Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
By age 27, all of us have become scarred by our experiences to some extent. I can see that most of us have done things that we regret, have reacted in ways that we shall not anymore, now that we are stronger, better wiser. Is part of growing up also just learning to make peace with past mistakes and past regrets? I…
I can be very restless and impatient; and sometimes surprise myself with my patience while watching birds. Watching birds going about their chores assiduously pleases me like nothing else. It's fascinating to watch a swallow build its nest drop by drop of mud, a lammergeier soar high with a bone and drop it on a rock…
Must I have a title here? What if a paragraph suffices? Does this site allow for microblogging? So many questions!
então! eu comi uma grama de cogumelo. depois de uma semana produtiva, que ainda não acabou, e de momentos memyselfandI, decidi dar esse passo e tirar esse querido da geladeira que já tava fazendo aniversário. acho que tava meio mofado, mas who knows? bem, foi tudo, brisas gostosas, outras nem tanto. meu namorado que…
(original: 2010 November 8, excerpt) f|back: when my friend oracle speaks ... ... or [when my friend "oracle"] types ... when i chat with my friend, i enjoy the intellectual banter that ensues. my friend earned the nickname from "the oracle of delphi" - he shared a series of different answers to his daughter's…
I vividly remember my mother's outburst in the summer of 2013 when I ran away from a Bangalore internship within five days of joining. She was angry at my incompetency to stick to a job. She compared me to neighbours who settled in soulless jobs. Her disbelief in my post-graduate design education fueled my own anger.…
My journey started as a crypto enthusiast with the purchase of $5000 of Ether in early 2017. It jumped from $50-$75 a token or something to that extent in a month. I immediately pulled out my money and purchased a 2010 Red (slightly dented) Honda Civic named "Fireball" from a local college kid. My friends would later…
Every self contains multitudes. It can be helpful to sort these elements of self into defined parts. This can help you conceptualise these competing and contradictory bits of you. One distinction that’s been super helpful to me is the child and parent, the maiden and knight, the experiencer and the agent. Separating…
A few days ago, I took a blog post, https://nicheless.blog/post/a-busy-street, that I wrote here, and I posted it on my personal blog, https://johnjago.com/blog/busy-street/. But there was a problem: I was disgusted with my own writing. I still believed in the message I was trying to convey, but the writing was awful.…
A future belonging to all. Not one. All. No countries. Only administrative borders. Signals of hope. No past. Now and forever.
Ontem eu li "O Jovem", da Annie Ernaux, em que ela narra sua história de amor vivida aos 54 anos com um homem 30 anos mais jovem. Achei o livrinho de uma beleza extraordinária, onde ela não fala apenas da história sobre os dois, mas dos desejos femininos e dos preconceitos que sofremos como mulher. Para ela, não era a…
How do you convince a community to move to a new platform? Don't disregard ease of use and UI polish. Sites like Mastodon and Counter.Social may have all the functionality that Twitter does, but if they do it's buried under interfaces that seem almost proud of their functional obscurity. You can't get in your users'…
I don't have a plan for this blog. However, every time I considered writing a new post, I procrastinated. I watched TBBT for the nth time. I started reading a new book. I binged that new song album I haven't gotten around to. I began entertaining my pets. The mix of things I do to put writing away is endless. So my…
There are times and topics that make me want to lay in the middle of the floor and stay there until... who knows. I have yet to take that option. Yesterday at a mental health facility a patient opened the door to his balcony, looked down, turned around, and laid down in the middle of the hallway until someone came and…
Do things you think are stupid but other people swear by. Maybe you’re the stupid one. - Nat Eliason I fought the recommendation to journaling. Now I know everyone should. If you want to start small with a journaling habit, start with gratitude. Here are the benefits you can expect. Identifying what you have, allows…
it was a running joke among my friends growing up that I'd come over just to be able to take a nap because that wasn't allowed at home. it wasn't all that serious, of course, but I was incredibly fortunate to have both of my parents home, all day, every day for my entire life - which meant that I wasn't often truly…
Imagine if technology treated our attention as sacred rather than a resource to extract. Imagine if technology was accountable to those affected by it rather than to those who profit from it. Imagine if technology helped us make better choices rather than incubating helplessness in the face of catastrophe. Imagine…
Read this in a post on Instagram which said, "It's crazy how each day that passes feels the same, but when we look back, everything seems different." I was dissolved in a trail of thoughts. I think a big reason for this is that change often happens gradually, in a series of small events. It's not always a one-time…
This is what I'd like to say: "Hey, how are things going with Project X? Do you require more time?" What I have to say is this: "Hey, how are you doing? I just wanted to check in on Project X and make sure everything is running smoothly. The deadline is approaching, so please let me know if you require extra time. :D"…
i noticed that sometimes i am prone to self-deluding untruths. i have observed primarily two types of lies: (1) "i will do xyz" and i do not end up doing xyz (and this task has nothing to do with difficulty of achievement; if i wanted to do it, i would've done it. it is always something trivial) (2) "i am so excited…
The moments of feeling anxious or a negative thought entering the mind are few and far in between now. They exist, I just need the time to summon them and they'll be prompt in their arrival. There's something that stops me from summoning them or engaging for too long with these thoughts. I don't think there is…
You generally feel that you must have that urge constantly to create something which needs to be useful and meaningful for the majority of the humanity and/or your customers. Yet it's just your boring job with daily mundane tasks. You feel stuck and cannot find a space to move further or expand your knowledge. Hence…
where do i begin...? all the resolutions i write + lives i dream of + + the girl i try to be + + she's getting a little closer to who i am, each year + + am i changing for the better or is she + in 2023, i want: 1. softness wisdom discipline 2. creative passions and personal goals - pottery, making coffee, doing…
Photo above: Library/Conference/lunch room circa 2000. L to R Siddharth Wahi, Abhishek Saxena, Hardip Wirk, self, Saket Shukla. There's been an overwhelming, heartwarming response to yesterday's post. Many thanks. There have also been a lot of follow up questions. Here are a few answers: No, I'm not going to disclose…
In the morning the weather was rainy-pouring, actually. For a moment ı wouldnt be able to go to the library but luckily it cleared up later. Now,I gonna use my english. I am learning english, there for I am going to the library. sometimes, I am reading book there and there is a free tea and yummy cake (thank you…
I am realizing that storytelling is a soft skill that I should have learnt early in my career. Storytelling is one craft that gives a positive spin to the most useless work. It can also turn the most beautiful work into a hot garbage.
ano passado eu fiz uma lista das coisas que eu achava que seriam essenciais para mim este ano. sem elas eu não viveria, pensava. este ano eu conquistei muitas coisas e me recordo que três delas estavam nessa bendita lista: comprar um violão bom porque senão eu não teria mais como tocar, comprar um notebook porque…
Don’t be salty its toxic It’s okay if they having more fun Or someone chooses someone rather than you Understand you’re just not compatible Let it go Instead of saying “mum is a cheap person” You change your words to “mums a lovely person, but when it comes to grocery shopping she turns the whole place into a market”…
Death is a known factor that disrupts all projections. The only problem is we don't know where it fits in the timelines of our lives. Today a friend left the office early. I joked to call out his half day. He smiled, winked and said he's just tired. He promised he'll pick the rest up tomorrow. He will never come back…
People often say running trains the body. For me, it trains the mind. When I first started, I thought it was all about fitness, endurance, calories, pace. But after a few runs, I realized the hardest part wasn’t my lungs or my legs, it was convincing myself to keep going. Every step became a small argument between the…
It starts with a door opening. Then you just see a man's feet trudging through the snow on a horrible dark night. He turns over the ignition and the car's headlamp seems to appear in the darkness. We watch the car make its way down the road. It's the only car on this awful kind of deep snow-covered road. And then a…
Knowing is table stakes. “Do you know the patient?” A common question asked in the clinical world. When I was in training, I literally thought the question meant whether the patient is part of the list I am responsible for that day. A simple yes or no. Now when I get asked, I know that the knowing is much deeper. Do…
Sometimes it's easy to forget, with how big the internet seems, how small the world is. I clicked on a link to read an article by Raina Raskin, a new mother, about how the first time her baby smiled at her shattered her illusions about what mattered in life. All that status-seeking, career-promoting bullshit didn't…
We don't really know what is actually happening in others peoples lives, lying is so easy, specially when people are far away, you could just not say where or what you are doing and easily fool others. Today, I discovered I was lied to and it just makes me feel uneasy about the other person, kinda lost trust, even if…
In every job, there is a toughness and a hardness (difficulty) - everything has a level for you to attain; not everything is easy. In every job. Even if you’re not in the dream job yet you cannot lose your identity. You have to fight hard and do your best in every situation - earn as much, or learn as much: and do…
Sleep is my most important resource. On average I need around 8,5 hours of effective sleep. More than other people. Without it, I struggle through the day, with everything from thinking clearly to staying motivated becoming a challenge. And I am also quite sensitive to sleep deprivation - feeling symptoms of cold and…
I realized I’m not a social creature with moments of solitude, I’m a solitary being with social contact. But I miss people I’ve lost contact with. Perhaps because goodbye is the de facto way now, I experience it too much.
"The political slogan of the anti-Christ is peace and safety. ... and you get it when you have a sort of a homogenized, one-world, totalitarian state. What I want to suggest in closing is perhaps we would do well to be a little bit more scared of the anti-Christ, and a little bit less scared of Armageddon." -- Peter…
"The thumbs-up-react is actually a war crime," I texted. This was in response to me using the question-mark-react, to which you said, "the question mark react is an act of terror." This is how I want to fold. At first, when I said 'I'm folding,' I meant like a fitted sheet: loose, unstructured, but still crumpling,…
Lately, I have been reflecting on the often sinful manifestations of our discontent. In particular, when we idealize and glorify "the good old days". Ecclesiastes 7:10 instructs us: Do not say, "Why is it that the former days were better than these?" For it is not from wisdom that you ask about this. In the face of…
Heya! I have always wanted to come back and write and reflect here more. Rather than committing myself to lofty targets, I plan to be intentionally inconsistent here and writing here only when something strikes me so hard that I cannot stop writing about it. So what's something now that I cannot shut up about it? I…
I'm here to kickstart my digital writing habit. Here's my grand idea: write 30 atomic essays in 30 days. (Of course, the idea is stolen from @dickiebush) But it is not about the idea. It is about building a system. A system is a collection of parts that work together to produce an output when fed with an input. This…
In 30 min more I'm going to a volleyball training, I know no one, I have realized that if a know someone even if I know them only online, not even in person, I have no anxiety when going to social gatherings. When I don't no anyone at all its a completely different story, I start to question if I should go or not, my…
- Continued from part I America is a dream in a different way. It’s been over 7 years since I moved here. Looking at my life now, I’ve done pretty well for myself. I have a stable job, a solid group of friends, a long term home for the first time in this country. I’m lucky enough to not grapple with visas and have…
Of all the things people tweet about online regarding startups, I've not seen a single one about cofounder dynamics. Yet, in my experience, cofounder dynamics are one of, if the not the, most important aspect of a young startup. Cofounders can argue and disagree. Individuals have egos sand insecurities. People have…
Sean Strickland has shocked the world. Last night he became the new UFC Middleweight Champion of the World by beating Israel Adesanya in Sydney, Australia. Both fighters are quite the characters with totally different fighting styles. Strickland stuck to his guns and damn near ended the fight in the first round with a…
A boy with dyed hair wearing a skirt and a pink backpack. Unsecured panels on the walls expose bare wires. Toilet paper stuffed into holes, trash scattered on the floor, fading upholstery. The electronic display is non-functional; only a sheet of paper with the line number scrawled in Sharpie taped to the windshield…
I always carry pieces of the people I’ve lost with me. Lovers, friends and even some strangers. They reside in me. I have never been great at showing emotion or telling people how much they mean to me. But I miss them dearly. Each and everyone who added to my life. Even those from what feels like ages ago. It’s not…
