Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
The factual background of this book is already striking. Padma and Lalli, two lower-middle class teenage girls, go missing from their unremarkable Western UP village in the summer of 2014. They are found hanging from a mango tree. Their family refuses to allow the bodies to be brought down till justice is done. Sonia…
and who teach me how to love things i met a girl who loves to cook and garden and by hanging out with her, or maybe by cooking with her, i grew to LOVE cooking and just hearing her talk about gardening made me love gardening more i had a friend in hs who was an Arts & Culture Self-Guided Exploration Master and she…
There's a lot to learn from watching an ice skating class. Let me paint a picture so you can imagine what I see. A big round ice rink with about 50 people with varying levels of skill. There some who skate as if this were the Olympics and there others who resemble penguins trying to maintain their balance. You have…
When I write consistently for a few days, I feel smarter. When I exercise consistently for a few days, I feel stronger. Yet, I struggle to want to do both. It's not that I'm lazy. When I could be writing or exercising, I'm almost always working. Sitting at my computer, tapping, clicking, thinking. Not working makes me…
More than three weeks in New Zealand with Mom and we’ve had the chance to see a few faces of the place. Underneath every stone there’s an additional one to be uncovered, and that’s how we’re led from here to there, everywhere. Anything we explore is an effort to explore ourselves - what an opportunity we’ve had here.…
codeberg.org merupakan website remote yang cukup customable dengan keamanan privasi yang ditingkatkan (klaim dari codeberg.com). Aku mulai menggunakan codeberg belum lama ini yang dikhususkan untuk hal-hal pribadi, sedangkan github aku khususkan untuk dokumentasi tugas kuliah atau proyek yang mengharuskan menggunakan…
ahhh as i continue AI text to image generation it makes me think about how it relates to the overarching narrative of art. the closest movement would be surrealism with the goal to release the creative potential of the unconscious mind. now with less barrier to creation, the content within one's mind can now be…
ahhhhhh a reoccurring shape i use in creation is a sphere. why do i use it? the reason derives from a quote by Andrea Branzi "the distance between the natural world and artificial world no longer exists today, because the latter has become second nature". this quote resonates with me, i exists both naturally and…
Complete: to make whole or perfect; to mark the end of So many pursuits are taken up with the idea of perfection or wholeness arriving at some point. But what is ever complete? There is no state of perfection or wholeness that can be achieved. The closest thing to it might just be recognizing the futility of the chase…
There's this man on death row in California, Ronald Stanford. He's there since he was 13. Lost his childhood, his youth, and still in the prison that took everything away from him. Somehow, he still takes care of his body, of his mental state, showers, cleans up, reads and express. On the walls of his 'room', you'd…
looks so much like my cousin that i'm not allowed to have a crush on him but old keanu reeves...
I read a fascinating essay about the role of imagination in expanding human experience and how actors are a conduit for the audience to travel through the art they are witnessing. That's loosely the inspiration for this post, although you will find it to be slightly different. Plato viewed the power of imagination, or…
There are almost no obese people in Copenhagen. Most people are obese in Lexington, Kentucky. It is not that people in Lexington are lazier or dumber or more morally flawed than people in Copenhagen. In Lexington, you can't walk anywhere and it's really hard to buy decent food. In Copenhagen, it's hard to buy shitty…
I didn’t want anyone to know of my new habit when I first started. What would they think? If my new habit turned out to be a waste of time, I would look silly. They didn't journal, so they wouldn’t understand. I thought that when I started journaling gratitude. I worried about the reaction of others. I soon discovered…
Running around my neighborhood has made me bitter. I see piles of trash on the side of the road and I tell myself a story about people that don't care. I see more and trash and I feel more anger. What can I do? What control do I have? The same control I tell my kids that they have - I can only control myself. So I'm…
Know how to say no Why people don’t give a shit about what you say Because you don’t have the balls to say what you want to say And also you keep focusing on smaller cheapskate solutions If you want to say no at a last minute cancellation The trouble seems harder Of course it would take longer and harder to say once…
Today is my birthday. For some reasons I don't like my birthday. Why could that be? As a child, birthdays were magical - filled with excitement, gifts, and cake. Now, as an adult, the shine has worn off. Why? Perhaps it's the contrast between childhood anticipation and adult reality. As grown-ups, we can buy what we…
i used to think that i am a programmer. i have friends who think they are programmers or designers or editors or traders etc, and i don't think that's a great way to describe yourself. i think a better way to describe yourself is to say that you are a problem solver, and i don't mean go be an entrepreneur, just think…
Just saw though - from a dying 23 yo patient His last ideal was to bring his kindness and love to everyone around him And he hoped to be remembered from that Because when I was poor I was not in the right state of mind My mind was abit evil and selfish I didn’t want to spend time with my ex because I wanted to focus…
Sorry. I admit it's tough to 'accept' you into the spaces I frequent. Some of you I've muted, some I've just outright not talked to... and it's not really anything you did, I just personally don't want to be involved in your life anymore. Wherever you're going is not where I'll be. I'm happy for you, but we're just…
Read this in a post on Instagram which said, "It's crazy how each day that passes feels the same, but when we look back, everything seems different." I was dissolved in a trail of thoughts. I think a big reason for this is that change often happens gradually, in a series of small events. It's not always a one-time…
Lately, I’ve been thinking: home is not a place, a country, or any physical location. Home is a feeling you get around people, people who always welcome you with a warm hug every time you see them and give you a tight hug every time you leave. While some people identify with their country or hometown, I identify with…
sass voice "cuz listen, you wanna suck it up now, so you don't have to suck it in later" head bobble wink tongue click i acquired a false perception of myself. i thought of myself as a meek spiritual introvert who therefore enjoys yoga but every time i did yoga i was so fucking bored...UNLESS i was in a group and i've…
I feel sadness I feel blocked I feel stupid What are the thoughts producing these feelings? - There's so much to do. - There are so many unknowns. - My words don't always make sense. - Am I actually bringing value to this world?
I am trying to listen to my body. I continued to be exhausted today, so I fell asleep, I took breaks, and I said no to things that I could. I also limited time spent on WhatsApp. I think that was really helpful. Additionally, I had tried to limit my interaction with other apps, etc while I work on some stuff. I still…
- tao lin + andy warhol + terence mckenna as Worshipped Rebel Gods - harnessing a type of energy - my fav podcast [i laughed on the bus] - people who give me the feeling of "mm i like that" when they talk about their lives - funneling the energies i like into my life honestly energy is a thing you can touch and see it…
Ask more, tell less.
It is not easy to write anything. Everyone wants to write something. Preferably something good. Preferably something good and useful. Preferably something good, useful, and uplifting for the heart. But isn’t the very act of writing itself a kind of uplift for the heart? I will not settle that question now. Because my…
I've been thinking about how civilizations of the future would organize their data. What mechanism would a galaxy use to work together and share reliable information accurately and instantly? I started thinking about our own history and how we manage knowledge in our most complex societies. As much as sci-fi movies…
Today I submitted my thesis and fully enjoyed life afterwards. Cooking great food, laying in the sun, kayaking in the lake, enjoying the sunset next to the water, going into a woodfired sauna - I kind of understand now, why Finnish people are the happiest in the world.
The only thing that bores me more than my opinion is yours. I haven't heard a new take or a hot take in more than 20 years. Most of my takes are bargain basement off the shelf opinions that I hold true -- I think? -- not because I believe them but because of some delusional image I have of myself. I am not the only…
Intelligent people will put themselves in positive situations When they answer questions They will put them to a better position Not lesser than before (like giving people doubting you) So face is a problem too - sometimes by the agave you can see Intelligent people put themselves in a good position too - even w their…
I love the structure of a routine. After being out of routine for the last three weeks, I finally returned to it. I felt the burden lift from my shoulders when I pressed “publish.” My sacred hours are in the late evening. I write an essay, something like an organized brain dump, on my topic of choice. The last task of…
A common misinterpretation of Sun Tzu's Art of War is that competition involves 'deception' in the sense of lying, cheating, and manipulation. However, if we considered his work as aiming for peace being the highest form of excellence rather than destroying opponents, it can have a very, very, different meaning. For…
The author, Dr. Benjamin Hardy, has written extensively about your Future Self. It's the single clearest way to create motivation, excitement and purposeful in your life. When you can imagine what you want to be in the future, you can feel it. You can plan for it. You can build processes into your life that helps you…
Care is the gravity that holds a group together. It is the practical stuff of hospitality, like preparing for a meeting or cleaning up afterwards. It's also emotional work, like noticing that someone is not having a good time, and checking in with them. Without care, a group falls apart. It’s safe to assume that in…
I think about meaning a lot. Maybe it’s because meaning wasn’t up for debate when I was younger. There was a book that laid it all out. No questions to ask. Just faith. But I question if there ever was real faith in me. I think there was fear and shame. There was desire to belong. And there was longing for meaning.…
I write this at 8 AM on my birthday in one of my worst states of mind in a while. Ideally, it shouldn't have been this way. Courts have closed in Kolkata for summer holidays and I was to embark on a vacation abroad after more than two years. Only for my visa not to arrive in time. At this point, I am gutted. A while…
My journey with gratitude grows like wildflowers. It's like a packet of mixed seeds. You don't know what kind until they bloom. My simple gratitude habit bloomed into other complementary characteristics. I’ve often written about how my gratitude practice makes me look for the positive in my life. Something that seems…
I crave something, I get it. I need something, I get it. Someone close to me needs something, they get it from me. It's a beautiful feeling to not have to worry about costs. It's a beautiful feeling to not have to worry about money. This has been my experience for the past few days after making what can be said to be…
So many excuses to not create. I need to take a leap of faith. Pounce onto the challenge with hunger. To act with conviction, not just ponder.
There is generally good awareness on the importance of gratitude tracking and how that improves mental health. There is a tendency to make gratitude noting as a mega milestone kind of event like, child birth, exams, promotion, and more recently, what is trending also is daily micro gratitude practices, where listing…
Romance is having ideas. Love is executing them. We have a tendency to romanticise things too quickly. A new year resolution. An elusive job. Someone we went out on a date with. We build ourselves to a point of simultaneous anticipation and trepidation, that there is a very real possibility that we might burst at our…
Ah! the speed of our world does not sync with our concept of time. most experience time at a different pace to others and is relative to their context. there is an exception though, find the person who shares your speed. because with them the context of time become irrelevant...
I googled synonyms for happiness because I didn't want to sound cliché but all of them sounded too pretentious. Lol. This is just a personal take on the feeling that everyone is so bent on finding. I’d read headlines off of newspapers and magazines that told me stories of people and the lives they lived. To me at that…
My friend Shashish died on the 9th of January. We joined History honours in 1985. Sometime during the first few months of college, we became friends. With Shahid Imam, Amitabh Tripathi and Rohit Jha, we studied for exams together, smoking 25 paise Now cigarettes during our many breaks. He was smart, very smart. In our…
então! eu comi uma grama de cogumelo. depois de uma semana produtiva, que ainda não acabou, e de momentos memyselfandI, decidi dar esse passo e tirar esse querido da geladeira que já tava fazendo aniversário. acho que tava meio mofado, mas who knows? bem, foi tudo, brisas gostosas, outras nem tanto. meu namorado que…
tonight i wasn't sure what to do i've been cycling between reading & writing, and i forgot about music im back to listenin to rap did you know rap was invented in the 1970s? i can't imagine a world before rap what else is waiting to be invented? i've been reading my other blog tonight it is so good i was like damn…
