strong, but not strong enough

I really, really tought that I was above all this situation. That I left all in the past and moved on. That I, as a grow up human been, got my shit together and solved my problems by myself and.

But now it came back.

It looks like a tsunami in my head and in my chest. A tsunami AND a thunderstorm. AND a earthquake. And I, as a grow up human been, just wanna go to bed and cry mylsef to sleep.