opposite of a monk

can i turn my whole body, my whole being into a receptacle of love?

i realized
that
fundamentally, the love you feel for your grandpa or dog or best friend or first hs crush or matt healy...is all the same.

fundamentally, love is intense. love is enjoyable. love is PEAK PLEASURE. love is ADORATION. love is "oh you are so fucking lovely".

can i become more receptive of love?
yes.
i believe i can train myself.

i want to be the opposite of a buddhist monk, who lives in denial of pleasure and desire

I WANT TO DESIRE IT ALL BABY
for the best eras in life have always been full of desire

this
is my
fucking
philosophy

suck it
you
life-
hating
buddhists.