Sep 18, 2024

Mind is a Pig

I felt energetic today. I went to office and distracted myself with work. Felt like I can be doing more work and that I am not doing my role justice. FOMO max.

I had a bit of spotting. Spent a few hours feeling nervous because doctor suggested I do a scan tomorrow. I spent some time doing a puzzle which always relaxes me. Reinforcements were called in in the form of mother coming home to spend time and accompany me to the scan tomorrow. All mothers are natural healers.

We all hope it's nothing. Does feel like it will be nothing. But the mind is a funny pig, it will go sit in filth knowing fully well it is filth.

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