Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
Time always passed by Those always “don’t have time” probably have something wrong on their system, or discipline that doesn’t allow them to have time management Even if you work out on self discipline Now you gotta think what is critical and good use of your time Don’t let others dictate what you should do with your…
Yesterday, while at the grocery, a teenage stocker complimented my glasses. It tickled me. She looked at me with her bright young face and told me my glasses were cute. of course, they sit on a 65-year-old face. Then we talked about choosing new frames. The exchange was gratitude worthy, but it isn't in my journal. I…
I look around and wonder, how many of us really upskill our selves for the whole sake of upskilling Or learning a new subject or a topic? Most of us are busy doing the same mundane job everyday, without even thinking what use is this to me and what value I am adding to my life with this job. We are all here just for…
Is there anything worse than feeling alone? To believe you are worthless. To envy those who aren't alone. To regret your decisions. To question your very existence. To feel your life passing, surrounded by love and laughter, and yet so far away from achieving it. To write and hope the pain dulls. To invite sleep with…
It had been over 4 years since I last took some proper time off work, but the last 6 weeks have been great. I saw some amazing places, met some interesting people, spent time with some of my closest friends, ate some great food, and discovered some lovely alcohol (mezcal & pisco for the win!). Now that I'm back, I…
I came across an article on HN about making the interviewee read code instead of writing it. Many people really like this approach. As someone who is often on the other side of the hiring side, my thoughts about it would be: The sample should use the code stack I will be interacting with – languages, technologies,…
These are the first words I've written in many months. I've been thinking about why this is the case, and part of it might have to do with fear. I'm afraid of not being able to do it well. But there's something more there. I think I'm afraid because I believe I might have some type of cognitive decline. That was…
I am no longer employed. For anyone to survive in the corporate world, one has to follow some rules. If you want to pursue further studies, you have to study for it along with your job. You have to manage to keep your boss happy and at the same time squeeze more time out to study and ace your exams. If you are someone…
ahhh! today creation is hard. it frustrates me. reoccurring in my mind as an emotion, fades from top to bottom. somewhere in the gradient is the perfect colour that represents the output of my frustration
Incidents that have scarred me from Nelson: 1. ITC, telling me to not initiate conversations with guys until they talk to me first 2. Telling me that I should not disagree with him in public multiple times 3. Breaking my glasses because he was angry 4. Telling me wearing a langa voni for my sisters engagement and…
when i see my piano videos i think "i want to get back on land and keep playing the piano" sigh we don't have one of THOSE yachts with the pianos and if we did we wouldn't have an acoustic because of the humidity why can't all the best parts of life join in one moment and why can't that moment last an eternity until…
These areas may be stand-alone, aligned, interplay, or coalesced with others and represent how I show up in the world. What I choose to do (and not do) is rooted in how I identify the external world in context of my values and strengths. --- R|CAT (Resource Catalysts) aka FLYWHEEL role: CONSULTANT ... business owner…
i just discovered some poems i wrote a few years ago they are so good (remember how i said "people who can't write, write poetry"? lol i'm changing my tune now that i see myself as a fucking POET) Poetry is to bouldering as prose is to sport climbing: A great poet has the skills for prose, the only question is…
Is beauty an end? In a sense, yes. Pure beauty offers no new information; it resonates with what we already know, this is why we find it beautiful. Beauty refines our neuroverse-based abstract model, sharpening our understanding, in an infinite quest for micro-optimising the model, but eventually leading to stasis.…
A good quote seen today: “You can’t go back and change the past But you can start today and change the ending” You’re kind, But just not daring and brave enough You could be more achievable If you’re more daring to think through Not stuck into some thoughts by thinking: I don’t think you can
Falar em voz alta. Hoje eu cheguei 7 minutos atrasada na minha terapia. Esqueci. E não estava no celular. Quando peguei pra futricar treads/BBB, vi a notificação e vim pro quarto dos fundos. Ainda bem que deu certo. Falei sobre a minha viagem pra Brasília e como foi lidar com a rigidez que sobressai quando estou fora…
Consistency is hard, a daily grind, Each day a battle with the wandering mind. Blank pages taunt, the cursor baits. In hopes that habit finds its place. In this struggle, there’s much to learn, - couldn't come up with a line here, too tired - That growth lies not in flawless acts, But in how we respond to our own lax.…
A boy with dyed hair wearing a skirt and a pink backpack. Unsecured panels on the walls expose bare wires. Toilet paper stuffed into holes, trash scattered on the floor, fading upholstery. The electronic display is non-functional; only a sheet of paper with the line number scrawled in Sharpie taped to the windshield…
i'm editing some stuff that i wrote a long time ago while getting "hydrated" before my run (i heard it's important) and it is so whiny and depressing and i feel so bad for myself but i also think i had zero self-awareness i said things like "i'm attracted to brutes" and it's like, name ONE fucking brute you've ever…
I went without a phone for almost two weeks. the first day was absolutely terrifying. granted I was in an unfamiliar place, staying alone, and unable to give proper notice that I'd be unreachable. but as I rode home today with a new iphone box, typically one of my favorite activities, I felt a twinge of sadness. there…
and who teach me how to love things i met a girl who loves to cook and garden and by hanging out with her, or maybe by cooking with her, i grew to LOVE cooking and just hearing her talk about gardening made me love gardening more i had a friend in hs who was an Arts & Culture Self-Guided Exploration Master and she…
What you want and what you do Is what makes you you You want to be successful You gotta do what successful people do See people in the MRT using time to play their phone And they are people who utilises and read book And they consistently upgrade themselves Basic things like this but many people aren’t able to execute…
Had such an amazing and cathartic session with Omar. 1. We looked back at and appreciated the journey I've been on this year. 2. He gave me the external validation I needed - what I felt was real. My pain was real. What I went through was indeed emotional abuse. Omar said that abusive people need to do a lot of work…
This year marks the 10th anniversary of the premiere for ‘Ola: Health is Everything,’ my first feature documentary. I remember that night at the Hawai‘i International Film Festival vividly; the sold out theater, the crush of the crowd after the credits rolled, the inescapable feeling that lightning had struck. It’s…
Depois de um dia de trabalho intenso, no dia seguinte a gente acorda com uma ressaca estranha. Uma mistura de cansaço físico, confusão mental, espanto por ter conseguido entregar o trabalho a tempo e a sensação de ter tirado um saco de cimento de cima das costas. Um verdadeiro zumbi. E aí, acabou? Que nada. Mesmo sem…
When you're younger, you are encouraged to be ambitious. As the years fly by, you learn the important of accepting. Of late, I've found myself in a tricky spot - figuring out the right balance of ambition and acceptance. I would consider myself an ambitious person. There's a lot I think I can achieve and when I look…
- at the group meeting we were going back to the same state for the holidays, bonding over public transport - at the holiday party chatting about vampires (i go on a 10 minute tangent about iwtv); we decide we should hang on 1:1 before declaring each other friends; bit about me being a 206 year old vampire - at the…
Read the news about the incident in Itaewon in South Korea. Shocking event really. 156+ dead with 151+ injured. Work was productive. I can finally start working on design docs to push for ideas I’ve had. I started looking at jetbrains space, a new productivity tool. Started looking at the ActivityPub protocol. It…
Weird huh. They always say fall in love young. I did. And I screwed up. There must be something wrong me with me. I think I secretly enjoy the tragedy of a lost relationship. Sick I know. I'm just psychoanalyzing myself. All those years invested into relationships with nothing to show for it in the end. Just a broken…
This morning while meditating, one of the many thoughts that popped up was a simple analogy. The appropriate thing to do was to the let the thought pass, but because this was an analogy for the meditation itself, I indulged. If mind is like the ocean, then meditation is like diving The ocean's surface is rough on some…
Understanding and addressing the side effects and consequences of technology early can prevent them from becoming the foundation on which a product or an entire industry rests. Instead of hiding or ignoring these negative side effects, we can use them as design criteria. Any technology that mediates human attention…
I've been wanting to write regularly for a bit now but haven't started. I don't know if I things worth saying is part of the reason. Other is procrastination. I hope no one reads these for a bit. It's odd when you realise people you know in real life follow your twitter and you do wtf. dont. Something like that ig.…
i’ve been rejected so many times in the last year or so. Countless job apps, applied to accelerators for funding, no nothing in return, even reached out to contacts. Nope. Gotten kinda numb these days. Must not lose hope. Maybe better days are ahead..
Flashes of creativity appear in the blank spaces on my calendar. In the shower. On a walk. While driving. They seem to bubble up from my subconscious without any prodding. And the more I look for them, the less they appear. They usually aren't original thoughts. Instead, they're mixtures of ideas from elsewhere.…
To the ones, Laying awake at night, Wondering if you’ll ever find someone. Scrolling through Instagram, Looking through the window of life, And it seems like the Whole world is finding love, You’re happy for them. But there’s a whisper, A doubt, A tiny prick to the heart “Will I ever be as happy as them?” Some of us…
How many places do you visit that you will never see again? I thought this was the standard. You have one-off relationships with different places and cities because life changes. You evolve in life and naturally change: cities, careers, relationships, old selves. Some people consciously make an effort to come back to…
I have a friend who always responds with "tired" or "stressed" whenever I ask how she is. It's been five years, and 90% of the time, those are her answers. Yesterday, at a party, she was tired, and after they sang happy birthday, she was in a rush to leave. I asked her to stay a bit longer so we could hang out, but…
Is skimming through an article or a book reading? I find that in this age of information overload, we have become superficial readers (if that’s even a term), people who claim to read but aren’t reading. You’re collecting headlines - you’re trying to know a bit about everything - so that you can’t be called out for…
Used to feeling all sorts of weak emotions Feeling anxious when going out Feeling uncomfortable when meeting new people Feeling not wanting to go out Not able to wake up fully and stay on bed Not able to get over my ex or feeling sorry for myself for not doing the best It’s because I was weak And now I’m stronger…
Recently, I have been applying my method for learning Chinese characters to my university studies (well to my final degree exam). It's funny that I'm only starting to use it now that I've finished all my courses, but it's never too late to implement this technique in other subjects. I always thought that with my…
It's a new month now. And talking with others, the topic has come out. "What are your goals for this month?" Truth be told, I don't have any for now. I came out of May being one of (if not the) best months so far. Even when I don't have goals for this month (yet). I know what I want and don't want to do. One of those…
i've done all the tasks i needed to do today!!!!!! celebrate good times also i am starting to understand my mom more and she is funny me "i think i was a boy in a past life" mom "oh that's just like this life"
Sometimes it's easy to forget, with how big the internet seems, how small the world is. I clicked on a link to read an article by Raina Raskin, a new mother, about how the first time her baby smiled at her shattered her illusions about what mattered in life. All that status-seeking, career-promoting bullshit didn't…
More often than not we find ourselves doing things, either at the influence of the parents, society or the people around us unknowingly, almost in a mechanical trance but something clicks and we start questioning the act itself. Makes one wonder, are we consciously doing what we are supposed to do or are we binded by…
It is often said that you should surround yourself with friends who motivate you to do better and makes you wanna be the best version of myself. I totally agree with this. But what if my friends aren't ambitious? Should I just abandon them for the greater good? I also agree that it affects me in some way or the other,…
I've always been fascinated by things that don't belong together in any context. Monkeys and forget-me-nots. Pencils and wheels. Embers and bubbles. They don't, have not, and will not belong together in any plausible context. I suppose the magic lies in bringing unlikely beings together, a trope I absolutely adore. It…
Persist, For this cloud too Shall pass. Well, what can I say except that I have old school work ethic. But this mindset is certainly rewarding - not necessarily in terms of material success, but certainly in terms of mental peace. Persistence. To persist is to stay on despite the odds. Persistence derives its energy…
I recently started listening to an audiobook called 'Story worthy' and in that the writer states that every movie can be boiled down to 5 secs scenes of transformation. I realized this can be true for any movie, tv show or any other form of entertainment. So, I had a thought that if we think what our 5 secs would be,…
