Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
Two ways to look at a weekend being spent alone - I have nobody around me who wants to spend time with me. I am all alone. OR I get to spend time by myself without having to worry about making plans with others. There needs to be a fine balance between both of these, I guess. Anyhow, definitely feeling sad about being…
Here's an idea. Record player Pomodoro timer. I'm sure you've heard of the Pomodoro productivity technique where you do deep work for 25 minutes, then take a 5 minute break, then back to 25 minutes of deep work. You repeat this rhythm for your allotted time, until you get the project done, etc. It allows for a good…
Well started writing here as I got infected with mumps 😩. Who gets mumps at middle age? Have been on leave for three days. It also happens to be my wife's neice's birthday. Her 20th one. She had a good day. Lots of gifts and 4 cakes. Happy to have started writing here. Lets see where it takes. While I have personal…
Frenchman Jules Allix, in the mid-nineteenth century, popularized a kind of organic Internet made out of snails. Drawing upon the physician Franz Mesmer’s theory of “animal magnetism,” which postulated the existence of a universal magnetic force connecting living things, it was predicated upon the idea that any two…
My earliest memory of paperwork was the annual trip to National Book Center to buy brown paper which I would use to cover our text and note books. Then the beautiful letters that my Grandparents would write from New Delhi or the ones that my Masi would write from Boston. Also, the special note pad that my Father had…
All human organizations are hierarchical. Decision-making is concentrated near the top of the hierarchy. One can conceptualize the organization as a complex function whose input is information, which flows upward into the decision-making strata of the hierarchy, and whose output is power, which subsequently flows…
Last weekend, my sister and I argued. She said my niece was still awake at 3:30 AM. I taunted her for it. Not my proudest moment. But it made me think. Everyone says, “Parenting is hard.” And it is when you’re making hard choices. The kind that helps kid grow strong in body and mind. For this, I truly believe in…
Today I had an inspiring call with Alex West, a solopreneur that runs a $600K/year automated lead generation business. He has been very outspoken about his journey over the last few years, and done so in an extremely authentic und reflective way. In our conversation, he mentioned daily writing as the reason for this…
Every single human society that has ever existed, past or present, has had to contend with the question of how to control the generative impulse. Variously identified as the will to power, yetzer hara (יצר הרע), or "toxic masculinity," it is almost always referred to in terms that are more male than female, and…
I am in the fortunate position that opportunities have consistently come my way over the years without deliberate planning on my part. Rather than meticulously strategizing every move, I've gone with the flow, relying on my instincts to guide my decisions when opportunities arise. Key to this approach has been my open…
I have spent an obnoxious amount of time asking myself, "what should I do with my life?" Not because there is anything necessarily "to do" or because I have an inherently unsatisfying or distressing life. In fact, it's quite the opposite. I have a cushy, work-from-home, tech-adjacent, golden-handcuffs, kind of job. Me…
Worry globally, neglect locally.
Imagine my third-grade surprise when I got to Kingston the first time since migrating and found out our driver was named "Drugs." My grandmother arranged the pickup and everyone was saying this name like it was a normal title. Like his name was John or Joe. Except, it was a word that'd been drilled into my head the…
Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi says flow is the secret to happiness. I agree. Not just because we were born in the same city (but not in the same country — Europe is fun like that sometimes). I feel great when I achieve a state of flow. There’s no self-doubt or bad ideas. Creative juices are flowing, and I lose my sense of…
we don't SET an intention -- we don't CHOOSE it we become AWARE of the intention within when i'm by myself, i flow and i get myself to a peak state of high but it is a very fragile state and very easily interrupted. so i kind of don't want to travel this winter because i don't see how anything external can be more…
I woke up today and found out that Azuki, a project that I've been bullish on since I discovered them has airdropped me 4 NFTs worth (currently on the market) 3ETH each. For believing in this project since the beginning, I got rewarded 40K... just like that. Feels like something that only happens in the NFT space. But…
my friends and i are narcissists we think we're pharaohs among peasants
I take things too personally. When someone tells me they don't like my photos, my brain says, "I'm such a bad photographer." When someone says, "Your outfit is so plain today," my brain says, "I have no style, I look ugly." When someone points out a pimple, my brain says, "I AM UGLY." Something happened today that…
I googled synonyms for happiness because I didn't want to sound cliché but all of them sounded too pretentious. Lol. This is just a personal take on the feeling that everyone is so bent on finding. I’d read headlines off of newspapers and magazines that told me stories of people and the lives they lived. To me at that…
From Epics thousands of years old up to James Bond and the classic Magnificent 7. We're all familiar with the idea of the hero's journey. A chaotic situation is resolved when the hero overcomes the monster and order is restored. The interplay of these forces is deeply embedded in human nature. Symbolically, think of…
What if we didn’t need to sleep, and this was all just mass hysteria?
What you do when you're alone that allows you to become the best version of yourself, determines what kind of success you're going to attain. Imagine: KS - probably sleeping or gaming or Tik Tok E - He probably read news or he read about startups; gaining knowledge that allows him to excel in his career You - Staring…
This space is to explore my views and get to know myself better. Currently I am experiencing a lot of pressure on myself because I have very high expectations out of myself. I want to be in control of my thoughts and better understand my feelings. I want to do many things but I need to realise I can't do everything at…
If someone were to actually see how I'm doing this right now, they'll realise that the question isn't rhetorical. I'm dictating this to be transcribed directly on screen. I like this kind of dictation-transcription because I'm very used to doing this in my daily professional work. I know some purists among journalers…
Cash is king. And sales brings in the cash. Prior to working for startups, I my broader education largely came from my MBA and following the "startup press" - i.e. the thought-leading founders and VCs who produce so much content about startups: blogs, Twitter, podcasts, etc. With some notable exceptions neither had…
Its strange why my articlulation of ideas/feedback has not been upto the mark - despite spending time with clear thinkers. Second order thinking also tends to be a pain in the ass - a number of the decisions that I take spread ripple effects that I need to be vary of. Along with one & two, crisp writing especially in…
I haven't written anything anywhere in a long time, my articulation of sentences is poor, use of punction is very poor, I don't know how to write. want to get better but i dont know how.
Boa noite. Hoje eu acordei de madrugada pra me despedir do meu companheiro que foi curtir o carnaval de Salvador. Voltei a dormir e acordei algumas horas depois pra levar minhas doguinhas no passeio. Estava com muita saudades de levar elas pra sair, de torcer por xixis e cocos saudáveis, por forçar interação delas,…
Having had a long period where I had no energy or interest in tinkering with any side-projects, the energy now seems to return. Perhaps it is a reflection of a better state of mind. Perhaps it is a reflection of winter in the Northern hemisphere and hence less daylight, but nevertheless the fact remains that I have…
For about a month now, I’ve been working on writing a novel from an idea I’ve been working out for a few years. While writing a novel is something I’ve always wanted to do it is somewhat daunting. I began writing this story a few years ago as a graphic novel, but found myself discouraged when I couldn’t afford to pay…
It’s not how smart the guy is But how passionate he is towards each thing, how interested and motivated based on his own desire That is why you do not simply let yourself tear and wear away given what life has thrown to you People has it even far more worse To operate based on pain rather than joy Is harder to…
For two hours, I have been sitting on the second landing of the staircase in my home, staring at a space between two steps that lead upstairs. Everything is in its right place. I feel sad. But my mind feels warm, supported, and unburdened. I am safe. This place is as true as any other. Everything is here. Everyone is…
As I wrote in my last part of Cortex X4 [1], We finally have some news on X5. Quote: which forms part of (ARM CEO) Rene Haas's strategy to "eliminate the performance gap between ARM-designed processors and custom ARM implementations." Moorhead's inside information has "Blackhawk" demonstrating the "largest…
made coffee at 2am again not because i needed energy just wanted to feel like the main character for five minutes
The working Tom is struggling for air And it's making Dick a Millionaire Harry's watching the news...he's got no clue Just wants to stay away from this worldly zoo...
There are many things you automatically do better at, if done a second time. For me, when writing a piece of software, I get it all wrong the first time. It may work, but I can see how the code could be written in a cleaner and more effective way. If I get the chance to do it over, the result is better, and it doesn’t…
Do I have to go about life the way I thought I was supposed to? Do I have to be the person I've been told that I am - that I've been convinced that I am? Is there another way to be? To live? Am I allowed to do that? Writing it down makes these questions sound absurd. When did we start pigeonholing ourselves into these…
i got a myspace y'all i'm still waiting for that email verification (and am completely LOCKED OUT OF HEAVEN until i get that done) but let me tell you it is a different experience. it's completely VIP, completely next-level. it asks you to identify yourself. and so i'm clicking through the options and each click is…
What is existence but a search for answers that never quite come. Existence reflects patterns. Patterns that one must recognize in order to survive. What if... the internal discomfort of specific patterns exists for a reason? What if... the shaming of pattern-recognition is coordinated for the sake of mental…
Como é bom descobrir alguém novo e gostar. Hoje fui no show da Salma Jo com meu boy com ingressos que ganhei de uma amiga. Ela comprou, mas não conseguiu mais ir. Disse que era porque estaria em outra cidade, mas eu acho que é porque a namorada dela falou que ela tem ido a muitos shows. Isso aconteceu em uma discussão…
I've been seeing a few founders lately that already have 3 or even 4 projects and working on them simultaneously. Even if they operate under the same brand, to me this is a red flag. It's already really hard to build one really good brand/project, imagine if you have to build multiple at the same time? The common…
- Continued from part I America is a dream in a different way. It’s been over 7 years since I moved here. Looking at my life now, I’ve done pretty well for myself. I have a stable job, a solid group of friends, a long term home for the first time in this country. I’m lucky enough to not grapple with visas and have…
When we feel displeased with someone, we make every effort to stop any interaction with them. It is liberating to see the difference it makes. In fact, once we have managed to master this detachment, we tend to feel bouts of motivation. The real tragedy is when something that causes us great pain is nothing alien but…
I waited in the train station restroom. A woman exited the stall, telling me, “There’s no more tissue, but I had some in my purse, so I left a small tissue pack on the dispenser.” That is when I knew I am not as kind and friendly as I thought. Scotland's culture is similar to the United States. We don’t dress…
Acabei de ver um vídeo de uma senhorinha de 100 anos fazendo exercícios com a ajuda de um personal trainer. Coisa simples, levantar pesos, pegar e jogar a bola, levantar a perna com pesos no tornozelo. Coisa que muita gente com décadas a menos não consegue fazer. É isso, gente. Vamos fazer exercícios para ter…
I was at work today looking for some piece of furniture in the warehouse, and was like, "Man, I can't wait to get home today and read my books." The two in particular right now are "A Difficult Par" and "Dream Golf", but there are uncounted others. I can see several armfuls from where I sit, any one a treasure trove…
Ahhhhhh!!! this journey excites me. then my nerves pull me back. let me try again tomorrow...
lately i've noticed that where you write has an impact on how you write. i don't mean where your body is, like cafe or your bedroom or a toilet stall, but i mean where your writing goes. it makes a difference what app, notebook, platform, program you use. it totally affects the way that the information is conveyed and…
