Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
When ever we talk about ARM and Performance. Most discussions, whether that is on Twitter, HN or Reddit immediately jump into an Apple Fanboy thread. And pointing out how far behind the other ARM cores are. But is that really the case? Apple A16 has a GB5 of 1870 @ 3.6Ghz. Running at close to 5W. On the same TSMC 4nm,…
1. how far do we have to go? 2. are trees ticklish? 3. why didn't i say hi? 4. how to find a job that i love 5. can i go back? 6. what do earthquakes feel like? 7. what does heartbreak feel like? 8. how to keep breathing 9. how to care more 10. where do i find it?
It is something that I don't purposely wanna hold to someone, holding a grudge is something really tiring, but at the same time very hard to let go. It makes me get annoyed at the smallest things and quirks from a person that I usually wouldn't mind, but because of something bigger it just bothers. I should get better…
I don’t want to give a fuck anymore. Not caring about what anyone might think. Just doing what I feel like and showing who I am. Whenever I managed to do that, life positively surprised me. I want this to be my permanent state of mind.
So I have this little theory about communion. It's not something I care enough about to actully research - but I think it's fun in a 'plausible but unscientific TV plot' kind of way. So most people are familiar with the practice of communion in the Christian church, people eat little bits of bread and wine which…
Around Christmas every year, I trawl through The Guardian and NYT best books of the year lists. Then, there's a visit to the bookshop and a supplementary Amazon order. The Guardian's 2021 list of best crime books included a review of Riccardino, by the late Italian author Andrea Camilleri, who I hadn't heard of…
Ainda sobre ernaux, caras. Louco como nos anos 60 as pessoas olhavam para o futuro com positividade, comoa gente olha tbm (??). Robôs pra fazer o trabalho pesado, erradicação da morte e coisas desse tipo. Estamos em 2023 e as pessoas ainda morrem de coisas simples e outras mais complicadas, mas que já deveriam ter…
liberal societies such as Europe unequivocally call for abolishing death penalty, arguing that it violates the fundamental right - the right to life. further, it is also argued that emotional impulse for revenge does not justify capital punishment, neither is there evidence to support that death penalty is a potent…
my friends and i are narcissists we think we're pharaohs among peasants
Now that things are opening up again, I've been thinking of the importance of being in cities that are known in your space. For e.g. Bombay for Media/Finance, Bangalore for Tech, Paris for Fashion. This was really important for career growth before Covid and remote work. Does it still hold now? I would think so. Let's…
No matter your choice of activities, you can be learning. You intentionally choose to participate in some activities to increase your knowledge. Having an in-depth conversation Reading to learn (vs. reading for pleasure) Watching a how-to video. Your purpose in choosing other activities is downtime. A vacation…
Sometimes we only miss something when it's gone, and then we feel an emptiness in its place. The art should be to be aware of this even before the void appears. To fully appreciate every moment while it's still present.
here i am, lying in bed, staring at my phone, because i can’t get back to sleep. usually, at this hour, 12:37 am, i’m awake. i stay up late because i have to give my daughter meds in her feeding tube while she sleeps in the hopes that they help her continue to sleep until the morning. but this night, my wife was kind…
"As long as you believe in yourself and believe that you are good at what you do, people are gonna start believing in you" In the start up sauna event there was a panel of founders discussing their experiences and life journey and this phrase just stuck with me. For me, I kinda feel people in my circle believe in me…
and not on a Thursday. saturday wedding. suited and booted. pastel flowers. pink tie. Then reality sinks in. The plan is not mine to make. And you’ll marry on a Thursday anyway.
i try so hard every day i tell me i’m right in every way my heart doesn’t dare to hope so it pulls strings and hangs them in ways that paint a picture of you as ‘nothing, buts’ and for weeks there’s emptiness and abyss and space and void until, there you are, emerging and yet this time you are stronger tanner eyes…
I'm terrified of this one word. It's just one word but contains an unknown universe within. A universe that I am part of, that I live in, yet that which I want to get out of. I was born into this realm and I continue to live within this reality. Even death does not seem to be a meaningful escape from this multiverse…
Today was tough. But here I am, staying true to the promise I made to myself – to write and publish something new at least five times a week. Problem is I don't have anything to write about. The goal was to read, learn, and write about the difference between Aetiology vs Teleology. But anxiety had different plans.…
Teachers always wrote - "Can do better with more effort" on my report card. I was smart but not smart enough to match the truly brilliant ones. I was hard working but could not match the real work horses. The truly elite I observed were the ones who were both work horses and naturally gifted. I worked when I felt it…
In my dream I was suddenly transported back to a very specific moment in high school: it was on a Saturday during the lunch break at my drawing class all the way on the opposite end of the city. The noodles I slurped from that 24hr Lawson were chewy, but that wasn’t where my attention lay. I was ecstatic about dating…
i'm starting to like music that makes me feel the way that literature does ; i'm enjoying picturing things. i think my third eye is opening again (every psychic ever told me my third eye was closed and it's true; i couldn't even picture things when i was reading for a long time; but now i hella can and i prefer music…
with eyes that grow flowers and a cool that blooms calm one that pinches your cheeks but before you blink is gone and you stay there, cherry blossom pink like a summer moment on a half-frosty morning or an April shower he walks on, hands in his pockets and eyes that could grow flowers
Some days, my brain can be a chaos of endless worries and scenarios that give me anxiety. These thoughts can be exhausting, but deep in my heart (very deep inside), I appreciate this aspect of my mind. It probably comes from my survival instinct, a part of me that is trying to anticipate and prepare for any possible…
Que mágico é saber cozinhar. Recentemente, fizeram pra mim um arroz delicioso! No estilo cozinhar com o que tem, a pessoa pegou da geladeira uma alcaparra que estava paradinha tinha tempo, pimentão verde, cebola, lentilha e tomate. Com certeza tinha outras coisas também, mas essas foram as que eu mais notei. A…
"For my theme song, my leather black jeans on" are the two first bars on Kanye's song "Black Skin Head" from his album "Yeezus". If you don't know the background of the album, Yeezus, it's basically a huge "fuck you" to the entire hip-hop industry and it's Kanye truly accepting who he is as a person and doing whatever…
Blogs on what I learn or what appeals to me. Read on a topic over a single day and then write, unassisted (except for quotes), at the end of the day. The goal is to develop concise and coherent communication skills. Feel free to drop a text if you have something more to offer on a topic. Let's see where we get with…
Rights are like muscles. They must be exercised regularly to prevent atrophy. They are earned through hard work and preserved through constant maintenance. As with any maintenance work, the cost of neglect can lead to sudden unexpected catastrophic consequences, particularly so when one can least afford to address…
I love the simple process of journaling. Experimenting with new ideas to enhance the journaling experience keeps the habit fresh and interesting. I’ve tried rearranging my journaling components, using prompts, and adding doodles. I finally settled on the order of components. Prompts and doodling didn’t last. I…
India is undoubtedly facing challenging times. This isn't solely due to a specific party, but rather the collective direction we are taking as a nation. Our control has slipped away, replaced by desperation and misguided efforts. The current government's lack of action or passive endorsement of lawbreakers exacerbates…
Why do I need to confirm myself into the system Trying to lie to myself I need to be one of the guys I passed by everyday in the public transportation Remind myself that Theres people who believe in what they do S T Always remind yourself to do important things Once you set your mindset to the goal You’ll align…
I love non fiction. The Master & His Emissary by Ian McGilchrist is ideal, a fascinating study of the brain and how it works. If you are interested in creativity it’s a gold mine. Sadly I can’t say the same for fiction. Of course I SHOULD appreciate the works of great authors but impatience kicks in, pages gets…
In my 4th decade I realize that 40s is the real inflection point in our lives - few reflections. 1. Curiosity: Whether getting lost in encyclopedia during my younger days to now reading up about cars. Somewhere during the Social Media era, my curiosity had become perfomative, I caught this bug of sounding…
My organization held a usability conference for teams in Bangalore. The goal was to push our engineers to be more UX-minded, equip them with knowledge and resources, and provide an opportunity to practice. The sentiment that all of the leadership conveyed was that we are at an inflection point in our org and product.…
A few days into this exercise of writing daily, I've had a few learnings - I feel most of my decisions that switched things around have been spontaneous. It was the case with taking up this daily writing challenge too. I didn't have topics in mind. I refrain from writing about the things I come across online…
hj é feriado aqui onde eu moro acordei 5h da manhã com a cachorra gritando com o dog dela filhote. bati a janela, coloquei protetor auricular e voltei a dormir com a promessa de que acordaria às 7h pra tomar meu remédio contra infecção urinária que entrou por umas das janelas de estresse. veja, colocar protetor…
i took a nap under the premise of "meditation" and as i laid there i thought: "oh yes is this what meditation is? oh yes it is very pleasant. is it like a dumping out of all the thoughts i'm having? not trying to think but just letting it all out so i can have a clear mind? oh yes it is so nice oh yes i like this so…
You're a man, 1. Wake up early. 2. Pray. 3. Make your bed. 4. Brush your teeth. 5. Drink a glass of water. 6. Review your to-do list. 7. Meditate. 8. Read. 9. Write. 10. Lift. 11. Stay sober. 12. Increase your income. Nothing hurts a man like zero progress in his life.
I have always been anxious when presenting, I even get this increase in body temperature when I answer questions in big classes. But, for some reason I have been feeling comfortable when presenting in class, the groups are small and personalized, there is no pressure from teachers, because for them by doing the task…
Estou há tanto tempo viajando que perdi um pouco da noção do tempo. Mas hoje é domingo, tá um sol lindo aqui e eu vou aproveitar pra ir na Lagoa da Pampulha. Quero dar uma voltinha de bicicleta e depois ir pra uma caminhada que eu até me inscrevi pra fazer. Depois, mais um filminho, já que eu estou na maratona do…
Friendly reminder to save your amazing ideas before they disappear into the void. Find a note app you love, or go old school with a note pad. Simple pen and paper. Write your ideas down right when you think of them. Review them daily. Don't forget to take action. Let your ideas live. Don't let them die on the page.…
This morning I read a timely article by one of my favorite writers and thinkers, Derek Thompson (@DKThomp on Twitter). It was titled, "Your Career Is Just One-Eighth of Your Life" and it got me thinking (as his writing and podcasts usually do). I spend a lot... A LOT... of time thinking about this one-eighth of my…
I stumbled upon this platform and became curious. Will restriction generate creativity? I believe it will, but I will have to see. Observe the changes. Useless until proven useful. But... I expect external things to provide me with inspirtaion for writing. I don't hold my own procrastination and insecurities…
“This is what I’m thinking about where to stay on our vacation.” I’m talking to my husband. The decision about where we stay will affect both of us. It’s important that he be in on this conversation. Even when my decisions don’t affect others directly, I talk to myself. Saying what I’m thinking clarifies my options…
I take things too personally. When someone tells me they don't like my photos, my brain says, "I'm such a bad photographer." When someone says, "Your outfit is so plain today," my brain says, "I have no style, I look ugly." When someone points out a pimple, my brain says, "I AM UGLY." Something happened today that…
i don't mean ibuprofen i mean weed i realized that weed restored back to me a positivity and practical intelligence and life force and "i can do this" that i had lost due to my hypersensitivity and awareness of the general shittiness of average people before books saved my life, weed threw me a flotation device.
Omfg, seems like something big is happening in La Paz City. === anon8858 I’m still recovering from the shock of the assassination attempt on General Rodriguez. I was there covering the General’s speech for El Subsuelo. This is the most disturbing scene I’ve ever witnessed. The General was arriving at the stage when a…
One big turn-off about nfts is the amount of focus people have on making money. Now, I'm not going to say that I don't care about money (I do), but money has never been the priority for me (although I will never not be happy making profit). It's almost always community, making connections and learning that have been…
“My advice: get paid, do work you’re proud of if that matters to you, then focus on building culture in your community, your friend group, your church, whatever it is that gives you meaning. Work will never be that for you.” Source: https://buttondown.email/justinpot/archive/build-community-outside-of-work/ Me: nods…
