DIY mania

i think i was a little manic today

i think my baseline is other people's "slightly" manic because
(1)i talk a lot
(2) i talk fast
(3) can be very uninhibited and therefore rude and inappropriate
(4) ideas are strange (in a good way like i'm not even going to sit here and pretend to be self-deprecating -- today i thought that my past present and future are my three children and i have to love them all equally even if one is more beautiful)
(5) peak happiness a lot of the time bc EITHER i am an easy person to please OR -- more likely -- i have, intentionally, found many things in the intersection between "most reliable sources of happiness" and "things that i personally really really like"

but today i was a little extra so
and i got all jittery and experienced almost this unbearable anxiety which comes when i have too much energy but not sufficient exercise

and i have a headache and it is real bad and i want to lie down and read for 3 hours and wake up with zero task list

living on a boat without work is work enough. it's a fucking full time job just keeping the boat running. and we're in a MARINA. jesus.

we have to source some leaks and i have this sewing project -- i'm taking out the UV-fried elastic bands on our window shades and replacing them with new ones

i think i'm learning the principles of DIY and may become very fond of DIY henceforth

the energy of DIY extends beyond the physical act of DIYing but it is a way of thinking