Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
I rather enjoy making my brain twist and turn, to make it work, to give it the muscle shock, and say: "Hey! Dummy! Wake up! It's time for you to get back to growing." Off the top of my head, I would say learning a new language, learning bridge or chess, and now, playing the piano. As a creature of habit, and shallow…
The wolf had a brief weird moment. He saw his own shadow waving at him. Was it a sign of some higher calling? Did the Gods of the forest will him to take a reckoning of his existence thus far? After all, he was walking the walk of a wisened and senile canid for a while now. Perhaps the moment was not far away when he…
“This is what I’m thinking about where to stay on our vacation.” I’m talking to my husband. The decision about where we stay will affect both of us. It’s important that he be in on this conversation. Even when my decisions don’t affect others directly, I talk to myself. Saying what I’m thinking clarifies my options…
It was like running downhill. The plan was to be slow and steady. I found myself picking up momentum the further I ran. Or, in my case, the more I journaled. I thought journaling gratitude would be enough to carry me for the rest of my days. But I talked to other journalists. I read about journaling. What benefits…
There are times and topics that make me want to lay in the middle of the floor and stay there until... who knows. I have yet to take that option. Yesterday at a mental health facility a patient opened the door to his balcony, looked down, turned around, and laid down in the middle of the hallway until someone came and…
Sim, vou pra Minas Sozinha Amanhã Rs Em 29 anos é minha primeira viagem sozinha sozinha. Tô me inspirando em várias mulheres que leio desde os 17. Demorou né? Meu tempo. O tempo das coisas. O tempo da coragem. Só hoje lembrei de lavar meu cobertor conforto. Não acho que consigo sem ele. Vou lavar algumas outras roupas…
This PPT from Jim Keller is suggesting roughly 30% of Performance increase with a slightly increase in clock speed. We are talking about 23% of IPC increase. If we were to fit this number into Geekbench 6.1, assuming linear scaling of performance with clock speed, you get about 2250 Single Core Performance at 3.5Ghz.…
There are two types of learning: structured and unstructured. The first is like reading a textbook from the start to the end. The second abandons all formal progression through learning material. There's one reason why those who follow an unstructured approach end up ahead. When you go through a formal course, you're…
This is day-2 of my 30 day atomic essay streak. Ironically, this simple act of keeping a count ties back to something more fundamental. I call it 'mindful repetition'. If you google it, high chances you'll land some esoteric definition of 'mindful repetition' - closer to meditation & learning. However, that's a very…
Ontem almocei num restaurante daqueles bonitos de ver. A comida tinha boa aparência e o atendimento é do tipo que morro de saudades todos os dias. Simpático, às vezes até demais. Na mesa, eu, a Raquel e o Bruno. Passei a semana fazendo reuniões com o objetivo de criar pontes entre SP e Berlim, duas cidades irmãs, que…
pronounced: "eye" or "I" which Google just told me is pronounced "ai." waow, that one really came full circle on its own, didn't it? stands for: Artist employment initiative wut it is: a collaborative effort with Kind AI )you know the one)s( better than Ʌei do, I'd imagine, anon( to provide funding for individual…
Computing metaphors are often stretched a bit thin, but one of my favorites that I find myself returning to over an over is serialization. When machines need to exchange information that is being actively processed, they need to first structure and then write out that information in a format that can be transmitted…
My grandfather's 66th death anniversary was a few days ago. My sister and I never met him, but we join our mother in lighting a small lamp in his memory. A recurring thought on death and bereavement came to mind, perhaps a truism for anyone who has experienced deep personal loss. No matter how empathetic a person you…
As is customary for me, I didn't contribute last night. I had a long day and barely even got my daily skateboarding in, which I am skipping tonight due to the weather. Today was crazy at work with so much going on and only so much time to do it in. We got it done though and everyone really busted ass. So part of my…
This situation has helped me to understand one of the most important truths in life. We do not deserve to be happy. Both deservedness and happiness are human inventions that try to project a fictitious vital image that never materializes and, therefore, generates unhappiness. To explain this point we do not have to…
Kebahagiaan adalah merasa puas dengan apa yang kamu miliki. Kesuksesan datang dari ketidakpuasan. Kebahagiaan tidak muncul setelah mendapatkan kesuksesan, karena sesungguhnya kita bisa memilih untuk bahagia kapan pun. "Aku akan sukses jika memiliki X." "Sukses adalah ketika aku mendapat gaji sebesar X." Pernyataan…
It’s been several years since I made the decision to bid farewell to my excess body fat. My journey towards a more active lifestyle began during those days. Prior to that, the thought of being physically active didn’t interest me much. Simply walking to the subway or bus station and occasionally taking a taxi…
When you're younger, you are encouraged to be ambitious. As the years fly by, you learn the important of accepting. Of late, I've found myself in a tricky spot - figuring out the right balance of ambition and acceptance. I would consider myself an ambitious person. There's a lot I think I can achieve and when I look…
Encouragement is something everyone needs, but not everyone has, and it’s a crucial part of our development. For me, encouragement is like a gentle push or a small gust of wind that propels a boat. It provides direction and a bit of force, but ultimately, it’s up to the boat to decide how to use this wind to sail.…
more than words, silence speaks harder. more than being full, emptiness makes things clear. more than always being occupied, space makes things happen. being present everywhere can make you empty from inside, people need space to fill themselves up and come back with an better understanding of who they are. Charles…
I am wondering what it takes to be all right today or on other days. Yesterday — or maybe two yesterdays ago — I was unsteady. I woke up and the breaths didn't want to escape my lungs through my mouth or their proper airways. I realize what was calling to me wasn't the mortal drag of my eventual drop to the ground.…
Imagine if technology treated our attention as sacred rather than a resource to extract. Imagine if technology was accountable to those affected by it rather than to those who profit from it. Imagine if technology helped us make better choices rather than incubating helplessness in the face of catastrophe. Imagine…
His eyes were shut, and everything was dark. He inhaled, sharply, snapping his head upright. It were as though life abruptly crashed into him. Slowly, he wiggled his toes. Pinky toes first, gradually working toward the big ones. He was alive, but that was all he knew with certainty. He tried to blink, but his lids…
Of course it's been pointed out with increasing frequency of late, but I believe it bears repeating. This addiction to seeking out the comfort of the likeminded to the exclusivity of all others and recoiling from the sheer audacity of differently-minded people to exist cannot possibly lead to anything good in the long…
Shit day - but never forget where you came from & lose sight of where you wanna be. Be like Alvin Tan. Confident, if not anything he at least brings his best out. Don’t have to be shy and negative about yourself - thinking what you say is not going to be correct. Just say you whatever you want to say. At least you’re…
burada yazılan konular belkide çok özel çok kişisel, kimin neyi ne zaman okduğu vb belli değil. sosyal bir deney gibi, yani yayınlaya bastığım anda her şey yayında olacak. böyle yani. bu mu?
It took me over two weeks to finish Barkha Dutt's book, To Hell and Back. Not because it reads slowly - quite the contrary. But the scope of the pandemic, and the individual and collective tragedies it contains within it, required me to put it aside for days at a time. Individual stories stood out, framed in sharp…
Estávamos no intervalo do jogo Argentina x França quando meu pai soltou a bomba "Por que será que a sua mãe trocou de nome?". "Como assim trocou de nome?". Eu estranhava o fato da minha mãe ser chamada por um nome diferente do dela quando visitávamos sua família, dois nomes distintos sem qualquer conexão. A minha…
Imagine being a part of a moving circus, but always being a spectator. After all, the only people who get to be a part of a moving circus are the stunt folks, magicians, gymnasts. Spectators don't really move with the circus. Just 48 hours in Bombay, I've realized that my relationship with movies and the media…
People who wait for other people to tell them how to feel about a book or a movie or a musical piece seem to have completely missed the point of reading or watching or listening: to have a personal experience. I have a friend who is so nervous about these things. He wants to appear as though he has good taste. He’s…
Sometimes everything feels a bit off. The motivation isn’t quite there and nothing flows like you want it to. The most frustrating thing is that the main problem I have these days is that I can’t seem to type properly. Normally I’m pretty good at not misspelling things but when I have those days I’m always messing up…
furthermore, i think city folk and even suburbanites should go back to the countryside (because that's where everyone is from, originally; and before that, the wilderness) and start farming again i'm preaching the opposite of that movie "interstellar" where they make farming a dirty ignoble thing and make high-tech…
This will likely happen many times over. I'm not necessarily building towards something, which makes this pseudo-habit hard to complete. Which brings up an interesting thought for me: am I conditioned to do things if and only if it leads or builds towards something? I definitely have this mindset these days. While not…
Its strange why my articlulation of ideas/feedback has not been upto the mark - despite spending time with clear thinkers. Second order thinking also tends to be a pain in the ass - a number of the decisions that I take spread ripple effects that I need to be vary of. Along with one & two, crisp writing especially in…
These are the big things I'm thinking of right now: 1. Trade less Last cycle I was obsessed with rebalancing portfolios and trying to be agile. I made a stupid number of trades, often daily. I got lost, it didn't really work, and it was exhausting. This time around, I will be more deliberate and intentional. 2.…
Uma das minhas metas de ano novo é voltar a escrever. Simples assim. Sem nenhuma frequência específica, com tema livre. Apenas com o objetivo de exercitar a mente, organizar os pensamentos e ter pequenos registros dos meus dias. Ainda estou lembrando aos poucos como que eu fazia isso, quais processos mentais eu tinha…
The last few weeks, I've unknowingly put myself under great pressure in becoming more than what I am now. How did I know? I noticed a pattern of disassociating from my wants, needs, life. I craved for a type of satisfaction I don't know how to fulfill. I slept it off, I ate it off, I drank it off. I went away. There's…
I'm watching a YouTube video called Network: The World is a Corporation. It's a single scene from one of my favorite movies, Network, written by Paddy Chayefsky and directed by Sidney Lumet. I'm not a big rewatch person, but I like to quote and reference this scene a lot to people, and since my memory isn't as sharp…
I understand they happen to be there because it's cheaper and simpler, but what a tasteless and generic place to put them. Lighting can be beautiful if you set the sources gracefully. Indirect lighting can make a magic atmosphere and functional lightning can be a great tool depending on your goals. But "one light bulb…
Social media in its various forms have brought about a huge change in our economy. The first thing we check when we get up is our phone. It's about time we realise that the content we see on social media sets the day for us. And one easy way to hack our mood for the day is to audit the content we see on social media.…
Please know that it is genuinely okay that people don't want to be in your life or they do not want to get part in one of the event that you're partaking it's totally perfect what you need to do though is be cool about it so when E is saying that i'm a good friend because you still go to a session that you know that…
"Be curious, not judgmental" is a quote that is often misattributed to the famous poet Walt Whitman; more recently cause of the show Ted Lasso. Misquoted but not misplaced this is an important lesson which I must confess, I require learning. Today, we will talk about that- It may be quite easy to be animated by…
You may think a journaling habit is not for you. Maybe you tried and quit. You’re not a writer. You’re not a creator. You’re not a deep thinker. You’re selling yourself short. You may be all of these and more. I considered myself all of these until I started a consistent journaling habit. A journal is a place you can…
Being you is therapy to your soul heart and brain .But yes it is not easy and can be lonely most of times! But cherishing your own self your ideals your perspectives of life can be so soothing ! Stop chasing to be like someone who you don’t want to be like . Be YOu & your brain can rest in your skull taxfree
不要油腻 要瘦! It’s the people who do vs people who don’t If you’re stupid and you’re a doer: you’ll slowly become a more clever doer If you’re smart but you’re a thinker: you’ll slowly be outsmarted by some other people and you’ll feel like not doing more and more It’s the same concept as being interesting, being outshine…
(original: 2006 October 18) a quick acknowledgment of WHY i go to my h.s. reunion - louis = devil (as a term of endearment, of course) - i made a deal with louis at the 1st reunion (the 5 yr) - hence, i made a deal with the devil i do not back out on deals (most of the time) some of my memories from the 5 year reunion…
To look back at this year, I need to go back further, starting with 2007. I have a tainted memory of a late night wrestling with my thoughts, I seem to remember thinking to myself that I was insulated from the worlds problems because I live in the UK. A few months later, I witnessed a global financial meltdown and the…
liberal societies such as Europe unequivocally call for abolishing death penalty, arguing that it violates the fundamental right - the right to life. further, it is also argued that emotional impulse for revenge does not justify capital punishment, neither is there evidence to support that death penalty is a potent…
