Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
Hoje eu vou escrever dois textos pq me atrasei no dia 9. Não escrevi por conta da ansiedade pra um amigo secreto que eu não queria ir. Bora pro primeiro. Cara, que assustador viver neste país sabendo que a qualquer momento um louco pode fazer qualquer coisa com você, com patrimônio público e praticamente nada…
Good night's sleep, even without the whirlpool and crappy eating. Odd dream: only a snippet of making out with a woman I know to be a lesbian. Got to listen to birdsong over coffee this morning. The birdsong doesn't make me feel as happy as it used to. Time for a break, time for a change. 280720 May 2022
''We come for the jobs and stay for the weather.'' Famous words by a friend when I could not stop raving about the cool Bangalore evenings in May. Unlike coastal Mumbai, Bangalore which is set in a valley is a basin with pockets of land that collect water, eventually giving rise to lakes. I have almost no working or…
A professional is someone who is paid to perform a task. A dentist is paid to care for teeth. A teacher is paid to impart an education. There are clearly defined and agreed upon definitions for professions; organizations are established to accredit individuals and revoke those credentials when ethical norms are…
It should be the other way round - because it’s very very tricky that you fell into the trap. Time has the biggest value - so invest early, study early and gain the knowledge Rich kids coming from rich families already know that idea It’s the poor that refuses or emotionally attached to the system of old beliefs You…
Breathing vast cerulean Crisp cobblestone Remembering when I visited Centuries ago I meet a young girl Full of wonder and ache The world is yours But it will also take Misguidance awaits Learning is painful Something I like to remember When things are blue I breathe and I remember A stunning place In silent November
Improvements in the human condition are easier to create and measure when times are tough. Starving? Eat. Thirsty? Drink. Homeless? Find shelter or build a home if you can afford it (if you're in Goa, good luck). --- In times of abundance though, things get slightly tricky. How do you measure if your life is good when…
The world of crypto has been rocked (yet again) with the FTX news. Weirdly enough, Meta also announced that they were laying off 11,000 employees today (the bottom?). The whole FTX saga unfolded really fast - just a few days - and that's what I find fascinating. One might view this as bad since FTX was a pretty large…
I googled synonyms for happiness because I didn't want to sound cliché but all of them sounded too pretentious. Lol. This is just a personal take on the feeling that everyone is so bent on finding. I’d read headlines off of newspapers and magazines that told me stories of people and the lives they lived. To me at that…
A lot of people are not aware of what are walled gardens of Internet so let me first address that. There was a time in the history of Internet where just logging on to Internet was like stepping into a dense tropical forest where you could go anywhere and get lost in it. Today that is not the case anymore. Don't get…
There are thousands of self-help books, videos, and podcasts giving me tips on how to be more productive and get more work done. While most of that is bullshit and not really actionable, there are sometimes good pieces of advice that actually make sense and can be applied effectively. However, most of this advice only…
H.266 VVC is technically better than AV1. In terms of Quality, Performance and Complexity. FVC is a working name for the successor of VVC. With a target of 50% reduction regardless of computing power. In all previous case they have encoding and decoding complexity target. So it seems FVC is trying to push the boundary…
faz tempo que eu não venho aqui. isso não é uma cobrança, tampouco um pedido de desculpas. a vida acontece e os pratinhos vão caindo, normal. desde a minha ultima visita, consegui terminar mais coisas da reforma e trazer mais uma doguinha pra casa. desta vez, a minha dog há 9 anos. incrível como sua jovialidade e…
it's haunting the extent to which i have gone quiet. last night i opened my instagram after a long time. it's purely an exhibitionist platform, but that aside i've some threads in there. most of them begin to grow quiet around 2018, gradually deafening in 2019 and coming to complete silence in 2020 - when i quit. i've…
Dreams of fortunes, inside towers tall, Deaf ears drown inner calls. Fancy house, a high-rise view, For fleeting praise i chose to pursue. My youth traded for suits and ties, Seeking my worth in some other's eyes. Dawn to dusk in office halls, Sleepless nights inside mansion walls Through sleepless nights and silent…
Since 2020, I had been on a steady tech detox, a la Cal Newport. I switchd to DuckDuckGo, I traded my android for a feature phone, I started writing notes by hand. And in cursive! It was beautiful, I was present. No "Power of Now" needed. I could take my kids to the playground and be perfectly happy with my face in…
One of the difficult parts about writing is determining the level of zoom. Zoom in too close, and it's a journal only relevant to you. Zoom out too far, and it's too generic to catch the attention of anyone in particular. Choosing the right balance is an overlooked nuance in writing. I've read many good pieces, which…
"Take care, there's a 30 zone here," my father reminded me. We were driving through a generic German suburban street, wide and well maintained. There were nice and wide sidewalks on both sides of the road, bordered by a red stripe of a bike lane. Slowing down to 30 km/h made me feel strange, expecting some imminent…
What’s the point? To struggle the unknown To suffer uncertainty What’s the point? To believe in a bright future While living in the dark present What’s the point? To have people who care Who only offer sympathetic stares What’s the point? To lose a bit of you everyday Trying to build a fuller you for tomorrow What’s…
I was told as a kid that I was good at writing. That identity, “writer”, formed quietly in the background, and stayed there, since it never seemed worth much. But I’ve assumed the identity of “editor” in plenty of circumstances - usually unasked for, unnecessary, and annoying. I’m ready to stop tearing down and start…
Today we had some memorable encounters with animals we met along the way - one of them was with a herd of highland cows. As we played classical music, they approached us, each displaying unique behaviors - some bold and curious, others hesitant and cautious. Each animal, like us, has a life filled with feelings and…
During intense work phases, I often find myself deprioritizing social interactions to maintain focus and minimize distractions. While solitude often boosts my productivity and I enjoy my own company, I also realize how much I like to engage with open and inspiring people - they energize me. The last two days, I hosted…
HAVE I SAID ALL I HAVE TO SAY? Do those I love know the depth and history of that love, and that it persists beyond dimensions? Why am I waiting to tell them? Am I waiting for perfection before sharing my thoughts in writing or via speeches? What opportunity will I lose if the moment passes? HAVE I DONE WHAT I HAVE TO…
Entropy is randomness, uncertain, confounding. Physics doesn't seem to be random, yet it accounts for entropy. It claims that entropy is a measurable physical property. Life is entropic and not. It is paradoxical and not. It is measurable and not. There is an ardent need for clarity, but our understanding and…
Know what others have that you don’t have. Don’t focus on what they don’t have. Focus on what will benefit you I want you to - Take accountability of things you didn’t DO Rather than trying to delay using time To do it NOW And not doing it - that’s the difference between success and stagnant Doesn’t matter if you…
Help me out. Tell me what I'm supposed to expect here. I have a lot of projects to share progress on right when every social platform is failing me. So, help me out. Is this it?
There are no holy ideas in Academia. We should always strive to get better, always. I believe in the ideas of improving the human condition with the help of rationalism and science. Understanding the world and finding approximations of the truth that serve as practical solutions to the problems of our time, is the age…
(The following is a RP entry from the perspective of my Project Zomboid character, again) I'm a bit scared right now to be honest. Today I was doing the usual looting and found a police station; Jackpot! I thought... and indeed I won the lottery of guns, after clearing 2 floors of zombies I got to the lockers and…
ironic isn't it? the things we run from loom near like shadows, inescapable contorted and twisted into new forms sometimes even be mistaken for something new entirely no use in trying to run - instead delaying the inevitable power drawn from denial of its existence a brief respite, just enough to get by what's the…
It's been a while since I wrote. A whole month has passed. There was some anxiety closer to the NT Scan when I started bleeding a little. Nothing to worry, baby is doing well. We made a baby announcement. Was happy to share this news with the world. Almost 15 weeks pregnant now. A long way to go, but have also come a…
One of many advantages of being on the other side of 50s is a sense of familiarity of that having happened before and a realization that nothing is as good or as bad as it seems. Some label the reaction to these events as extreme, stoic or cynical. However, visiting someone in intensive care at a Hospital, no matter…
Every Sunday my family used to go to church, have breakfast outside, come home and mom used to make chicken biryani, which used to taste delicious. After that meal, my brother and I would pour ourselves a glass of cold drink(Thumbs up, mostly. If you don't like thumbs up, we are not friends.) and enjoy while watching…
Imagine a time when the institutional machinery (read: governments & other agents that mass-organise people and resources) successfully pulls off something beyond belief. I am not talking about the run-of-the-mill political propaganda. I am talking about upheaving lives and livelihoods in a single decision. (Think the…
I used to be a man who wanted to go into women's toilets. This wasn't a gender identity issue and I'm not a pervert. This had to do with the fact that I am the father of four daughters, who were once small girls. The default position on fathers taking their daughters to a public toilet is that they should go together…
This is me writing about how I managed to wake up today and being poetic about it because why not haha I peered out, blurry and blinking leaving dreams behind - most of myself selling crumbs of bargains for an ounce of sleep each I promised myself the edge of the world my eyes in line with the slit in the doorway, -…
Is skimming through an article or a book reading? I find that in this age of information overload, we have become superficial readers (if that’s even a term), people who claim to read but aren’t reading. You’re collecting headlines - you’re trying to know a bit about everything - so that you can’t be called out for…
Yesterday in a class on human breast milk we discussed how it is considered a living tissue by some, because the breast milk contains living cells too. Many of these cells come from the gut associated lymphoid tissue(GALT), is what one of our professors said. And surely that led me to the next possible question, what…
A couple of days ago, I was really struggling to come up with ideas for that day's writing challenge. Feeling stuck, I was riding an electric scooter through the nighttime streets to get home. With the rush of wind and the feeling of moving forward, ideas started flowing. I came up with concepts for six different…
The uncertainty of life gives birth to its need for purpose.
ahhh as i continue AI text to image generation it makes me think about how it relates to the overarching narrative of art. the closest movement would be surrealism with the goal to release the creative potential of the unconscious mind. now with less barrier to creation, the content within one's mind can now be…
Tô aqui pensando nas minhas relações familiares. Complexas demais, cheias de camadas que compõem o que eu sou hoje. Camadas de que? Aí eu já não sei, vou ficar devendo essa definição fechada porque eu acho que depende muito do dia. Podem ser camadas de rochas impenetráveis e perigosas, ariscas ou montadas como…
One gets a sense of a particular culture's deepest anxieties by examining its curses. Curses are an expression of a culture's most undesirable or objectionable state of being. It's like saying, "here's the thing I would dislike the most, and it's exactly what I wish upon you." The inverse of empathy. The most powerful…
We are all but pawns in someone's game of life. When we have absolutely no control over some things, the only thing we can resort to is to take a deep breath, sit and back and let the future unfold. There is no point putting the heart and mind to strife.
Today I am thinking of Alex the parrot again. The first and only known non-human to ask an existential question. His last words to his caretaker: "You be good, I love you. See you tomorrow". I wonder how much animals can really know. Octopi come to mind when I think of consciousness. They are very smart -- smarter…
There's some quote out there which says that things which converge will diverge and vice versa. I feel we humans are in a divergent phase today. You can see signs of it all around - rise of nationalism in countries like US, India, UK, high tensions between superpowers like the US and China, outright war in Ukraine -…
the most sexy people is people who knows what they’re doing Doing what’s important to them and achieving them Not by watching others living their lives, that’s very unsexy Doing what you loved to do And doing it is kinda sexy and it happens by doing And by doing you need discipline That’s why you gotta protect your…
As I see myself on pictures I’m not happy with how I look. I been self aware that i’m a big boy and have been all my life, only take action as if was seasonal work and don’t commit to myself. Looking at this picture really makes me reflect a lot on my bad habits and how I’m really just poisoning myself.. I don’t have…
Ahhhhhh!!! this journey excites me. then my nerves pull me back. let me try again tomorrow...
