Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
Today has been one of the most exhausting days i have had in a while. If i take a look at what i did today in terms of work: 1. Call with Harsh: 30 mins 2. Call with Shriya: 15 mins 3. Bliss club Interview: 1 hour 4. Call with NGO: 30 mins 5. Sleep: 2 hours 6. Freak out about salary: 40 mins 7. Warehousing call: 30…
Now that PaLM 2 is going to run a GPT4ish model on my Pixel, I wonder if there's the same need for a bulky laptop. I mean, I can code with Replit. I can use ChatGPT from my phone and that will have a code interpreter released broadly soon, along with a diverse ecosystem of plugins that enable web browsing, reading up…
‘Indian Matchmaking’ and ‘A Suitable Girl’ have much in common: producer Smriti Mundhra, match-maker Sima Taparia, and an overwhelming display of complex but problematic routines and notions around arranged marriage. Yet, one is cringe (but binge-worthy), while the other is deeply unsettling. The difference in…
I had been thinking about writing this series for a long time, but I just would not manage to find the time to finally sit down and pen my thoughts. I think the procrastination was probably due to being in a constant state of extremes - either of hyper anxiety due to workload, or absolute boredom and laziness due to…
Learning to be sociable is a skill Because life is not all about technicals and academia - you need to put effort into having to know yourself as a human Even now you talk sound like a robot And the number 1 first rule to be a sociable human being is to: Be your OWN human; not feeling anxiety or fear or "trying to…
In the taxi last night, conversation with the driver turned to identity - religious, national, cultural. He was a melange of Middle Eastern, Eastern European and Turkish. I'm Indian with connections to various parts of India. Neither of us was religious or believed in god, but we agreed that religion had value and…
As a baby your nervous system isn't fully developed yet. When you feel stress, you need touch. Real touch, soft, slow, friendly, safe touch. You're held by a caring being much larger and stronger than you. The gentle motion and smiling face is comforting to you. You feel the stress ebbing away. As you grow older and…
“I’m through with this fuckin war, through with marchin in the dust, through with gettin shot at. I’m done, I’m goin’ home,” spouted Jenkins as he got up from the fire. “Quit bein’ a pussy, ain’t one of us here that don’t wanna be home” countered Carlton. “I ain't no pussy.” “Sure acting like one.” “Evenin’ boys”…
At this point I'm writing here only to and for myself. Which is fine. However, having an app (Android) to write it from would be a plus. Also, upon registering I received an automated welcome email from the Nicheless founder saying "feel free to get in touch and ask anything". So I replied saying how cool Nicheless…
The mind is a curious place. It's a place for ideas, a place for rest, a safe place for the softening of chaos, distress and pain. It is powerful, intense, bewildering and surprising all at once. Most importantly, it stores an immense trove of memories and information, some conscious (and even embarrassing!), but most…
As a positive person, I still have a strong Eeyore characteristic. I have doubts. You seldom hear me express this side of my personality. Acting positive and confident follows the belief that you should act like you want to be. So I appear to have a positive outlook. Which, of course, I do have, except for when I…
"Everything you want is on the other side of cringe". I read that line somewhere on X, and it changed the way I judge my own actions. It's one of those rare sentences that illuminates a truth that has been experienced but not verbalized. I love those sentences. Anyway, I digress. Cringe is an emotional barrier that…
Lately, everything seems a bit blurry. Too many thoughts. Too many feelings. A mix of the two and it's a mess. I'd wish to not feel, but being on a perpetual high, due to the pill-popping, makes me feel emptier than usual. The emptiness engulfs me, leaving me completely bare and broken. I've been feeling like this for…
Today was a day with many little frustrations. Nothing worked out the way I hoped for. What frustrated me the most though, was how much this affected my mood negatively. I want to get better at decoupling my mood and view of the world from external factors. Why not just be happy in the moment, no matter what.
furthermore, i think city folk and even suburbanites should go back to the countryside (because that's where everyone is from, originally; and before that, the wilderness) and start farming again i'm preaching the opposite of that movie "interstellar" where they make farming a dirty ignoble thing and make high-tech…
You want it - you need to get it. Speaking like yourself And having that “qualifications” and deep thought process Having a mind is one thing But speaking eloquently and able to convey your messages to the world is one too You think of mum - speaks and shouts loud but no content - people look at her for fun Think of…
one of the nicest things about being a hospital for over 5 hours is the kind of people you meet. note that when i say 'meet' i don't mean small talk, making new friends type of meeting - i mean instances where you start recognising another's face and when they smile at you, you smile back. those type of interactions…
Know the workings of the system. Think about - deep dive into internal work on yourself. People leave you again and again and again. Is it your immaturity to actually think it’s their fault? It’s so normal for people to leave for their own goods. You must be mature if you don’t have the power or influence on their…
I like how dreams work. (no not the one you see with eyes wide open) Every day is a new beginning. You never know what's coming next. I always wanted to do bungee jumping. It's one of the few dreams I have. but a few weeks back, I just did that in my dreams. The next morning I woke up sad because now I know how it…
Today, while I was stuck in a traffic jam, I saw a car throw something out the window. At first, I didn’t think much of it, but as I got closer, I realized it was trash—a can of beer. My mind started to explode with questions and thoughts: Why didn’t that person save the trash until they got home to throw it away? Why…
As a child, it felt that entertainment was prioritized over love. Not the commercialized love but the true essence of caring for one another. True love, for some, lays at the end of a long path of healing from childhood trauma as well as adulthood trauma. How can one show compassion to a world that has only made it…
An observation I had while waiting at the international airport departure terminal in Bangalore. Picture a 40,000 square feet departure lounge. Interspersed with a mix of cafes, restaurants and plenty of lounge chairs, sleeping pods and tables. The departure gates on their part are on the outer periphery of this…
Pra ser artista você precisa de algumas pessoas comprando a sua viagem. Achar sua galera as vezes é procurar uma agulha no palheiro, mas saiba que se procurar direitinho e o destino for bom com você, você vai achar! Tem louco pra tudo. Quando eu trabalhava num bar chamado baderna (era realmente uma baderna. A cozinha…
Good sleep - middle of the night, I'd wake up, see the time, relax and continue pleasant deep breathing for what seemed like an hour, then checked to see it was only 10 minutes later. Actually felt good. Work? OK. Lots of filing, meetings & meeting notes, then word of a major "dig up old stuff" project coming up. If…
People has so many topics outside of work. You gotta have life outside work or feel energetic & interested to go outside to enjoy life. Now I’m feeling like it a bit - I like going outdoors and explore Or just listen to conversations That’s how you get to like know more perspectives and more things It’s pretty…
Today I had a beautiful day. Getting up early to a great breakfast, hopping on a mountainbike in the morning sun, being in the mountains, doing intense physical exercise, drinking refreshing drinks, wellness with my family, and having a fantastic dinner together. Not all days can be like that, otherwise we wouldn’t…
ahhh do we experience one emotion at a time? can you remember a singular moment of one emotion? i have bee trying to dig deep in my memories for a singular moment, so far no moment presents itself. in contradiction; the emotions we experience may all be defined as a excitement...
hoping for a universal salvation. hoping that up and above, his mercy is so immense, that though every human soul, when even when they repent, is forgiven and chooses salvation. yet when every human soul is forgiven, teachings are useless and what they preach is disregarded as every sin is still forgiven, no matter…
Today marks the end of my three-month study abroad in Cambridge. It's been a wonderful journey, filled with profound learning, unforgettable experiences, and a deep affection for the city. Initially, the thought of this chapter closing is saddening, and it's natural to feel this way. Transience often conjures feelings…
The optimal number of imperfections in a city is not zero. I just spent 24 hours in Lima, and I think it comes pretty close to finding the right balance between organisation and chaos. Combine that with a friendly people, an incredible cliff-edged coastline and world class cuisine, and you've got yourself a city you…
Went to watch the movie PS1 with mom, asish and venky. Had a lot of fun, and I’m glad I could take mom out that way. Had a nice time today. Asish and venky were so cute and were indulging mom and her stories She took us around some nice heritage places in Vizag
i may sound like a soulless creature here, but i did use to have a soul i promise - it was a garden with fragrant flowers, honeydew, some butterflies and all shades of colours. i don't know when i became a parched desert but if i am this today then i am also what i was. i am just scared, i think, of the colossal…
February is the month to show your love to that special person. You know exactly who I'm talking about. The person you depend on. They are always there when you need them. You can’t live without them. Yes. Show yourself some love. Here are four gifts under $40 to consider to brighten your day: 1. Coffee/Milk frother.…
Don’t aim to do the easy things. Don’t aim to think the fastest short cuts Think 3 more seconds - work towards the hardest and the best solution always. Remember to not stuck there In solutions Conversations Presenting yourself to others Body language Be fully aware and be putting 100% Say thank you Take initiative…
my sleep was really poor i blame it on (1) lack of exercise (2) having to sleep next to a person (3) said person "forcing" me to watch movies with him, but delaying the start of the movie until late because he has to "work on something", causing unfavorable screen lights to enter my field of consciousness and…
There are myriad of ways in which one can claim that a person has lived a good life. After all, isn't what we are all aiming for ? To have a "good life". Obviously, the definitions of the same may differ. It maybe defined by certain achievements, familial bonds or a hundred other ways. But this writer just wants to…
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Excerpt from the 2015 Ursula K. Le Guin Vogue interview. Interviewer: Abby Aguirre ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆ ☆ In response to Le Guin‘s 2014 national book award remarks; ‚We’ll need writers who can remember freedom. [...] We need writers who know the difference between production of a market commodity and the practice of an art,‘…
Writing a weekly newsletter is challenging and energizing. But two? That's a different animal. As i continue this 100-day project -- writing content, art, formatting, frequency, whether or not to offer paid subscriptions and etc -- it suddenly occurs to me i still have to write content for my weekly,…
Childhood is a magical time. As a parent, I feel pressure to preserve this sanctity for my own children. Of course I could be wrong but I’ve noticed a trend: if there are at least two children in a family, there are two archetypes: a favorite and a performer. The favorite in the family was the one that was, knowingly…
I love helping people just for the sake of it, without expecting anything back, if I just can share, give or do something that doesn't really affect me negatively I will be happily willing to do so. Being part of such a caring community makes the vibe contagious 🫶🏻
Sometimes I feel like I see my grandmother in your eyes. The way the soft lines across your speckled face crinkle when you laugh. How your hair reaches up to the sky like the winding branches of a tree. I think sometimes I see my grandmother in you where she is not. When your eyebrows crease and I can't tell if I had…
I’m living on an island close enough to a town. While I’m living with my parents, I’ve also lived with my friends all day. I’m active and love to swim. Challenging myself to do a task takes effort but I’m able to do it. I took up surfing one summer and that has been my identity now. I am not a sports person but I can…
I was supposed to be at the top. I spend most of my free time reading about politics, history, philosophy and economics. I live in the world of ideas. I think in terms of strategy. I want to lead. I want to tell other people who don't share my talent for strategic depth what my vision is and for them to implement it.…
Recently read this short story collection by Murakami and some quotes from this collection have won by heart and here they are: 1. And that span of time had created a translucent barrier between us that was hard to traverse. Even when I had to say something, the right words just wouldn’t come out. And every time I…
The question of whether AI will make writers obsolete is a complex one. We can't predict the future, but it is clear that AI will change what it means to be a writer. In a recent workshop, Dan Shipper pointed out that 150 years ago, good penmanship was essential because everything had to be done by hand. Today, doing…
I’ve often prided myself for having “realistic expectations” but the truth is my expectations are so high that no one ever meets making me auto closed off in relationships. Been closed off aka pessimism has been masquerading as “realistic expectations” for long enough. I’m embracing a new and simple approach. The act…
Bias is a necessary component of human knowledge formation. Bias is commonly understood as a form of error, a deviation from truth, that ought to be corrected for. But what, exactly, is the process of deciding what is true and what is not? Your phone has advanced digital signal processing capabilities which allow you…
