Gathering thoughts…
Is it alright
to have sad feelings
if they seem cliché?
Is it okay
to struggle
with the same
simple
universal
problems
over and over
for decades?
I learn new facts
every day
but
I won't learn anything
about myself
until
I'm terrified
of dying
and fading away
forever.
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