A reason to do it

It goes without saying that everything we do, there's reason why we do it.

But recently, I'm thinking if I'm doing A, and not doing B, it's not that I have a reason to do A and no reason to do B.

This assumes I've thought clearly about what to do and what not to do.

But that's wrong. Maybe I haven't given it enough thought.

Which is wrong too. Because even if we have so many decisions to make and thinking about the reason for each one every time we do it will tire us out, we need to give more thought to the big decisions in our lives.

For example, if I'm a business owner and I'm making $3k/month instead of $30k/month. Does it mean I like $3k more than $30k/month?

If not, why am I earning $3k/month and not $30k/month?

The easy answer is yes, I'm okay with it.

But when I asked myself that question, I thought 'Hey, I'm not okay with that. So why am I here?'

The answer I got back when I delved deeper was 'I hadn't really given it enough thought to get there. I was on default, autopilot mode.'

This applies to everything. Staying lean vs overweight. Scrolling on social media mindlessly vs conscious using of technology. Eating healthy vs eating highly processed food. Watching Netflix vs reading.

There are so many important decisions we avoid making and we just lean on the side that gives us more dopamine right now.

It makes me think that being busy is a form of laziness. Not allocating time to think consequential decisions through is a form of escapism, laziness that will negatively influence our lives in ways we cannot see.