300 Words on Nothing

A spiritual guide once to told me that "God is everything or God is nothing. What was my choice to be?"

Once, when leaving a spa, the massage therapist told me "Walk on mother earth as you would want your children to walk on you."

My entire life, like so many others, has been a life of spiritual seeking. Even when I wanted to conform to the Ayn Rand Objectivist view of the world, it was a search for a spiritual reality that I could understand. One that made sense.

I find myself, now, thinking deeply about pantheism. That God is the infinite universe in its totality. It is a simple model that encapsulates a set of ideals that I want to believe in. Someone told me once that if I am not surprised by God, then I need a bigger God.
God doesn't work in mysterious ways. I think God's ways are mysterious ways because I am trying to take an awesome power and distill it down to a form that fits my model of reality. If I am willing to accept the Panthiest view of the world, I will not be burdened with the struggle or negotiation of trying to find a tiny God that fits into my model, likes the Giants, and gives out Oscars. I can accept my station in life will be one of never knowing.

I like to go for walks and bask in the outdoors. Midnight walks through the woods. I read about modern Druidry. I never thought of myself as a tree-hugger, but Druidry attributes a spiritual essence to nature, something I took for granted for the first 40 years of my life. More later.

I sleep in a house, but I live in the outdoors, it's my home.