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It has occurred to me several times in the past. I feel like expressing it to a friend of the opposite gender. It is the feeling of polyamory - it is not about just sex, it is about having conversations, it is about being available to listen and share with each other. I felt like calling the friend and asking to meet…
I subjected myself to another thought experiment yesterday (12th September) to try and figure out if i could break down and understand how and why I feel a certain way. I purposefully sat down to think through and break down my issues with his past and try to figure out why it hurt me or why I did not like the fact…
I vividly remember my mother's outburst in the summer of 2013 when I ran away from a Bangalore internship within five days of joining. She was angry at my incompetency to stick to a job. She compared me to neighbours who settled in soulless jobs. Her disbelief in my post-graduate design education fueled my own anger.…
Of a 5 year long relationship, I have continued to focus on a few key incidents that occurred much earlier on, and these incidents have coloured every single thing in our relationship. While I never remembered any of the positives ever again in the future, any of the slightest negatives later had an exponential…
News update: I get a call from Shoo that she is now dating someone new. That person happens to be Nelson. My reaction 1: I am not surprised, kinda saw this coming, don't worry, I'm not mad. My reaction 2: My best friend is dating someone I have had bad experiences with. What do I do? I had a call with Nelson. That…
Pari, you have an issue: 1. You assume for yourself where other people's boundaries lie, and tend to not believe them when they say where it is 2. In your intense need to people please and avoid conflict, you automatically regulate your own emotions and actions as per where you think their boundaries lie. This is…
Most of us work towards building a life you don't need to escape from. A free life. "F(ree) You". There are few moments in life where your perspective to life alters completely. One such event was when my investments started to cover my monthly expenses and beyond. I managed to reach this point owing to many reasons,…
Also, given I am at a distance now, can I give him the credit he deserves for the effort that he put in to fix it? Can I slowly let this ghost of 2017 Nelson lose power over me so that I can gain inner peace? Can I forgive? I am a very vengeful person, and I know I have felt like "I want Nelson to suffer for what he…
