16th oct chap 1 - approach

I think some way or other people are connected. they always stay connected maybe not physically maybe not socially and even not mentally but you just have the instinct in you that you miss this person but somehow you have this gut feeling of what they have been doing or if something serious takes place in their life. It has happened to me with a person i fondly remember since my 7th grade, the sharp eyes and revishing eye lashes and the voice ... i remember the first encounter very clearly given the fact that i have actually already lived it more than a thousand times, i remember the first time we spoke very clearly it was short conversation first time being introduced by my one of my closest friends then, but things take turn things happen life moves on people change, but i know she never changed. the person who lives in my mind rentfree and someone whom i think of as an epitome of women, every girl i have dated has gone through a comparison with her, i cant help it. i am stupidlydelusional and a complete idiot, maybe i am just extremely not ready to live it. maybe i am being an unrealist. but thats the same thing like not beliveing in myself to be able to achieve something?!
Obviously i cannot put love as an emotion under achivement section but it really is. its hard to get its hard to find. its even more difficult to sustain it. what if the other one loses interest? what if the other one doesnt like some stuff i do? what if the other person isnt as good as they were when we started dating- these all kind of questions have only one answer!
ask yourself
Do you really love them?