Gathering thoughts…
i don't mean ibuprofen
i mean weed
i realized that weed restored back to me a positivity and practical intelligence and life force and "i can do this" that i had lost due to my hypersensitivity and awareness of the general shittiness of average people
before books saved my life, weed threw me a flotation device.
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my friend was like "are you ok? did something happen to you? you seem all of a sudden more pessimistic" the only thing that happened is that we came back to the marina, which has been good in many fundamental ways (access to fresh food to eat, land to walk on, "unlimited" water and electricity and therefore warm showers and laundry) but if all of the fundamental things are…
Our friends say they’ve experienced a lot of goodbyes and they used to not bother even saying hello until they learned that there’s a possibility you see each other again and that possibility makes the hello and intermittent goodbyes worthwhile. But there are many people I miss who I will never see again. The feeling of loss is not only about the “top billed” but supporting…
This is a tentative method but I’m trying to see how accurate of an impression you can get from an author by just reading their quotes (not life quotes just quotes from the œuvre) — is it like blood sampling, gelato sampling? Is there an emergent property on the level of the paragraph? The level of the chapter? Then finally the whole book? Surely there are things that a…
Sometimes your brain protects you by thinking of the future. Anticipating scenarios. Sometimes your brain protects you by reminding you of all the difficulties in the past that you’ve survived. One of my difficulties is saying goodbye
I realized I’m not a social creature with moments of solitude, I’m a solitary being with social contact. But I miss people I’ve lost contact with. Perhaps because goodbye is the de facto way now, I experience it too much.
