wedding

your wife wakes up. opens the curtain. looks at you sleep.

i imagined how you would look when sleeping.

i don't know how i look when sleeping.

i imagine do you smile when she brushes her hand on your cheek.

i think you do.

she makes good breakfast, doesn't she?

i don't make breakfast.

does she ground you? does it feel good? do you trust her?

does she paint? does she take a lot of time to shop? does she dance around the house?

i imagine how you look at her.

i remember you said goodbye to me with your eyes. the sun rising behind you.

you said i looked golden.

do you not like golden?

does she like snacking? what are her favorite chips?

how does she look in red? do you scream at her too?

how are the fights?

does she get scared? do you scare her?

how does she look when she laughs?

how does she look when she is in love with you?

i looked helpless.

i still do.