Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
You can impose fear by not talking to anyone and people might take you seriously But the better way is to gain respect That’s the hardest To be good at your job at the same time connecting human relationship It’s hard to beat that
I stuck with the same hair colour throughout 2022. I started my new year continuing with petty thoughts. I basically saw an insta post of S, which said she was “serving looks”. And all I could think of was “can’t believe N is allowing you to dress up well and not feel bad about it” I have very very uncharitable angry…
It's rarely as bad as you build it up to be. If you have to do more, you'll take it one step at a time. Your dad may NOT have been wanting to tell you about your mother's heart attack. All you can control is how you feel and what you do. 0856
The weight of 40ºC heat is torture, but that's nothing compared to the endless search for purpose. Ok, that's all the whining for now. Boredom sucks, but it serves a purpose. I managed to write again after months of nothing. I'm not doing it every day, but it'll do for now. So let's see. I just discovered the work of…
A very quick digital collage. I like playing with collage but I don't know if they're any good. Though how can you go wrong? I might pick this one up again and play with it further. Maybe I can just store these here.
I am less afraid of artificial intelligence than I am of the artificially intelligent.
Age is just a number Remember you can be young By being in your own skin Treat funny stuffs as funny stuffs Try to light up mood Your job would literally affect who you are as a person Comparing your engineering job to jobs in sales Environment are more light hearted But don’t get affected by your environment Think…
There are moments that we don't really feel proud of, moments or decisions that come as an reaction to something, for example, responding in a certain way, with a certain tone of voice, but it just comes out of us. These moments as well as many other might it be good or bad experiences and reactions are still part of…
Understand the power of now By doing it without procrastinate By doing small tasks well - people will notice you Don’t be worried about doing plum assignment Do what you like to do - don’t think what you want to be (rich, be successful etc) Think what you actually like and enjoy doing Make your eyes small - don’t make…
I certainly don’t expect everyone to like /Lolita/ So what’s the matter with me not liking others that many like? I suppose I just want to know what there is to like! So what do I like about Nabokov? He has big dick energy, that’s the first thing. And he’s funny about it. And he creeps me out in the right ways. It’s a…
ano passado eu fiz uma lista das coisas que eu achava que seriam essenciais para mim este ano. sem elas eu não viveria, pensava. este ano eu conquistei muitas coisas e me recordo que três delas estavam nessa bendita lista: comprar um violão bom porque senão eu não teria mais como tocar, comprar um notebook porque…
There's this man on death row in California, Ronald Stanford. He's there since he was 13. Lost his childhood, his youth, and still in the prison that took everything away from him. Somehow, he still takes care of his body, of his mental state, showers, cleans up, reads and express. On the walls of his 'room', you'd…
we hung out with a new sailor today; well, new to us, not new to sailing. and we did NOT hit it off. at some point i could feel that he was trying to leave. it was like he was waiting for us to say something that we never ended up saying. what was it that he wanted us to say? i wonder what it is that made me hit it…
she is a core memory in my heart long gone, but never forgotten, just too many memories with her, you may delete the photos, but not those imprinted in your mind. she has had the single greatest influence in my life, came at a dark time, left at another. some never leave your soul, she was one of them.
For a change, I'm not fishing for a topic in the river of my thoughts. I was thinking about the idea of feeling heard today. In fact, I got thinking about it when I first interned as a journalist. I spent most days in those two months running from pillar to post, attending press meetings, gathering 'newsbites' from…
e ai? voltei! a vida é curta pra escrever tanto e eu tô tentando me acostumar que, sim, algumas memórias vão se perder mesmo. a escrita, pra mim, tem um pouco dessa tentativa de não esquecer o que eu vivi, mas.... passei o carnaval em salvador com o meu namorado. em são paulo, já não sou muito afim dessa festa…
Why is it so hard to start working out again when I know it’s going to help me feel better? I know it’s going to have a positive impact but it’s still so hard to start
Humans have a tendency to over-imitate and copy people of high status, in order to gain prestige, knowledge and skills. This is why people often imitate the habits of successful people, such as the morning routine they follow. However, it is wise to be cautious before blindly imitating others, as success takes more…
Hoje precisei ir aos correios. Toda vez que vou lá, caio com a mesma atendente que cavuca qualquer gancho para falar mal de Lula e pessoas correlatas. Estava com uma blusa escrita COP e ela se fez de desentendida: cop é um evento esportivo? Eu, já esperta, disse que não. Ao que ela completou fingindo surpresa: aaaaah,…
It is never a good morning to mourn.
Two weeks of grieving and feeling like a zombie walking through time and space. Trying to slowly get back to my normal self but, still its WIP. I feel looking back, this heartbreak was very necessary. Shows that I did end up being needy at the end of the day but I had a lot on my plate as well. Makes sense to not be…
nada é tão distante quando o querer prevalece. djavan acertou - sempre acerta - quando disse que "tudo é viável pra quem faz com prazer". aliás tudo nessa musica é um acerto absoluto.
I took off my bracelet i recently made, in the night, whilst asleep and must have set it in another dimension because it's not reappeared yet today. This is reason to clean my room. Which I'm not happy about. Executive function is not a strong force in me.
Today is my last day studying, and I can't seem to find any motivation at all. After a month of studying, doing 20 past exams, revising and revising, and feeling like there's always more to cover, today—on the most important day when I should be pushing through the last mile—I feel done, Im done (not done that I'm…
there are artists and then there are Other People and i'm having a hard time not devaluing those other people. but who are they? what do they do? what is their MO? i'm not sure how to trust them.
"Don't tell me the moon is shining. Show me the glint of moonlight on broken glass" Chekhov. And there it is. The secret of creativity in 16 words. Sounds deceptively easy... until you look for the glass. In this four part series on creativity, moving from mayhem to magic in your writing (photography, painting or…
What happens when a world imaginary yet real chooses to collapse within itself, annihilation they call out loud but that dystopian is far stretched to be comprehended for physicality to experience. Yet, for a subjective individual withdrawing from an addiction would be a close reference to that “annihilation” wherein…
It is important to intervene when you get into a negative self-talk rabbit hole. It happened to me today: "It's 5 pm! No haven't been 'productive'" "What are you doing? The client is billing you!" In these times, you need to ask the sergeant to relax. I call this alter-ego, the Sergeant. Intervene in the following…
more than words, silence speaks harder. more than being full, emptiness makes things clear. more than always being occupied, space makes things happen. being present everywhere can make you empty from inside, people need space to fill themselves up and come back with an better understanding of who they are. Charles…
I really, really tought that I was above all this situation. That I left all in the past and moved on. That I, as a grow up human been, got my shit together and solved my problems by myself and. But now it came back. It looks like a tsunami in my head and in my chest. A tsunami AND a thunderstorm. AND a earthquake.…
rientrare a casa dopo qualche giorno di camper è un pò come tornare in prigione. Nonostante il campeggio sia un luogo spartano e privo di protezioni della privacy, mi fa sentire molto meglio che a casa. La gente si fa i cazzi suoi, non come qui... Sembra che non voglia capire il mio disagio ed il mio bisogno di…
The last few weeks, I've unknowingly put myself under great pressure in becoming more than what I am now. How did I know? I noticed a pattern of disassociating from my wants, needs, life. I craved for a type of satisfaction I don't know how to fulfill. I slept it off, I ate it off, I drank it off. I went away. There's…
Frenchman Jules Allix, in the mid-nineteenth century, popularized a kind of organic Internet made out of snails. Drawing upon the physician Franz Mesmer’s theory of “animal magnetism,” which postulated the existence of a universal magnetic force connecting living things, it was predicated upon the idea that any two…
proust said that the hope of being soothed gives one the courage to suffer. i just read dostoevsky's "white nights" and i gained courage for suffering. i felt as though i confronted suffering right on, hand in hand, with the narrator. i feel like an utterly different person now. // i've hit a stride -- i'm getting…
acho esse negocio de criar expectativa a coisa mais cagada do mundo. assim, claro que todo mundo cria expectativa com as coisas. sempre. é impossivel viver no mundo onde há relações e nao sair criando expectativas, mas eu acho maluco que a gente ta sempre ou ficando muito feliz porque elas foram alcançadas ou…
In 2020, I had this grand plan and it was unorthodox, but effective. I traded in my Android smart phone for a feature phone. I stopped reading the news religiously. I started to write more. And by hand. I would take notes on pen and paper writing in cursive to maximize my recall and memory. It all worked. I started…
The day your parents come Is the day you test your emotional intelligence Remember it’s not always what you want It’s doing what THEY WANT Give it all up and relax for these 3 days 说话温柔体贴… ———— You used to always feeling not confident Is the result of your 4 years experience in uni You have your decision to choose You…
Have you thought of how bad you wanted this all to be? You went to the MRT and actually despise people who conforms Like you have to skip and wait for the next train Because the train is actually full Full of people you don’t want to be in Don’t want to mix and squeeze with them 80% of the fucking population Hated…
Knowledge sets us free, art sets us free. A great library is freedom. -Ursula Guin. Public libraries are where we witness the entirety of human existence. The youngest members create their imaginations while the oldest are constantly trying to understand the present and future. The middle aged are upskilling…
Sometimes, an urge suddenly pops into your head - you feel the need to visit a website, check your Reddit feed, browse promotions in an online store, or look up stock values. These impulses can disrupt your deep work session and break your flow. Resisting this recurring, nagging urge can be challenging. The good news…
Welcome Back Folks, For those who don't know me I am a lawyer and today's post is all about the systems of law- The Civil & Common and the empires that propounded them. Law in the most simple terms is a set of rules. The world as we know it majorly follows two systems of law i.e. the Civil and Common law systems.…
Airport Arrival Terminals are a places filled with joy. Families and friends reconnecting, giving each other a warm hug and a kiss. Some, weirdly enough, spraying hand sanitizers as soon as possible. People stand waiting behind a railing waiting to get a glimpse of their loved ones, and as soon as they see them, their…
Adulthood is all about being with people you love. Away from home, Lost in a City of strangers, Getting introduced to a new world. It gets lonely in the Adulthood but the only way from here is finding your Community, friends, art, media. I find people complaining on twitter about being lonely and not able to make…
4 days before I was gonna move into my dorm I got the news that I'll be having to move 8 days later from what I expected, my first reaction was frustration. Everything was already planned, already in order and now I had to deal with it. I guess I'm very lucky that I don't have economical problems and I can just book a…
Trusting your capabilities when you don't have systems is what imposter syndrome might feel like. Because When you don't have systems, you end up being lazy, lethargic and looking for perfection and constantly thinking about how to make things better but you don't have the infra or you're not trying hard enough to…
These last 600 days have been the most toughest period of my entire life. I have cried my eyes out, felt miserable, sat like furniture for days on end & contemplated committing suicide. This all happened around my folks at home, never did they ever came up to me ask : what is brewing ? how am I feeling ? how can they…
I write this at 8 AM on my birthday in one of my worst states of mind in a while. Ideally, it shouldn't have been this way. Courts have closed in Kolkata for summer holidays and I was to embark on a vacation abroad after more than two years. Only for my visa not to arrive in time. At this point, I am gutted. A while…
I'm sitting in my garden enjoying the last moments in my house, fresh air, tranquil and great weather. Time goes by so fast, feels like last week when I would come back to school to this feeling.
