer, or societal pressure, this one stems from the self-realisation of new preferences. For the longest time, you didn't have preferences. Specifically in India, the activities you'll indulge in are decided for you. You enjoy those…
I'm currently reading a highly recommended history of the American Revolution. It's a fairly big book with nearly 800 pages, and I'm about a third through. I'm not going to write much about the book itself, because I plan to write a more detailed review when I finish. I like history and read a lot of history books.…
Entropy is randomness, uncertain, confounding. Physics doesn't seem to be random, yet it accounts for entropy. It claims that entropy is a measurable physical property. Life is entropic and not. It is paradoxical and not. It is measurable and not. There is an ardent need for clarity, but our understanding and…
If you're here on Nicheless and also are trying to figure out how to navigate Mastodon, and are finding it not at all a friction-free process, like me... Help. How does a new user find the smart people in journalism, tech, entertainment, humor -- and, oh yeah, steer clear of the anime pornbot trolls, which I thought…
Estou quatro dias atrasada na minha meta e vou tentar tirar esse atraso hoje. Também estou atrasada com meus e-mails, com um livro que eu tenho que ler pro clube do livro que eu entrei e com amigos e familiares. Estou atrasada comigo, não apenas nessas metas que eu impus pra mim mesma, mas com metas que os outros…
Or, “How have you been?” Or “How are you doing?”. These are one of the most cliched questions. When you get to its heart, it’s about being honest with the person asking you. But do you want to be vulnerable in front of anyone? There are times you want to share a piece of your puzzled mind - not necessarily seeking…
My combo family/girlfriend trip taught me three lessons about packing for a ten-day trip. I haven’t traveled much in recent years. I confess I tend to overpack. A three-day getaway poses no problem. Ten days with weather changes proved a challenge. I had a strategy. I packed mix-and-match items and planned to layer…
"Finish something. Anything. Stop researching, planning, and preparing to do the work and just do the work. It doesn’t matter how good or how bad it is. You don’t need to set the world on fire with your first try. You just need to prove to yourself that you have what it takes to produce something. There are no…
"Use a picture. It's worth a thousand words." - Arthur Brisbane, at the Syracuse Advertising Men's Club in 1911. You've heard this phrase as, "a picture is worth a thousand words". Pictures can be used to enhance the journal visually. When writing your thoughts, you must use words. It's not necessary to write long…
so i have been very lost in my mental health for the past few weeks, not getting enough meditation in, i bounced back on pornography, my workouts have been inconsistent, i am not studying enough. I feel guilty for not doing enough, always, no matter how much work i do, i just feel that i can get more of it done. I…
I felt energetic today. I went to office and distracted myself with work. Felt like I can be doing more work and that I am not doing my role justice. FOMO max. I had a bit of spotting. Spent a few hours feeling nervous because doctor suggested I do a scan tomorrow. I spent some time doing a puzzle which always relaxes…
There is generally good awareness on the importance of gratitude tracking and how that improves mental health. There is a tendency to make gratitude noting as a mega milestone kind of event like, child birth, exams, promotion, and more recently, what is trending also is daily micro gratitude practices, where listing…
There’s a new post about the art drama in the region: === anon6232 I got to say, Dr. Caleb’s presentation at the Arts Symposium was surprisingly good. He is good at what he does, and he is well-intentioned. No one in our zine has denied this. At Clan•Destinos we feel it’s our obligation to point out the blind spots of…
party slut my friend and i were walking on venice beach and two guys came up to us and they were like what do you do and i'm like i'm a piano teacher and they were like holy shit we're musicians too and they showed us their music and it was legit good and i showed them my chopin nocturne op 9 no 1 and they were like…
It is difficult to really 'enjoy' coffee at home. Compare having coffee at home v/s having coffee in a cafe. The latter is always a more enriching experience. Why? Expectations and context-setting. You go to a cafe and see people enjoying coffee. You keep your phone on the side, take a sip and actually 'feel' what…
Comecei uma nova série. New girl estava na minha lista ha anos. Eu conheço a atriz que interpreta Jess como cantora. Então, está sendo legal ver ela nesse papel de comédia também. Olhos grandes e azuis. Claro, a série tem uma vibe meio pick me girl. Meio "nossa como eu sou estranha e preciso da aprovação desses…
We often sign up for tasks without considering whether we'll be able to show up with full intention. We think about how fun or exciting it'll be to experience something. Soon enough, we begin to wonder - did we even think clearly? The sudden responsibility to be fully present is daunting. But we get baited by the rush…
After 8 years living with me, my rabbit died this morning. He was not eating properly for days. I gave him his medicines right after I wake up, worried about his health, but he couldn't even keep himself standing. So I tried to force feed him with a seringue. After the first shot of the Critical Care, the mix of herbs…