Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
It is a fact of civilized life that there exist rules which govern and constrain individual behavior. You can't steal your neighbor's car because you don't have one, or because his is faster. Regardless of one's moral philosophical framework, just about everyone agrees on that. We tend to put the people who don't in…
The lucky ones among us get a chance to grow up with our families which in most likelihood have a parental figure or two to provide for our education, medical care and learning. The lucky ones, someone calls us the lucky ones and we don't believe it. How can we be the lucky ones? Everything is laid down for us - which…
honestly, i'm not even sure if it's a skill to have, but two underrated skills are longevity (or persistence) and focus. first let's start with longevity. i was listening to a david dobrik's podcast a few days ago and he was saying that he didn't really speak to any friends he made in his first year in LA. not because…
"Hating myself for not going into Azuki at 8ETH last week" or something along the lines is one of the most common tweet I've been seeing over the past couple of days. Or "Sold my Azuki at 5ETH ngmi." It's easy to say this with hindsight, but in the back of my mind, I know that 90% of the people who say probably…
You should say something that’s secretive That has a chapter 2 To hold conversations Is not to speak whatever’s on your mind But to pull others head towards your “mysterious and many other missing details” stories. To hold converse is to leading the words on Not spilling everything out cos some people might not be…
I have nothing against people who like planning and following plans. But all planning is ultimately your need to feel in control. It's a you-problem. I say problem because being good at planning nurtures a bit of entitlement within you. You move ahead in life thinking - because plans work out 70% time, the other 30%…
Last year, I worked on a little project to figure out what we needed to do as a society to prevent us from making our planet unliveable. I took an inevitable deep dive into the climate crisis only to realise that fossil fuel consumption and the resulting runaway warming of our planet is a mere symptom. That trying to…
Crossing the threshold into tranquility. Silence. Figures reading, learning, absorbing. You tread lighter than usual. Paces slower. A softness of the feet as a sign of respect to the literature. A wave of colour greets you. Blinding brightness, as you search for familiarity. A name, a face, a feeling. Row by row of…
we started the day with a to-do list of "things we can tolerate doing today plus some things that seem pretty necessary" just items flying out of our mouths - drain, fill, drain, fill, drain, fill water tank - return packages - laundry - replace thermostat and so on and i have done TWO things and now i am taking a…
Excerpt from the 2015 Ursula K. Le Guin Vogue interview. Interviewer: Abby Aguirre ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆ In response to Le Guin‘s 2014 national book award remarks; ‚We’ll need writers who can remember freedom. [...] We need writers who know the difference between production of a market commodity and the practice of an art,‘…
Hoje eu fui na festa de aniversário de uma colega de trabalho. Super novinha ela, esqueci de perguntar a idade, mas não passa dos 23 anos. Linda, solar, alto astral, com tudo pela frente. Feliz de estar perto de gente jovem que ainda não perdeu a esperança na vida. Refresca e renova real!! Ela escolheu o parque…
People often say "decisions makes our destiny",advices that decisions should be taken with care and should be calculated with pros and cons blah blah... But all the major pivots and moments of all life have more luck than expected.Luck or God's grace is more important than your decisions which you might think have…
Perceptions give me the benefit of the doubt with an unseen cost
Imagine as KB said - what if you live life regretting that you could've done more I always imagined if I was like what I was when I study for exams. On the last day. Or the last hour. The hormones or the awareness just made me increase my capabilities by 1000%. But I was a 10% prior to that last hour. Imagined that.…
I reached for a jar on a shelf and this happened. Lots of things are breaking down around me, and now I see what God is doing. His pattern is to break things before he builds them into something newer + better. That’s exactly what’s happening in my life right now. Things are breaking down left and right, because he…
I recently bought an electric fly swatter to handle the flies in our house. It felt satisfying to quickly zap them away. However, today I encountered a fly that exhibited surprisingly clever behavior during its escape attempts. It almost seemed as if it knew what was coming and was afraid. Killing this particular fly…
Acabei de ler Quem Matou o Meu Pai, do Édouard Louis e não posso usar outra palavra que não "cortante" para descrever a experiência de ler tudo em uma sentada. A forma como ele costura sua história pessoal com a política... A rejeição dos pais por ele ser quem é, a repetição dos padrões, mesmo quando há tentativa de…
Every self contains multitudes. It can be helpful to sort these elements of self into defined parts. This can help you conceptualise these competing and contradictory bits of you. One distinction that’s been super helpful to me is the child and parent, the maiden and knight, the experiencer and the agent. Separating…
Do you ever have one of those moments when the storm clouds part, clarity strikes and for a split second, you are able to join the dots? It happened to me yesterday reading an excellent long form piece by John Kolko on Abductive Reasoning. (http://www.jonkolko.com/writingAbductiveThinking.php) No, I hadn't heard of it…
Why do many new age hippies interpret the Buddha's teachings in the wrong way? The moment the Buddha was dying, people were lining up for him. He was sitting under the bodhi tree where he reached his enlightenment. Ready to leave his physical body behind. A man appeared from the crowd and tried to ask the Buddha a…
I understand they happen to be there because it's cheaper and simpler, but what a tasteless and generic place to put them. Lighting can be beautiful if you set the sources gracefully. Indirect lighting can make a magic atmosphere and functional lightning can be a great tool depending on your goals. But "one light bulb…
acho esse negocio de criar expectativa a coisa mais cagada do mundo. assim, claro que todo mundo cria expectativa com as coisas. sempre. é impossivel viver no mundo onde há relações e nao sair criando expectativas, mas eu acho maluco que a gente ta sempre ou ficando muito feliz porque elas foram alcançadas ou…
Photography is hard, but working on this project has honestly really made it fun. Although it's taken me this long to finally have an image come out (if we can even call it that) I know I am going to enjoy this the more I shoot. Here is to more tests, fails, and successes.
Campaign finance reform? Even limited private money financing of campaigns dilutes the public vote. Money votes everyday ... humans vote once every couple of years. Even if the donor did not intend to influence, the nature of money creates an indebtedness. Put the bribes aside and let's see what we have.
This blogging platform (the one you are looking at) was created by Louis Pereira, a student in Write of Passage which I was also taking. It is very simple and clean. I like that, so I decided to try it out. I am trying to see how having writing viewed by others changes it. How does having an audience (or even just the…
with eyes that grow flowers and a cool that blooms calm one that pinches your cheeks but before you blink is gone and you stay there, cherry blossom pink like a summer moment on a half-frosty morning or an April shower he walks on, hands in his pockets and eyes that could grow flowers
rientrare a casa dopo qualche giorno di camper è un pò come tornare in prigione. Nonostante il campeggio sia un luogo spartano e privo di protezioni della privacy, mi fa sentire molto meglio che a casa. La gente si fa i cazzi suoi, non come qui... Sembra che non voglia capire il mio disagio ed il mio bisogno di…
A lot of people likes to use the above graph and article to show how hard drive continue to fall. If you Zoom out over long enough period of course if will look fine. But if we look from 2013, where HDD price was slightly bumped up due to Thailand flooding, we saw price /GB went from $0.04 to $0.015 in 10 years time.…
Situation: There is a couple at the coffee shop. She is 37, he seems older. They are not talking at all. He is onto his cellphone. Story: I wonder is she still remembers the first time that he kiss her. Now, there is only distance between them. It feels like today she didn't take any time to choose whatever she was…
O título vem de uma frase que Gabi Pankekinha falou no BBB, às 3h28 do dia 7 de abril. Eu gosto do BBB por isso. Por algumas semanas, você tem acesso a formas mais cruas de pensar do que a gente vê nas redes sociais. Diálogos genuínos, dores e alegrias reais. Eu vejo super como aprendizado, mesmo. Eu comecei a…
The second post on this journal should have come sooner. When I started, I had envisioned myself writing weekly, if not daily. I had grossly underestimated the toll that a change of surroundings can take on a person. When I was back in India, I would get enamoured by how eminent writers like Hemingway used to spend…
I think it will be weird and will take some time to get used to the two of them dating. I’ll need some time to recalibrate This will be such different roles from what I’m used to seeing. And maybe I’ll just have a lot of difficulty getting used to seeing Nelson being treated with respect and love. Seeing Shivani being…
I seem to be needing emotional punching bags to deal with my emotions. What happens if the punching bag is alive and feels you punching it? Anyway, just commemorating the first time I’ve cried on call with SM because of an argument we’ve been having.
“we have survived so many fires, i can no longer tell if we are alive or simply burning.” — Pavana Reddy Letting go is difficult. Of people, dreams or your old self. People who need help often look a lot like people who don’t need help. They seem in control, always with a positive word. Everyone we come across has…
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This will likely happen many times over. I'm not necessarily building towards something, which makes this pseudo-habit hard to complete. Which brings up an interesting thought for me: am I conditioned to do things if and only if it leads or builds towards something? I definitely have this mindset these days. While not…
I struggle to understand my emotions.My calibration ranges from sad,happy,hurt and angry.Beyond this I go "Idk it felt weird/not nice". An incident is making me ponder over this incapability and its real meaning. Context:I'm not close with my relatives.I don't share,ask about their lives,don't call,dont spend time…
We like to think of ourselves as rational decision-makers who are persuaded to accept arguments and ideas on the basis of logical merit. This is laughably divergent from how things really work. The idea itself that humans are rational decision-makers has no basis in empirical observation; it is just some wishful…
I got off track today. I intended to concentrate on two items I prioritized. But somewhere along the way, I thought about cooking dinner. Suddenly, I was looking at new recipes. I love to cook. Tomorrow, I’ll employ a journaling strategy to stay on track before going down rabbit holes. I'll use my journal to obtain…
Tomorrow I have - hopefully - the last university exam of my life. I'm glad. What a stupid way to assess a person's abilities.
Hi all, this space caught my attention. Let's see how long do I continue writing here.
When I'm with you, I feel like I'm a thousand feet tall. When I think I've lost you, I feel like I'm dying. I live for all the little moments I spend with you, your smile, your voice, the little curve of your nose and the silly way you make the worst things funny. You are never far from my thoughts. I could write a…
For five years, I had a hectic commute to and from college. I have used Mumbai locals for all of those five years because it was the fastest mode of transport. Conveniently, after I graduated, I did jobs that didn't require a commute that would tire me. However, I just started working at a new job and anticipate some…
Recently I was wondering about how the world has become bigger and smaller for me at the same time... And probably not just for me but for everyone in a sense... I went back home... where i used to be a small kid 20 years ago... I saw kids playing in the common area... i remembered playing cricket there and always…
here i am, lying in bed, staring at my phone, because i can’t get back to sleep. usually, at this hour, 12:37 am, i’m awake. i stay up late because i have to give my daughter meds in her feeding tube while she sleeps in the hopes that they help her continue to sleep until the morning. but this night, my wife was kind…
It sometimes baffles me just how much a walk or hike in nature can boost my mental capacities. Being at home or work surrounded by books, notes and brilliant people just never get the cogs turning like the sound of birds chirping, water flowing and life happening at it's own pace. So, there I was in my local forest…
One of the first questions a therapist asks when you start therapy is "Tell me about your childhood." There is a stigma attached to mental health and while the world at large has started to make peace with that now, there's still shame attached to bad parenting. My childhood was spent in survival mode. My parents had…
Because you don’t take everything personal Maturity tells you when it’s about the world not about you If someone is behaving like disrespecting you Find a way to make them know it’s their fault first Stand your own fucking ground Understand it’s not you it’s them You’ve matured First you already control your emotions…
