artists and other people
there are artists and then there are Other People and i'm having a hard time not devaluing those other people. but who are they? what do they do? what is their MO? i'm not sure how to trust them.
Gathering thoughts…
Gathering thoughts…
A world of little thoughts.
there are artists and then there are Other People and i'm having a hard time not devaluing those other people. but who are they? what do they do? what is their MO? i'm not sure how to trust them.
Barf ka muqaddar hai apne hi paani main pighal jaana.
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i like the typesetting here. good design. lower case is the new hot apparently.
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