Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
Today, I met with a friend who was upset about a recent experience at a car dealership. He felt disrespected by the salesman and was still angry and frustrated about it even a week later. We discussed how holding onto these emotions wasn't helpful for him and that with more information, his feelings could change. I…
In life, shouldn't this be my goal? What can I do to make sure I wake up excited each day? How can I structure my future days to improve the probability of this happening for me and the people I care about? I won't share an answer (because I don't have one yet) but I'm confident this is a question worth asking.
First day of my break. I quit my wonderful job in Fin-Tech a few months back and have finally transitioned out of all my responsibilities. I woke up this morning with a smile on my face. So grateful that I can afford this, that I have savings enough to not be anxious about this break. Despite that, I do get a little…
Sometimes I feel like I see my grandmother in your eyes. The way the soft lines across your speckled face crinkle when you laugh. How your hair reaches up to the sky like the winding branches of a tree. I think sometimes I see my grandmother in you where she is not. When your eyebrows crease and I can't tell if I had…
This is not a post where I tell you that getting bored is good and all. But to see why actually am I getting bored! I just said that I've been working as an Intern for the past 9 months, and yet when my room mate is not around, it seems that I don't have anything to do apart from work. My room mate does not make a…
"If you are so bothered with it all, why don't you do something?" My friend's voice is etched within me. These words remain central to my last Acid trip, 4 years ago. I have been doing something about it. For 1460 days now. I left my job, started building. There is a lot wrong with our world, if not 80% of us would…
Why bother so much about not making a mistake - like KS. The point of this life is to make as many as possible. The way of saying “what’s the point of playing Sudoku if you don’t even bother getting it right or wrong” - is actually not the essence of life. The point of life is to make as many mistakes as possible -…
the wind is howling and i am sitting inside the boat, cozy and warm and drinking peach tea and listening to this monk talk about non-duality thinking and he said "the mind is a clear blue sky" and i don't know what it means! but i like the way it sounds as i stare at him i became aware of a brand new concept: that…
Tô lendo os anos, da Ernaux certo? Não sei se já falei aqui. Não lembro. Pois bem. Tô sempre me surpreendendo como que eu consigo me identificar com ela, uma mulher escrevendo sobre os anos 60. Como muito e, ao mesmo tempo, tão pouco mudou. Ela falando que quando volta nas folgas da universidade pra visitar a família…
"...a gente quer ter voz ativa, no nosso destino mandar, mas eis que chega a roda viva e carrega o destino pra lá..." Ontem isso ficou bem claro. Mudanças de planos, surpresas nem sempre boas, algumas boas notícias, mudanças na rotina, doenças, notícias de morte. Como dizem, o homem põe e Deus dispõe. E só nos resta…
I think all of us growing up in India have never learned how to say 'No.' Since childhood, we got trained to respect elders and comply with their requests. A harmless practice in childhood that later leads to many ill-formed mechanisms as we grow older. A major downside of it often is our inability to know if we want…
yeah yeah, the year's actually almost over and we're quickly approaching feral consumerism and mariah carey season, but i haven't posted on any of my other blogs since 2021 and have once again found a new one to play with, so technically i'm not wrong. big fan of this monospaced minimalism. at this point i'm just…
hot chocolate howling winds my italian neighbor was like "do you have an extra line? let's tie an extra line so that your boat is more stable" i was like yes please and our danish neighbor was like "wait wait don't put it there, because it could rip your stanchion. here, let's take this cleat instead" jumped on my…
There’s no need to feel anxious about things, especially now I know that these aren’t like hard things to do yknow. Knowing about cafes, food and bars, you don’t have to “STUDY IT” per se, like really put all your efforts into it You’re stronger now. You used to be waking up feeling anxious about what you feared you…
Assisti. Vi no YouTube e adorei que o olímpico escroto, ao contrário do livro, foi rejeitado pela pessoa com quem ele traiu Macabéa. Achei muito louco um filme daquela época falar sobre aborto, mesmo que no final a cartomante tenha colocado isso como um grande erro a ser reparado com oferendas. A afita da minha boca…
The cold, empty space stares back at me: What if it doesn't resonate? What if I'm not pleased with it? Tick-tock More seconds elapse and I don't even have a draft to call first. It's an uncomfortable feeling. Staring across the chasm between the brilliant insight in your mind and the not-yet-articulated onto the…
“On a gathering storm comes/A tall handsome man/In a dusty black coat with/A red right hand.” Peaky Blinders fans will know this song. It's the ballad to which the credits are set, typically with Tommy Shelby striding in slow motion through smoke and mud, peak pulled low, overcoat sweeping behind. The song was…
- Continued from part I America is a dream in a different way. It’s been over 7 years since I moved here. Looking at my life now, I’ve done pretty well for myself. I have a stable job, a solid group of friends, a long term home for the first time in this country. I’m lucky enough to not grapple with visas and have…
What are you doing with your time, that makes you feel like it's not being wasted?
Moms article came in the paper today. We had such a nice and sweet time with all of us in Ammamma’s room as atta read out the article to us. The dogs were there, everyone was so happy, it was just really sweet. We were actually woken up by a phone call from moms friend congratulating her. I realised it’s a big deal…
How many social media websites will it take for us to stop feeling lonely? It's so easy to like an instagram post, to make a tweet, to add friends on facebook. So easy to feel interesting, admired, validated. We continue to cast our nets into the abyss to find more people like us, mistaking validation for finding a…
What a humbling experience has been this one week. Met some wonderful people and felt the pain of some random people sharing the same space as us on planet earth. All of us have it so different and our needs/ demands are so diverse but when you participate in medical camps as these you realise how privileged you are.…
Hace unas horas leí una frase que me impactó mucho que decía masomenos así: "No te elevas al nivel de tus metas, caes al nivel de tus hábitos" y dándole vueltas me quede impresionado por la poca importancia que le damos a muchos de nuestros hábitos. Si bien llevar una vida con hábitos correctos no es tan complicado,…
Found this website through my best friend. Looked very minimalistic and quite cool. Might be my new place to jot down thoughts. 300 words (I think) are just enough to bring enough clarity to thoughts yet keep them succinct. Let's see.
I have a love and hate relationship with fud. In general, I think it's necessary, especially in a space where 95% of the projects are going to 0. It's good to have some skepticism, but sometimes it's just too much. I've been a cool cat supporter since September. Mainly discovered it through Andrew Wang and a few of my…
Don’t aim to do the easy things. Don’t aim to think the fastest short cuts Think 3 more seconds - work towards the hardest and the best solution always. Remember to not stuck there In solutions Conversations Presenting yourself to others Body language Be fully aware and be putting 100% Say thank you Take initiative…
In a talk, Kathy Schultz asked people how it felt to be wrong. People said it was embarrassing. But she said they answered how it feels when you realize you're wrong. Being wrong feels like being right until you know you're wrong. This makes us think about why people want to change the world but not themselves. In…
It is not easy to write anything. Everyone wants to write something. Preferably something good. Preferably something good and useful. Preferably something good, useful, and uplifting for the heart. But isn’t the very act of writing itself a kind of uplift for the heart? I will not settle that question now. Because my…
Can people be captivated by unknown personalities solely by the way they write or will they be motivated primarily by subjects or interests. My main gripe with normal blogging is that I have a very diverse set of interests. I work in IT, I do photography, work on old motorcycles and spend a lot of time working out.…
https://youtu.be/fhDVVfELsM?si=1Cc6Bb8KnMDZCyx dude what if we reincarnate over and over listening to the same songs in different styles.
I'm currently finding great enjoyment in qualitative research. Diving deep into a topic, and rethinking and processing all the information until something clicks in a "Eureka" moment is very satisfying. It requires effort to get started (the lazy part in me is fighting against getting started), and costs a lot of…
Hoje vou encontrar uma amiga no Sesc. Na quinta feira uma amiga me levou pra jantar num boteco japonês e me deu de presente esse momento. Eu amei muito. Ela é uma das minhas melhores amigas e a gente torce muito uma pela outra. Agora que ela ganha um vá e vr milionário, ganhei esse mimo. E que delícia! Teve bolinho de…
A nice lunch, cooking from scratch, having different dishes and trying new recipes, a couple years ago it would had been ordinary, but now with all the convenient meals that are premade and delivery services it just becomes a more special experience and feels rewarding. I want to try to cook more often, its healthy,…
I expect that someone in my family will be on Mars in the next 10 generations. After all, I'm part of a tribe that travels. My ancestors were constantly on the road, exploring opportunities for their next generation and the ones that come after. It's baked into my genes. But it presents a conundrum. What mindset,…
I'm probably going to end up sleeping a little later than usual tonight, because I really need to get this out. Been feeling a little excited about life lately. Happier even, you could say. There's a certain level of enthusiasm I feel when I think about the future. There's still a lot to overcome in terms of a lot of…
Love has been endlessly defined—fluttering hearts, blooming flowers, soaring violins. These tales shape our dreams, but is love truly so theatrical? Perhaps. Perhaps not. For me, love is something darker, more profound—much like a horcrux from Harry Potter. A horcrux, J.K. Rowling tells us, is a fragment of a soul,…
I'm guilty of doom surfing. I spend most of my time on StreamRing... you know the drill: press the 'Random' button and watch people from all over the globe trying to get famous. This is what I do while having dinner. The other day I got a weird one: An anon account streaming an old computer showing just text. Well,…
The room was silent and my body was motionless. But my mind was agitated. I’d been sitting cross-legged on the floor for over an hour, with sweat dripping down my brow, and intense pain radiating from my knees. It felt like they were being crushed by giant invisible fists that were provoked by my stillness. I needed a…
you can convince yourself that you're happy. that whatever you're doing right now is healthy and that your friends love you - in a group or not. yet, you cant run away from the truth. heaven knows im miserable, i hope that death would be nicer to me then in that sense. i dont want to die but i dont want to live like…
Something I have learnt about myself. I was always confused about why I was an F in MBTI. I thought I was through and through T. I overthink all the time, don’t I? But I now realise that I’m very dependent on my feelings, and they really dictate my life. For example, I can think something, it can make a lot of…
Today a short chapter of my life ended But every ending is a new beginning I'm looking forward to the new chapter I will fill the pages one by one Always searching for the right path to take ...
Everything is scripted. Media. Social media. Social circles. Everything is designed to pull emotion from your soul. That unsettled soul feeds the system, runs the power of the show. Our lives as words on a piece of (digital) paper amongst a (digital) reality. We are both the actors and the viewers. Actors desperate…
It is never a good morning to mourn.
Outside of work and family time, I have about five free hours each day to build my side projects, learn new skills, practise old ones, and enjoy my hobbies. I wish I had more, but as someone who doesn't have kids yet, I'll take it. 5 hours is plenty. But I've been trying to figure out how to spend those 5 hours. I'm…
Another question I’ve been wondering lately: can a woman who only reads in German ever read Ulysses? Can a woman who only reads in Chinese ever read Virginia Woolf? Can I ever read any of the Russian texts? I believe the answer is rather obvious but I also think it’s sometimes better not to read a thing in its…
There are animals that are also plants. Elysia Chlorotica is a slug that looks like a leaf. She's the one on the top left in the image above. Part of what makes a plant a plant is that it can make its own food out of inorganic materials like sunlight and water. Slugs like Elysia are mixotrophs. They eat food like…
I started fruit farming a year ago in Lamjung, located in central Nepal. Aim is to reach 100,000 fruit trees. Currently I am at 3000. Biggest challenge facing so far is getting right saplings. Now making nursery to grow my own saplings. Its amazing here. Peace, quite and all forested area. Right on the road, but very…
Just do everything perfectly. Once at a time. Conversations - throw away the unimportant bits. Be clear - tell yourself be clear Even when you got into shit situations Find one way to go out You are good at doing that You need to improve To be better at doing the task while doing though Don’t get stuck at previous…
